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RE: Say F**k It / Before We Kick the Bucket (AM6 2nd Run / AOSI) - chaosvrgn - 06-12-2016
Getting a lot of messages on OkCupid. Like, I'm being opened -- which is pretty much unheard of in online dating world. My profile is damn near bare. It has one picture of my face and the following:
INTP.
Entrepreneur.
Adventurer.
That's it. This has to be a manifestation. And I'm being opened by a number of women ranging between 5-7.5/10. The best is the french au pair. She's a 6.5/10. Not the hottest, but she's cute. And at this point, I have very minimal investment in her. We've been chatting back and forth all day. I'm going dark for the night on her so I won't appear needy and over-investment. Gonna number close tomorrow. Set a date for Friday or Saturday and put AM6 + AOSI to the test. I guess.
Actually, let's do a poll. Shannon's put out the final edict that AM6 and AOSI are NOT compatible. Despite the fact that I'm getting crazy good results personality and productivity wise (and then there's these manifestations) I can't say for a fact that I'm not completely damaging my AM6 run -- which has been REALLY dope and I don't wanna risk ruining it completely. That being said, I'm most likely only running AOSI one more time (or maybe one other time once v2 comes out) to maintain some semblance of finishing up AM6 strong. So, which one do you guys want to see:
#1. AM6 + AOSI used on a woman who's friend zoned me (seriously, like I don't even think I register as a man to this chick). She's cool peoples though, and I'd love to just chill and catch up with her anyway.
OR
#2. AOSI on a one-on-one date with the au pair (or someone else), with the intention of escalating to sex.
Option #1 is going down for sure on Thursday. So, if I can't close Option #2 down by Wednesday night, I'm defaulting to Option #1.
Lemme know!
RE: Say F**k It / Before We Kick the Bucket (AM6 2nd Run / AOSI) - stratos - 06-12-2016
All of the above.
RE: Say F**k It / Before We Kick the Bucket (AM6 2nd Run / AOSI) - JJ54 - 06-12-2016
Definitely would like to see how Option 1 goes down. I know most of us teach to not try to escape the friendzone. But if AOSI changes that, you may be on to something.
RE: Say F**k It / Before We Kick the Bucket (AM6 2nd Run / AOSI) - SargeMaximus - 06-12-2016
(06-12-2016, 08:58 PM)JJ54 Wrote: Definitely would like to see how Option 1 goes down. I know most of us teach to not try to escape the friendzone. But if AOSI changes that, you may be on to something.
I hope this works so much. It'll be like coming in under the radar.
You'll go to her house to be her emotional tampon but somehow end up f*cking her.
RE: Say F**k It / Before We Kick the Bucket (AM6 2nd Run / AOSI) - Shannon - 06-12-2016
If you're going to blow it, go all out. Let's see all available options explored.
RE: Say F**k It / Before We Kick the Bucket (AM6 2nd Run / AOSI) - wolverine_i_am - 06-13-2016
I'm gonna experiment with #2 myself next weekend.
It'll be interesting to see how AOSI factors into dates.
RE: Say F**k It / Before We Kick the Bucket (AM6 2nd Run / AOSI) - chaosvrgn - 06-13-2016
This is some interesting resistance. I'm annoyed, full of RAAAAAAAAAAAGGGE!!! ™ and most notably, having the STRONG, STRONG urge to play AOSI instead of AM6.
RE: Say F**k It / Before We Kick the Bucket (AM6 2nd Run / AOSI) - chaosvrgn - 06-13-2016
Just number closed the French au pair. Gonna push for a Friday or Saturday date. It'll be my first opportunity to test AOSI in a "date-like" setting. The 8.5 blonde keeps name dropping her boyfriend (say word to big bird, Catman) as a deterrent to coming out again. So, I'm inviting her to a group meet up with my friends next week. That way, she won't feel like she's having a "date" and cheating on her boyfriend. Just hanging out with a potential friend.
