Trip.1e Bag It - Wrapping Up with my Aura Jimmy Hat - DMSI V3.1

[RTBoss]

.FLAC masked with Cozy Phones, 7/15 volume, Google Music app.

There wasn't a time when I woke during the night that I wasn't sporting wood. Many dreams, but the one I remembered was, once again, very sexual and, once again, involved two gorgeous ladies. I imagine there always being two women in these dreams signifies A.) Choice, and B.) Abundance. At one point in the dream, the women put themselves into submissive positions - voluntarily - and I used massive vibrators on them simultaneously. Then the dream shifted, the women were gone, but I was playing a simulation game where I could do anything sexually with any woman I wanted. Crazy stuff, and very fun.

Going to take my wife and sister-in-law to Beauty and the Beast this afternoon. If there are a lot of good looking women, they might find themselves thinking about a beast bending them over the theater's railing, lol.

[Shannon]

Fascinating indeed to observe your journey, RT.

[RTBoss]

Fascinating indeed to observe your journey, RT.

This should add to it.

I didn't know if I'd post this, because frankly, I feel guilt, shame, and sadness regarding it. I said in an earlier post my crushy feeling for my SIL were gone. Guess not. Fuck.

BIL came along to the movie, I didn't know if he was back in town (he has a new job a few hours away). Guess so.

We walked down the hallway to the theater, and along the way, we walked past some movie posters. My SIL says, "Ooooh! I wanna see that, but I'm not sure I could go by myself!" She points to the "Get Out," poster. I say, "Oh, it's really good! I just saw it by myself this last Tuesday. You know I love movies like that, you should have told me, we could have gone together." She again says, "Yeah, I thought about going this Tuesday, but I don't know if I can go see it alone." I didn't say I'd see it again with her. My wife won't go to "scary" movies, and apparently my BIL doesn't have any interest, so having that in common with her is cool for me.

We get in the theater, and I'm interested to see how sitting next to my SIL for 2 hours would affect her. I figured SDS would kick in, and perhaps the original sniper as well. I got excited about it, because my wife needed the aisle seat in case she had to go to the bathroom 4 times during the movie. These pregnant women need to pee all the time. I take the seat next to my wife, and then my SIL purposely chooses to sit away from me, sitting my BIL next to me. Ok. Whatever, M. I (perhaps arrogantly) felt like she was sending a message to my BIL. Whenever we go out to eat, she usually chooses to sit near me/next to me at restaurants. Maybe he's had talks with her about some insecurities he has about us, I don't know. Perhaps it's all in my head.

During the movie, I tried just paying attention to it, but my mind would wander to both my wife and SIL. At one point, the baby was kicking and moving, so my wife put my hands on her belly. She also laid her arm on me at a few different times, and even caressed my hand at another (which was nice, after what happened this past week between us). I also noticed my in-laws holding hands near the end of the movie, and felt a flash of anger (and then guilt about feeling anger about it).

Movie gets over, we all have to use the restroom. SIL says, "I gotta pee!" and gets to the women's restroom first. I had to go since the first half of the movie, but held it, so I was at the urinal forever (I am AWESOME at holding my bladder during movies - think my record was peeing for 2 minutes straight after watching Titanic back in '97, lol). Washed my hands, get out, and...still no SIL. We (my wife, BIL, and I) talk for a good two minutes before she comes out. WTF was she doing? There wasn't a line or anything...

Since none of us had seen each other for awhile, we stood around talking and catching up. If I could have taken a few photos of her body language, it was pretty astounding. Spaghetti-leg stance, both feet aimed at me. Playing with hair. Prolonged eye contact. Fingertips of her hand on her chin as she talked, so her wrist was exposed directly to me for at least 5 minutes. Playing with and caressing her lips repeatedly. Plain ridiculous.

Then, it was time to go, and I found myself feeling a sense of loss. Sadness. Upset we weren't all spending more time together. Why didn't we make dinner plans!? Fuck. I was hoping all that shit was gone. Guess not. I feel pretty dumb for obviously having feelings for someone there's no point in having feelings for.

So, sniper is definitely working fine for me. +1 for that. Healing still clearly needed, so dammit for that.

EDIT: Forgot to add that my hands and feet started buzzing with energy near the end of the movie, and continued through talking to SIL/BIL afterward. They were buzzing hard.

Also was extremely witty, throwing commentary left & right that had everybody laughing - haven't felt that on point in a long while.

[SargeMaximus]

Then, it was time to go, and I found myself feeling a sense of loss. Sadness. Upset we weren't all spending more time together. Why didn't we make dinner plans!? ****. I was hoping all that shit was gone. Guess not. I feel pretty dumb for obviously having feelings for someone there's no point in having feelings for.

I feel that way about my hairdresser everytime she's done my hair. I can't tell if it's oneitis or just feelings for her. :/

How can you tell?

