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RE: A Clean Slate - EPRHA 2.0 - 4Kingdoms - 04-25-2016
(04-25-2016, 11:07 AM)maxx55 Wrote: Just got off with the phone with Cory Skyy.
He said that the girls who give me their number, but don't ever meet up with me just wanted the validation and weren't actually interested.
This goes both ways... I'm a single man, a lot of married men I work with tell me how many numbers they got and threw away on their days off.
When I ask why do you ask if you are married and faithful to your wife?? "I just want to see if I can get her number." Some men need validation too even though they weren't actually interested.
RE: A Clean Slate - EPRHA 2.0 - maxx55 - 05-02-2016
Just want to vent a bit. I'm happy about the direction I'm gradually moving my life towards. In general, I feel like I'm more grateful for most of what I have in my life.
I'm still kinda annoyed towards girls though. At the moment I feel like I'm in a purgatory in that area. I don't really have any real intentions to talk to new girls because I just think that the same old shit will happen again. At the same time, it's a pain in my ass to not bust any nuts. The thought of porn has crossed my mind, but I feel like I'm off of it for good. Even though that's good, it only makes the whole situation relating to girls even worse. At night before I go to sleep, I sometimes act like I'm fucking a girl. Just doing that helps me feel a little better and then I go to sleep.
I saw Shannon's post about finding the kind of person you'd enjoy in your life by being where'd they go. It totally makes sense to me and I know that I'd have no problem finding them. I can find exactly what I know I like at the gym and at the library. Having them become a part of my life is a bit of a different story. From the book I'm reading (don't recall the title), I've acted in the past through the Shadow King masculine energy as the high chair tyrant. Pretty much that everyone else I interact with served me on some level. I didn't consciously think that, but that's exactly how I subconsciously believed. That's why I had so much rage towards girls. It's just that now it'd be nice to get of this purgatory.
I'm considering Julien's TenGame product. Sounds like it'd be helpful. And I wish he would've created something like that a hell of a lot sooner.
RE: A Clean Slate - EPRHA 2.0 - ncbeareatingman - 05-02-2016
(04-13-2016, 05:32 PM)dweller94 Wrote:(04-05-2016, 01:05 PM)maxx55 Wrote: Fun fact: Since solfeggio frequencies are simply musical notes on a certain scale, it's just music. And since music+subs is fine, then this ancient music is fine. Also the solfeggio scale corresponds to Do Re Mi Fa So La Ti, which each correspond to one of the main 7 chakras. Righteous. From now on, I'm listening to the solfeggio with my subs whenever possible.
It's like an active meditation on the notes. I did it earlier today when I couldn't get back to sleep and I felt great today emotionally.
The tone 396 corresponds with freedom from guilt and fear, it's one of the tones in the track I listened to.
Current Goals:
Continue the upward spiral of high sub hours, meditation, tai chi.
New Goals: Cleanse all of my chakras, and build the energy in each of the main 7. Working on Root chakra.
Doing this, I'm effectively handling my issues from the belief level and energetic level. My emotions have no choice, but to be sorted out. And the result of this is a powerful clean slate and a continuous raise in vibration. Winning
I am learning energy healing and know and practice a few methods. You can charge and make your chakras spin faster which will bring certain benefits but cleaning them is another story anyone who claims to have done so without a spiritual master / teacher is under utter delusion and the rate at which they get get impure again is crazy. If you want growth get a teacher whom is a master in the field.
Do you wear/use any gemstones or crystals you can use them to aid you in any chakra work you do.
If you want any chakra or healing work doing or if anyone wants it for free I am more than happy to do so and it is done remotely, you can tell me how you feel afterwards
Thanx Man but I already keep them clean and clear with wearing my rejuvenizer pendant (google if interested,NOT selling anything here!!)as well as working with one of my spiritual teachers,Phyllis Light,who is excellent at clearing tons of 'stuff' conscious and sub-conscious stuff especially, what the deeper programming is that is causing and contributing to the Chak's spining backwards,off center,muddled,dirty,ect...lighthealing dotta com is that deal...but thanx anyway and good luck with your work. cant wait to finally get E2. I soooo NEED it ! geez!!
RE: A Clean Slate - EPRHA 2.0 - maxx55 - 05-03-2016
I could totally vent more today, but I'm choosing not to. I may not post consistently in my journal, but I don't want it to be filled with gripes.
