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Sean's OGSF - Sean - 02-04-2014
OGSF - Day 16 - WHOAH!
It's been several weeks now that I've been using OGSF. It is interesting to observe my reactions, sometimes after they've occurred.
Trap 1: For a couple days, the thought kept appearing, "Hm. Looks like I'm over it. I'm all confident now, and fear's not in my way. I guess OGSF wasn't really needed. I can quit now." A couple of times, I bought into it, but kept to my commitment to listen to OGSF.
Traps 2 & 3 have been cycling for the past few days.
Trap 2: The temptation of destructive habits of excessive escapism and avoidance. I've been watching a huge amount of television the past couple of days, and not doing the things I committed to myself that I would complete. I left work last night, motivated and energized to get my laundry washed and folded. When I got home, that energy appeared to dissipate, and I allowed it to do so. Watched some videos instead.
Trap 3: Pure, raw, GSF blasting. This hit me hard when I was already low from not accomplishing anything. I experienced waves of guilt for not doing what I had committed to doing, shame for being single, and fear that I would be lonely for the rest of my life. As I type out what happened last night, I can see more clearly how everything matched up with the trifecta of despair that this program addresses.
This morning, I finally followed through on my goal of exercising before work. It is a first step toward establishing control over my life.