(08-31-2016, 03:34 PM)maxx55 Wrote: I haven't. I'll use it when AM7 comes out. I'm not using anything below 5.5G

(09-06-2016, 04:55 PM)maxx55 Wrote: Head is hurting pretty fierce. Did some research today to see what I'm feeling. Seems like I have symptoms of depression at the moment. I want to sleep and it's ridiculously difficult to focus and do homework.

I thought about stopping E2 for this reason, but yeah I know, it's "resistance". I'm definitely reducing my hours, maybe just 6 a day, no more than 8. I can't get anything done feeling like this. I really wonder if it's even worth it. I feel like I should be doing something exciting on a daily basis, but I don't have the time to right now.

Also, I found out that neurogenesis fights depression. And that things like stress can slow down or stop neurogensis, which would lead to symptoms of depression. I've definitely been stressed recently. But it's things I can't avoid. So I'm going to back to exercising and start learning something new, both of which should encourage neurogenesis.

I know a while back I said I saw the light at the end of the tunnel. Right now, I don't see it. I just want to feel better, have more time to have fun, and really know that E2 is a turning point in my life.

Here's a list of the benefits I have from E2 so far:
-Guilt, shame, and fear responses have weakened a bit
-I'm visible to people more often
-Guys start convos with me every so often (randoms)
-Guys hold doors open occasionally (randoms)
-I'm landing more roles for my career
-Occasionally, I get free food or food discounts (sometimes my first time I get something there)
-Money seems to come to me a bit more often in various forms

(09-06-2016, 05:05 PM)DisneylandUSA Wrote:

(09-06-2016, 04:55 PM)maxx55 Wrote: Head is hurting pretty fierce. Did some research today to see what I'm feeling. Seems like I have symptoms of depression at the moment. I want to sleep and it's ridiculously difficult to focus and do homework.

I thought about stopping E2 for this reason, but yeah I know, it's "resistance". I'm definitely reducing my hours, maybe just 6 a day, no more than 8. I can't get anything done feeling like this. I really wonder if it's even worth it. I feel like I should be doing something exciting on a daily basis, but I don't have the time to right now.

Also, I found out that neurogenesis fights depression. And that things like stress can slow down or stop neurogensis, which would lead to symptoms of depression. I've definitely been stressed recently. But it's things I can't avoid. So I'm going to back to exercising and start learning something new, both of which should encourage neurogenesis.

I know a while back I said I saw the light at the end of the tunnel. Right now, I don't see it. I just want to feel better, have more time to have fun, and really know that E2 is a turning point in my life.

Here's a list of the benefits I have from E2 so far:
-Guilt, shame, and fear responses have weakened a bit
-I'm visible to people more often
-Guys start convos with me every so often (randoms)
-Guys hold doors open occasionally (randoms)
-I'm landing more roles for my career
-Occasionally, I get free food or food discounts (sometimes my first time I get something there)
-Money seems to come to me a bit more often in various forms

Interesting about, 'Neurogenesis.' Sounds fascinating about the 'birth of Neurons.' Sounds like you are growing with E2

(09-06-2016, 04:55 PM)maxx55 Wrote: Head is hurting pretty fierce. Did some research today to see what I'm feeling. Seems like I have symptoms of depression at the moment. I want to sleep and it's ridiculously difficult to focus and do homework.

(09-06-2016, 04:55 PM)maxx55 Wrote: I thought about stopping E2 for this reason, but yeah I know, it's "resistance". I'm definitely reducing my hours, maybe just 6 a day, no more than 8. I can't get anything done feeling like this. I really wonder if it's even worth it. I feel like I should be doing something exciting on a daily basis, but I don't have the time to right now.

Also, I found out that neurogenesis fights depression. And that things like stress can slow down or stop neurogensis, which would lead to symptoms of depression. I've definitely been stressed recently. But it's things I can't avoid. So I'm going to back to exercising and start learning something new, both of which should encourage neurogenesis.

(09-07-2016, 07:06 PM)maxx55 Wrote: I will say that I am feeling better today than I did yesterday.

The dream last night was just crazy

In the dream, I was in a class, I think the professor was showing a movie. A girl in front of me turns around and starts talking to me. Then I remember she asked some bs question. It was like "How old are you/how tall are you" don't remember exactly. I tell her, she looks at a couple of other guys in the room and then says "That's okay. I'll just stick with my boyfriend". At that moment I thought of all the times I approached and made plans with girls who have a bf and how I got nowhere. I get up to leave but then everyone in the room starts turning into vampires. And I don't mean like pretty Vampire Diaries vamps, I mean like old school, ugly monster vamps. It was like I was prepared. I just run out into the hall where there's some sunlight and they just light fire and disintegrate as they chase me. I somehow end up in my grandma's old house and I'm just letting the sun take them out. Other stuff happened but I don't remember anything else.

Unrelated
I'm excited to see how DMSI 3.0 turns out. Shannon seems super determined to further it until it crushes the resistance of ALL people testing it on the forum. This is very promising. It already seems like some people are getting results with 2.4 that I'd like to get from E2 (ex. euphoria, enjoying life, less anxiety). The best way I can describe what I'm guessing is happening is that my joy in life wasn't based internally. E2 is trying to fix that, but it feels like I'm breaking down to my core. That's the best way to describe it. I'm just hoping that once it's done breaking me down, it builds me back up at least to where I was with my enjoyment of life and joy but with it being based internally.