07-10-2016, 05:42 AM
Apologies, it's been a particularly rough week (off to acupuncture for a back injury in 10 minutes, just to give you a sense) -- I expect I've been all over the map, but here are some salient points.
* 1 week in, plus 28 days (apx) of the DAOSI (its predecessor, for lack of a better term)
* Likely positive benefits, zero negative effects
Overall statement of the positive effects to date:
* Boost in confidence, motivation and resilience despite sub-par circumstances, specifically in relation to the objectives and more generally in overall attitude.
Also, significantly:
* Nothing to indicate the sub induces undesirable disinhibitory behaviors
I expect I'm a tough case, given my age and a lifetime of ingrained thought patterns and behaviors that I imagine I'm not even now fully aware of. But life goes on ...
Gotta run, but quickly ... Strange, counterintuitive as it may sound, my hope/expectation is that by engaging this subject head on (force-feeding my subconscious mind), I can free myself to focus on family, career, etc. that seriously need my attention. Candidly, this area of my life has been a source of pain and embarrassment since as far back as I can remember. My hope is that I can "set it and forget it" long enough to shift focus, and whatever pings back --whoever pings back-- positively might be the answer to the question I've never been able to properly articulate in life: something akin to "who am I good for/who is good for me?"
* 1 week in, plus 28 days (apx) of the DAOSI (its predecessor, for lack of a better term)
* Likely positive benefits, zero negative effects
Overall statement of the positive effects to date:
* Boost in confidence, motivation and resilience despite sub-par circumstances, specifically in relation to the objectives and more generally in overall attitude.
Also, significantly:
* Nothing to indicate the sub induces undesirable disinhibitory behaviors
I expect I'm a tough case, given my age and a lifetime of ingrained thought patterns and behaviors that I imagine I'm not even now fully aware of. But life goes on ...
Gotta run, but quickly ... Strange, counterintuitive as it may sound, my hope/expectation is that by engaging this subject head on (force-feeding my subconscious mind), I can free myself to focus on family, career, etc. that seriously need my attention. Candidly, this area of my life has been a source of pain and embarrassment since as far back as I can remember. My hope is that I can "set it and forget it" long enough to shift focus, and whatever pings back --whoever pings back-- positively might be the answer to the question I've never been able to properly articulate in life: something akin to "who am I good for/who is good for me?"
"I dunno. I didn't go into Burger King." -- Pulp Fiction
