DMSI 3.2 Random Musings and Journalings

[Eslima5]

Continuing with ver. A, 9 loops, from Tuesday to Tuesday. During the ASRB break I was feeling kinda shitty most of the time, then it passed. I've been noticing I'm feeling shittier whenever I neglect my shielding regimen, because I get pestering, annoying thoughts regarding various people whenever I don't do it for 3-4 days (and they're, like, really annoying, and fighting them takes up *a lot* of my attention), and when I let them pile up, I start feeling bad about myself. So I'm gonna keep with the shielding regimen until ver. 3.3.

The dumbest thing about the whole deal is that they're usually aimed at me by people I work with or used to hang out with, and I was actually *afraid* and *expecting* that this would happen - people would start making problems for me *because they're envious*. Heh, showbiz. Like, f. in., it turns out that this fairly young conductor with whom I worked on a project recently (and with whom I've worked previously... and who has *never* been such an asshat meanie towards me like he's become this time around - we've had a pretty decent working relationship) is married to, like, designee's "sweet little aristocrat" BFF, and according to what I've learned, tried to bone said designee before getting married and got rebuked hard. And here I was wondering why is he making veiled comments regarding my dealings with said designee, lol, and acting all asshatty and AMOGy alluva sudden.

See, that's the kind of people I have to work with, lol. And they're sending bad mojo my way.

BTW., one more thing I noticed, and a possible reason for why many of my responders go with gaming/playing attempts: they're frickin' jealous. Very, very jealous. This may be a side effect of the "competing for sex" dealio I remember Shannon writing something about in his journal way back, or perhaps it's just how they are. But when I see a married woman, walking with her husband (we've always liked each other with the woman ), give me a panicked/nervous/jealous look - in such a blatant way that her husband *noticed it*, and this woman's got amazing self-control - simply because she sees me hanging out with another woman... not doing anything, just like, walking and talking... well... Yup.

As a woman, I have to say, most women have amazing self control when it comes to sex/whatever. women are not like men in the sense that they easily give in to sexual desires. its is much more important to feel trust, safe and comfortable, than to give in to lust. lust doesn't mean much to a woman when it comes to action taking. the thing that will make a woman take action more, is love or infatuation. and even then, she will not make a move if she has a lot of doubts, or she is unsure. especially if there is a bad consequence. if a woman takes action, she must really really like you. its not just me, i know a lot of women are this way.....they can talk about crushes or whatever to their friends, but they don't do anything.....most of the time.....if she takes action, she must have a really aggressive personality or she must really like you a lot....it is just my observation, women are not very bold when it comes to things like this, especially if there's a bad consequence....women are naturally more cautious and less of a risk taker than men...it is funny, women can rant and rant to their friends, but will not do anything...maybe she can flirt or dance around, most of the time, she will not be direct....of course, there are always exceptions....but i think a lot of women are like this...most probably, she will not compromise her marriage, just for a fling....unless she doesn't care about her marriage

[Have at ye]

Continuing with ver. A, 9 loops, from Tuesday to Tuesday. During the ASRB break I was feeling kinda shitty most of the time, then it passed. I've been noticing I'm feeling shittier whenever I neglect my shielding regimen, because I get pestering, annoying thoughts regarding various people whenever I don't do it for 3-4 days (and they're, like, really annoying, and fighting them takes up *a lot* of my attention), and when I let them pile up, I start feeling bad about myself. So I'm gonna keep with the shielding regimen until ver. 3.3.

The dumbest thing about the whole deal is that they're usually aimed at me by people I work with or used to hang out with, and I was actually *afraid* and *expecting* that this would happen - people would start making problems for me *because they're envious*. Heh, showbiz. Like, f. in., it turns out that this fairly young conductor with whom I worked on a project recently (and with whom I've worked previously... and who has *never* been such an asshat meanie towards me like he's become this time around - we've had a pretty decent working relationship) is married to, like, designee's "sweet little aristocrat" BFF, and according to what I've learned, tried to bone said designee before getting married and got rebuked hard. And here I was wondering why is he making veiled comments regarding my dealings with said designee, lol, and acting all asshatty and AMOGy alluva sudden.

See, that's the kind of people I have to work with, lol. And they're sending bad mojo my way.

BTW., one more thing I noticed, and a possible reason for why many of my responders go with gaming/playing attempts: they're frickin' jealous. Very, very jealous. This may be a side effect of the "competing for sex" dealio I remember Shannon writing something about in his journal way back, or perhaps it's just how they are. But when I see a married woman, walking with her husband (we've always liked each other with the woman ), give me a panicked/nervous/jealous look - in such a blatant way that her husband *noticed it*, and this woman's got amazing self-control - simply because she sees me hanging out with another woman... not doing anything, just like, walking and talking... well... Yup.

