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DMSI 3.2 - ichigo's journal - ichigo - 03-16-2018
So I’m on Day 7 of DMSI 3.2, I’ve been using 1 loop of Trickling Stream FLAC (not Hybrid) every morning
RESULTS
TID
I was running AM Stage 4 with the ultimate goal of running WM straight after, but after seeing a post from Shannon on how much more powerful DMSI is than WM, I figured what’s the point of messing around with 8 year old technology when DMSI is so much more powerful. Looking back, I should have finished AM, but what’s done is done, and at least I know I’ll run it in full once it is released in 6G in the future.
The point of this is, I had no plans to run DMSI, but I was noticing way more attention from women and more self-confidence. Of course, at first I attributed this to AM, but now I know that I am running DMSI, it’s possible that a lot of this was a combination between AM and TID from DMSI 3.2. I also managed to land a job that I really wanted, and the circumstances are very much coincidence/luck, and so I wonder if AM or DMSI TID helped to play a role in that also.
ACTIVELY LISTENING
-No approaches from women or blatant attempts at seduction from them
-Occasionally catching people staring, men and women, young and old. They instantly look away when caught.
-Women are potentially getting aroused when near me, but it can be hard to tell. Sometimes there’s feet/legs pointing in my direction in what looks like uncomfortable positions. Sometimes they get fidgety and sit with their legs crossed very high up. No blatant butt/boobs/pussy presentations. I get the sense that they are attracted on a subconscious level, but are consciously rejecting me. Women will often sit as far away as possible, or with their back to me if possible.
-My girlfriend has massively increased calling me sexy, and asking for sex. We are also arguing a lot more, which I think is insecurity on her part. On AM we were happy with each other, on DMSI it’s more of a roller coaster of her wanting to fuck me and then her saying I don’t care about her.
-My veins pop out when the aura is in full effect - this is the obvious indicator for me, plus sensations of heat in hands/face/chest that let me know when I’m projecting. My girlfriend commented “look how veiny and manly your hands are” when the aura was pumping, which isn’t anything she had ever said about my hands before.
-My dreams are extremely blatantly related to DMSI, more so than any of the previous versions I listened to. They are involving people from my past that other versions never touched. Some of them I think are to do with the self-esteem modules, and others are just straight up sex dreams. Very enjoyable. I’ve also noticed when I’m listening to the loop, I often fantasise and daydream about sex.
-Porn and masturbation completely stopped over one month ago. I made the conscious decision to stop because of my erectile dysfunction. I’m not sure if DMSI 3.2 is helping with that. I rarely think about it, and if I do, my brain immediately says to me: “That isn’t an option” and I don’t think about it again.
-Today I ordered a BathMate as it is supposed to help with penis size and erectile strength.
-Manifestation: there’s a girl who works in an office I regularly walk past who is absolutely stunning. I have been aware of her for over four months, and sneak looks at her whenever I walk past her office window, but we have never made eye contact. A couple of days ago I was leaving my home which is a literal 1 minute walk away from her office, and as I was walking out of an alleyway to enter the main high street, as I came out she was walking past it and we bumped into each other. She smiled and apologised and carried on walking toward the office. I didn’t realise it was her until after she had begun to walk away. It could be coincidence, but with my previous experiences with DMSI, and the sensation I felt in the pitch of my stomach when we made eye contact, and my brain shouting at me to engage her in conversation as she walked away, it all felt very “manifestationy”
-When I catch myself in the mirror I think I look incredible. My skin seems to be glowing and looks tighter on my face than usual. My eyes look brighter.
-I’ve been coming to realisations and making observations about myself more.
INSIGHTS
Here are some insights that I have written down in my offline journal whilst running 3.2:
-”I think it’s going to be important to try and stay as open, vulnerable, childlike and expressive whilst running DMSI as the sexual vibe can be a bit heavy and serious. There’s no need to act serious when DMSI is doing the sexual vibe in the background. It’s like wearing Bad Wolf - be social and it’s amazing, be serious and overtly sexual and it’s creepy”
-”I need to really focus on being charismatic - remembering to be aware of my body, enthusiastic, passionate, friendly, and just letting the DMSI effects take care of themselves. Try to look at people with love and interest, wanting to know more about them, than just staring at them like they are sex objects. It makes me leery, and I really need to prevent it”
-”I found when I wasn’t running DMSI, and it was in theory just P6 effecting me, I was getting better results. I seem to look more miserable and more nervous when running DMSI - I think it’s because I become so conscious of trying to be sexy, rather than just relaxing, it makes me less attractive and approachable. It’s like I’m expecting people to be looking at me and thinking “wow, he’s sexy”, and that sensation gives me a form of stage fright and activates my fight or flight response. It’s like my chest feels heavy and dead, but when it’s working it feels light. It feels light when I feel self-fulfilled and happy with what I’m doing, and not needing any validation. When I’m looking for validation from DMSI in terms of IOIs, it makes me feel less complete because I’m WANTING something, which is less attractive.”
