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RE: DMSI V3.2 5.5G Shadow's Awesome Journal - Shadow2200 - 02-27-2018
Day 6 (night)
Back form my night meeting that goes on till Friday. As the celebrity effect was working got pretty much everyone attention as I entered the room. They also had a new girl with her son there and she kept getting some looks in. Had my young singer girl and a older cougar girl that was really in to me a while back had their full attention even though they tried to hide sort of. They just couldn't help as usual to flop fight down in my line of sight of course. The main interesting thing as had eye contact with the young singer girl I was thinking logistically it would be nice if something happen and we had to take it in bath room. So I just stepped out for a sec went to the bath room and low and behold it turned out she had came out after me to use the bath room. She just kind of missed me in the transit. Kind of funny cause i was thinking that what should happen cause that's about the only place if something could happen. Maybe it's the reality bending kicking in who knows? Latter the young singer girl had completely open body language leaning back so I could get a good look at her and and we locked eyes quite a bit. All was well till her mother came in late and she totally shut down for the most part although she wanted things to continue but had to play it off.
My appetite is way up, confidence up, positive up also I've noticed the aura is up and can feel it mainly only around girls I'm attracted to. Most of the crowd at the meet was too old or too large for me so nothing fired up. Mainly just singer girl and the new single mom girl did it fire up. When singer girl made a effort to meet me outside the meeting that did let me know sub is stronger cause before they would rarely even try to do that. Normally I be like this sucks nothing happened tonight. My new positive attitude kicked in and I'm feeling great it's just a matter of time.
RE: DMSI V3.2 5.5G Shadow's Awesome Journal - Shadow2200 - 02-28-2018
Day 7-8
Today I guess my my mp3 player was having some issues. The track keep staticing up on me I guessing I broke ASRB but continued through it non the less. Been reading how there can be a rage in the cage/machine and I'm starting to feel it. In that I guess normally have some release to porn and now feeling no to desire to escape to that, now I'm left with no sex at the moment but pinned up rage and desire. Starting to see how that wall is going to make ya execute no matter what with no escape routs. So I'm positive but full off pinned desire and rage. The wall is very powerful indeed.
The meeting went well dancer friend was there again and we as flirted as usual, as well as the young singer girl and various other girls most of whom was too older or way too large. As things move along getting very hard to resist doing something to dancer girl. Tonight after her performance she was playing with her hair, and playing with a baby in front of me. As usual sniper aura fires off strong, and it takes a toll on me just having her around cause it always fires up. It's the same thing for young singer girl but less strong. With new sub I can diffidently feel who I like and want to have sex with. The rage comes in cause the desire to be with them is strong and as of yet very has come of it, Mainly because of logistics and or the girl being judged by someone if they act a certain way. So it's just this constant game of they like me but they have to hide it kind of of deal. After a while get's kind of of old.
Later after the dancer and singer girls left I got jumped by multiple older cougar girls that saw I was open so they just came right up to me started talking. The married one kind of took me by surprise in how bold got in my space which she had done before but it had been a long time. I had little attraction for ether of them but they did give me attention so that was good. The girls I was attracted to the most both bailed on me. So aura is working wall is working now I just need a release for this rage desire.
RE: DMSI V3.2 5.5G Shadow's Awesome Journal - Shadow2200 - 03-01-2018
Day 8 (night)
Rage in a cage, luckily has been going down a lot more today. Things went pretty good at the meeting. Main Dancer girl of course was there plus singer and announcement girl plus various other girls. Young singer girl has been having some issues with the fact she likes so she tried to stay out my sight ad play me off although she wasn't fooling anybody. Got to the point now if someone is playing me off I'm just cool moving forward to someone else. Plus losing patience with her and he issues. Since all that was going on I had a lot of time to scan the audience of people see who was checking me out. Most of young single girls where at at least checking me out a few of the single mom girls that helping my main dancer girl with her dance performance also just seemed to keep they selves in my line of sight and went to extremes to make sure I could see them. Celebrity effect.
One the single mom girl was going out with one of my friends that sat close to me so I was checking to see if maybe she was looking at him, she was totally looking at me the whole time. For the last few months while on 3.1 both girl sometimes give a few ioi's but rarely do much else this time was different. I sat myself in a high traffic area i.e. snack bar and while the other girls who normally had much attention ran off like dancer and singer girl low and behold this single mom chick came right up to me initiated some conversation. She had been making lots of eye contact so wasn't surprised but was surprised she put some effort. I'm decided to lay back a little see who makes some effort.
As we was getting ready to head home my main dancer friend took me by surprise called me over to her car to show me this new Congo drum she had bought. Of course just an excuses to talk to me but I'll take it. With her tonight could feel the aura on her but less strong as it seems like it was dived in strength toward lots of other girls tonight so I was about to just leave her alone cause with my rage and desire I was just getting tried of ioi's and nothing happening. That being said she did put effort in to try to talk to me. That is showing things are moving forward.
