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The Life of chaosvrgn (MLS) - Ascension to ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)hood - chaosvrgn - 08-31-2017
Today's my birthday. I survived another year. It was this day a few years ago that I attempted -- and failed at ending my own life through a (now hilariously) complicated set of events hoping obscure the truth from my family and friends. I wanted them to think that I had simply disappeared. At the time, I was addicted to Vyvanse / Adderall (the standard dosage for mild ADHD is 12mg -- I was taking 120mg), obese and addicted to porn / fapping. To illustrate how bad it was, I remember one night fapping for over 3 hours and not being able to hold an erection or finish because my neurotransmitters were utterly destroyed from the drug and porn abuse.
Cue the title card. Lower third caption --- "Three Years Later" ...
Last week, I signed a preliminary investment deal with a local businessman for upwards of $250,000 over the course of 5 years. Can't go into too much detail now due to the NDA, but when the time is right, I plan on revealing the information of my new endeavour to the Maestro somehow so he can confirm that I'm not making this up. This may be that turning point that I've wanted my entire life -- the one that propels me toward my lifelong dream of leaving the corporate world forever and becoming a full-time creative.
I also broke my first martial arts milestone -- I'm down to a cool 190 lbs and did eight rounds of full-contact intense sparring at 5 minutes per round with a minute rest in-between and did EXTREMELY well. This is near pro-level fitness. If any of you remember my old MHS journal, there was a time where I couldn't walk properly because my knees were so f*cked up from carrying all that fat.
The sex I'm having right now is absolutely ridiculous. I'm pulling off maneuvers that I've never even seen before, and thanks to my new level of fitness, I'm able to go as hard as long as I want -- literally f*cking for hours at times. If course, you'll have the naysayers claiming I'm making it up, but:
![[Image: image.png]](https://s26.postimg.org/4mwqokga1/image.png)
That night, after we finished our f*ck session, she was talking about how her entire body felt so wrecked and p*ssy so sore that she was thinking about taking a day off work.
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The final line of this one refers to when -- in the middle of having sex -- she decided to start sh*t testing, so I literally used some BJJ to flip her over, grabbed a belt and spank her XD.
Crazy stuff.
The funny thing is, when I think back to that time period of my life, all I can remember is how alone I felt. No friends, no help. How I craved any kind of human emotion -- even someone hating on me. But I was invisible. No one even bothered to hate on me. It was only once I ran AM6 and began rising up, staring society defiantly in the eye and refusing to accept other people's definitions and thoughts of who I should be and bending my reality to my will that suddenly I started encountering a bunch people trying to break me back down to what I was.
Never gonna happen. The first day I ran AM6, I remember how vivid the world seemed to appear -- everything was in COLOR. After years of depression and self-loathing, I finally began to see my own potential what I could do in this world and they want me to go back to that self-imposed personal hell? For what?
I'm going to defend what I'm building with everything I have -- I'm really not to one. Song of the day: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EBHJH0dsEN4
Contrary to your beliefs, I'm as real as you can be /
F*ck yo thoughts and yo feelings, ***** you don't know me.
All I know is that the trajectory of my life has been irreversibly altered toward success, and I have Shannon to thank for it.
Honestly, Maestro -- this world doesn't deserve what you're doing. You could take your knowledge and become a billionaire through nefarious means, but you've chosen to instead use it to help us -- which I'm sure sometimes feels completely thankless. Well, not today: Shannon, you saved my life. From the bottom of my heart -- thank you.
RE: The Life of chaosvrgn (MLS) - Ascension to ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)hood - Ars0n1sT - 08-31-2017
Glad to hear you're doing well. It definitely feels great to look back and say "...Damn I've come this far??" I share in that as well thanks to Shannon. Hope to see great things from you Chaos, good luck, and happy birthday!
RE: The Life of chaosvrgn (MLS) - Ascension to ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)hood - Shannon - 08-31-2017
Thanks, man. Happy birthday.
RE: The Life of chaosvrgn (MLS) - Ascension to ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)hood - SargeMaximus - 08-31-2017
Happy Birthday chaos! Crazy story. Makes me want to run AM 6 again.
RE: The Life of chaosvrgn (MLS) - Ascension to ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)hood - chaosvrgn - 08-31-2017
(08-31-2017, 09:38 AM)SargeMaximus Wrote: Happy Birthday chaos! Crazy story. Makes me want to run AM 6 again.
