05-26-2010, 01:25 PM
(05-26-2010, 09:45 AM)John.E Wrote: Sounds like your having some good results man. I would be interested to know where you started from... like where you a confident guy before you started using the sub? I ask because I was wondering if you started the training in a similar position to me.
Without going into too much detail... I've always lacked confidence but have always had friends and been reletively social up until recently when I began to worry about myself (lack of confidence) and began to develop social anxiety. Now I've been using the sub I can feel my confidence being built up again and the negative self talk is being reduced.
Can you relate to this at all? Not sure if this makes sense but would be interested to hear your thoughts on this.
Good to hear things are going well anyway bro
From the age of say 16 to 18, I was always shy, had social anxiety, blushed a lot, seriously lack confidence, regarded other people as more important than myself, the whole package. I seriously had to start this journey from scratch, from completely rock bottom. At 18 I'd had enough and wanted to make changes to myself, which I accomplished slowly and with a lot of hard work. In many ways trying to build confidence and self esteem is like trying to dig yourself out of a hole. Counter productive at times to say the least.
At 21 I had built myself to a place where I was reasonably comfortable with myself, had average amount of confidence, a few niggling insecurities, but generally I considered myself to be pretty much average. Obviously, someone who had been in the shoes I had been in just 3 years earlier must still have a few skeletons in the closet and that is where the Alpha set came in. A quick glance through this journal should show you where I am now. Quite a journey to go from where I was at age 16 to becoming one of the biggest fishes in a moderate sized pond at 21.
“To be normal is the ideal aim of the unsuccessful.” - Carl Jung
