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RE: Overcoming Fear v.3 - 5.75.7G - Ampers&d's Journal - Chris P. Bacon - 07-21-2021 (07-20-2021, 04:44 PM)Shannon Wrote: Letting go requires a conscious awareness of the act of "holding on". It becomes easy once you have that awareness, and the understanding that letting go is better. The difficult part is that most of the "holding on" happens below the conscious level of awareness, so it requires contemplation and introspection, sometimes meditation, to find and understand that issue that is being held onto and understand why and then work to let go. Thank you for that, it was insightful. RE: Overcoming Fear v.3 - 5.75.7G - Ampers&d's Journal - Ampersnd - 07-22-2021 Day 66, T-Minus 115 days until end, 3rd day ON About to embark in a two week coding spree for the sake of finishing up my web development certificate. I'm increasingly tempted to use MLS 4.0 to kickstart my tech career upon hire. However, I've still got 4-ish months left to this program, and I'm still dealing with underlying issues. RE: Overcoming Fear v.3 - 5.75.7G - Ampers&d's Journal - Ampersnd - 07-25-2021 Day 69, T-Minus 112 days until end, 1st day OFF, Accidentally did a 5th day on my loops. Slept nearly 9 hours last night after some trouble falling asleep. I'm still sore after my Friday workout; new exercises involving weird angles. And so, weird parts of my body are feeling a bit stretched out and tender. RE: Overcoming Fear v.3 - 5.75.7G - Ampers&d's Journal - Ampersnd - 07-26-2021 Day 70, T-Minus 111 days until end, 1st day ON, Feeling frazzled - not frantic - and confused about how the pieces of the world tie together. The grand chess board, so to speak. This is coming at the same time as my final project - not yet determined by the group - and looking for a new job. My French speaking was atrocious, and I can't organize my thoughts today, even in English. RE: Overcoming Fear v.3 - 5.75.7G - Ampers&d's Journal - Ampersnd - 07-28-2021 Day 72, T-Minus 109 days until end, 3rd day ON, Noticing that I'm having some old school insecurities and self-esteem issues. I have attractive women around me at the gym, but I no longer have the desire to approach anymore like I used to. Simply due to the fact that the proportion of approaches that have turned into really anything is virtually 0. But internalizing that fact has created some inner turmoil. Interesting observation. RE: Overcoming Fear v.3 - 5.75.7G - Ampers&d's Journal - Ampersnd - 07-30-2021 Day 74, T-Minus 107 days until end, 1st Day OFF, I'm finding myself much more shut in. Think that stuff is getting sorted out in the background. RE: Overcoming Fear v.3 - 5.75.7G - Ampers&d's Journal - Ampersnd - 07-31-2021 Day 75, T-Minus 106 days until end, 1st Day ON, Over this week, I've felt a layer of anger and resentment lift; been questioning a lot of the underlying assumptions about dating dynamics, for example. As in, I can oppose marriage due to its laws, but I don't need to hang on to anger over that; it's simply a stance or a way I prefer to live. RE: Overcoming Fear v.3 - 5.75.7G - Ampers&d's Journal - Ampersnd - 08-01-2021 Day 76, T-Minus 105 days until end, 1st Day ON, Accidentally looped the Sleep Induction Aid all night yesterday instead of running OF v.3. Will be resetting to Day #1 tonight. RE: Overcoming Fear v.3 - 5.75.7G - Ampers&d's Journal - Z-Man - 08-01-2021 (08-01-2021, 10:27 AM)Ampersnd Wrote: Day 76, T-Minus 105 days until end, 1st Day ON, Ampersand did you get a good night sleep? RE: Overcoming Fear v.3 - 5.75.7G - Ampers&d's Journal - Ampersnd - 08-04-2021 (08-01-2021, 10:52 AM)Z-Man Wrote:(08-01-2021, 10:27 AM)Ampersnd Wrote: Day 76, T-Minus 105 days until end, 1st Day ON, On that night? Same as usual. I don't notice a difference nowadays when I run loops vs. no loops. Currently on 5 loops. RE: Overcoming Fear v.3 - 5.75.7G - Ampers&d's Journal - Ampersnd - 08-05-2021 Day 80, T-Minus 101 days until end, 1st Day OFF, Final group project is likely to crap out. It's due Saturday; waiting on front-end classmates to figure out how to work their side of things. I've done back end; it works fine except that it isn't fully coming through when queried by front-end (using GraphQL). Not feeling too bad about it; have an A+ average for all my assignments and got A and A+ in my other two projects. RE: Overcoming Fear v.3 - 5.75.7G - Ampers&d's Journal - Ampersnd - 08-12-2021 Day 87, T-Minus 94 days until end, 3rd Day ON, I've completed the coding bootcamp on Saturday; I've been decompressing since then, mostly playing video games and some drinking. Still hitting the gym, though I might stop attending soon as the COVID cases have been rising. RE: Overcoming Fear v.3 - 5.75.7G - Ampers&d's Journal - Ampersnd - 08-15-2021 Day 90, T-Minus 91 days until end, 1st Day ON, At the literal half-way point of this program. Not sure what is what anymore. Had a massive boost of fearlessness at the start of the program. I might be uncovering layers of bad programming, and yet feeling the same flavor of being stifled. RE: Overcoming Fear v.3 - 5.75.7G - Ampers&d's Journal - majorSK - 08-15-2021 (08-15-2021, 01:11 PM)Ampersnd Wrote: Day 90, T-Minus 91 days until end, 1st Day ON, This pretty much explain how i feel. At the start of the program it was brutally efetctive I felt like another person. But now its not so . Some things gotten better but overal Its not even 50 % of what i felt at start . Im curious what would Shannon say about this. The longer you listen the more results shoudl be right? not otherwise. I am at 3 month mark as you are. keep going man we will see when some more times passes by |