So I'm gonna detail the dream I had last night. I'm normally not into "Dream posts" because nothing actually happened in terms of results. I'm only posting this here for people into deciphering dreams. This one was definitely out of the ordinary for me.
It was like a zombie apocalypse. Except it wasn't worldwide, it was just local, it felt like it was just happening in my world. There were "zombies" wearing carnival character costumes. They would try to grab you, eat your flesh and then you turned into a zombie. There was like a little hallway that hid a safe city on the other side. When I came into the city, I soon ran into a girl I haven't talked to in a while. We stuck with each other. We were safe here until the zombies found the hallway and followed started coming inside. At this point, the dream becomes movie/show-ish. It's like I thought "Oh no, they're gonna get me", but I wasn't reacting the way a person in real life would. One of us, I think it was me, discover that static electricity turns them back to regular humans again. It got even more movie-ish at this point. Some guy yelled out "There's a way to turn them back!" and right on cue I was like "It's static electricity!" and I pointed towards the sky lol. It feels fun from this point on and we all charge up and zap the zombies simultaneously and save everyone. Then, like the end of a show or something, we all had to exit and we were supposed to do this in orderly lines. Me and the girl went out of line and took another route doing flips and I slid on belly on a slide. It was awesome.
It's odd for me because I have never dreamed about zombies, let alone a zombie apocalypse, and I've never dreamed about life-threating situations and not fully felt afraid before.
RE: A Clean Slate - EPRHA 2.0 - maxx55 - 05-06-2016
Status update
Back in home town. Started Whole30 program yesterday. This is really strict, but I'm gonna finish it. I know I'll be eating Primal for the rest of the summer though.
Going to get back to my training after an almost 2 week break. Mainly bodyweight for today.
I busted a few nuts yesterday to some porn. I thought it was totally out of me, but not yet. I think this is due to me feeling even more frustrated. I'm in a house with my parents. My chances of having sex with a hot girl are even worse than on campus. Regardless, I'm doing what I can to focus myself on 3 things this summer: Cut and get lean as fuck, handle my emotional stuff, and immerse myself in the performing arts to better my skills.
I know that I should change my major to be performance based. I KNOW it's the right thing to do. But as I've said, the people in my major don't really talk to me and have their cliques. I just think that that's bad enough as it is. If I change to the performance major, I'll be around them WAY more often. I can only see that as me emotionally abusing myself by forcing myself to do that. Right now, I definitely don't need that. I have enough shit to do without making it worse for myself. On one hand, from what I understand, making the choice not to change majors would be acting from a "victim" mentality. And making the choice to change would be from the "victor" mentality. But really, IDGAF right now. I'm not gonna fuck myself up even more emotionally. So I don't know what to do with this situation at the moment.
I may reduce my E2 hours to somewhere between 16-18 to see what happens. I've been feeling maybe a bit more tired lately with my high hours (19-23). For a day, I considered stopping E2 for a limited amount of time so that I could get some tapping sessions in and then resume E2. I'd only do the tapping sessions for the things regarding my major and girls. Once those problems are out of my life, I see myself having no problem spending another 8+ months with E2.
On the plus side, it's getting easier for me to only make comparisons to myself. I haven't read anyone's journal on here in awhile, except for Shannon's.
RE: A Clean Slate - EPRHA 2.0 - Nox - 05-06-2016
In regards to your lowered hours, you might want to drop way back down to maybe 8-10 here and there to give yourself sometime to process what you've been churning on. I just did that for a couple of days and I'm pretty worked up right now with all if the changes and adjustments that seem to have been made. Im thinking im going to start scheduling shorter time periods now once or twice every week or two. It's been an awesome morning.
RE: A Clean Slate - EPRHA 2.0 - maxx55 - 05-20-2016
I found myself coming to the forum a bit more often recently to see what's up. I found myself focusing on other E2 journals, occasionally looking at an AM6 or Magnet journal. I'm not in a hurry though, at least not anymore. I totally intend to do AM6, but it's no longer "Oh, when I finally get to AM6..." it's more like "Oh, when E2 finally deals with everything all the back to day 1!"
My life at the moment is definitely in transition. I'm doing what I can take the next step in my career. Something tells me that it's practically written in stone somewhere that I have already succeeded. It's just a matter of time and preparation now. I don't see the absolute in front of me yet, but I've experienced too many coincidences. At the VERY least I KNOW that without a doubt I'll be a successful actor and spend practically my entire career in the entertainment industry. Just a heads up, I may delete my account and all of my posts. So I want to say now thank you everyone for your support! It's awesome to be a part of a community of like-minded people that want each other to succeed. There's nothing like it. I also want to say thanks to Shannon for all that he's done. Seriously Shannon, I hope you exceed what you think is possible with your sub technology and in your personal life. I know nothing compares to exceeding what you think is possible!