I've thought about running AM6 + SM3 myself, but DMSI v3.1 + MLS seems to be having an absolutely absurd effect.
RE: The Life of chaosvrgn (MLS) - Ascension to ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)hood - SargeMaximus - 08-31-2017
(08-31-2017, 09:44 AM)chaosvrgn Wrote:(08-31-2017, 09:38 AM)SargeMaximus Wrote: Happy Birthday chaos! Crazy story. Makes me want to run AM 6 again.
I've thought about running AM6 + SM3 myself, but DMSI v3.1 + MLS seems to be having an absolutely absurd effect.
Maybe I'll try that then. Are you alternating every two weeks or...?
RE: The Life of chaosvrgn (MLS) - Ascension to ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)hood - chaosvrgn - 08-31-2017
(08-31-2017, 09:48 AM)SargeMaximus Wrote:(08-31-2017, 09:44 AM)chaosvrgn Wrote:(08-31-2017, 09:38 AM)SargeMaximus Wrote: Happy Birthday chaos! Crazy story. Makes me want to run AM 6 again.
I've thought about running AM6 + SM3 myself, but DMSI v3.1 + MLS seems to be having an absolutely absurd effect.
Maybe I'll try that then. Are you alternating every two weeks or...?
No -- Still on MLS. But I did v3.1 for like... 3 months. Gonna do MLS for 3 months, then switch back to v3.1. Keep doing that sequence until v3.2 comes out, as the two subs seem to have a synergistic effect.
RE: The Life of chaosvrgn (MLS) - Ascension to ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)hood - SargeMaximus - 08-31-2017
(08-31-2017, 09:52 AM)chaosvrgn Wrote:(08-31-2017, 09:48 AM)SargeMaximus Wrote:(08-31-2017, 09:44 AM)chaosvrgn Wrote:(08-31-2017, 09:38 AM)SargeMaximus Wrote: Happy Birthday chaos! Crazy story. Makes me want to run AM 6 again.
I've thought about running AM6 + SM3 myself, but DMSI v3.1 + MLS seems to be having an absolutely absurd effect.
Maybe I'll try that then. Are you alternating every two weeks or...?
No -- Still on MLS. But I did v3.1 for like... 3 months. Gonna do MLS for 3 months, then switch back to v3.1. Keep doing that sequence until v3.2 comes out, as the two subs seem to have a synergistic effect.
Cool. Definitely considering it. Funds are the issue ATM.
I like the idea though and I can't argue with your results.
Thanks chaos.
RE: The Life of chaosvrgn (MLS) - Ascension to ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)hood - chaosvrgn - 08-31-2017
(08-31-2017, 10:09 AM)SargeMaximus Wrote:(08-31-2017, 09:52 AM)chaosvrgn Wrote:(08-31-2017, 09:48 AM)SargeMaximus Wrote:(08-31-2017, 09:44 AM)chaosvrgn Wrote:(08-31-2017, 09:38 AM)SargeMaximus Wrote: Happy Birthday chaos! Crazy story. Makes me want to run AM 6 again.
I've thought about running AM6 + SM3 myself, but DMSI v3.1 + MLS seems to be having an absolutely absurd effect.
Maybe I'll try that then. Are you alternating every two weeks or...?
No -- Still on MLS. But I did v3.1 for like... 3 months. Gonna do MLS for 3 months, then switch back to v3.1. Keep doing that sequence until v3.2 comes out, as the two subs seem to have a synergistic effect.
Cool. Definitely considering it. Funds are the issue ATM.
I like the idea though and I can't argue with your results.
Thanks chaos.
I actually have a video where I made one of my harem members -- the one I refer to as "BBB" (Boring, But Will Bang) -- call me chaos while I was f*cking her, but opted not to post it as my lawyer friend said it'd open Shannon up to all kinds of liability. Oddly enough, texting and phone conversations are fair game. Video in your own home isn't.
RE: The Life of chaosvrgn (MLS) - Ascension to ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)hood - Roy - 08-31-2017
Happy birthday Chaos.
Can you explain more about the effect of DMSI+MLS?
RE: The Life of chaosvrgn (MLS) - Ascension to ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)hood - chaosvrgn - 08-31-2017
(08-31-2017, 10:38 AM)Roy Wrote: Happy birthday Chaos.
