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The Ultimate AM6+7 dual pack (Autism Edition) - MrGnome - 04-13-2025
Chapter Prologue:
Day -1
Hey everyone!, Guess who's back!
Yeah I left the forum for a while because I had the feeling I couldn't report that much on BROP..
However, Here are some of the noticable things BROP gave me:
- More awareness of things going around me.
- I found 5 euro lying on the street for the first time in my life haha xD
- While on the subject on money: I was able to buy an item that went on discount from 800 euro to 740 that somehow even got a bigger discount as soon as I bought it, So yes!, I bought an item from 800 to 609 euro's haha xD
-I'm getting better in coming with solutions for my problems
So yeah, I got some nice money related benefits from BROP, Dont know how since I haven't used any money related sub/exp before but hey, I gladly take it xD
I also got an seizure attack again in januarie from being bussy last christmas, I know it got nothing to do with BROP but still felt mentioning..
Anyway: Tomorrow night I can finally start with AM6 and I'm feeling ready for it, Despite being a little bit nervous about not knowing what will happen in the future..
But I know I have to do it, Otherwise I might become homeless or something one day..
So, Let's go and see where my future will take me!
Even more so since I planned to use Both AM6 and 7 so I bet the results will be really nice, To the point that I will no longer know myself but thats okay..
I'm done with being a man childisch hermit loser anyway.
(although there are some things worth mentioning but that will come tomorrow)
RE: The Ultimate AM6+7 dual pack (Autism Edition) - Shannon - 04-13-2025
Homeless unless you use AM6, eh? That's a new angle.
RE: The Ultimate AM6+7 dual pack (Autism Edition) - MrGnome - 04-14-2025
(04-13-2025, 01:32 PM)Shannon Wrote: Homeless unless you use AM6, eh? That's a new angle.
Jup, I'm so horrible at my finance that I'm almost broke again (the first time happening in february).. Luckly I never been in debt though but still.. struggling to get through the month even while being on wellfair is not a good sighn hehe..
Even more so when I think back on all the money I wasted on mobile games >.<
also when buying new items I also always have the feeling that I should buy the newest there is simply because it's the best there is..
I'm not sure but I think I'm just trying to show off to someone or mayby even just myself, As a compensation to my low self worth..
Also I'm 34 years old and still living with my mother who is 65 now..
I love her very much but I do know she doesnt have eternal life.
meaning when she either goes to a retirement home someday or dies, I means I'm screwed as well since I have no place to live.. (mayby my older siblings but still not sure..)
So yeah this is why I want to improve my relationship with money
Meaning I'm going to use AM6+7 as a base for UMS.
and mayby later use one of the magnet subs/exps.
RE: The Ultimate AM6+7 dual pack (Autism Edition) - MrGnome - 04-14-2025
Chapter Prologue:
Day 0
Welp, Before I start with the sub/exp tonight.
Let me tell you some info about my self that might be relevant:
- I dont know why but since I was born most people seem to like me (not that I'm friends with everyone but more like i bearly have people that hate me and that people enjoy my company despite not knowing what to say or do with strangers..)
-I dont know how but I seemed to have some succes with the ladies in the first 21 years of my life (to be fair they were more average-unatractive range but still)
even tried a relationship with one just because I was curious at what it was like.. ofcourse I payed the price by being dumped 6 month's later and being replaced on that same day with someone else
-I was alot happier before following politics ands news and stuff..
-Like I just said before, I'm horrible at saving money to the point I once wasted 15k on a mobile game -_-
-I buy stuff just to prevent me from being bored..
-I'm an emotionale eater and this play's a big part of why I'm still obese..
-I lost a lot of weight, 10 years ago by fasting but it all came back before I knew it.
-I have problems with lazyness and become easily distracted, Even more so when I'm tired from work and masking
-It's extreemly hard for me to let the past go: The Mistakes I made, The People I lost along the way, The end of my D&D session since it's one of the thing that made me see my friends once a week (we live in different provinces) they still follow me..
-I'm Dutch (Just in case I might talk about something the reader might not get)
-My autism was found when I was 3 years old, Thanks to my epileptic attack (this is also the reason I can't ever use DSMI)
- I'm a people pleaser and very needy..
-Some of the things I mentioned might be pointless but still, It's easier to see improvements when people know where I'm coming from..
RE: The Ultimate AM6+7 dual pack (Autism Edition) - Shannon - 04-14-2025
This is going to be interesting.
