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RE: 6G bonanza journalings and random musings (Currently: OSC + DRS)) - 4Kingdoms - 03-23-2025
(03-22-2025, 10:35 PM)Have at ye Wrote: So the social gathering was fun (and very lengthy, TBH, but my "social battery" lasted out the entire time, so that's nice); one funny situation was when this girl I find kinda pretty fumbled with her backpack and condoms started falling out of it, lol. She took it in stride, but it does imply she's ready for action whenever. :wink: :wink:
I love how Optimal Self Confidence 6G brings out the opposite sex's true intentions!! Seriously, you can't make this stuff up. Did you get her phone number, is she someone you see when you go to social gatherings?
I expected you to say she would be the first woman for your X4A-1600 research paper.
Then I saw your decision to run OGSF 6G. It's only 3 months; scientific research can wait.
RE: 6G bonanza journalings and random musings (Currently: OSC + DRS)) - Have at ye - 03-23-2025
The lady is a regular both in our little Internet community, as well as during in-person social gatherings.
So she ain't going anywhere for the time being. I have her Interwebz contact should I want to communicate with her privately. She also openly informed everyone she's currently single, heheh.I had another target in mind for first X4A scientific, empirical tests, though.
I'm not in touch with that one on a daily basis as she's from a different town altogether, but I bet we're gonna be seeing each other every now and again anyway, so...They'll keep.
I actually don't feel as much of a need for OGSF v3 right this moment as I did a couple of hours ago, but since I've made the decision, I'm gonna stick with it. 6G is powerful and when it hits resistance, it doesn't let you off easy and keeps digging anyway, so I guess a run-through of OGSF v3 could be construed as an investment in better, faster, more pleasant/less demanding results in the future.
RE: 6G bonanza journalings and random musings (Currently: OSC + DRS)) - Have at ye - 03-23-2025
Lol, those band guys want me in but unfortunately by my standards they're a little bit "amateur hour", not that there's anything wrong with that, but I'm way more ambitious. I might play with them some for fun, but I don't know whether it's really worth the effort and preparations.
Feelin' pretty good, I did spend most of the last 2-3 days analyzing stuff that came up and all that jazz, but now I've got some relief. We're gonna have quite a bit to discuss with my lovely lady analyst. I'm really tempted to tell her I've been having regular erotic dreams which feature her *most prominently* :wink: :wink:, to see what she thinks and how she reacts. She's a psychoanalyst, so they're used to transference occurring, but you never know until you know.
Also, this time around, when I went out to socialize with my people I *did not experience any wonky sensations* which I think are DRS-related (because it feels like the energy is coming from the outside), around my feet or otherwise. Very good.
RE: 6G bonanza journalings and random musings (Currently: OSC + DRS)) - Frosted - 03-23-2025
(03-22-2025, 11:31 PM)Have at ye Wrote: Okay, tell ya what, change of plans: I just purchased OGSF v3 and am running it after OSC, as I had planned initially.
I might break some instructions here and there and use the DRS v2 incidentally, if I notice too many attack symptoms, but otherwise OGSF v3 is next. Sorry, guys, the science of X4A-1600 shall have to wait three more months!
Welcome to the OGSF3 party! (:<
RE: 6G bonanza journalings and random musings (Currently: OSC + DRS)) - Have at ye - 03-23-2025
(03-23-2025, 05:11 PM)Frosted Wrote:(03-22-2025, 11:31 PM)Have at ye Wrote: Okay, tell ya what, change of plans: I just purchased OGSF v3 and am running it after OSC, as I had planned initially.
I might break some instructions here and there and use the DRS v2 incidentally, if I notice too many attack symptoms, but otherwise OGSF v3 is next. Sorry, guys, the science of X4A-1600 shall have to wait three more months!
Welcome to the OGSF3 party! (:<
Thanks for the welcome! Still two more weeks of OSC to go, though.
RE: 6G bonanza journalings and random musings (Currently: OSC + DRS)) - Have at ye - 03-24-2025
OSC + DRS v2, Day 47
So the above mentioned chick we discussed with 4kingdoms just dropped a couple doozies: she apparently "enjoys breaking societal rules from time to time" and "enjoys going to a naked spa" thingy on occasion. Maybe I shall join her upon a day, haha!
By the by, the entire community we're a part of is starting to grow into a real rag-tag group of disavowed misfits, haha. I'm lovin' it. We can be open with each other and have each others' backs without going all soft on one another as well because it's not our style.
