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RE: EP UMS JOURNAL - EvolvingPhoenix - 09-24-2019
Day 7 of carpetbombing. Been carpetbombing from about 10PM last night to 9AM this morning. I haven't noticed any fatigue, which is good! However, I do not notice any overt execution of the program.
RE: EP UMS JOURNAL - EvolvingPhoenix - 09-24-2019
Just had a legit healer do energy work remotely on me from all the way in Sydney, Australia.
He was healing my Orange/Sacral chakra.
Here's what he had to say:
"Hi there (Phoenix)!
That Working is now done.
I was able to facilitate as requested.
Lots of release.
There sure was a lot of pain present (in the orange ray). I'm sorry that you've had to live through so much hardship.
The work of release took place in the 7th sub-level of orange ray. It's what I refer to (in my system) as the 2.7 banding. So 2 for orange ray, and then 7 as the sub-level.
So that's where all this pain was being stored. Setting things free was like opening up a cage full of imprisoned animals, so they could see sunlight and nature again. It's only when they're imprisoned that they become deranged, and violent, and disconnected.
So there was a lot here on the emotional/personal level (orange ray) that was being imprisoned, internally.
And its not necessarily about self-expression. But rather a self-expression that isn't so constricted and tormented.
So that was the major release here. To enable that inner self a natural space in which to grow, replenish, and flourish - as was truly intended
This was made possible by all the acknowledgements and seeking that you've done in this area: I only facilitated what was ready to be born. You've done the hard work yourself
That will unfold over the coming week (and beyond).
An Honor to intervene for you.
Much Love, and with the (EDIT)'s Light -
Fellow Seeker
(Healer)"
Hopefully, this healing will help decrease resistance to UMS, and facilitate E3's healing.
RE: EP UMS JOURNAL - EvolvingPhoenix - 09-25-2019
Day 8 of carpet bombing:
Ran 6 loops as I slept last night. Woke up feeling well rested. Still don't notice myself executing as wanted, but that may change soon.
RE: EP UMS JOURNAL - EvolvingPhoenix - 09-25-2019
Definitely feeling better than before, since that energy work was done. As I meditate however, I find that my sense of faith in the universe is blocked by a sense of dread. This is most likely trauma stored within the root chakra. I will probably ask this same energy healer to work on my root chakra as well. First, I shall pay him for his services, although he charges nothing.
RE: EP UMS JOURNAL - Greenduck - 09-25-2019
(09-25-2019, 01:14 PM)EvolvingPhoenix Wrote: Definitely feeling better than before, since that energy work was done. As I meditate however, I find that my sense of faith in the universe is blocked by a sense of dread. This is most likely trauma stored within the root chakra. I will probably ask this same energy healer to work on my root chakra as well. First, I shall pay him for his services, although he charges nothing.
Nice to see you arriving to energy work. I have a good root chakra meditation I do daily. Just search for root chakra healing camp on YouTube and you’ll find it.
RE: EP UMS JOURNAL - EvolvingPhoenix - 09-25-2019
Thanks Greenduck. I'll DEFINITELY check that out.
RE: EP UMS JOURNAL - EvolvingPhoenix - 09-26-2019
Day 9 of carpetbombing: Carpetbombed for 12 hours straight. Feeling tired.
RE: EP UMS JOURNAL - EvolvingPhoenix - 09-26-2019
*sigh* When will this fucking resistance break down?! 9 days of carpetbombing and my subconcious mind is STILL fighting this shit. I will be so glad when the resistance finally gets overcome!
RE: EP UMS JOURNAL - EvolvingPhoenix - 09-27-2019
Day 10 of carpetbombing:
Waking up. Middle of night. Carpetbomb ongoing. Feeling... worthy. Feeling open to abundance already held within, if I can just let go of this resistance to it. I'm feeling ready right now. It's hard to explain, but I'm definitely carrying this mindframe where I'm feeling increasingly confident I can have anything. And I say "Yes" to having it. Program seems to be executing as desired at the moment. Still carpetbombing my resistance right now though.
The FRM still has plenty of work to do though. I'm gonna see if I can get that energy healer to do more energy work on me. Root chakra healing this time. I'm already beginning to feel the effects of his orange ray healing, mixed with the UMS sub. A new sense of self is emerging, as well as a new sense of self worth. Can't tell how much is due to the energy healing and how much is due to UMS. Both are probably playing a role here. Fear still gets in the way. I imagine root chakra healing, daily meditation and the FRM should all work to overcome that.
RE: EP UMS JOURNAL - EvolvingPhoenix - 09-27-2019
I should also note, it is interesting I woke up at like 5:22AM, since I went to sleep at like 2AM. Now I'm having a hard time getting to sleep. I took two Klonipin, 2 melatonin and 2 Vistiril. My ass should be out cold right now.
RE: EP UMS JOURNAL - EvolvingPhoenix - 09-27-2019
Well I haven't gotten any sleep since, and I've been carpetbombing most of the time, but I'm not feeling tired.
I'm hoping this is a good sign.
RE: EP UMS JOURNAL - Have at ye - 09-27-2019
Variations in sleeping patterns/feeling over-energized happened to me on UMS as well. It's quite possible it's a sign that "something is definitely going on" under the hood.
RE: EP UMS JOURNAL - EvolvingPhoenix - 09-27-2019
That's cool. I'm glad these sibliminals are starting to gain some traction vs. resistance!
RE: EP UMS JOURNAL - EvolvingPhoenix - 09-27-2019
Noticed earlier (but didn't have the time to post this until now) that I actually HADN'T taken my sleeping pills the night before. That explains why I only got a little sleep. A little disappointing, as it indicates we were assuming more was going on under the hood than there may actually have been.