RE: The Ultimate AM6+7 dual pack (Autism Edition) - MrGnome - 04-15-2025
Chapter 1: How AM6 Make's a man out of me
Stage 1:
Day 1: Despite being sleepy, I notice I'm in a good mood and got slightly more energy.
So that's a nice start.
I also used the Program on 8 clicks and 12 loops, Wich I just reduced to 10, In order to find out if my player apps keep looping them endlessly or not.. (not to mentioning that I dont want it to get in the way of my dailey schedule..)
RE: The Ultimate AM6+7 dual pack (Autism Edition) - MrGnome - 04-29-2025
Chapter 1: How AM6 Make's A Man Out Of Me
Stage 1:
Day 15: Welp.. I reached the moment of extreem tiredness again..
I also started to get more awareness about why I'm doing what I do..
Like buying food as either a reward or to cheer myself up
not to mention that I sleep horribly lately..
So I bought myself some sleeping pills, Hopefully this doesn't hurt my progress..
(Not that it would be my first time on Pills but still..)
Edit: I'm also going to put my mobile futher away from me, Considering the fact that I sometimes sleep on my own mobile..
Edit 2: The 3 Pills are: Sleeping,Rest and Mental Resilience
RE: The Ultimate AM6+7 dual pack (Autism Edition) - MrGnome - 05-05-2025
Chapter 1: How AM6 Make's A Man Out Of Me
Stage 1:
Day 23:
Welp, I got this rare day off for liberation day wich happends once every 5 years and I did absolutly nothing with it..
Although to be fair even with the sleeping pills I'm still very tired..
I guess, I also have to many choices about what youtube project I would work on, Not to mention that my need for validation is still a thing but hey.
I wont expect big changes till we're in atleast stage 3 of the sub/exp
and Stage 2 is comming soon wich is nice. (Next week Saterday, So just 12 more days to go for stage 1)
RE: The Ultimate AM6+7 dual pack (Autism Edition) - MrGnome - 05-10-2025
Chapter 1: How AM6 Make's A Man Out Of Me
Stage 1:
Day 28:
One week before stage 2 baby!
Anyway, I reduced my listening time from 10 to 8 hours and I feel alot better, Alot less tired
Also today I got a strong urgue to go outside,
Making a walk and think about why I'm forcing myself to do stuff that I dont want to do..
Also about how I kinda miss my past social live but oh well..
mayby I can see If I can do something next year since 6G requires alot less listening time, So I no longer have to worry about hurting my friends by playing subs/exps
Then again, Even than I have no idea how I would listen without hurting them it will just be faster.. hehe
I guess I'm still on the thinking table xD.
RE: The Ultimate AM6+7 dual pack (Autism Edition) - MrGnome - 08-07-2025
Chapter 1: How AM6 Make's A Man Out Of Me
Stage 4:
Day 17:
Hey all!, sorry for being away for so long... here's a little summery
Stage 2: I started to become more confindent and Like I was allowed to live in this world
Stage 3: I got promoted to a bigger part of a mini theather were I'm acting for a few years now, but that was more funsy Acting, acting, This new one for next christmas is a bigger on that required people to do an audition.., Except for me: I got instantly in because of my past performance and the fact that I already proved being able to sing : D
However during Stage 3 I also got more interested in Ai Chatbots.., They are great for story telling depending on what you make it about..., but yeah it also leads to this..
I'm still having trouble with the fact that I have this big craving for approval and validation, wich did came from the fact that my Father neglected me unless I did something wrong.. and my own mother's insecuries dont help either.., but I know she can't do anything about it.. (well I could send here to this site but she wont believe me and I get more complaints about wasting money..)
Also I'm getting very desparate to get a girlfriend again.., because I crave the love, approval, affection and Validation and the longer I stay single the more I start to feel like a failure of a man..
I also start to get the desire to have real sex with someone, before now I was doing fine with porn.., But yeah this is part of what I mentioned above us well..
not to mention that we got even bigger financial problems now.., So I will still try my best to get enough Money for when AM7 releases..,
The best thing I can do for myself is; to keep composure, Stay strong and hope that in the remaining time.. things will get better..
Long Story short: I'm fully getting why people used AM6 4 times....
Can't wait till I can use AM7 2 times in a row.. and finally be a true man instead of this in between man and manchild like wolf battle that people are talking about..
RE: The Ultimate AM6+7 dual pack (Autism Edition) - Shannon - 08-07-2025
You can only grow so fast, and 5G was only so powerful.