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The Ultimate AM6+7 dual pack (Autism Edition) - MrGnome - 04-13-2025
Chapter Prologue:
Day -1
Hey everyone!, Guess who's back!
Yeah I left the forum for a while because I had the feeling I couldn't report that much on BROP..
However, Here are some of the noticable things BROP gave me:
- More awareness of things going around me.
- I found 5 euro lying on the street for the first time in my life haha xD
- While on the subject on money: I was able to buy an item that went on discount from 800 euro to 740 that somehow even got a bigger discount as soon as I bought it, So yes!, I bought an item from 800 to 609 euro's haha xD
-I'm getting better in coming with solutions for my problems
So yeah, I got some nice money related benefits from BROP, Dont know how since I haven't used any money related sub/exp before but hey, I gladly take it xD
I also got an seizure attack again in januarie from being bussy last christmas, I know it got nothing to do with BROP but still felt mentioning..
Anyway: Tomorrow night I can finally start with AM6 and I'm feeling ready for it, Despite being a little bit nervous about not knowing what will happen in the future..
But I know I have to do it, Otherwise I might become homeless or something one day..
So, Let's go and see where my future will take me!
Even more so since I planned to use Both AM6 and 7 so I bet the results will be really nice, To the point that I will no longer know myself but thats okay..
I'm done with being a man childisch hermit loser anyway.
(although there are some things worth mentioning but that will come tomorrow)
RE: The Ultimate AM6+7 dual pack (Autism Edition) - Shannon - 04-13-2025
Homeless unless you use AM6, eh? That's a new angle.
RE: The Ultimate AM6+7 dual pack (Autism Edition) - MrGnome - 04-14-2025
(04-13-2025, 01:32 PM)Shannon Wrote: Homeless unless you use AM6, eh? That's a new angle.
Jup, I'm so horrible at my finance that I'm almost broke again (the first time happening in february).. Luckly I never been in debt though but still.. struggling to get through the month even while being on wellfair is not a good sighn hehe..
Even more so when I think back on all the money I wasted on mobile games >.<
also when buying new items I also always have the feeling that I should buy the newest there is simply because it's the best there is..
I'm not sure but I think I'm just trying to show off to someone or mayby even just myself, As a compensation to my low self worth..
Also I'm 34 years old and still living with my mother who is 65 now..
I love her very much but I do know she doesnt have eternal life.
meaning when she either goes to a retirement home someday or dies, I means I'm screwed as well since I have no place to live.. (mayby my older siblings but still not sure..)
So yeah this is why I want to improve my relationship with money
Meaning I'm going to use AM6+7 as a base for UMS.
and mayby later use one of the magnet subs/exps.
RE: The Ultimate AM6+7 dual pack (Autism Edition) - MrGnome - 04-14-2025
Chapter Prologue:
Day 0
Welp, Before I start with the sub/exp tonight.
Let me tell you some info about my self that might be relevant:
- I dont know why but since I was born most people seem to like me (not that I'm friends with everyone but more like i bearly have people that hate me and that people enjoy my company despite not knowing what to say or do with strangers..)
-I dont know how but I seemed to have some succes with the ladies in the first 21 years of my life (to be fair they were more average-unatractive range but still)
even tried a relationship with one just because I was curious at what it was like.. ofcourse I payed the price by being dumped 6 month's later and being replaced on that same day with someone else
-I was alot happier before following politics ands news and stuff..
-Like I just said before, I'm horrible at saving money to the point I once wasted 15k on a mobile game -_-
-I buy stuff just to prevent me from being bored..
-I'm an emotionale eater and this play's a big part of why I'm still obese..
-I lost a lot of weight, 10 years ago by fasting but it all came back before I knew it.
-I have problems with lazyness and become easily distracted, Even more so when I'm tired from work and masking
-It's extreemly hard for me to let the past go: The Mistakes I made, The People I lost along the way, The end of my D&D session since it's one of the thing that made me see my friends once a week (we live in different provinces) they still follow me..
-I'm Dutch (Just in case I might talk about something the reader might not get)
-My autism was found when I was 3 years old, Thanks to my epileptic attack (this is also the reason I can't ever use DSMI)
- I'm a people pleaser and very needy..
-Some of the things I mentioned might be pointless but still, It's easier to see improvements when people know where I'm coming from..