As a woman, I have to say, most women have amazing self control when it comes to sex/whatever. women are not like men in the sense that they easily give in to sexual desires. its is much more important to feel trust, safe and comfortable, than to give in to lust. lust doesn't mean much to a woman when it comes to action taking. the thing that will make a woman take action more, is love or infatuation. and even then, she will not make a move if she has a lot of doubts, or she is unsure. especially if there is a bad consequence. if a woman takes action, she must really really like you. its not just me, i know a lot of women are this way.....they can talk about crushes or whatever to their friends, but they don't do anything.....most of the time.....if she takes action, she must have a really aggressive personality or she must really like you a lot....it is just my observation, women are not very bold when it comes to things like this, especially if there's a bad consequence....women are naturally more cautious and less of a risk taker than men...it is funny, women can rant and rant to their friends, but will not do anything...maybe she can flirt or dance around, most of the time, she will not be direct....of course, there are always exceptions....but i think a lot of women are like this...most probably, she will not compromise her marriage, just for a fling....unless she doesn't care about her marriage

True. It's especially funny when I notice that various female friends of various girls seem to know something somebody's not telling me, and try to fish for information on their behalf.

I highly doubt this particular woman would risk her marriage AFAIK - moreover, I actually like her husband, heh. (Woe unto husbands I dislike...)

It's why I noticed the jealousy aspect so vividly in her case (it was like an "a-ha!" moment). Even as far as women are concerned, this one has really got amazing self-control, not just sexually/romantically, but in general.

Still, I wouldn't put it past her to attempt and bamboozle her husband into, um, letting her take action, TBH.

[Have at ye]

For some reason, DMSI-related things seem to be gearing up. I dunno whether it's 3.2 doing its thing, or whether it's TID kicking in, but it would appear to be so.

Continuing.

[blth]

Can you give some examples of why you think that?

[Have at ye]

Just received, in quick succession: an invitation to go and see a show tomorrow from one girl, pretty much out of the blue, and then got chatted up by another one about 15 minutes later (and I know this one pretty well. She does not do that normally), with her being quite... talkative (which, also, she usually is not through Internet communicators). These are both girls I've been romantically (and, obviously, sexually) interested, and dare I say involved, in the past, I think I've mentioned one of them in passing in this journal some time back. All this while I'm sitting at home, listening to my loops and readying to go to sleep. EDIT: Worth noting: that heavy-hearted feeling I had sometime back, and had to heal? Yup, them's the girls that did it.

For some reason, the probability - and the *coincidence? I think not!* factor - makes me think that's something's up.

This is from the last 30 minutes or so. More similar stuff happened earlier in the day, involving three other girls.

[bits]

As a woman, I have to say, most women have amazing self control when it comes to sex/whatever. women are not like men in the sense that they easily give in to sexual desires. its is much more important to feel trust, safe and comfortable, than to give in to lust. lust doesn't mean much to a woman when it comes to action taking. the thing that will make a woman take action more, is love or infatuation. and even then, she will not make a move if she has a lot of doubts, or she is unsure. especially if there is a bad consequence. if a woman takes action, she must really really like you. its not just me, i know a lot of women are this way.....they can talk about crushes or whatever to their friends, but they don't do anything.....most of the time.....if she takes action, she must have a really aggressive personality or she must really like you a lot....it is just my observation, women are not very bold when it comes to things like this, especially if there's a bad consequence....women are naturally more cautious and less of a risk taker than men...it is funny, women can rant and rant to their friends, but will not do anything...maybe she can flirt or dance around, most of the time, she will not be direct....of course, there are always exceptions....but i think a lot of women are like this...most probably, she will not compromise her marriage, just for a fling....unless she doesn't care about her marriage

This is so true, from what I've seen the more a girl likes you the more she tends to run away from it especially the younger ones. Not too long ago one girl friend saying "no he doesn't like me, I already tried being aggressive with him and he hates me", I asked what she did and she said "i sat at his table and looked over as i sat down, he didn't look up at all, so i got up and left"

To be fair, for a girl to go sit down at some guys table in the library who she hasn't been introduced to with a smile is pretty aggressive, but i'd say 80-90% of guys wouldn't "get it" and continue on as normal. The only time i've seen women approach men in an obvious way is when they are nearing the point of blacking out on alcohol or drugs, I've never seen an a sober approach by a woman that looks anything like a male approach, it's all extremely subtle.

