AM11 with Jeff

[Jeff]

I am feeling very down lately. Being sick is only supplementing these feelings. I feel as if I am emerging from the Matrix via the Red pill. Thoughts are bursting throughout the day. My mind is slowly becoming open to more. I used to be very narrow minded, much like my father. The land of opportunity and possibility is knocking at my doorstep everyday. I am dying to get out and do things, but something deep in me is resisting that with brute force. I am in need of a big pick-me-up. I've only felt this way a couple times while doing the subliminal. I experienced it on a much larger scale freshman year-till several months ago. The only thing I want to do is lay down or sleep. I am not digging these feelings at all. It is almost like leeches sucking my energy and life force out of me. I am trying to read to pass the time, but nothing is sticking.

On a positive note my interaction between people is becoming exponentially better