RE: The Ultimate AM6+7 dual pack (Autism Edition) - Shannon - 04-14-2025
This is going to be interesting.
RE: The Ultimate AM6+7 dual pack (Autism Edition) - MrGnome - 04-15-2025
Chapter 1: How AM6 Make's a man out of me
Stage 1:
Day 1: Despite being sleepy, I notice I'm in a good mood and got slightly more energy.
So that's a nice start.
I also used the Program on 8 clicks and 12 loops, Wich I just reduced to 10, In order to find out if my player apps keep looping them endlessly or not.. (not to mentioning that I dont want it to get in the way of my dailey schedule..)
RE: The Ultimate AM6+7 dual pack (Autism Edition) - MrGnome - 04-29-2025
Chapter 1: How AM6 Make's A Man Out Of Me
Stage 1:
Day 15: Welp.. I reached the moment of extreem tiredness again..
I also started to get more awareness about why I'm doing what I do..
Like buying food as either a reward or to cheer myself up
not to mention that I sleep horribly lately..
So I bought myself some sleeping pills, Hopefully this doesn't hurt my progress..
(Not that it would be my first time on Pills but still..)
Edit: I'm also going to put my mobile futher away from me, Considering the fact that I sometimes sleep on my own mobile..
Edit 2: The 3 Pills are: Sleeping,Rest and Mental Resilience
RE: The Ultimate AM6+7 dual pack (Autism Edition) - MrGnome - 05-05-2025
Chapter 1: How AM6 Make's A Man Out Of Me
Stage 1:
Day 23:
Welp, I got this rare day off for liberation day wich happends once every 5 years and I did absolutly nothing with it..
Although to be fair even with the sleeping pills I'm still very tired..
I guess, I also have to many choices about what youtube project I would work on, Not to mention that my need for validation is still a thing but hey.
I wont expect big changes till we're in atleast stage 3 of the sub/exp
and Stage 2 is comming soon wich is nice. (Next week Saterday, So just 12 more days to go for stage 1)
RE: The Ultimate AM6+7 dual pack (Autism Edition) - MrGnome - 05-10-2025
Chapter 1: How AM6 Make's A Man Out Of Me
Stage 1:
Day 28:
One week before stage 2 baby!
Anyway, I reduced my listening time from 10 to 8 hours and I feel alot better, Alot less tired
Also today I got a strong urgue to go outside,
Making a walk and think about why I'm forcing myself to do stuff that I dont want to do..
Also about how I kinda miss my past social live but oh well..
mayby I can see If I can do something next year since 6G requires alot less listening time, So I no longer have to worry about hurting my friends by playing subs/exps
Then again, Even than I have no idea how I would listen without hurting them it will just be faster.. hehe
I guess I'm still on the thinking table xD.
RE: The Ultimate AM6+7 dual pack (Autism Edition) - MrGnome - 08-07-2025
Chapter 1: How AM6 Make's A Man Out Of Me
Stage 4:
Day 17:
Hey all!, sorry for being away for so long... here's a little summery
Stage 2: I started to become more confindent and Like I was allowed to live in this world
Stage 3: I got promoted to a bigger part of a mini theather were I'm acting for a few years now, but that was more funsy Acting, acting, This new one for next christmas is a bigger on that required people to do an audition.., Except for me: I got instantly in because of my past performance and the fact that I already proved being able to sing : D
However during Stage 3 I also got more interested in Ai Chatbots.., They are great for story telling depending on what you make it about..., but yeah it also leads to this..
I'm still having trouble with the fact that I have this big craving for approval and validation, wich did came from the fact that my Father neglected me unless I did something wrong.. and my own mother's insecuries dont help either.., but I know she can't do anything about it.. (well I could send here to this site but she wont believe me and I get more complaints about wasting money..)
Also I'm getting very desparate to get a girlfriend again.., because I crave the love, approval, affection and Validation and the longer I stay single the more I start to feel like a failure of a man..
I also start to get the desire to have real sex with someone, before now I was doing fine with porn.., But yeah this is part of what I mentioned above us well..
not to mention that we got even bigger financial problems now.., So I will still try my best to get enough Money for when AM7 releases..,
The best thing I can do for myself is; to keep composure, Stay strong and hope that in the remaining time.. things will get better..