AND THEN I'MMA AOSI THE F*CK OUT OF HER!
EDIT: She accepted. We're gonna hang out with my friends AND THEN I'MMA AOSI THE F*CK OUT OF HER!!!!!
RE: Say F**k It / Before We Kick the Bucket (AM6 2nd Run / AOSI) - Shannon - 06-13-2016
Or is that fuck the AOSI out of her? lol
This should be interesting. I'm not condoning getting someone to cheat, but...
RE: Say F**k It / Before We Kick the Bucket (AM6 2nd Run / AOSI) - AbundanceCH - 06-13-2016
(06-13-2016, 04:48 PM)chaosvrgn Wrote: So, I'm inviting her to a group meet up with my friends next week. That way, she won't feel like she's having a "date" and cheating on her boyfriend. Just hanging out with a potential friend.
Don't get used to playing games with women and trying to come up with elaborate schemes and plans to get them this will only hurt you in the long run. Always seek a level playing field at least or possibly one where you have an advantage. A woman's attention goes from place to place with a ton of things running through their minds they are not like men. We can focus on one thing at a time.
So you giving a woman a chance to focus not just on you but on friends and other people you are not putting yourself on a level playing field or at an advantage. You want to be in situations where you are the only one they are paying attention to so you can work your magic. Stop trying to play it safe!
And this will hurt you in the long run because you will always do this same thing. Games, schemes to try to increase your chances rather than just doing the manly straight up thing which is being alone with them which is what you really want.
Always seek a level playing field or an advantage to you or you just let her go. No fear of losing them which of course you gotta remember they are not even yours to begin with. There are plenty of women out there and a mentality of scarcity is one where you feel like you have to play games or develop schemes to increase your chances like if they are the last woman on earth. If a woman doesn't want to meet you alone for coffee or whatever at a public place you are already swimming against the tide.
Just be manly. You + her + alone + drinks or coffee. That's it.
About a month ago I met a woman and I asked her out on the same day. We were due to meet and she sends me a message she wants to invite 2 friends and catches me by surprise. I'm not in the business of being friends with women or her friends i'm only in the business of fk** women so I told her I had to cancel. When she asked me why I bailed I told her straight up cause I think she's sexy and I wanted to get to know her one on one. She replied she wishes I would have told her that.
The moment you stop being afraid of losing a prospect/stop trying to play it safe you will begin attracting more women into your life. And that is simply because you no longer have a scarcity mentality and thus the universe will bring more women to you without you doing much.
RE: Say F**k It / Before We Kick the Bucket (AM6 2nd Run / AOSI) - chaosvrgn - 06-13-2016
(06-13-2016, 09:56 PM)AbundanceCH Wrote:(06-13-2016, 04:48 PM)chaosvrgn Wrote: So, I'm inviting her to a group meet up with my friends next week. That way, she won't feel like she's having a "date" and cheating on her boyfriend. Just hanging out with a potential friend.
Don't get used to playing games with women and trying to come up with elaborate schemes and plans to get them this will only hurt you in the long run. Always seek a level playing field at least or possibly one where you have an advantage. A woman's attention goes from place to place with a ton of things running through their minds they are not like men. We can focus on one thing at a time.
So you giving a woman a chance to focus not just on you but on friends and other people you are not putting yourself on a level playing field or at an advantage. You want to be in situations where you are the only one they are paying attention to so you can work your magic. Stop trying to play it safe!
And this will hurt you in the long run because you will always do this same thing. Games, schemes to try to increase your chances rather than just doing the manly straight up thing which is being alone with them which is what you really want.
Always seek a level playing field or an advantage to you or you just let her go. No fear of losing them which of course you gotta remember they are not even yours to begin with. There are plenty of women out there and a mentality of scarcity is one where you feel like you have to play games or develop schemes to increase your chances like if they are the last woman on earth. If a woman doesn't want to meet you alone for coffee or whatever at a public place you are already swimming against the tide.
