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RE: E3 Journal. - Shannon - 06-15-2020
I think he;s saying he moved to using the other one, as RTB said.
RE: E3 Journal. - London1 - 06-15-2020
(06-15-2020, 04:49 AM)RTBoss Wrote:(06-15-2020, 03:18 AM)London1 Wrote:(06-14-2020, 10:27 PM)GreekGod22 Wrote: @THolt I have those kind of dreams often, but I wouldn't call them nightmares. I've dreamed much worse, cutting, stabbing, running for your life, having to save someone close, that's what I call nightmares.
And yes, I have similar feelings of control to what you described about anger.
Whats the meaning of your sig?
Are you saying ASC is greater than E3?
If I recall correctly, he ran ASC first, and is now running E3 - so it's merely the order he ran the subs.
Oh I was thinking it could be that too
RE: E3 Journal. - THolt - 06-17-2020
I have noticed the past couple of weeks I am starting to feel more emotionally centered. I do not get as bothered by as much stuff as I used to. I still have a ways to go but I feel like this has been an important milestone for me.
I will continue to run E3 until E4 comes out.
RE: E3 Journal. - THolt - 06-21-2020
So today I got into a heated debate (borderline argument) about COVID-19. He thinks its a scam and a hoax which is stupid because it is science.
Anyways one thing I noticed was that I stood my ground. I didn't cave in and try to people please which is something I would do in the past. I felt free to express my opinions and not be worried about the consequences.
I can only think that this a by product of E3 working its magic. I have had a lot of issues with expressing my opinion to other people. I grew up in a family that didn;t believe in expressing your opinion and communication was one sided.
Therefore I grew up subconsciously thinking my opinion didn't matter and that it was unsafe to express my opinion.
What a breakthrough in my view. I can't wait until E4.
RE: E3 Journal. - London1 - 06-21-2020
(06-21-2020, 02:55 PM)THolt Wrote: So today I got into a heated debate (borderline argument) about COVID-19. He thinks its a scam and a hoax which is stupid because it is science.
Anyways one thing I noticed was that I stood my ground. I didn't cave in and try to people please which is something I would do in the past. I felt free to express my opinions and not be worried about the consequences.
I can only think that this a by product of E3 working its magic. I have had a lot of issues with expressing my opinion to other people. I grew up in a family that didn;t believe in expressing your opinion and communication was one sided.
Therefore I grew up subconsciously thinking my opinion didn't matter and that it was unsafe to express my opinion.
What a breakthrough in my view. I can't wait until E4.
Around when is E4 coming out?
RE: E3 Journal. - THolt - 06-22-2020
(06-21-2020, 11:29 PM)London1 Wrote:(06-21-2020, 02:55 PM)THolt Wrote: So today I got into a heated debate (borderline argument) about COVID-19. He thinks its a scam and a hoax which is stupid because it is science.
Anyways one thing I noticed was that I stood my ground. I didn't cave in and try to people please which is something I would do in the past. I felt free to express my opinions and not be worried about the consequences.
I can only think that this a by product of E3 working its magic. I have had a lot of issues with expressing my opinion to other people. I grew up in a family that didn;t believe in expressing your opinion and communication was one sided.
Therefore I grew up subconsciously thinking my opinion didn't matter and that it was unsafe to express my opinion.
What a breakthrough in my view. I can't wait until E4.
Around when is E4 coming out?
I’m thinking soon because E3 would likely have to be upgraded for UMS 2.0 and definitely LTU 6
RE: E3 Journal. - THolt - 07-17-2020
Some things I have noticed from E3 the past couple weeks:
-GI issues have come and gone. The past few weeks there have been days where I have had bad gas and some cramps. Other days I have had heartburn. Overall my GI issues are not as severe as they were when I started the program last year.
- I have had some negative emotions and belief come to surface. The primary belief/emotion I am experiencing is not being good enough. Also I have noticed a lot of guilt and shame come to the surface. Also E3 has brought back memories from when I younger that caused or reinforced this belief of not being good enough. I want to get rid of this belief and heal the guilt and shame I have.
-I have become unmotivated to do things like exercise or do work. It's like I have feel so lazy I don't want to do anything.
Overall I feel like E3 is clearing out the negative emotions and beliefs in my subconscious. It's hard to believe this program has FRM 4.5 and came out almost 15 months ago back in April 2019.
I can't wait until E4 comes out (hopefully soon) with FRM 4.9 so I can take my emotional healing to the next level.
RE: E3 Journal. - THolt - 07-19-2020
Experiencing more feelings of not being good enough or less than perfect or inadequate. Feel kinda down today
E3 is bringing up some issues for sure. Can’t wait to see what E4 has in store.
RE: E3 Journal. - THolt - 07-22-2020
I feel like E3 is working on some subconscious feelings and beliefs of guilt and shame I have. It’s amazing how subconsciously feeling guilt and shame about something you did a long time ago affects your behavior, relationships and even career
So far enjoying how E3 is slowly but surely working on these many different issues
RE: E3 Journal. - THolt - 07-25-2020
Emotionally feel horrible today. Feelings of low self worth have been prevalent today. Feel like I can't do anything right. Feel like I am not good enough.
Feel lonely and rejected.
I wasn't aware all of this junk was in my subconscious.
My number one goal with E3 and eventually E4 is to get to the point where I can have good relationships. I don't think I have ever had a lasting friendship in my life.
Everytime I meet somebody, I get too clingy or needy and ruin the relationship. Apart of me believes that I am not good enough for good friendships. That there is something wrong with me.
I hope E3/E4 can help relieve all of this.
RE: E3 Journal. - Shannon - 07-25-2020
E4 is going to be a VERY different beast. A "velvet gloves on an iron fist" type beast. "We are going to accomplish these goals, see, and that is all the options you have. So you can march, or I can march you, but that is what we are going to accomplish. Get to it."
I think I have been too gentle in the past with E2 and E3. It's time to plow through whatever is in the way and achieve the goals.
RE: E3 Journal. - THolt - 07-25-2020
(07-25-2020, 11:40 AM)Shannon Wrote: E4 is going to be a VERY different beast. A "velvet gloves on an iron fist" type beast. "We are going to accomplish these goals, see, and that is all the options you have. So you can march, or I can march you, but that is what we are going to accomplish. Get to it."
I think I have been too gentle in the past with E2 and E3. It's time to plow through whatever is in the way and achieve the goals.
@Shannon
Wow. Very excited to hear that.
Will E4 be released after Stage 1 of LTU6 is released?
If not, I’m still looking forward to it
RE: E3 Journal. - THolt - 07-31-2020
So today I woke up feeling like I cleared out intense emotions when I slept. I feel like a huge burden has been lifted off my shoulders.
Still struggling with beliefs of not being good enough and what not.
RE: E3 Journal. - THolt - 08-11-2020
Have been very tired running E3 lately. Woke up very tired and remained very sluggish today. I also feel like I am clearing out some deeply buried guilt and shame I have carried over the years.
Can’t wait to run E4 when it drops but looks like that won’t be for awhile due to LTU6 and the vacation Shannon suddenly decided to take. E3 is still kicking ass tbh