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RE: EP E3 Journal - EvolvingPhoenix - 07-28-2019
Thanks Shannon. I really appreciate it. It's hard going through this healing process, training to be the artist and musician I wanna be and getting my life in order all at the same time. Still, I push forward. Thank you for the encouragement.
RE: EP E3 Journal - EvolvingPhoenix - 07-28-2019
Day 58: So far today, I'm not experiencing healing pains (thank god)
I've got some tedious yard work to do out in the hot Florida sun, then I can get to vocal practice and guitar practice. Looking at all I'm trying to do in a day, and taking into account that my family and friends will be wanting me to do things with/for them, I am beginning to think I am piling too much onto my plate. I think I'm gonna drop going to the gym and working out from my schedule and draw only on occaision, focusing primarilly on school, vocals and guitar. I can get into shape later. Also, I'm not sure how to fit volunteer work or employment into my schedule, but I'm gonna have to figure something out. I think what I'ma do is, at some point, I'll volunteer for the Peace Corps TEFL program and teach English in Costa Rica or Thailand for a couple years. Over the course of these 2 years, I can use healing subs like E3 and LTU5 while I teach English and develop my creative talents, free from familial obligations and not having to worry about college or employment. While I'm here in Florida, I can switch my focus from getting work as a teachers assistant to just getting a job at Publix so I can work once a week and I can use that money to pay for subliminals. But how will I pay for LTU5? That's now a giant hurdle for me: figuring out how to get up the money for LTU5. Once I get it, that's when I'll volunteer for the Peace Corps. Until then, focus on:School, vocals, guitar, Publix and finding a way to afford LTU5. When summer comes around, I can seriously up my Publix schedule and try to get up 1500 dollars for LTU5 instead of taking classes. That sounds like the best plan I can think of.
Edit: if I go that route, I might not need UMS. I might buy MLS instead and just keep using E3 until I can afford LTU5, having worked over the summer to afford LTU5 instead of taking summer courses.Then after a year of LTU5 usage, I can switch to MLS.
I like that idea. I think I'll go with that.
RE: EP E3 Journal - EvolvingPhoenix - 07-28-2019
Okay, so I've got a plan. Here it is:
Fall semester, 2019)
Wake up, have a coke or cup of coffee, eat breakfast, Go to class, do homework and do chores, etc. and drink 2 liters of water until 4:30 PM. Then eat lunch. Then at 5PM, do vocal training, then devote the rest of the day to guitar, maybe work on a drawing every now and then. Have dinner. Go to sleep by ~11:30 PM.
Get a job at Publix and work one or 2 days a week as long as I'm going to college, so as not to pile up too much work. Try to go on disability if possible. Keep using E3. and buy MLS with money made from donating plasma.
Try to get to a point where I'm playing thrash metal songs as quickly as I can on my guitar and get a vocal coach if possible or just use a vocal training regimen I've devised from online courses.
Spring semester, keep trying to stick close to the same format as in Fall.
When Summer rolls around, instead of taking classes, amp up my work schedule and save up for LTU5. Once I get LTU5, run it for 1 whole year before moving onto MLS.
When Fall semester rolls around, go back to the old format. Rinse and repeat until I decide it's time to join the Peace Corps.
Once I get my BA and have spent 2 years in the Peace Corps (preferably in Costa Rica or Thailand if I get to choose) Start teaching English abroad for money in places like Japan, South Korea, Singapore, Italy, Spain, France, etc. And in between tours abroad, come back home and crash at my parents' house. Over the course of all this time, use not just E3, LTU5 and MLS, but AM6 or 7, WM, SM, DMSI, MHS (for vocals) and after all that, an AYP sub, while I slowly chip away at my degree, learn guitar, practice vocals and serve in the peace corps. Stop working at Publix when I go on Disability, because that's just easier and leaves more time for other things. When using MLS, try to get an Akai MIDI keyboard and take some keyboard classes at USF, if I can, so I can learn that too.
When I'm good at rhythm guitar from playing thrash metal songs and can play pentatonic leads on guitar, start learning to play my own stuff and put a groove to it.
When I'm finally good enough at instruments and vocals to make an album, make one and then start looking for band members, with the album as an example of the band I'm trying to form. When I have a band formed, start touring and using UMS and make music my main thing because I can. Focus on building a reputation for amazing live shows and try to build a loyal following.