With the reduction in porn release now I'm more focused on trying to get real girls. Thanks to the wall I might execute this sub after all.
RE: DMSI V3.2 5.5G Shadow's Awesome Journal - Shadow2200 - 03-02-2018
Day 8 (afternoon)
Tonight going to be the last day of my 4 day district meeting after this back to work. Much reduced urges for porn and appetite is up so tonight I should hit the meeting executing. I have read some of the other posts. My idea of ether if 3.2 100% works is where girls dose pretty much all the work for the hook up to happen. Thanks to some of the new additions to the sub like anxiety relief I feel if really wanted to I could force something to happen i.e. escalate just to have something happen. However I'm opting for seeing how far the aura will make the girls go in order to complete the goals of the program. Will report back latter
RE: DMSI V3.2 5.5G Shadow's Awesome Journal - K-Train - 03-02-2018
(03-02-2018, 01:33 PM)Shadow2200 Wrote: Day 9 (afternoon)
Tonight going to be the last day of my 4 day district meeting after this back to work. Much reduced urges for porn and appetite is up so tonight I should hit the meeting executing. I have read some of the other posts. My idea of ether if 3.2 100% works is where girls dose pretty much all the work for the hook up to happen. Thanks to some of the new additions to the sub like anxiety relief I feel if really wanted to I could force something to happen i.e. escalate just to have something happen. However I'm opting for seeing how far the aura will make the girls go in order to complete the goals of the program. Will report back latter
Yeah I'm in a similar dilemma. The internals from V3.2 are amazing but compared to others on the board I'm not seeing the same externals. I'm tempted to "go rouge" and do it on my own but like you I do want to see if the program can actually achieve it's design goal. Hopefully things continue to pick up as far as external results are concerned.
RE: DMSI V3.2 5.5G Shadow's Awesome Journal - Shadow2200 - 03-03-2018
Day 8 (night)
So meeting came and went have another 3 day meeting in 2 weeks so by then I should be a Max power hopefully. The celebrity effect was in place so got lots so attention great stuff. Singer girl still caught in a dilemma as to what she going to do since she has a thing for , paid her no mind. Got lots so ioi's form crowd of mainly females. Pretty much ether they liked me or paid no attention to me. A few of them that was actually attracted to maybe 2-4 maybe as usual could really feel the sniper aura, kind of of draining a bit paticually when it's on multiple people. Usually I have to make up in calories after cause it amps my appetite up.
The whole point of tonight and well be for a while is to notice and see if any girl is actually making any effect to make something happen. I did have maybe 2 girls, young singer girl that's conflicted with her feels and single mom girl who put a tiny bit of effect i.e. like come around me or look for me after the meeting was over. This would be about as far as thing went the whole year of 3.1. it is happening faster and with more focus as to girls I like now which is good. I know I'm executing at at lest some what. I was hoping as I was in 3.1 that things would go past the token effort of just flirting or a few ioi's. Be nice to have a serious pass that she put effort all by her self. Only one that even came close was dancer and even she hasn't gone that far yet. I hoping things well continue to improve as far as what the affected is willing to do and or are the affected also resisting the sub. Other than that great self effects, differently better than 3.1. We'll see where this goes
RE: DMSI V3.2 5.5G Shadow's Awesome Journal - Shadow2200 - 03-03-2018
Day 9 (work)
It continues on. Today I worked outside most of the day so had less time to interact with girls however they do seem to find me never the less. Had this one black girl with glass watching me while I worked and walking extra close to me as we passed by. I was unfazed by this of course. Lots of head turning reaction to my presence i.e. celebrity effect. During the day the aura was much weaker as well as my sex drive very low till I get some food in me in the afternoon that's when it turned up some girls seemed bit more nicer. I had a old fling form years back she pulled her car up next to me as I was working and had a chat. Took me by surprise as most of the time during the year on 3.1 or earlier she was hi and bye as of late she's been talking to me. As my previous post have mentioned I've going to be laied back see if its sub get people to take action or effect as has been the goal of this 2 year sub seems like. Back in the day this single mom that pulled up we used to have some attraction I guess I lacked the courage to take it all the way before. This like 10 years ago thanks to all these subs I'm a much different person now. Both of us have lost a lot of weight so we're in great shape so who knows I know before she has no problem being the aggressor.
Other than that almost any and all desire to release to porn gone, while al though I can look at just see it as a waste of time. On the social media front had the single mom that was giving me heavy eye contact reject my friends request. That same girl just happened to come out to my work buy a few items she kept quiet. Felt a little disappointed as in her and several other girls at the meeting had serious ioi's eye-contact facing me yet on social media a shut down.
