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RE: EPHRA v6 (non-binding journal, do not follow ;) ) - Have at ye - 05-02-2024
Quickly returning to my limitless mindset from pre-psychosis. Healing things as well. My regimen is gonna pay dividens, I think. It shall be glorious!
After my loops of EPHRA for the day and currently processing the degenerate amounts of, simply put, disrespect as shown to me by various cunnies. This is stupid, reckless and ungrateful (I'm a big bald angry guy, you do this shit to someone like me who doesn't have an inhuman tolerance for being shat upon and is filled with LOVE towards his fellow humans, this could end really, really bad - and also I'm actually a friggin' feminist, not of the soyboy type either, more of the militant anarcho-socialist bent, so I take this as ingratitude as well because I've been putting my ass on the line for these ungrateful britches) and a reckoning is in order. *Hulk smash*, grrr.
RE: EPHRA v6 (non-binding journal, do not follow ;) ) - Have at ye - 05-03-2024
I'm noticing I'm doing things, with some, but relatively little, trepidation, that I would be fain to do after that psychotic episode especially due to a worry/fear that I'd get immediately punished/face backlash for doing them, and it's been progressing. Neat-o!
Stuffies and thingies are going well. Practiced some singing, too, and my voice is about 90% recovered so back to regular practicing it is! The idea is to embody A GOLDEN GOD OF SEX AND SONG.
RE: EPHRA v6 (non-binding journal, do not follow ;) ) - Have at ye - 05-04-2024
That "limitless" feeling, it comes and it goes, but the important thing is that it's coming. Made some alterations to my stuffies and thingies regimen, just gotta keep at it and dis gon be gud.
Still having wonky dreams, kinda had one I remembered today, it was interesting to say the least. I am really tired and annoyed, though, by the negativity that keeps coming up in the healing process. I don't have an outlet for it apart from talking to myself and heavy metalz because my analyst is on a break. I'm totally gonna vent at her something fierce, shitting on people for being disgusting degenerates and smarmy schmucks, and by golly she's gonna have to listen because that's what I'm paying her for!
RE: EPHRA v6 (non-binding journal, do not follow ;) ) - Have at ye - 05-07-2024
Foobar crapped out on me yesternight so I effectively did 2 and a half loops or thereabouts. As usual, I had wonky dreams after but otherwise feeling fine.
RE: EPHRA v6 (non-binding journal, do not follow ;) ) - Have at ye - 05-10-2024
I was feeling a little bit depress-y these past couple of days, but now that has passed and I'm getting wonky sensation on the right side of my heart chakra, a "put-put-put" pulsation even. Funky.
RE: EPHRA v6 (non-binding journal, do not follow ;) ) - Have at ye - 05-11-2024
The depressive feelings have gone, we'll see for how long. I finally have some slightly more free time from translation work so now, apart from daily singing practice, I can indulge in my favorite pastime of "walking/lying around and thinking about things".
My libido is making a slight comeback and I'm having sexual dreams/fantasies when falling asleep. I enjoy them.
RE: EPHRA v6 (non-binding journal, do not follow ;) ) - Have at ye - 05-11-2024
Now I have an ambient headache. It's nothing too distracting, but still - meh. I did take a nap though and I had really fascinating dreams. Like, seriously. Fascinating stuff!
RE: EPHRA v6 (non-binding journal, do not follow ;) ) - Have at ye - 05-20-2024
I got a little bit tired of the enforced tempo so now I'm doing the instructed 15 minutes per day (but still using the hybrid track) and seems to be working fine. I get lots of healing-related dreams. Keeping at it.