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OCFV3-Road to Freedom - MrGnome - 07-17-2021
Hello i just joined the Forum
i may not be good at journals but i still wanna do it
just to make sure things go as it should
i started OCFv3 since launch and now i use 1 mask version and 2 hybrids since i dont really know how to handle
the few loops without falling asleep and listening to 10 loops instead
my fear/confidence is shakey one day i feel like i can do everything and other times i feel nervous
i also had 2 dreams i still remember: one is about a big house with many rooms all of them having a snake hissing at me and then i close the door only to open the next room to repeat it over and over.
the last one and more recent one: was a dream about me driving a car and suddenly i rememberd i dont have a drivers license when i realised that i became nervous and bumped into a random car then i steer the car back to the road and it seemed fine except i couldn't use the breaks.
dont know if these 2 are related to OCF but still felt like mentioning it
RE: OCFV3-Road to Freedom - RTBoss - 07-18-2021
Welcome to the forum! Thanks for keeping a journal - I hope you find it helpful to express yourself here.
RE: OCFV3-Road to Freedom - MrGnome - 07-18-2021
(07-18-2021, 07:20 AM)RTBoss Wrote: Welcome to the forum! Thanks for keeping a journal - I hope you find it helpful to express yourself here.
Thanks i will do my best.
RE: OCFV3-Road to Freedom - Shannon - 07-18-2021
1 masked and 3 hybrid per day? That's an odd choice. Why not just one format?
Ah, how silly of me. I forgot to welcome you to the forum. Indeed, welcome, and I look forward to seeing your joinery. Thanks for joining us!
RE: OCFV3-Road to Freedom - MrGnome - 07-18-2021
(07-18-2021, 12:02 PM)Shannon Wrote: 1 masked and 3 hybrid per day? That's an odd choice. Why not just one format?
Ah, how silly of me. I forgot to welcome you to the forum. Indeed, welcome, and I look forward to seeing your joinery. Thanks for joining us!
thanks for welcomming me
and no it's 1 mask and 2 hybrids and why i do it this way is because i have no idea how to loop 1 track 3 times on my galaxy s8 instead of listening to it either once or 10 times (whole sleep duration) i also do this 3 days on and 2 days off
RE: OCFV3-Road to Freedom - MrGnome - 07-19-2021
ON DAY 1:
i feel happy almost like LTU came in and said hi
i guess it makes sence since it was the program i used before OCF3
and i heard OCF improved old programs but still just speculation on my part
RE: OCFV3-Road to Freedom - Shannon - 07-19-2021
(07-18-2021, 10:48 PM)MrGnome Wrote:(07-18-2021, 12:02 PM)Shannon Wrote: 1 masked and 3 hybrid per day? That's an odd choice. Why not just one format?
Ah, how silly of me. I forgot to welcome you to the forum. Indeed, welcome, and I look forward to seeing your joinery. Thanks for joining us!
thanks for welcomming me
i also do this 3 days on and 2 days off
It is oddly difficult to find an audio player for your phone that has the utterly common sense feature of making it easy to play a single track a specific number of times.
Unless you make a playlist. That's what I do, and most others as far as I know. So simply make a playlist of the same track 3 times in a row.
RE: OCFV3-Road to Freedom - MrGnome - 07-19-2021
(07-19-2021, 09:24 AM)Shannon Wrote:(07-18-2021, 10:48 PM)MrGnome Wrote:(07-18-2021, 12:02 PM)Shannon Wrote: 1 masked and 3 hybrid per day? That's an odd choice. Why not just one format?
Ah, how silly of me. I forgot to welcome you to the forum. Indeed, welcome, and I look forward to seeing your joinery. Thanks for joining us!
thanks for welcomming me
i also do this 3 days on and 2 days off
It is oddly difficult to find an audio player for your phone that has the utterly common sense feature of making it easy to play a single track a specific number of times.
Unless you make a playlist. That's what I do, and most others as far as I know. So simply make a playlist of the same track 3 times in a row.
thanks for the tip, i edited the playlist so now it will have the same track 3 times
RE: OCFV3-Road to Freedom - MrGnome - 07-19-2021
ON Day 2: after putting the same track 3 times i noticed it really wasn't working in samsung music it treat it like its just a single track but after it i downloaded a different mp3 player app and it works great : )
as a result i listend to the loop 4 times because of this
sadly i couldn't fall asleep though so i hope day 3 will go better
RE: OCFV3-Road to Freedom - MrGnome - 07-20-2021
On Day 3: i started doing 4 loops, although i messed one up by waking up, forgot where i was and forgot about what i was doing and i had to go to the bathroom,
so i took off my sleepmask with earpads for 10 second and then i realised i messed up.
oh well atleast i got the other 3 fully done.
RE: OCFV3-Road to Freedom - MrGnome - 07-22-2021
OFF day 1: today was a good day, i had an appointment with a company that helps me with getting a job (was about to get a job till covid-19 showed up and with autism i have a harder time)
normally i would talk when asked something
but now i was really sociable. to the point i just said things out of my self.
not only that but im getting help with dealing with fear of failure and making mistakes
soon wich means i will be able to kill my fear both conscious and subconscious : )
RE: OCFV3-Road to Freedom - Shannon - 07-22-2021
I'm really interested in knowing how OFv3 helps people who have to deal with autism.
RE: OCFV3-Road to Freedom - MrGnome - 07-22-2021
(07-22-2021, 08:52 AM)Shannon Wrote: I'm really interested in knowing how OFv3 helps people who have to deal with autism.
Same here, so as always i will do my best to bring out my reports
RE: OCFV3-Road to Freedom - MrGnome - 07-23-2021
month 2 cycle 2 Day Onn 1:
okay i know i didn't report on my second day off yesterday but now im wondering as mentioned earlier:
i had some bad sleep, now it's better but i was still tired yesterday to the point where i started eating more
at first i said to myself it was to get more energy but now i start to doubt since i do also eat because of boredom
and stress, so im starting to wondering is eating more a sign of resistance?