I'm not saying goodbye yet. I just felt that I should tell everyone now while I know I can. I'll stay here as long as I can, but the time will come when I have to go. I'll probably still stay a customer though.
I have less thoughts of aggression towards people and I'm starting to see the world differently. I'm really starting to see everything as just energy. A persons problems, money, the new hit song each year, it's all just a form of energy.
In terms of resistance, I've been frequently watching porn and masturbating. It's almost like I don't care anymore about avoiding it. I watched but didn't keep going for the full PMO both today and yesterday. I guess I'll consciously avoid it again and see how that goes.
Really, it's difficult for me to objectively know exactly what E2 has done and what I have done through conscious efforts. Regardless, E2 is definitely helping. Part of me is thinking that E2 is helping me with success in my career. If that's the case, that's AWESOME! The most noticeable difference that I've noticed that I haven't tried to consciously change is that I look in the mirror and see my face and I think my face is hot. Like I have a sexy island man look, but not the stereotypical kind. I still don't have totally flawless skin, but without my glasses/contacts my face looks pretty hot. First time I've ever thought about myself like that that strongly. I also tend to think "Why wouldn't hot girls want me" and then proceed to list the reasons they should (but I've thought that in the past, so it's not that big of a deal to me)
Outisde of subs, I'm on Day 15 of my Whole 30. At first it was a total pain in the butt. I don't have a gluten allergy, I've tested it. I actually miss Primal. At the same time, I'm now kinda use to it. I still have chocolate daily (100% cacao) blended into my green smoothies (the smoothies are also new, but great for getting in carbs!). It's also a good position to be in to have trouble getting in my macros for the day. When I first got on Whole 30, I had this problem (which in a way is nice). I'm also doing strength training. I'm gonna do a pure serious cut for the whole summer or until I get lean to my liking. I also have the 28 day FitTea. I have already seen results in the first two weeks and I've only been strength training and walking. When I add in HIIT, it'll be insane.
I also have Julien's product TenGame. I haven't had the chance to watch it yet, I've been so busy. Online classes are time consuming and with how often I eat, my training schedule, and house chores, I'm busy until night rolls around.
I'm also going to start looking into these astrological cycles when I get the time. I'm a sun Leo and a moon Cancer. I have to figure out how the Saturn cycles relate to this.
I'm also going to buy Preston Smiles's book, Love Louder. He's a great dude.
I'm still getting anywhere from 10 hours to 17 hours of E2 a day. Most of the time 13-16. I plan sticking with it until I am Shannon's description of what someone who's hit Day 1 on this is like. I don't know how long that'll take, but that's how long I'll do it. And ideally, AM7 will be out by then!
RE: A Clean Slate - EPRHA 2.0 - CatMan - 05-21-2016
This is fantastic!
I really do hope you stick with it until that day 1 thing happens. I'm EXTREMELY curious about that, I've doubted whether anybody would actually run with it that long. I hope you do it, the effects should be remarkable. At LEAST until AM7 is here, run EHPRA 2.0. Wow. I feel this one program, with it's goals, could really be the one single "must use" program. It deals with so many different things afflicting people.
On the porn and masturbation thing, that's 100% resistance/fear. I get those same pangs when I'm having trouble some days...if I resist them, they go away. It's just an attempt to go back to familiar patterns in stormy seas. See it, and resist it from now on. Porn and masturbation isn't something an alpha male, sex magnet, woman magnet, James Bond would do. So if you strive to become one of those, then those two addictions need to go!
RE: A Clean Slate - EPRHA 2.0 - maxx55 - 05-21-2016
(05-21-2016, 11:03 AM)CatMan Wrote: This is fantastic!
I really do hope you stick with it until that day 1 thing happens. I'm EXTREMELY curious about that, I've doubted whether anybody would actually run with it that long. I hope you do it, the effects should be remarkable. At LEAST until AM7 is here, run EHPRA 2.0. Wow. I feel this one program, with it's goals, could really be the one single "must use" program. It deals with so many different things afflicting people.