Long Story short: I'm fully getting why people used AM6 4 times....
Can't wait till I can use AM7 2 times in a row.. and finally be a true man instead of this in between man and manchild like wolf battle that people are talking about..
RE: The Ultimate AM6+7 dual pack (Autism Edition) - Shannon - 08-07-2025
You can only grow so fast, and 5G was only so powerful.
RE: The Ultimate AM6+7 dual pack (Autism Edition) - MrGnome - 03-20-2026
AM7: Chapter Prologue:
Hey Everyone: I will take a one week break from howl and will start AM7 Stage 0 next week.
Because If anyone needs it badly than it would be me hehe..
Lets have a look at the list shall we?:
Still live with your family, and especially your mother, and even more especially your single mother, instead of having your own residence: Yes, I'm still living with my mother
Do not have at least one legal, reliable, stable source of income that pays your bills consistently and reliably: well, because of my autism on live on welfare
Do not have stable, reliable transportation suitable for a responsible adult man in your locale: Well I have a bus on in my neighborhood to travel to places, I cant get a car license because of slow reflection skill and my history with epileptie
Were raised by a single mother, and need to balance out the feminine influence on your upbringing: Sort of?, I did have a Father and a older brother but my Father mainly neglected me and my Brother was always outside hanging out with his friends
Were raised in a feminist family: sort of?, they aren't like the extreem editions you see on the internet but they do have a dislike for dutch man, my father didn't help with that either..
Hold feminist beliefs that are holding you back from achieving your potential and or goals as a responsible adult man: Mayby?, see next one
Have social anxiety: Yes, I'm always afraid to make small talk with people or talk with strangers, out of fear being considered creepy or annoying..
Consider yourself "woke": nope, I dislike those folks
Feel guilt, shame or anything else negative about yourself simply because you are male: Yes
Believe that women are better than, smarter than or otherwise superior to men (or you as a man): no, I believe man and woman need each other
Have been described as/are a "white knight", and it's still true: nope, I stay as far from internet arguments as possible
Have been described as/are a "simp", and it's still true: see last one
Are subscribed to one or more accounts on OnlyFans: change OnlyFans to seeing sexy pictures on instagram and it becomes a yes
Are afraid of women: I'm afraid of strangers in general
Were raised in a female dominated household, with a weak father or no father figure present: like I said, A workaholic Neglectfull Father
Hide from, avoid or try to escape adult responsibility: yes, I think my hopeless job searchings made me want to hide myself back in childhood nogstalgia and try to hide the concept of getting a job as far away as possible
Identify as being a part of any group that has an identity based on weakness, failure, flaws, feminine or being any kind of loser: does neurodivergent count?
Let yourself be treated badly by others, especially females: people I met in life are actually nice, so I have no idea why I fear strangers but yeah, I do admit I'm pretty easy to manipulate..
Have been called/are an Incel, and it's still true: the best I could get was foreplay and even that was like 5/6 years ago..
Moderate a reddit forum: nope
Have glasses that are held together with tape: I dont wear glasses
Like to go to Weenie Hut Jr.'s (and especially Super Weenie Hut Jr.'s) for a milkshake: not really but I do jam on baby shark so yeah...
Spend more than 2 hours a day gaming on a regular basis: pretty much my life, aside from scrolling the internet
Prefer to spend your time watching TV, playing games or scrolling the Internet to doing anything else: Jup, its how I distract my fear of failure
Have mommy issues or daddy issues: my Father was a Workaholic, Neglectfull, Ahole so yeah, Also despite that I'm thank full that my mother atleast loves me, she has overprotective traits..
Eat nails for breakfast.... with milk: I'm a nail biter yes
Live your life on social media, especially TikTok: Change TikTok into Youtube and it becomes a YES
Cannot or do not think for yourself: I have improved this over the past subs actually : )
Believe whatever you see in the news media: Nope
Want and or allow others to direct your life, because you don't want to do it yourself: Yes, Because I have a fear of making mistakes since people most of the time yells me out for it..,
Seek permission from others to do things you should be getting permission from yourself to do: I dont know
Allow yourself to be disrespected by others on a regular basis, especially females: Both sexes pretty much
Have low self esteem, self respect and or sense of self worth: Jup, Despite being improved over the years, I still consider my self to be worthless, because I still cant make new friends or keep a job for longer than a few years
Harbor self hatred: more like a love/hate relationship
Are afraid to grow up: Yes, again because I cant keep a job for longer than a few years and my job options are getting lower and lower..
