DMSI 3.1 and MLS exploration - Ascension to ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)hood

[eternity]

Just make sure she understands what you're thinking so she can make her choices.

Thanks Shannon. Doing this now.

[Shannon]

I find that I usually have to tell them flat out... I like you, and I'm interested, but you have to be single to be eligible. Then I leave it alone, and they decide what they want to do without influence from me.

[eternity]

I find that I usually have to tell them flat out... I like you, and I'm interested, but you have to be single to be eligible. Then I leave it alone, and they decide what they want to do without influence from me.

Oh in that case I should probably tell her in person. But I like the way you think. Being direct isn't my strong suit when it comes to women, but I supose now us a better time to start than never.

[Shannon]

I find that I usually have to tell them flat out... I like you, and I'm interested, but you have to be single to be eligible. Then I leave it alone, and they decide what they want to do without influence from me.

Oh in that case I should probably tell her in person. But I like the way you think. Being direct isn't my strong suit when it comes to women, but I supose now us a better time to start than never.

When it comes to females... NEVER delay what you can do NOW, unless delaying it will make the outcome better. In other words, strike while the iron is hot, or don't expect to affect it much.

[eternity]

So what had happened was... I texted her saying we gotta meet up asap.

She's like yeah let's make a video for the YouTube channel (I started a channel and asked her to be in one video).

Her: Ooohhhh we should tape something at holus!!!!
Maybe like recovery talk or something!!
But me and you need a good sit down

Me (6 hrs later) Yaaasss recovery tape sounds good! But I gotta be Frankie here and say I really am not about meeting at holus. No offense to anyone there because I love the guys there, but I don't want to chill with them. Some of the things I want to talk to you about should not be heard by others anyway.

Somewhere outdoors would be best for the recording, since lighting is best when natural light is used. Or coffee shop. Aa club would be fine but fluorescent lighting sucks balls for videos. Sun is best, always.

Her: Yes for sure!!!! We can meet anywhere!!! Not a problem at all!!!


So, I didn't say what Shannon recommended, just because I don't know how to say something recommended by someone else without sounding like someone else. I dunno how to be direct in what I want (likely a deep fear) so I made my intentions for seeing her alone clear.

Anyway I prefer not to have advice on this by other members on this board, since I can't assimilate multiple opinions into my own personality very well (which is why pua books have been the bane of my existence).


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Tonight I went to a Christmas party at my sisters husbands mothers house. There were about 20 people there, half kids and half adults. The host's friend, a larger mid 40's woman, was clearly being sniped. I caught her staring / eye f*cking me a few times. Ended up chatting with her later, and the eye contact was good, but she seemed to show decent amount of restraint. I am of the notion that she was most certainly affected by the aura, but the socially accepted standards were stronger than the program's ability to smash them, thereby letting this woman resist the clearing. It's possibly just this particular woman is more resistant to clearing than others. More testing on this is required.

[eternity]

I had a dream relating to being friendzoned by L. Ugh it made me uncomfortable. V3 has the stops pulled on the healing as far as "at your own pace", right? It's both a blessing and a curse. It's a blessing that it's raging over anything in its path, wiping the belief slate clean, so that proper beliefs can sink in and old nonsense beliefs can go find the exit sign, because ain't nobody got time for dat. It's a curse that it's making me hyper aware of how I cockblock myself time and time again. I don't think I'm resisting. I think I'm just in a state of intense clearing. So the discomfort I feel is not depressive resistance today. It is more mourning of the old me. Bye bye yesterday's eternity. It was nice knowing you.

Self sabotage is being minced to shreds. I think I am close to the apex of difficulty of this run. Neediness is being destroyed. Now if I can only just do something about being so lazy.

[eternity]

H drip effect kicked in at approx 7 min 20 sec of my first loop.

It is maybe half the intensity I felt it the first time. I also found myself auto flipping up the volume one notch at the same time the h drip kicked in. I tried to switch to vlc as quick as possible, as soon as I felt the effect. Most likely it was around 7:23 when I felt the effect, 7:25 when I switched the volume up a notch. It was 7:30 when I checked on vlc on my phone.

So 7:24ish is how long it took me to accept the instructions and act on them. Thank goodness I am feeling this euphoria. I take it that this effect is indicative of me no longer resisting, and switching into acceptance.

[Blacksheep]

(.....)

[RTBoss]

Still back on version A, right?

[eternity]

Still back on version A, right?

yes sir. still on the A

[eternity]

i'm curious. to those running v3.0.1: how do the manifestations appear in your life? Not sure how I can identify who's a manifestation and who's not.....

Manifestations appear for me as people who I meet through really unlike circumstances, and/or whom I form an unusually specific relationship unusually quickly. Or, people who are unusually specific in how much they have the features I like. Case in point:

A. Met her as I was going to eat at IHOP. She was the hostess. Petite? Check. Long natural curly red hair? Check. Freckles? Check. Mischevious sparkle in her eyes? Check.

Very rare to meet one of those. BUT!

Within 10 minutes, we had exchanged phone numbers, and she had also agreed to model for me in a bikini.

That never happens.