Rage desire much less as though it seems my sex drive down though and although I still see girls I might want to have sex with feel almost no need to chase them or do anything. So in one way I like it much more self sufficient in another I can feel very very tiny glimpse of the goal of this sub happening it still feel like it so far away. That being said 3.2 closer than it had been. Yet I've been waiting so long. Tomorrow my weekly meeting dancer,nurse, and announcement girl should all be there. Hopefully someone makes a move on me to spice things up some.
RE: DMSI V3.2 5.5G Shadow's Awesome Journal - Shadow2200 - 03-04-2018
Day 10 (Day Meeting)
Had my weekly mourning meeting today and things getting back to normal again. My dancer girl there and since nurse girl was off at work she was a lot more friendly even making more effort to come speak to me. She might have to watch herself cause she dose have a man but really hard to tell it. Pretty much all the other girls there are watching us flirt around of course no saying anything about it. My dancer dancer girl made a effort to talk to me, even giving me a ride home which she had been wanted to do for a while. Things going well she is well on her way to seducing me. We'll see how this goes
RE: DMSI V3.2 5.5G Shadow's Awesome Journal - Shadow2200 - 03-05-2018
Day 11 (work)
As usual the celebrity effect is in effect had of changes on the job with the building remolding going on. Girls generally in a present mode with me around and the ioi smiles. I say the positive attitude i was able to keep a awesome smile no matter what, No flap desire to be had and also very focus carefree for the most part all's good. Only thing is missing is girls making a effort to get me although some did flirt a little bit. The only thing out of order was i had a old fling girl that i saw on Saturday pull up in the car and chatted came back today showing off her boy friend. Guess stuff like that comes with the territory. Also dancer just happened to come by and visit me in passing at work quite a convenience. Latter tonight having pizza with FWB announcement girl. Life is good.
RE: DMSI V3.2 5.5G Shadow's Awesome Journal - Shadow2200 - 03-07-2018
Day 12-13
Things pretty much going on as normal. More celebrity effect, girls generally getting ok of invading my space, girls flirting more and me of course being unaffected by any of it. Good stuff
RE: DMSI V3.2 5.5G Shadow's Awesome Journal - Kol - 03-07-2018
Same. Totally IDGAF attitude at all about almost if not everything.
RE: DMSI V3.2 5.5G Shadow's Awesome Journal - Shadow2200 - 03-07-2018
Day 13 (night)
Another awesome day, things continue to improve slowly, pretty much fixed my release to porn habit, good riddance. Very positive attitude, focused and like previous post a ultra carefree attitude slowly seeing myself more as the prize and been more open to have girls chase me i.e. flirt. Right now I've been seeing a lot of girls notice me celebrity effect angle themselves at me co workers get extra close in my space, like me be around them a lot more. Guys are much more cool around me. Lot's of little things. Aura dose seem to be stronger after about 2 weeks now.
Stopped by the libery for some testing, aura diffidently stronger than it was as after a while of sitting next to be girls start to respond to it, good stuff. I had did a tour around the place an happened to pass some girls they just happened to sit down next to the computer I was using. And all all extra close to me as they where headed out. Also earlier announcement girl and her sister an came out to work to buy some stuff. Her sister which many of time had nothing to say today was very animated to see me, going out of her way to talk to me using her sister as a way to flirt around with me. She should be trouble.
RE: DMSI V3.2 5.5G Shadow's Awesome Journal - Shadow2200 - 03-08-2018
Day 14-15 (work)
Things pretty preceded as normal little change,celebrity effect smiles iois more come positive attitude, some girls stopping and staring at me, girls passing extra close. Did have the urge to message some girls on facebook try to get some things going.No more releasing to porn, giving every little care to much of anything. Worked outside so had less chance to test things out. Only other thing is I just happened to meet a girl I was seriously attracted to about 2-3 years ago back in the very early days of and women magnet and start dmsi. I never really got the point I am now so we kind of missed hooking up. A cute little college girl. I haven't seen her in like years just happened to run into her and while I was talking to some other guy she walked by and made sure she looked at me before running off. She felt it and so did i was sill something there. I'm sure she'd had seen me out there before. Something just made her try to catch my attention today. I think that's been one of the biggest things that been happening I just seem to run into a lot of old flings and girls that I should of had sex with but never did. Very interesting
RE: DMSI V3.2 5.5G Shadow's Awesome Journal - Shadow2200 - 03-10-2018
Day 16 (work)
Yesterday at work even though it was the day of the break from sub. All previous effects still in use. Only other major change if you can call it that was girls seeking to get close to me I;e some of the older cougar co-workers girls came and sit down with me did all the talking. Normally I'd sit alone for lunch and watch TV or some of them say hi a lot more often. Only other thing is that now spring break is on been a lot of young girls looking at me like a piece of meat just no smile just staring at me. Do to the store remolding I've been in a bit more. We'll see what happens today.