08-13-2012, 05:40 AM
Yesterday I made the conscious decision to stop smoking. It wasn’t one of those times I would just forget to smoke, although I’m hoping for more of those times. I find this an odd time for my conscious to cooperate. I have been feeling very sickly lately, and after a while that tends to beat me down, falling somewhat into a depression. I pull myself out but smoking seems to go hand in hand with depression (if one smokes), so it seems a strange time to stop. I also am having a test done on Wednesday that I’m a nervous wreck about, and again nervousness and smoking, go hand in hand. And then in two weeks I’ll be driving with my son back to Michigan State, and that’s a awfully long drive without smoking.
It’s seems to be on my mind a lot, but not in a missing type of way. It almost feels like a silly thing I was doing for the most part. I do have fleeting moments when I just feel like I should be smoking. That’s probably the habit part.
I’m choosing to not get too excited about stopping because I’ve done this before. I had stopped for about half a day using this program but went back. I do feel like it’s been doing something because I was actually almost in panic mode and smoking more before I just stopped.
We will see how this goes.
It’s seems to be on my mind a lot, but not in a missing type of way. It almost feels like a silly thing I was doing for the most part. I do have fleeting moments when I just feel like I should be smoking. That’s probably the habit part.
I’m choosing to not get too excited about stopping because I’ve done this before. I had stopped for about half a day using this program but went back. I do feel like it’s been doing something because I was actually almost in panic mode and smoking more before I just stopped.
We will see how this goes.
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