She also expressed enough interest in me to text me twice without being prompted, and come sit with me when I was without my girlfriend once. This girl is 20. Less than half my age. It's all too unusual. That's a manifestation. You recognize manifestations because they're what you're looking for, outside the realms of normal occurrence.

well, DAMN! i don't even have a checklist of features that i like. maybe that's why i'm confused that i (perceivably) don't have any manifestations? i like all women!!!

actually.........................

now that i think about it....

the girl from friday might have been a manifestation

i like blondes women, mexican girls, short women, and women that are slightly older than i am. and women that have their life put together. and SINGLE women.

the girl from friday is not a new woman in my life, but our conversation during dinner included relationships and FWB's (and she now knows that is my relationship preference). and she fit all the qualifications except being single, but over the past 2 hours, we've been messaging back and forth as she asked me to give her advice on how to break up with her boyfriend (who's a lowlife, anyway, so she's not really losing anything by breaking up with him). Is she arranging her life according to my preferences, making her a "manifestation"?

The only confusing part is that i thought "asking a guy for advice on how to break up with her boyfriend" is indicative of being in the friendzone? but after reflecting on this for a minute, what better way to indicate that she is single and ready to receive my dingle, than by telling me she's breaking up with her boyfriend?

LOL. let's see how it plays out !

[Shannon]

i'm curious. to those running v3.0.1: how do the manifestations appear in your life? Not sure how I can identify who's a manifestation and who's not.....

Manifestations appear for me as people who I meet through really unlike circumstances, and/or whom I form an unusually specific relationship unusually quickly. Or, people who are unusually specific in how much they have the features I like. Case in point:

A. Met her as I was going to eat at IHOP. She was the hostess. Petite? Check. Long natural curly red hair? Check. Freckles? Check. Mischevious sparkle in her eyes? Check.

Very rare to meet one of those. BUT!

Within 10 minutes, we had exchanged phone numbers, and she had also agreed to model for me in a bikini.

That never happens.

She also expressed enough interest in me to text me twice without being prompted, and come sit with me when I was without my girlfriend once. This girl is 20. Less than half my age. It's all too unusual. That's a manifestation. You recognize manifestations because they're what you're looking for, outside the realms of normal occurrence.

well, DAMN! i don't even have a checklist of features that i like. maybe that's why i'm confused that i (perceivably) don't have any manifestations? i like all women!!!

actually.........................

now that i think about it....

the girl from friday might have been a manifestation

i like blondes women, mexican girls, short women, and women that are slightly older than i am. and women that have their life put together. and SINGLE women.

the girl from friday is not a new woman in my life, but our conversation during dinner included relationships and FWB's (and she now knows that is my relationship preference). and she fit all the qualifications except being single, but over the past 2 hours, we've been messaging back and forth as she asked me to give her advice on how to break up with her boyfriend (who's a lowlife, anyway, so she's not really losing anything by breaking up with him). Is she arranging her life according to my preferences, making her a "manifestation"?

The only confusing part is that i thought "asking a guy for advice on how to break up with her boyfriend" is indicative of being in the friendzone? but after reflecting on this for a minute, what better way to indicate that she is single and ready to receive my dingle, than by telling me she's breaking up with her boyfriend?

LOL. let's see how it plays out !

Could very well be a manifestation.

And about the bold part... exactly.

[eternity]

so it seems the wave of resistance that I was feeling has passed, and there is a new facet of my personality that is breaking out of its shell: motivation and drive. This is something I had been lacking for the last week, especially, but moreover something I've not had much of in life. A friend said we'll grow old if we wait for motivation to kick in, so it's better to just take the plunge.

Point 1: motivation and drive arrived after resistance passed

When I started 2.4, I felt a pain in my face that lasted quite a long time. It was a jaw pain, as if someone had punched me really hard and the pain lingered for about a month, until i switched to 2.5 upon release. Shortly after, I quit 2.5 in favor of E2. However, once starting 3.0.1a, the facial pain returned, but it's of a different kind. I thought it was nothing big, but now after noticing my face over the course of the days, my face is actually being shaped! Jawline is being chiseled. Can't say I have noticed anything about my posture or the way I carry myself, but my face is changing for sure. [side note, E2 made my cheeks puffier and fatter]

Point 2: physical changes due to the sub

Something major just broke loose for me. not even 3 days ago i was complaining about not having enough time to commit to doing something to generate an additional stream of income. The complaining definitely came from a place of insecurity/fear/self worth. Today, I broke through that set of negative beliefs. The result? drive/motivation increase. I started hammering away at some things that needed to be done. Now I have this pit in my stomach, like a hunger/thirst for success. Seeing Shannon's post on another thread about the rose bush maintenance really kicked something into gear and from there it just started rolling forward.

Point 3: Limiting beliefs being cleared away directly resulted in an urge to push forward in life.

[eternity]

So the notion of the Mexican girl being a manifestation is starting to fit together like a puzzle.

I went to her social media profile to like bomb her, but I saw a bunch of porn gifs. I messaged her asking her about it, and she said she added me to the "naughty circle". Which sparked a conversation on the topic of sex, and she told me about a previous relationship she had with another woman. Lol i wasn't expecting that!! She sounds a lot more fun than I remember her being! Whoaaa. Lol.

Data point : talking about sex is fluid, and there was no guilt shame or fear surrounding the topic, whereas there was a bit of it pre-dmsi.