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RE: Am 6.0 first run - Kol - 04-25-2016
My voice is gettint really deep.
strong subscribing to MGTOW and masulinity.
More is lifted, its like an fericous force, more agressive in my approach. Clearly feeling the subs influence.
Like an stronger sense and knowing of my value. Lots is happening right now, more overt and obvious.
Chatting for prolonged time kills attraction. I can become lesser and lesser friends with girls, it feels like an pegging down of my value and reduces interest, it even slightly pisses me off and feels wasting time, even if pua preaches about social proof with girls. Something to still work out.
never invest more then the girl, it makes needy, being the prize high value. Just being playfull as fuck and not taking it seriously, enjoying, push pull, teasing and stuff, laughing about it, good times. I can Understand the whole MGTOW but can't help but think some are failed bèta's, it shows from what i saw on video's, the whole voice stuff from some guys...
Girls test, try to peg you down, but It also makes me feel increase in sexiness and attraction, like yeah, invest, show it, lol
had some great momennts of just being today, enjoying life. Notice some jelousy but this is also being dealt with currently as i write this. Im pretyty much on an roll currently.Interesting how before I was somewhat clueless how to deal with this and now its just released like I dont even have to do, the sub doing its charm.
To reply to Catman, its exactly that attitude that zyzz had. He was pretty much outcome independent aswell from what I picked up from his vibe and aura.
3 days till stage 3.
RE: Am 6.0 first run - wolverine_i_am - 04-26-2016
Yo, Kurohawk suggested a collab SM3 thread for all three of us. What do you reckon?
RE: Am 6.0 first run - Kol - 04-28-2016
Yeah, thats fine by me currently yet I'm still divided in ideas.
I have 4 girls chasing me online now, and it shows that abundance makes them even go more wild about me, one even wanted to know im single, the other 3 went all sexual and teasing and stuff, just because I putted up an picture. Im feeling asertive in it and don't care really, even tiring to be honest. One of them threw her nummer almost in my face, its like groupies that go wild over an rockstar person or something. I feel cold and relaxed, just calm. Not sure if it is because of the aura and what not. Theyre like little drooling puppies. One of them is pretty cute tho. She guessed me older through my writing but not through picture, around 29 while Im 26. so she guessed me 3 years older based on writing. chatted her up a bit, has an roommate, lives on her own and stuff, it just flowed. Other guys showed very muich jelous behaviour, trying to win attention and it was just sad. Like their attempts dont phase me and its an stark cold reality, almost like an hunger games cage fight. They bascially sabotaged themselves in it all, ridiculous. I feel an shift in my thinking aswell currently. I used to be like that.
pretty submissive yet I didnt go sexual at all, no overt showing but more being an rock kind of thing, like I'm the prize, work for it.
The neediness I had with one girl is totally gone this time, like I dont give a fuck if I lose any of them.
At work an older lady was all smiling, made eye contact and looked many times and locked eyes, even bited her lip. Its crazy. did chat with her close in her presence and just rolled with it, teasing an bit and what not, put get also more slightly paranoid it seems. I felt some attraction going on aswell with this women.
Confidence spikes. last day of stage 2 tomorrow.
Oh, I also enjoy music more and develop some other tastes. its great. Total uncaring freedom and abundance. Its absolutely great stuff. No pressure at all. realzing my fullness in all areas, its an breaking off from the prison and rather and total abundance in life itself.
RE: Am 6.0 first run - wolverine_i_am - 04-28-2016
What do you mean divided in ideas?
RE: Am 6.0 first run - Kol - 04-28-2016
I'm all for colabbing but it suits me to have my own journal aswell, as it is easier to track perhaps. Current financials also dont allow SM3 for me, but that doesnt really matter much as it is only fuell to enabling it.
Last day on stage 2. Bit like saying goodbye to an friend.
Feeling awesome like nothing can stop me currently. Euphoric.
RE: Am 6.0 first run - Kol - 04-29-2016
stage 3 day 1
Stage 3 hype!
Listening for about an hour and an half and I notice an strong reduction in mental clutter. Im feeling more zen but increasing. Last few days on stage 2 I felt very forcefull, perhaps even sort of cruel in ways through dominance, crushing the frame of other people, almost violent like.
My gaze feels more and more hypnotic and this stage feels very powerfull already, aswell as feeling more in control and waves of euphoria.
Notice yesterday when sexting with one of the girls I'm chatting up that I can become suspicious and slightly untrustiong. Some comments can turn me off. The girl is all over me to the point she went from being kind of controlling online to reduce herself to submission towards me and basically throws all her stuff overboard just to qualify herself. Lol.
The other girl from which I pulled away my investment is now again all hearts and stuff.
Threesomes are possible, all is possible. Its an new reality almost, yet kind of learning how to harness my dividing of attention in all of this. Its feels like multitasking.
RE: Am 6.0 first run - Kol - 04-30-2016
I'm feeling incredibly powerfull. Again like the former stages were childs play. I cant even put my finger on it what it is but it feels like pure dominance. My thought are about dominance, bedwise with girls, like letting the girl(s) submit and put under my control and do the fuck I want to do with them.
Im very euphoric right now, like my brain is ascending. People turn heads but this time it feels differently and IDGAF at all with it, I look right through them. Almost like I have some shining ( sexual ) halo or some stuff.
