08-17-2016, 08:41 PM
Last night after I listened to one loop(?) of E2, I got this weird urge to tidy up my room. It's still pretty messy but it was late and I didn't want to stay up. Was pretty happy with what I did though. Haven't cleaned my room for almost a year. I thought to myself that I must wake up tomorrow morning and clean the rest up, but when I woke this morning I completely had no urge to do it.
Today my mom was talking to this guy and the dude asked me a question, but instead, my mom answered for me and it was the not what I was wanting to say. I really hate how she talks for me. I got really mad, left, then relaxed a bit. I was so tempted to get angry not because I was still angry but because I wanted to show her that I did not appreciate what she had done. But I didn't and maybe I could've calmly told her, but I decided to not. I kinda regret not saying anything because she'll just make me angry next time she does it, but I know that I would've gotten so angry and upset if I had tried. I realized that many of my previous outbursts were not because I was truly angry, but because I just wanted to bring to attention that I am frustrated.
I didn't get much anything done once again, but I did practice a bit of keyboard. My piano skills are non existent and the piano is really out of tune. But I've been putting off going to my private music lesson for almost a month and a half now, giving some BS excuses. Was a bit overwhelmed by the assignment so I just didn't do it. Idk if it was the subliminal but its pretty amazing that I actually did some practice, even if it was only about 15-20 minutes. Now I feel like the assignment is actually attainable if I worked at it. Funny story: On the first day I listened to E2, I was stressed out about what excuse I wanted to make to not go to my lesson, and idk if it was the sub or not, but miraculously, my teacher was busy and had to cancel on me.
Today my mom was talking to this guy and the dude asked me a question, but instead, my mom answered for me and it was the not what I was wanting to say. I really hate how she talks for me. I got really mad, left, then relaxed a bit. I was so tempted to get angry not because I was still angry but because I wanted to show her that I did not appreciate what she had done. But I didn't and maybe I could've calmly told her, but I decided to not. I kinda regret not saying anything because she'll just make me angry next time she does it, but I know that I would've gotten so angry and upset if I had tried. I realized that many of my previous outbursts were not because I was truly angry, but because I just wanted to bring to attention that I am frustrated.
I didn't get much anything done once again, but I did practice a bit of keyboard. My piano skills are non existent and the piano is really out of tune. But I've been putting off going to my private music lesson for almost a month and a half now, giving some BS excuses. Was a bit overwhelmed by the assignment so I just didn't do it. Idk if it was the subliminal but its pretty amazing that I actually did some practice, even if it was only about 15-20 minutes. Now I feel like the assignment is actually attainable if I worked at it. Funny story: On the first day I listened to E2, I was stressed out about what excuse I wanted to make to not go to my lesson, and idk if it was the sub or not, but miraculously, my teacher was busy and had to cancel on me.