Cannot take care of yourself without help from parents, family or a girlfriend/wife because you never grew up: Yes, because my parents bearly thaught me anything..
Allow someone else to dress you when you are capable of dressing yourself: Yes
Do stupid things like get money, and then blow it on something you merely want, instead of paying your rent, when doing so will prevent you from being able to pay your rent: Jup, I wasted money on lootboxes.. and upgrading daily items when they aren't broken
Think the United States is still a "patriarchy": I'm European but I dont think so..,
Would get married without a per-nuptial agreement: no idea what per-nuptial is but probbably yes
Would get married at all, and you live in the United States, and have no awareness of how the laws and family courts are arrayed against you: again I'm European but Yes in european version.., I'm aware of how they are againts me though.., I just want a happy familly of my own..
Consider yourself submissive, especially to one or more females: Yes
Are a shut-in because of anxiety: Yes
Would rather masturbate than have sex with someone else because of anxiety: Yes,
Prefer to have someone direct you or tell you what to do, even outside of work: Yes
Have traumas that work against you for becoming a fully responsible adult man: Yes
So yeah...,
Based on this things its clear that I have to use AM7 Stage 0, More than once, because I really need to learn to grow up..,
Even more so since I will turn 36 years old this year
(also, I wish I knew how to change Letter styles, to make the list more enjoyable to read..)
RE: The Ultimate AM6+7 dual pack (Autism Edition) - Benjamin - 03-20-2026
I look forward to seeing how it goes for you.
A couple of things.
It would be better if you started a fresh AM7 journal. As for Shannon to get feedback on the new version it can be confusing if AM6 is also in the journal.
And having stuff like 'autism edition' shows you may be quite identified with this issue, and it makes sense if it's had a big impact on you (i've had the same with chronic fatigue type stuff) but my thought is that might cause you to keep identifying with it if you have that in the journal name or other places. It's not necessarily going to make a massive difference taking that out, but more to make you be aware of when you might be using it as part of your identity in ways that limit you.
Hopefully as you use stage 0 it helps heal some stuff internally to loosen that up.
Good luck.
RE: The Ultimate AM6+7 dual pack (Autism Edition) - MrGnome - 03-21-2026
(03-20-2026, 11:34 PM)Benjamin Wrote: I look forward to seeing how it goes for you.
A couple of things.
It would be better if you started a fresh AM7 journal. As for Shannon to get feedback on the new version it can be confusing if AM6 is also in the journal.
And having stuff like 'autism edition' shows you may be quite identified with this issue, and it makes sense if it's had a big impact on you (i've had the same with chronic fatigue type stuff) but my thought is that might cause you to keep identifying with it if you have that in the journal name or other places. It's not necessarily going to make a massive difference taking that out, but more to make you be aware of when you might be using it as part of your identity in ways that limit you.
Hopefully as you use stage 0 it helps heal some stuff internally to loosen that up.
Good luck.
got it!, I made it a double pack out of fear of wasting threads space and ironicly thinking it would have been easier for Shannon from having to go from insane numbers of threads..
Also While its true that Autism started to become a bigger deal after the whole identity thing because it pushed me to face my autism as well wich I just wanted to ignore..
Even worse with the whole finding and keeping a job thing..
The fact that it also got explained as my brain being wired differently and yet I'm still the same as non autistic people made it more confusing
The fact that people say things like: "we are all a little autistic" or they think I'm lazy because my tasks aren't explained properly or because I get a task overload doesn't help much either..
Anyway, The main reason why I putted on the Autism part was, well because our brains are wired differently and hoped to show other guys with autism to show what the Sub/Exp, could do for us..
Although its true that I need to release my hate for it and just accept is as part of myself that I can never fully remove, not even with Subs/Exps but I still want to improve on the things that I can improve.
But Sure, I will Make a New one for AM7 next week : )
Edit:
Dont get me wrong though, I'm glad that I got diagnosed with PDD-NOS Autism at age 3, thanks to my epileptie.