-”I just made a realisation: fear and excitement are two sides of the same coin. When I think about starting on Monday, if I think about it negatively, I worry about what could happen, and I feel fear. If I think about it positively, I feel excitement about what could happen. The sensation I feel, the energisation in my stomach, are the exact same sensation - it’s just how I choose to interpret the sensation which determines how I react in response.
Without fear, without excitement, I’m neutral - dead. Lifeless. Bored. Monotonous. Fear and excitement are a gift, and should be seeked out where possible, as those are the moments when we are most truly alive, and most truly present, and most truly vulnerable, and most truly sexual”
-”I think my problem is, when I’m on DMSI, I think I’m not acting normally. I avoid eye contact, or get nervous to make eye contact, because I think in my head “I’m going to freak that person out with all this sexuality, I’m not supposed to be this aggressive in person”. It’s like when I wear heavy alpha pheromones, I find it hard to behave relaxed and normal because of the fear that I’m out of place being this sexual in these circumstances”
FEEDBACK
3.2 is definitely the strongest version yet. I really like the one loop per day, as it makes it manageable to listen during waking hours. This means as long as it’s possible to get 8-9 hours of uninterrupted sleep per night, the sub is manageable without being too exhausting to function.
The aura is certainly working, as I’m familiar with it now having tested every DMSI version since v1. The problem I’m running into is I just can’t seem to be open, approachable and friendly with DMSI. It’s like as soon as I start running DMSI, my whole mindset changes to “I wonder if DMSI is working?” and then my whole perspective swaps from “fuck it, I’m doing my own thing” to “I wonder if that that girl is going to give me an IOI? Is the aura affecting her?” and then I’m sneakily watching her for validation that she’s attracted to me. It’s neediness, and I’m so consciously aware of the problem, and I told myself at the start of 3.2 I wouldn’t let myself be hungry for results, but it seems I just can’t help it right now. I’m trying to think of calling the sub “The Celebrity Effect” in my head, which connotes being charismatic rather than focused on sex and attraction, but it hasn’t worked.
Also, as running DMSI makes me hornier in general, the hornier I get the more difficult it gets to not be needy and not leer at women. I find women so sexy, and I get a kind of perverse kick out of staring at their tits/ass/pussy when my sex drive goes up. I think potentially it’s because my natural sex drive isn’t that high, and so when DMSI kicks it up into overdrive, I haven’t learned to calibrate for it, and I’m like a 13 year old kid that just saw their first pair of titties.
I know the women are attracted to me, even if it’s subconsciously, I just need to act how I would without DMSI whilst DMSI is running and not overthink it, but I find that hard to do for some reason.
SUGGESTIONS FOR 3.3 SO FAR
-More of a focus on decreasing neediness. Perhaps a module that focuses on not looking for results or evidence that the sub is working, and encouraging a set it and forget it mentality?
-Adapting to receiving increased attention from gender you find attractive - not getting "stage fright" and freezing or rejecting their advances out of fear in response. Not protecting the ego by rejecting them first to defend yourself.
-More of an emphasis on improving charisma and social skills
-Way more of a confidence/cockiness boost than is currently there. Possibly reduce the ego balancer?
-Programming that calibrates you to having a higher sex drive without becoming creepy or needy
-More approachability in the aura
-Increased focus on body awareness and tension, so that it can be better consciously recognised and released to help relaxation and approachability
-Enjoying life without needing anything from gender you find attractive
-Mental coherence module
RE: DMSI 3.2 - ichigo's journal - ichigo - 03-17-2018
Since my last post, I've been crashing hard. Body aches, inability to concentrate, struggling to sleep even without the sub playing.
It reminds me, this also happened on v1. It's like the system gets overtaxed.
I'm very tempted to stop and restart AM6 Stage 4, but with the 35 day P6 break requirement, it's going to be over a month until I can run Stage 4 and so I'd have to start AM all over again, so I might as well just stay on DMSI 3.2.
I'm starting a new job on Monday and mental and physical fatigue is the last thing I need. Hopefully I get better and not worse tonight and tomorrow.