AM6

[JackOfHearts]

Stage 3 is where most people feel not really good. I had my not very good time on that stage too.
It's also where all the real stuff start to happen, I had some breakthrough there. Stage 4 should be a lot easier. Keep going

[eternity]

thanks budday, it was only 2 days that I felt that way. It's much better now!

I'm on stage 3 day 19; still listening, still growing.

I definitely don't feel the need to be in control of every situation like the chest beating type alpha. But I'm being told every day that I'm a huge influence to people in their lives. Part of me really thinks they're just saying that to make me feel good, but I am sure that's my refusal to accept that I am worthy of this praise. My insides need to be congruent with my outsides.

Will report soon. I don't seem to care to get online much anymore. I like less screen time these days.

Oh, I've also been reading "how to win friends and influence people" by dale carnegie.

[JackOfHearts]

I tried to read that book but the beginning about politic was a turn off for me
Maybe it's better afterward.

[eternity]

I really don't like that the first 20 or so pages is praising Dale Carnegie and putting him on a pedestal it makes me think they're BSing by over qualifying the guy.

But to be fair, I've been around ( as in, being exposed to; not DOING) personal development for a number of years and a lot of different sources cite the book as being one of the foundations of success. As is "Think and Grow Rich" by Napoleon Hill, which is on my list next. honestly, I should be reading "double your dating" as stated in AM6 instructions but I'm sure I am resisting it because I know what double my current dating would be. 2 x 0 = 0. LOL that's not to say I'm not getting any attention, because I'm getting a bit but I don't feel the need to act on it... IDK if that's good or bad.

Gah I should probably just follow the instructions


stage 3 day 20

One thing I've been getting better at is to not mistake temporary for permanent. It's real easy to get in my head about what's going on right now. My behavior shows that I act as if the temporary feeling is permanent. I saw Why So Serious? posted on her journal about her rough spot and it's so funny to see it in other people. No I am not sadistic, I just know exactly what's going to come right after that moment. Don't quit right before the miracle.

[eternity]

alpha360, I get what you're saying about the politics... The whole first chapter was pretty much about US politics, but to be fair.... The author was making good points using the subject.

Second chapter is referencing the fundamental psychology of human desires.

So far, it's very little new information to me, but I'm enjoying it.

[AlphaMind]

Rather than reading and jumping from books to books, it is wise to play in one book and master it.

[eternity]

Rather than reading and jumping from books to books, it is wise to play in one book and master it.

By that do you mean reading and re-reading the same book? Or finishing reading one book and THEN moving on to the next?

[JackOfHearts]

I think the first book recommended by Shannon is enough if you read it enough time. I have a personality that get bored easily so it's not easy to do that. But I read it twice which is good. I might read again on my next AM6 run.

I think the Dale Carnegie and Napoleon Hill book are good but they are some old relics. I would read them last. I didn't finish Napoleon Hill because the politic side to me wasn't true or hard to verify. It seems like US propaganda but it doesn't mean the principles are false though. Same for Dale Carnegie, I will skip to the second chapter if I read it again.

[GlaizenGold777]

Rather than reading and jumping from books to books, it is wise to play in one book and master it.

By that do you mean reading and re-reading the same book? Or finishing reading one book and THEN moving on to the next?

Rereading the same book until your eyes droll out & your subconscious and conscious mind ingrain the book very well. Shannon advice that on his AM instruction.

[eternity]

stage 3 day 25

Haven't been updating much. Been way too busy at work - got a decent pay upgrade/incentive (second time since starting AM6...), so that means less free time available to update journal.

One HUGE change I've noticed is that I don't feel the need to match other people's opinions anymore. I remember that I used to be "afraid" of sharing my point of view about something, since I was such a people pleaser and didn't want to get on anybody's bad side. Unrealistic, yes, but that's really how I was.

Now, I don't have a problem sharing my opinion on stuff. Even if it's menial things lol.

Females around me are definitely showing me more attention. I seem to get "I love you" comments a lot. I'm not really sure what it means; if they're just throwing those words out like candy? or is there something deeper to it? I'm pretty sure it's platonic; it may also have something to do with circle of friends manifestation.

I was hugging A goodbye at the taco place, and D comes in and hugs me too so it was a [eternitys_child] sandwich lol, and both of them say "I love you" to me. another girl G got up from her table at the taco place, and ran up to me from like 50 feet away as I was walking to the restaurant. It's nothing to call home about, but it's still pretty cool to see how much more attention I'm receiving now.