On the porn and masturbation thing, that's 100% resistance/fear. I get those same pangs when I'm having trouble some days...if I resist them, they go away. It's just an attempt to go back to familiar patterns in stormy seas. See it, and resist it from now on. Porn and masturbation isn't something an alpha male, sex magnet, woman magnet, James Bond would do. So if you strive to become one of those, then those two addictions need to go!
Thanks CatMan! I'll definitely run this until AM7 is released. I don't want to go back 5G tech. 5.5 G is too big of a leap to go back.
And yeah, I'm going to commit to letting go of porn. It doesn't serve in any way but physically getting off. It's draining on the energetic and psychological level so it's time to let it go for good
RE: A Clean Slate - EPRHA 2.0 - CatMan - 05-21-2016
My pleasure, man!
I'm intrigued by all of this 5.5G talk. People really say it's a huge step up in power. I didn't think it would be, I figured it'd be just a slight difference, and that 6G would be the "real" upgrade in power. It must be really something else entirely then? I have EHPRA 2.0, but have not used it at all. Had plans to maybe dabble with it in the future...I'm intrigued by all the talk about 5.5G being so much more powerful than 5G.
Keep going, man! You're doing great.
RE: A Clean Slate - EPRHA 2.0 - Shannon - 05-21-2016
CatMan, 6G IS the "real" step up in power. It's just that backporting just a few of the technologies is that powerful.
Personally, I think you're afraid to use it because some part of you is afraid to deal with those fears you have. But when you finally do get around to using it, I also think you're going to feel ridiculous for not using it sooner.
RE: A Clean Slate - EPRHA 2.0 - maxx55 - 05-31-2016
I was gonna do this update this Friday since it’ll be the last day of my Whole30 and also about 3 months since I started E2, but it’s been on my mind to do it now.
The Bad
First, the unpleasant. Recently, I’ve been feeling that anger towards girls again. I haven’t even been around any at all. I’ve been at home literally almost all day every day unless I have to get groceries or something. Parents are driving my car during the day so yeah. But I don’t really feel like going out to do something. I’m cool and comfortable with it, even moreso than before E2, but I don’t feel the need to like I did before E2. Anyway, my point is that the few times I have been out and seen any girl even remotely attractive, I’ve started getting irritated again. Why? Well I thought about it and it dawned on me that I just simply feel like have been unappreciated by the opposite sex for pretty much my entire life. I did use to think that girls were “out of my league”, but once I learned the basics of game, that kind of thinking left me. I started to see myself for who I was. I thought of myself as the lover, the badboy that gets girls. No matter how much I bought into it I was never actually fucking the girls I wanted to. And I can say that now I think to myself “Why wouldn’t a girl want me?” and then I proceed to mentally list all the awesome things I have done, am doing, and will do in my life. I especially think it’s odd that being an actor or any kind performer that I have a problem with girls. The ONLY answer I can come up with is that my own hatred towards girls/desire to make them endure the emotional pain that they caused me is what is holding me back due to the principles of the universe. I think that until that is completely gone I won’t be able to succeed in that area. Even if I did use AOSI now, I don’t think it would work. I’ve also still been struggling with porn. It’s not that I waste hours a day now, maybe 30 minutes a couple times a week. But still it’s gotta go.
I’m not sure how E2 will help me with the situation of making friends with the people within my performing major. I’m actually planning on taking classes in my other major to avoid the people in my performing major. Regardless, it’ll have plenty of time to do something before 2017 rolls in and I have to go back to the performing classes.
The Good
On the plus side, I’ve noticed a lot of interesting things happening in my life. It seems like it’s easier for me to manifest in my life now. To give specific examples, a body weight analyzer that was over $100 went on sale for $50. I told my parents, but they weren’t getting it for me and I didn’t have the money. The next day out of nowhere I wake up to a text from my aunt that I haven’t spoken with in a few months due to being busy and she randomly was telling me that she wanted to give me $100. The analyzer was still on sale and I ordered it. Should be here tomorrow
My dog that I’m close to has been in the garage for about a year now. That’s where my parents keep him, but I always wanted him to stay inside. They also stopped taking him to the vet a long time ago. I mention something about it and a few days later, me and my dad give him a bath and bring him inside. I cried that night out of happiness. Thinking back through the years, my dog is the only one I’ve had a relationship with that had never betrayed me or been tricked me. I mean my friends are good and all, I don’t have shitty friends, but my dog’s been around for like 14 years. That’s the longest relationship/friendship I’ve had really outside of my parents. I’m really seeing the value in that. We’re also going to take him to the vet in June to get him caught up so I’m so glad!