[RTBoss]

Then, it was time to go, and I found myself feeling a sense of loss. Sadness. Upset we weren't all spending more time together. Why didn't we make dinner plans!? ****. I was hoping all that shit was gone. Guess not. I feel pretty dumb for obviously having feelings for someone there's no point in having feelings for.

I feel that way about my hairdresser everytime she's done my hair. I can't tell if it's oneitis or just feelings for her. :/

How can you tell?

Oneitis is obsessiveness over one person. No one else exists. You'd have options in a normal situation, but with oneitis, there's no room for anyone else.

[SargeMaximus]

Then, it was time to go, and I found myself feeling a sense of loss. Sadness. Upset we weren't all spending more time together. Why didn't we make dinner plans!? ****. I was hoping all that shit was gone. Guess not. I feel pretty dumb for obviously having feelings for someone there's no point in having feelings for.

I feel that way about my hairdresser everytime she's done my hair. I can't tell if it's oneitis or just feelings for her. :/

How can you tell?

Oneitis is obsessiveness over one person. No one else exists. You'd have options in a normal situation, but with oneitis, there's no room for anyone else.

Well maybe I don't have oneitis then.

Thanks for the explanation.

[RTBoss]

Free food update:

I keep getting free food for being in the right place/right time - or is it wrong place, wrong time?

I posted before I got free breakfast at Taco Bell b/c they didn't have what I wanted, so I got whatever else I want free-of-charge.

At a pizza place last week I ordered a pint of a local brew. As he poured it, the keg ran out a half inch from the top. 1 pint minus 1/2 inch = free beer, so sorry sir!

Last night, went to pick up Thai food after having ordered with an app. When I got there, they "didn't get the order." To make up for it, I got a free Thai tea (pretty dang good, actually), a free appetizer, and an extra container of jasmin rice. The owner apologized profusely, called me sir, and offered me his hand in apology.

The frequency of this happening is becoming uncanny. Before V3.1, the fuck-ups would happen, but I'd never get anything out of it.

[RTBoss]

Masked .FLAC Cozy Phones again last night, same 7/15 volume after 3 hour silent track, so smack dab in the middle of sleep. My wife leaves for a short fishing trip with her mom today, so I'll be going back to hybrid on speaker tonight.

Two dreams, neither as fun as the previous few nights:

First dream, I was awoken by my bladder, and all I could remember was I was part of an organization called "The Clan," and I'm just hoping it wasn't a Ninja Turtles dream, lol.

Second dream, my "wife" was doing my laundry - but though this person was my wife in my dream, I couldn't really "see" her. It was a disembodied voice. Anyway, she pulled out a shirt that was tie-dyed and sparkly. It was clearly a woman's shirt, so she accused me of cheating. My counter-argument was that I HAD told her about the shirt, there was a logical explanation that had nothing to do with sex. I knew that I hadn't cheated, it was an innocent thing, but she didn't believe me no matter how much I explained.

Then I woke up, thanks to a little boy who got out of bed before I was ready this morning. Thanks, bud.

[Zane]

Cant believe that I just read ur journal in reverse order....Must be addictive

[RTBoss]

I just realized that I've pulled a Sarge and haven't showered for days. I don't even think I stink, particularly. My wife hasn't commented, and she's got a nose for stank.

I usually exercise, then shower, and I haven't been exercising since falling in that damn hot tub so....no shower.

I dunno, maybe this has something to do with optimizing my pheromone output, but yeah - definitely going to shower tonight.

Anyone else notice changes regarding their hygiene habits?

[SargeMaximus]

I just realized that I've pulled a Sarge and haven't showered for days. I don't even think I stink, particularly. My wife hasn't commented, and she's got a nose for stank.

I usually exercise, then shower, and I haven't been exercising since falling in that damn hot tub so....no shower.

I dunno, maybe this has something to do with optimizing my pheromone output, but yeah - definitely going to shower tonight.

Anyone else notice changes regarding their hygiene habits?

I'm proud of you RT.

[Breeze]

I just realized that I've pulled a Sarge and haven't showered for days. I don't even think I stink, particularly. My wife hasn't commented, and she's got a nose for stank.

I usually exercise, then shower, and I haven't been exercising since falling in that damn hot tub so....no shower.

I dunno, maybe this has something to do with optimizing my pheromone output, but yeah - definitely going to shower tonight.

Anyone else notice changes regarding their hygiene habits?

I don't stink, either. People around me do notice if I don't shower for a couple of days, but I don't smell like I haven't showered at all on 3.1 if I don't shower for a couple of days.

[AlphaScorpio]

Can confirm last week I worked Mon -Thurs with no showers at all and only part of my body that stank were my feet which always smell bad. I smelt my armpits and there was just a nice light smell.

[Shannon]

Phero-optimizer, GO!!!!!