Just be manly. You + her + alone + drinks or coffee. That's it.
About a month ago I met a woman and I asked her out on the same day. We were due to meet and she sends me a message she wants to invite 2 friends and catches me by surprise. I'm not in the business of being friends with women or her friends i'm only in the business of fk** women so I told her I had to cancel. When she asked me why I bailed I told her straight up cause I think she's sexy and I wanted to get to know her one on one. She replied she wishes I would have told her that.
The moment you stop being afraid of losing a prospect/stop trying to play it safe you will begin attracting more women into your life. And that is simply because you no longer have a scarcity mentality and thus the universe will bring more women to you without you doing much.
Hey man --
I appreciate the tips and reminders fam, always good to get 'em, but look at my post history. I ain't new to this gambit. That last year I lived out west, I'm sure I've engaged in more debauchery in a year than many will in a lifetime.
I invited her out to a group setting because she has a boyfriend and was refusing to come out because it felt like a "date." So, I told her to come out with me and my friends. And I'm only doing this for the science of AOSI, honestly couldn't care less because there's a thousand generic blondes where I live. If she wants to run off with one of my friends, meh, let her. But I doubt that'll happen... they aren't equipped with AM6 + AOSI.
I'm also in the process of closing a one-on-one date with another chick. That's AOSI test two. Just doing it for the science man, I'm actually rather uninterested in women at the moment and heavily focused on myself. I was just talking to my good friend while chatting with women on Tinder and I found myself so freaking bored with these basic chicks. Literally, if I wasn't having so much fun with these AM6 + AOSI tests, I'd so just opt-out of the "game" right now.
On another note, though...
I had a rather odd AOSI-experience a few hours ago. Fell asleep. When I woke up, I had this really weird urge to run AOSI (as stated above). In addition, I was REALLY, REALLY ANGRY -- something I've been experiencing throughout my entire second AM6 run, this omnidirectional, diffused RAAAAAAAAGE!™ at everything. Suddenly, the RAAAAAAGE!™ subsided (like, almost instantly) and AOSI's aura began to project. HARD. I mean, it was crazy. I hadn't eaten anything, but I did have half a small can of Red Bull. I suddenly began to feel completely zen, at peace and super sexy.
Here's the weird thing. I haven't run AOSI since last Thursday. Not only is the programming still there, but it's still capable of having me project an aura. And now, it's 3:00a here and I've got crazy insomnia. I've taken melatonin and there's no hint of sleepiness occurring.
If I had to guess, the programming was STILL being processed, or maybe I was having some serious resistance and it finally broke through, allowing the repressed programming to express itself. OR, the OGSF in AOSI is enhancing the OGSF in AM6 and it's causing me to have breakthroughs.
EDIT: This may answer a few questions for AOSI users who are also experiencing the same kind of intense resistance --
(12-09-2014, 11:23 PM)Shannon Wrote: Resistance comes in different ways. Bursts of intense resistance can be one of those ways. It usually happens that way in response to achieving some goal of the program's that frightens some part of your subconscious and causes a short term push for control. Eventually, the fear generating programming will be overcome and it will stop.
I feel absolutely great right now, except for the fact that I can't sleep and I have a huge business meeting in about six hours.
RE: Say F**k It / Before We Kick the Bucket (AM6 2nd Run / AOSI) - chaosvrgn - 06-14-2016
This AM6 + AOSI blend is absolutely brutal on the psyche. I can't say for a fact that the end result will be good or if I'll turn out worse -- all I know is that purging some major demons right now. To elaborate, I'm going from low to extremely high to extremely low, sometimes within minutes. It's like the trigger for resistance is now hair thin.
