03-31-2016, 06:22 PM
(03-31-2016, 04:08 PM)XyzN Wrote: Alright so it's been 2 weeks into Stage 3 so far. I have to say I hadn't had much resistance till a few days ago and today.
Maybe it's not even resistance & just some form of anxiety showing through. Well last Tuesday I just happened to wake up not feeling good at all. I woke up that "this isn't going to be a good day I feel"
And so I walked into work, feeling super emotional. I could barely service customers without losing composure. My manager asked if anything was wrong, I could barely say "Na, im okay" without losing it...idk just a bunch of responsibilities I've been procrastinating on are all bubbling up all of a sudden. Eventually after a few hours I started feeling fine.
I know how it is. When I was on SM 3 for the first time, I nearly cried in front of my bosses at the first payday. I felt like I couldn't go on and I told them so. It was intense.
(03-31-2016, 04:08 PM)XyzN Wrote: A few days ahead to today, me and a co-worker walk to our cars together after work. Note: I was feeling mostly perfect before we started talking outside.
I talk with a co-worker about issues she's having. Branching off into problems here, there, everywhere, etc. She's just beginning to weep, so I give her a hug.
So I start bringing back up these problems I'm having myself I mentioned. Telling her I still have my schooling I've been putting off, career problems, etc. Then I start getting really emotional, tears even. She comforts me with a hug and stuff. Then we start talking about some life topics. We spend nearly and hour outside just standing around while we talk.
Afterwords we just quickly hug and go our ways. Then hours later, now, I'm again having another moment where I'm having a small anxiety attack about my life problems again...so I don't know if this is really resistance, but I can tell you for sure I did not feel like this during the first 2 stages at all. And wow, neither in my first run of AM6 too, not this badly...
Boy I hope I don't have to put up with these feelings too long.
I had that too, intense anxiety after spending time with a woman (my last date in fact, months ago, but yeah, it was so bad I went to emergency).
Perhaps it's not really about the life problems but about the girl? Just a thought, you know better than I do of course.