I got a touch of a headache which I think may have actually been a headache-headache, not a sub-related headache, because I'm testing various dosages of taladafil on myself to see how I react physically to them before employing them for sexy-times. 10 mg was very smooth, 20 mg actually seems to have made me a bit woozy there for an hour or two. I'm not trying higher doses because that's counterindicated by penis-doctors. But it does appear to actually have a noticeable physical effect for about 36 hours or so. I'm gonna use be using it in case of dirty deeds happening prior to the release of OED 6G - although it's mostly for my mental comfort than actual, like, physical impotence.
I did have moments when I felt a little bit light-headed and had some hints of still releasing anger, here and there. Took the time today to think about things and stuff, getting back to work on the morrow.
Had a great singing practice session today to boot. I just need to keep reminding myself that yes, I *am* an expert in this belcanto thing - I've been doing this crap for the past *15* years, day in, day out, and some people still treat me as if they know better while they don't. And I know my vocal capabilities and the physiological mechanisms behind my particular voice and body way better than any darn outside smartass, oy, because it's *my* body and *my* voice.
RE: 6G bonanza journalings and random musings (Currently: OSC + DRS)) - Have at ye - 03-26-2025
OSC + DRS v2 Day 49
Less than two weeks to go! This makes me happy because I'm getting a little tired of OSCing. Or maybe I'm just tired because I've done some serious work in analysis lately and it's taking a toll, lol (I did not tell my lady analyst I had sexy dreams featuring her, though, yet, haha, as I had more pressing matters to relate).
I just remembered my lady analyst did catch me at least once checking out her beautiful ass before we commenced our session, she even let me get a nice, clear view for a moment and I caught her smiling to herself, haha. She a frisky one.
Had a rehearsal with my pianist-dude and he seemed to be less argumentative than he used to be whenever I said something that doesn't compute with his personal experiences. Anyway, it went pretty well and was informative even though I was kinda sleepy and a little bit blah (as was he, heh). I think he's beginning to consider whether I would be a good fit for singing a rather demanding part in that one opera of his I also wrote the libretto for. He's been dead-set on another dude (I think he's a little gay for him, lol) but we'll see.
Visiting my crazy parents tomorrow in order to try to renew my disability (I have a plan, you see), so I'll be staying there for a couple of days.
Went to a heavy metalzzz gig featuring lulzy covers of popular pop songs. It was good! Worth the money.
RE: 6G bonanza journalings and random musings (Currently: OSC + DRS)) - Have at ye - 03-27-2025
Feeling a bit better/less tired of OSCing. Gonna chill at my parents' for a couple of days, take a little break from work as I'm having Internet access issues here anyway and focus on singing practice (I can run OSC right before practice here as they don't have overly sensitive neighbors). Ordered some nice Sennheiser headphones because I've been absent high end ones for a very long time there.
Feeling optimistic again. A plan begins to form in my mind for the near future!
RE: 6G bonanza journalings and random musings (Currently: OSC + DRS)) - Have at ye - 03-30-2025
OSC + DRS, day 52
So I hit resistance which made itself apparent through depressive symptoms. I actually ended up switching to OGSF v3 prematurely, but started feeling better after that loop (had a funky wonky sensation of "internal vacuuming" from my usual wonky sensation spots, funny) so I elected to go back to OSC and finish this run.
I did elect to do what I usually do when running subs and hitting resistance, so I turned up the pressure and am now running Trickling Stram Hybrid. I mean, it's still available for a reason, let's use it.
Resistance seems to have lessend and my general mood and willingness to do things is back but I do feel more sleepy TBH.
In other news, I increased my EMS training to 2 full hours cardio (from 30 minutes), will also try increasing weight-training mode up to 1 hr today.
I might add a week or two of OSC to compensate for the above hiccough to this run, but I wanna move on to OGSF to make my life with subs easier in the long run.
RE: 6G bonanza journalings and random musings (Currently: OSC + DRS)) - Have at ye - 03-30-2025
OSC + DRS v2, Day 53
So I'm back at my place. I did a thingy to improve the quality of subliminal playback which in my opinion and experience is quite important with audio of this density and it feels good.
Hybrid is going down really smooth. I do find myself thinking about things a lot, resolving conflicting ideas and the like. But my overall mood has improved quite a bit. I'm getting hints of wonky sensations here and there (internal, though I'm producing bodyheat so DRS may be firing up, too).