Sounds like a good plan to me.
Oh! And learn the becoming method over this course of time.
RE: EP E3 Journal - EvolvingPhoenix - 07-28-2019
So I went the whole day today without feeling any healing pains. That's good. I'll see if I can go without healing pains tomorrow too! Hoping for sure.
Also, managed to adhere to the schedule today. I'm confident my singing will get better and I'm thinking my playing may have improved too. Things are looking up!
RE: EP E3 Journal - EvolvingPhoenix - 07-29-2019
Day 59:
So far so good. No healing pains as of yet, although I admit the day is young. I'm feeling some resistance to getting my day going, but going from lazy and undisciplined with little structure to one's life... Going from that to structured and disciplined isn't an easy process. Still, it looks like I'm getting into the groove lately and hopefully, things continue along that path. Sometimes, the healing pains can be rather debilitating but fortunately I was able to go the day without em yesterday and hopefully that becomes the norm.
RE: EP E3 Journal - EvolvingPhoenix - 07-29-2019
Had an unexpected tiredness earlier today and needed a nap. Perhaps it's due to the sub somehow? Like maybe whatever my brain's processing required extra sleep to process? I dunno.
RE: EP E3 Journal - PDjunkie - 07-29-2019
Are you going to go 90 days or 180? Either way your progress lately seems good
RE: EP E3 Journal - EvolvingPhoenix - 07-29-2019
It depends on how soon I can get my hands on LTU5. Probably 180 though. When I get my hands on LTU5, I intend to go on it for a whole year. If I go 180 days on E3 and still don't have LTU5, I'll go on MLS for 180 days. Then I'll probably have enough saved up for LTU5.Thanks for the encouraging words
RE: EP E3 Journal - EvolvingPhoenix - 07-30-2019
Day 60: today's been good so far. No healing pains, just playing Risk with my mom and now I'm about to head over to USF to find a second class to register for, if there are any good ones left. If I take 2 classes FAFSA pays for them. If I only take one, my mom pays for it. So we're trying to find a second class.
RE: EP E3 Journal - EvolvingPhoenix - 07-30-2019
God, I'm so bored practicing guitar. I can't wait until I'm on MLS. Should motivate me more.
RE: EP E3 Journal - EvolvingPhoenix - 07-30-2019
I am feeling fatigued and am in a sort of mood where I'm not mad, but I blow up easily, if that makes any sense. For example, I was just cutting up my steak and watching Hateful 8 and dad called me from his room as I was just starting up and my response was to just snap at him and yell "GODDAMMIT! WHAT?!" Which I then apologized for. And I'm feeling like I need a nap. I haven't done much today. Just went to USF and got jerked around for a bit, bought some groceries, came home, played Risk with my mom and practiced guitar for like 5 minutes max. That's it. So why do I feel fatigued, I wonder?
Oh, on the plus side, my dad found a second course for me, and we learned what books to get and where to find them and how much they cost at USF so it wasn't a complete waste of time.
RE: EP E3 Journal - EvolvingPhoenix - 07-30-2019
I took a nap, but decided to run a loop of E3 while I napped. Woke up feeling not well rested. I think the extra loops of E3 are fucking with my sleep. This sucks because on one hand, playing extra subs while I slept seems to have cured the problem of healing pains, but on the other, creates a problem of not enough sleep. An Idea I have is to play some of the loops during the day and then play fewer while I sleep. I was playing 5 loops a night. I'm gonna cut that down to 4 per night plus 1 during the day. See if that works.
RE: EP E3 Journal - EvolvingPhoenix - 07-30-2019
An idea: I'll play the loop during my vocal training part of the day.
RE: EP E3 Journal - EvolvingPhoenix - 07-31-2019
Day 61:
So my employment specialist cancelled my appointment at the last minute after I had already gone over to her office. But it was a medical emergency and I understand that.
I was practicing .y vocals before I left. You know, I actually find learnibg to sing to be a way more enjoyable process than learning guitar, which is a very boring process. I hope I can find a way to make learning guitar less tedious and more enjoyable.
No healing pains today, although a piece of me still resents being completely shut out by my friend. But I'm not ruminating on it like I uses to. I think E3 is really working for me.