Here's the thing, though: Every time I come out of the resistance, the "highs" are "higher" and it's like I'm learning something about myself that I never realized. In this particular instance, the resistance occurred after my business meeting didn't go as well as I wanted. I'm still profitable, but I wanted a large infusion of cash to make some bold (but crazy profitable) long-term investments. I ended up plummeting into that void of RAAAAAAAAGE!™ A major source of this anger is the fact that I feel like I wasted 10 years of my life suppressing my natural instincts and "being abused" by people who used my considerable talents for their own gain, only to betray me or leave me high and dry at the end of the day. I'm having to start completely over from scratch. It feels like going back to my old career as a marketing exec is impossible: I have no network, nowhere to begin. Thus, I've gotta find my path myself.
Now, here's the weird thing about this AM6 + AOSI interaction. Whenever I come out of that short burst of intense resistance, the aura begins to project. Like, I'm burning up right now and I have the AC and a rather large "Wind Tunnel" fan blowing on me. I can feel the waves of heat floating off my body. It's possible that this isn't AOSI's aura -- it COULD be one of the auras in AM6. Or, it could be the body's reaction to the OGSF in AOSI. Throughout my first run of AM6, I don't ever remember really feeling the auras. Now that I've overcome a lot of the resistance, maybe now I'm feeling it?
Anyway, as I came out of the resistance, I began to dwell on something that's occurred to me in the last few days, and it's something I'll have to keep reminding myself. I'm the one to blame for those "wasted" 10 years. When certain things were going down, I KNEW I was being led astray, I KNEW I should've trusted my judgment and highly honed intuition, but I STILL let others direct my will. This doesn't make them any less of an asshole, but at least now, I'm taking control of my life, energy and will and pushing them in the direction that I want to go.
After this AM6 run, I feel that my WILL is directing me to run E2, followed by BASE 5g (or Ultimate Writer, if available). My physical desires are pushing me to E2, followed by SM. Concerning the latter choice, I'm having to fight the urge to just check completely out of society, make enough money to live a comfortable, minimalist lifestyle and go out and seduce the hell out of low hanging fruit. I know I'm much more capable than that, however.
I'm hoping that E2 will clear up the emotional garbage clouding my path and I'll make the best decision for my life.
EDIT: On the dating / test front, French au pair gave me her number, then rescinded, claiming the number is only for her host family. Feels like a shit test to see if I'll just chat with her online and feed her validation. I'm letting her message bake for awhile unanswered, then I'm bypassing all the bulls**t and just asking her when she's free on Saturday.
RE: Say F**k It / Before We Kick the Bucket (AM6 2nd Run / AOSI) - SargeMaximus - 06-14-2016
(06-14-2016, 12:05 PM)chaosvrgn Wrote: In this particular instance, the resistance occurred after my business meeting didn't go as well as I wanted. I'm still profitable, but I wanted a large infusion of cash to make some bold (but crazy profitable) long-term investments. I ended up plummeting into that void of RAAAAAAAAGE!™ A major source of this anger is the fact that I feel like I wasted 10 years of my life suppressing my natural instincts and "being abused" by people who used my considerable talents for their own gain, only to betray me or leave me high and dry at the end of the day. I'm having to start completely over from scratch. It feels like going back to my old career as a marketing exec is impossible: I have no network, nowhere to begin. Thus, I've gotta find my path myself.
Man, I can relate so much to this. It's happened to me SO much while on these subs. The sudden realization that I'm actually in a "worse" situation than I thought I was. Hard to accept but it does make us stronger.
RE: Say F**k It / Before We Kick the Bucket (AM6 2nd Run / AOSI) - Sickologist - 06-14-2016
You have to go through betrayal in life to see the light, like one of my favorite stories The Count of Monte Cristo. It's a universial theme all great men experience and that's how we become badass. Basically the worse the situation, the stronger you become because you have to dig that much deeper to exorcise those demons and beat your worst enemy; naivety.
But I digress...
Became curious from reading about pheromones in your thread, don't have any experience. Anything you'd recommend? I like the looks of Aqua Vitae, Bad Wolf and Overdose. Basically anything that helps me attract bad girls, and not the wannabe kind that screws just about anybody. If she drives a Ducati and despise weak men I'll go for her.