It also feels amazing to know a lot of people these days. My social circle gets bigger and bigger every week, which is really cool. The benefit I'm seeing from deactivating my facebook is the ability to connect with people on a slightly higher than superficial level now. I'd still like to be able to get intimate with people (not necessarily romantic), but practice makes perfect.

[eternity]

hi Yeah! I've been taking it every weekday morning at about 20 - 30 mg (10 mg is plenty to start off, keep that in mind!)

i got mine from nootropics depot. 5g will go VERY far. I've been on this dosing regimen since July, minus the month i was in rehab, minus weekends. and I've still got what seems like over half the tub left and at 30mg per day.

I haven't really journal-ed about my experience with noopept, so at this time I have no basis for objective comparison. But I do know it's helping, that's for sure.

Good luck bro

[eternity]

stage 3 day 28

​Time seems to have gone by when I'm not writing about it.

Gratitude for the things I take for granted is definitely something that helps keep my emotions in check. The other day I saw a dude missing all his back teeth and that night I made it a point to be thankful for having teeth that work. Today I met a dude who just got out of prison and he was talking about how trippy it is to be able to open his fridge and get food, having a cell phone, and a truck. It humbled me because I have that stuff on a daily basis and I complain about what seems like petty stuff compared to that.

Anyway I can sort of sense myself slipping into past behaviors and thought patterns every once in a while, and I'm pretty conscious of it when it happens. The experience is shortly followed by a weird flushing sensation in my face because for some reason that's the sensation I remember my old self as having.

I only have 3.5 more days on stage 3, I can't believe I'm more than halfway done with the program already. I remember starting AM6 all passionate and enthusiastic and EXCITED. Don't get me wrong, I still feel all those, but it's backed by a more stern, "alpha" understanding that all things worth while in life come after diligent and consistent reinforcement. So now I accept as true that I'm growing, slowly but surely. I'm not all itchy and scratchy figuring out what I want to do next, although SM3 is kind of the whole reason I got into IML subs. But I wouldn't be too disappointed if I have to do AM6 again. This inner growth feels like I'm growing up a lot on the inside, and my emotional being is finally getting to mature. due to certain events that happened in my childhood that demanded I grow up and raise myself and my little sister at the age of 12, I never allowed myself the chance to develop emotionally.

[eternity]

stage 3 day 31

Stage 3 is finally coming to a close. I'm on the 31st day of stage 3, so I thought I would post an update.

I've been having dreams lately, but I haven't really been chronicling them. I also seem to have fell off the updating this journal, mostly because I don't really feel the point to post about the SEEMINGLY very little going on in stage 3. I'm sure stage 4 will use stage 3 to carry forward, but I'm very curious how much this stage really offered. I guess I'll wait and see.

M-F work 9a to 6p, and I feel like I'm a slave to the clock, trapped in real life struggles which makes no sense. Like how I am locked into my current state. What's the point of working, when there's no way to get out of debt, fix my credit, move into a place of my own outside of the insane asylum that I live in currently? RAT RACE

[eternity]

stage 4 day 1

started listening to stage 4 last night. I immediately noticed a bit of resistance; there were some negative self talk about the way I act. I don't really remember the details about what i was thinking about, though.

I don't really remember my dream too much last night but I know I did dream.

This morning I woke up, immediately thinking out the whole scenario how I was going to ask out this girl I know, whom I've mentioned in this journal many times. I would go up to her, ask her "when are we going out on a date?" The response I pictured her saying was "I have a boyfriend" lol but in my head I said "I didn't ask if you had a boyfriend"

Very direct, which is completely uncharacteristic of my normal thinking! Especially considering that it was fresh after waking up, I was still half asleep!

I'm hypothesizing that stage 3 was bringing my emotions and thinking to a stable state, after looking back on how stage 3 affected me. Most likely a pre requisite for the ramping up of the rest of the alpha training set.

Woot woot, excited to see what this brings!

update

before the meeting for arranging a conference in Houston, the girl I was talking about above walked into the room, walked directly to me, grabbed my head, and planted a kiss on my cheek. lol. and then sent me the following text messages

Her: 2:02 pm
"what's 86 percent of 274?"
"I can't do math"

Me: 2:03 pm
235.64

Her: 2:03 pm
"Love u! Thank u"

Her: 2:16 pm
"Love my subbie!"
"<3"

Me: 2:16 pm
"Love!"
""

Her: 2:18 pm
" always"

Thank you John Alexander, and THANK YOU Shannon! "Assuming attraction" has been working wonders, and AM6 is certainly, without a doubt increasing my value in others' eye, and even moreso increasing my value to myself.