My dad randomly asked me if I would use this home gym equipment if he bought it. (He already knew the answer. I already use the little bit we have at home and train 4-5 times a week lol). I told him yeah, we talked with my mom, and he ordered it! I’ll be able to do pullups, dips, pulldowns, and finally weighted squats in the comfort of my own home!! I’ve asked for this for at least a year, probably two, and now all of a sudden we actually get it?! Too many “co-incidences” to not be related to my E2 usage and constantly putting in effort to raise my vibration!
I know it’s a combination of the both of them because my dad won an auction on ebay for a piece of musical equipment for less than half its retail price. One of his students also gave him money as a gift and he said he’s never that before in the past years he’s been his teacher. When I first back home, my dog’s energy level wasn’t the best, but it’s picked up to be almost the same it was when he was just a few years old! There was also that news story about the gorilla that tried to help the kid that fell in the area at the zoo but was shot. My dad started talking about how sad it is that they shot the gorilla. Not just once, but like 3 or 4 times. It’s TOTALLY not like him to be upset about the death of a wild animal, especially some 400lb gorilla. It stuck out to me for sure.
Anyway, I now know without a doubt that E2 is helping. I only wonder how much longer until my past with girls is handled. Once that’s out the way and the situation with my performing major, my life will be pretty much perfect!
P.S. Still training hard and working to burn bodyfat. I’m doing calorie shifting now to prevent plateaus and I’m aiming to start adding in HIIT cardio once I hit 14 or 13 percent. I’m aiming to be single digit by the end of the summer. If it happens sooner, awesome. Then I’d start reverse diet bulking to stay lean!
Also, has anyone found the best hours for E2? I've been doing about 13.5 hours on average a day.
Edit: I forgot to mention. People make the comment to me that I'm "handsome" more frequently now. It's only older people (no milfs yet). I forgot to mention it because people told me this before but it's more frequent now. I don't think about it either. To me "handsome" is just some bs term. I'd take "hot" and "fine" or something like that as a real compliment.
RE: A Clean Slate - EPRHA 2.0 - maxx55 - 06-08-2016
Well tomorrow I'm going through a dental surgery to remove some wisdom teeth. As a result, I have to take it easy with my training to prevent any excessive bleeding. I'm just gonna focus on maintaining my current level of muscle mass. Ideally, I'll drop some fat too on my time off since I'm still doing calorie shifting.
I'm sticking with 12-14 hours a day on E2 for a week or two to see how I respond. Then I may cut back to 8-10 hours. Since I've ramping up intensity on my training, I noticed my sleep quality has gone down a bit while I'm listening to the sub at night. So I'm gonna see what I'll do about that.
I still from time to time masturbate to porn. I've been asking my sexual energy to be used to heal me and manifest different circumstances, but I still have urges to fuck/masturbate. If the OE in E2 could change this that'd be great! But we'll have to wait and see.
I can look back on my 3 months of E2 and see that progress has been made. I really hope it multiplies as I continue for the next 9 months. If it does, then I know I'll be completely healed! Maybe even within this year (but I'll still finish the full year of running the sub)! And then I'd move on to AOSI.
AOSI Speculation/Comments
While it seems like others have been having some good first week results with AOSI, I totally expect more from it in the future! It's great that most of the scripting is focused on self-esteem, confidence, etc. and yet people are seeing the external results so soon!
Within the first couple of months, I'd love for all these journals to go from "She looked at me/She was staring/She smiled when I said hey" to "She approached me and wouldn't leave me alone/She came over and asked me to fuck her/She ended up begging me for a date". That'd be awesome! I've seen girls look at me repeatedly, even stare, and smile when I say hey, and in the end it didn't result in sex so I don't count that as anything. The rare times in my life though that a girl asked for a date or to have sex, I believe it definitely counts.
I also think it's awesome that Shannon is working on an improved AOSI already! I can just imagine it now: "Oh my powerful subliminal technology isn't bypassing the societal bullshit stuck in girl's heads?! Well I'll show them!" *Goes off to perform subliminal magic* Personally, I'd love for AOSI to work with obvious results for everyone and to be just a TASTE of what WM3 and SM4 will be in full 6G!
RE: A Clean Slate - EPRHA 2.0 - ArcticFox - 06-09-2016
Congratulations on your Whole30!! Definitely not an easy task, but easily one of the most rewarding!