Also agree with the trust, safety, and comfort, I shake my head every time guys try to have the DMSI script do something along the lines of "make the sexual attraction 100x stronger, dont let her masturbate the attraction away, etc" lol the attraction could be 100,000x stronger but if there is no trust, safety, and comfort nothing will ever ever ever happen with that girl.

[Have at ye]

As a woman, I have to say, most women have amazing self control when it comes to sex/whatever. women are not like men in the sense that they easily give in to sexual desires. its is much more important to feel trust, safe and comfortable, than to give in to lust. lust doesn't mean much to a woman when it comes to action taking. the thing that will make a woman take action more, is love or infatuation. and even then, she will not make a move if she has a lot of doubts, or she is unsure. especially if there is a bad consequence. if a woman takes action, she must really really like you. its not just me, i know a lot of women are this way.....they can talk about crushes or whatever to their friends, but they don't do anything.....most of the time.....if she takes action, she must have a really aggressive personality or she must really like you a lot....it is just my observation, women are not very bold when it comes to things like this, especially if there's a bad consequence....women are naturally more cautious and less of a risk taker than men...it is funny, women can rant and rant to their friends, but will not do anything...maybe she can flirt or dance around, most of the time, she will not be direct....of course, there are always exceptions....but i think a lot of women are like this...most probably, she will not compromise her marriage, just for a fling....unless she doesn't care about her marriage

This is so true, from what I've seen the more a girl likes you the more she tends to run away from it especially the younger ones. Not too long ago one girl friend saying "no he doesn't like me, I already tried being aggressive with him and he hates me", I asked what she did and she said "i sat at his table and looked over as i sat down, he didn't look up at all, so i got up and left"

To be fair, for a girl to go sit down at some guys table in the library who she hasn't been introduced to with a smile is pretty aggressive, but i'd say 80-90% of guys wouldn't "get it" and continue on as normal. The only time i've seen women approach men in an obvious way is when they are nearing the point of blacking out on alcohol or drugs, I've never seen an a sober approach by a woman that looks anything like a male approach, it's all extremely subtle.

Also agree with the trust, safety, and comfort, I shake my head every time guys try to have the DMSI script do something along the lines of "make the sexual attraction 100x stronger, dont let her masturbate the attraction away, etc" lol the attraction could be 100,000x stronger but if there is no trust, safety, and comfort nothing will ever ever ever happen with that girl.

Well, I've experienced way more direct apporaches even from young girls and in public (and sober), but I guess that's DMSI magic.

What I try to do when a girl's trying to be too subtle for her own good, and I do not mean to scare her off (because them fraidy cats sometimes get jumpy when you actually do react the way they think they'd like you to ), is try and be encouraging to whatever's she's doing, through subtle means. Let her feel happy that whatever she's doing seems to be working ("OMG he likes me he likes me aaaah, I'm totally seducing him" or somesuch ).

[bits]

Well, I've experienced way more direct apporaches even from young girls and in public (and sober), but I guess that's DMSI magic.

if a girl you don't know approaches you like a guy would approach then escalate ASAP, she's ready lol

[Have at ye]

I think I'll finish up this week of ver. A and then it's break time. So after Tuesday this journal is going to switch to 3.2 bloom/3.3 TID mode.

[Have at ye]

Now I'm totally waffling. Seeing as it this time of the year (the time of the year when "shit hits the fan", apparently), I've been thinking whether to maybe keep running ver 3.2 for a bit longer, ver. B, until Shannon actually announces it's time for a break. I'll see about that come Thursday.

[Have at ye]

Got a continuation of 'em healing dreams while I was sleeping/listening to my loops last time (I think the dream occurred after the loops ended, though). And there's definite progress.

I also think I've now got a pretty decent idea/way of lessening the nervousness/fear in my responders which tends to occur when I'm DMSIng full blast. It's kinda rule 4, but it's basically the Power of Love, lol. Seems to check out, judging by what I observed yesterday and today.

I think I'll continue with ver. 3.2 come tomorrow, ver. B. The switcharoo!

I honestly now believe the the most efficient way of DMSI ver. 3.2 usage for me would be one week ver. A, two weeks ver. B, one week ver. A, two weeks ver. B, etc., though there probably is not time enough to test that out prior to ver. 3.3 being announced.

[Have at ye]

Continuing with ver. B until and as such.

[Have at ye]

Waffled again. Decided after two days of ver. B at 9 loops that, yeah, I think it's time for a break. Even if it weren't for the new version coming up, it'd be time for a break anyway.

So, from now on this journal is in ver. 3.2 bloom/ver. 3.3 TID mode.

[Have at ye]

In other news, should be receiving my monies for all the hard porn work I did, sending the invoice tonight. For some reason I cannot fathom, the author chick signed her last email "xoxo", it made me lol.