Can you explain more about the effect of DMSI+MLS?
I'll try -- it's a bit hard to explain. The acute DMSI effects, like the immediate aura, the pushiness to succeed (on v3.1b, if you stray from your goals, you feel like sh*t and will experience a somewhat unpleasant compulsion to get back on track), the crazy IOIs, etc. started to fade. Interestingly enough, they took a LONG TIME to fade -- like 3 weeks. After that, you'll still get effects, like feeling the aura project after a huge meal. Or, increased attraction, but not as much as it was when you were actively running the sub.
After further testing, I came to the conclusion that DMSI is somewhat "permanently" installed in the sub-conscious -- or it at least takes remarkably longer to completely fade than anticipated, which means the sub gives you an overall higher "baseline." I noticed that overall, my interactions with women were smoother and everything that was cleared seemed to be cleared permanently. I had little problem getting respect from men and women. No problems with putting women in their place if they started to get bitchy. No problems with even attracting women.
What DID completely change, however, was how I prioritized the acquisition of new sexual partners. Though I had women approaching me in real life and online, I had little desire to actually act on those opportunities. So, it's like DMSI goes into a "DMSI-lite" mode, where you still get the benefits, just to a lesser degree because your subconscious is pointed elsewhere.
That being said, MLS seems to be synergistic with DMSI in the sense that the two end goals are kinda inherently synergistic. Most people running DMSI have experienced increases in their wealth, jobs, social status, etc. MLS has reaffirmed and assisted those gains. For example, I recently got a small promotion at work that required me to take on new responsibilities -- some that I've never done in my entire life. That manifestation was in the works back when I was running DMSI. However, thanks to MLS, I've had no problem assuming and mastering the new tasks.
Or, a better example: When I was on DMSI -- I was an absolute PHYSICAL beast in the gym. I was working out 3-4 hours a day. Had insane energy and motivation. Lost a lot of weight, gained a lot of muscle and I actually have a "physique" now. When I started MLS, I lost a lot of that motivation and cut back to 1-2 hours a day. HOWEVER, my fighting technique skyrocketed. I'm definitely in the top 5 fighters in that gym of over 100 fighters and the coaches are paying a lot of attention to me. That attention is leading me to have a higher social status and people are wanting to hang out with me and stuff.
It's like the two subs are pushing you toward the same goal of success, but taking different approaches. DMSI is improving your overall sexiness -- which includes social status, mindset, physical attributes, etc. MLS helps you master the things you want to learn, the things that will make you money, the things that will get you noticed.
Hope that helps.
RE: The Life of chaosvrgn (MLS) - Ascension to ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)hood - SargeMaximus - 08-31-2017
(08-31-2017, 10:27 AM)chaosvrgn Wrote:(08-31-2017, 10:09 AM)SargeMaximus Wrote:(08-31-2017, 09:52 AM)chaosvrgn Wrote:(08-31-2017, 09:48 AM)SargeMaximus Wrote:(08-31-2017, 09:44 AM)chaosvrgn Wrote: I've thought about running AM6 + SM3 myself, but DMSI v3.1 + MLS seems to be having an absolutely absurd effect.
Maybe I'll try that then. Are you alternating every two weeks or...?
No -- Still on MLS. But I did v3.1 for like... 3 months. Gonna do MLS for 3 months, then switch back to v3.1. Keep doing that sequence until v3.2 comes out, as the two subs seem to have a synergistic effect.
Cool. Definitely considering it. Funds are the issue ATM.
I like the idea though and I can't argue with your results.
Thanks chaos.
I actually have a video where I made one of my harem members -- the one I refer to as "BBB" (Boring, But Will Bang) -- call me chaos while I was f*cking her, but opted not to post it as my lawyer friend said it'd open Shannon up to all kinds of liability. Oddly enough, texting and phone conversations are fair game. Video in your own home isn't.
That's right. Video without everyone's knowledge is illegal.
I've wanted to film some of my sales calls (by wearing a hidden camera)to show my sales powers in action (and to study it) but don't for that reason.
RE: The Life of chaosvrgn (MLS) - Ascension to ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)hood - eternity - 08-31-2017
It is an honor ascending to ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)hood along side you.
Happy Birthday!!!!!!