I have an high libido, but the urge is not there so to say, like, I will not go into action. has to be the programming/subliminal. Its mere observant and makes me think about what Shannon said about not escaping into porn but forcing the person to go out of the house.
RE: Am 6.0 first run - SargeMaximus - 05-01-2016
(04-30-2016, 11:42 PM)Kol Wrote: I'm feeling incredibly powerfull. Again like the former stages were childs play. I cant even put my finger on it what it is but it feels like pure dominance. My thought are about dominance, bedwise with girls, like letting the girl(s) submit and put under my control and do the **** I want to do with them.
Im very euphoric right now, like my brain is ascending. People turn heads but this time it feels differently and IDGAF at all with it, I look right through them. Almost like I have some shining ( sexual ) halo or some stuff.
I have an high libido, but the urge is not there so to say, like, I will not go into action. has to be the programming/subliminal. Its mere observant and makes me think about what Shannon said about not escaping into porn but forcing the person to go out of the house.
That state you describe is like the one I have when I'm feeling really good about myself but people hate on me. Have you not had the haters?
RE: Am 6.0 first run - Kol - 05-01-2016
(05-01-2016, 05:36 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote:(04-30-2016, 11:42 PM)Kol Wrote: I'm feeling incredibly powerfull. Again like the former stages were childs play. I cant even put my finger on it what it is but it feels like pure dominance. My thought are about dominance, bedwise with girls, like letting the girl(s) submit and put under my control and do the **** I want to do with them.
Im very euphoric right now, like my brain is ascending. People turn heads but this time it feels differently and IDGAF at all with it, I look right through them. Almost like I have some shining ( sexual ) halo or some stuff.
I have an high libido, but the urge is not there so to say, like, I will not go into action. has to be the programming/subliminal. Its mere observant and makes me think about what Shannon said about not escaping into porn but forcing the person to go out of the house.
That state you describe is like the one I have when I'm feeling really good about myself but people hate on me. Have you not had the haters?
Yeah, I have some of that but rather more subtle through peoples behaviour. definitely been turned down more then once. Like people being short on me, giving me angry stares, testing me. Its not escalated in an physical sense like violent provocation but I definitely sense that some people don't know how to handle it.
RE: Am 6.0 first run - Kol - 05-01-2016
Im feeling insanely euphoric right now. I have lots of dreams but woke up earlier then usual. My attention turns more towards myself even if I'm texting, sexting and chatting with multiple girls. Enormous self validation going on.
I am the centre, I'm taking more space, im just enough by myself right now. My presence feels very intense. I also have an strong reduction in shame and like to tease this one girl i'm sexting with, like driving her crazy and being proud in it haha.
Had an guy yesterday when getting some stuff at the gasstation who went all empty stare and forgot one thing after another.
Oh, and bullshit pisses me off but its way more streamlined kind of clarity, like more congrugent. mentally I'm more clear aswell.
RE: Am 6.0 first run - Kol - 05-01-2016
I might go all the way into the fitness industry as personal trainer. The urge is very strong, also, I'm picking up everything very easy in terms of marketing. I see money and succes everywhere. its not an matter anymore of wanting one idea, but my attention is fully covering the market and going with it. like dominating existing ideas and more. My full potential bringing out.
Am also aware of some patterns inside in which i hold me back or have an slight reaction in defiance, like, descriptions just irks me and hold me back. this stage is almost everything at this point. I'm also thinking about running an cycle, it all seems to revolve around masculinity in so many ways.
RE: Am 6.0 first run - Kol - 05-02-2016
At work people test me and bullshit me. I want to crush their frames and went cold and short with it, no regard of who or what they are, just no bs tolerance.
my voice projects very strong and am very confident.
Sexual shame has been reduced massively, and pride takes it place instead of it.
I can´t stand negative vibes in environments, like this one guy that is mumbling, weak voice projecting, being all spoiling stuff, having some sick toxic apathic repetition of I dont care in the negative sense of the word. He does care, its an weak act.
This girl that tried to reject me went all smiley afterwards, her bodylanguage is different and i dont give 2 shits if she can´t handle me.
I know what I want now in terms of financials and everything. An deeper sense. Noticing my body and masculinity makes me grow even more right now.
RE: Am 6.0 first run - Kol - 05-03-2016
stage 3 day 5
Reactions are still weird. Got another number from some girl thats attracted to me. The other girl I chat with, i got her number and made her cum through the Phone. we will meet up. Chatted about goals and what not afterwards, some laughs and just casual relaxed at the Phone. Just flowing with it. Not needy even if asking her questions just for fun.
Some reactions in terms of attraction are weird. I get intense dizzy spells, almost dissociating and blackout, like its some strong conflict or something. I have so much stuff coming up, lots is dealt with. Stage 3 is an powerhouse. I grow cold aswell at times, like some old stuff is sudden gone and im an new person. moving in and out. On the other hand I'm feeling like an god at times, creating, setting the frame, being the presence.
Im getting dryer. Im getting veins all over my forearms and lats. More definition.
RE: Am 6.0 first run - Kol - 05-04-2016
Feeling incredibly tired
realizing this will pass, short intens tiredness spells. feeling really good again