It's just now occurred to me just how well-off financially I am, and how good my living situation is, all things considered - especially the state of the world as it is right now. I'm very comfortable and I'm in a good position to do what I want to do - heal up, achieve success, slay ladies; psychonalytic pursuits are more of a side-effect of my perosnal goals, lol, as I've got a helluva stuff to dig through and I'm in the process of learning how this whole "psyche" thing actually tics.
I'm also thinking how lotsa people still often treat me like a penniless bum of no means, or how often I'm being treated like some sort of half-idiot even though people doing so are usually intellectual midgets in comparison. A lot of this is I think related to the pervasive classism of our times which sells us the lie of a classless society. There's this Polish psychoanalyst Andrzej Leder who calls the particularily Polish/Eastern European form of this bullshit "the Vorwerk relation" (if you're wondering what Vorwerk is, here ya go: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Folwark - a leftover of hundreds of years of systemic serfdom). I could say more but I'd end up ranting on politics, economics and society at large, lewl, and we don't want that, haha.
I'm also finding myself both desiring a sexual relationship with lovely ladies, but really not feeling like pursuing them. I like things to happen organically.
In general I'm glad I decided to finish the run-through of OSC, and I'm glad I decided to try the hybrid track. Can't wait to OGSF things up a bit, though.
RE: 6G bonanza journalings and random musings (Currently: OSC + DRS)) - Have at ye - 03-31-2025
Day 53 continued
Now instead of feeling depressive, I am becoming an angry boi every now and again, kinda recollecting moments when my personal perception of reality, *my truth*, so to speak, was being disavowed by others.
What's especially annoying about it was that I was a) telling the truth, b) time proved me right in a great many cases, oy.
It's why I can't wait to run OGSF v3, to heal up a touch more and all that.
RE: 6G bonanza journalings and random musings (Currently: OSC + DRS)) - Have at ye - 04-01-2025
OSC + DRS v2, Day 54
The angry boi thing mostly passed; I do still get thoughts related to it but they carry less of an emotional charge. It passed after I got some good sleep in - also had a very long, invloved dream.
I really, really do not feel like doing translation work, though, heheh. Just gonna send out some invoices today to get me more monies. I also feel like I'd like to just stay home and focus on resolving whatever it is I am in the process of resolving before getting on with life. Can't wait to switch to OGSF v3 already.
I went to this psychonalaytic seminar yesterday, co-run by my lady analyst, and I actually experienced actual fear there for a moment (but it chilled down quickly). It was pretty interesting. The crowd was a bit different than last time (and this crowd is gonna stick it out through to the end) but there's three ladies there I find attractive, so we'll see. One of them said she's a microbiologist by trade, funky!
Lady analyst caught something and cancelled today's session because she's feeling under the weather, though, which is a bit of a bummer because I've got a couple of things to discuss. Oh well. Gonna go and practice some singing tonight.
The increase in the length of time of my EMS training appears to be working fine. I do not feel overly exhausted after, although I do sweat like a slick little piglet while I'm at it, lol. This should really work on my fitness and hotness in the long run, just gotta keep at it.
RE: 6G bonanza journalings and random musings (Currently: OSC + DRS)) - Have at ye - 04-01-2025
Day 54 continued
I could sleep all day, and whenever I do sleep (because why not), I dream very indicative dreams, very related to OSC.
I'll finish this run and go for OGSF, but I will be revisiting OSC in the future, definitely. To make it stick a bit more. 6G can get the job done but when it hits something nasty it does require a helluva lot of mental effort to pull off. Let's make life easier!
Haven't had any wonky sensations related to DRS v2 for quite some time now, so that's good, I guess. I do get internal wonky sensations, though.
Just 8 more days to go!
RE: 6G bonanza journalings and random musings (Currently: OSC + DRS)) - Have at ye - 04-01-2025
OSC + DRS v2, Day 55
My internal conviction and self-assurance have returned. I have made the right call in using Hybrid and the changes I made to my playback arrangements, it would seem. My mood has improved a lot as well, my thinking is sharper, clearer, yet again.
EMS training is going really well. I think I should be able to pull off 4 hours of it per day now, 2 hours of cardio in the morning, and then 2 hours of muscle training in the evening. Together with a little diet this should give visible, obvious results in no time (I am noticing a difference in my body composition in the mirror already).
Sent out that invoice, feeling ready to get some work done.
I'm getting wonky sensations in the usual spots; I think it's a traumatic fear response which is being powered through now that I've made the necessary changes.
I will definitely revisit OSC after OGSFing for a while. Although I will look into my subliminal options after finishing OGSF; I've still X4A to try out, and there might be other programs released in the interim I might want to run.