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RE: UMS v3.1 - Which Is to Be the Master - ReconGunner - 03-02-2026
Break Week 3
For the past week or so I've been having a lot of deservedness self-talk, as if I was debating an unknown opponent about whether I deserve UMS, or any of the benefits from any of the other titles I plan to run - HOWL and AM7.
I asked myself a simple question late last week. "What do I want?" What does UMS look like for me, in more detail. What do I want from HOWL? What do I want from AM7? My answers fed back into the deservedness self-talk, but they also gave me a lot more clarity on who I want to be. I'm not going to detail those answers here, for reasons frequently discussed - to avoid triggering any specific opposition to those goals.
Last night, something broke through. I figured out how to re-present myself professionally for the kind of role that I've been struggling to move into. I realized how much of my previous recent positions included the kind of work I'd rather be doing, and a general idea of how to reframe those roles to focus on those activities. That's been enough to fire up some motivation to get those things done.
And I will repeat something I posted a few weeks ago:
George Eliot Wrote:It is never too late to be what you might have been.
One more week, then Run 3 starts. I feel more ready than ever.
RE: UMS v3.1 - Which Is to Be the Master - ReconGunner - 03-09-2026
Break Week 4
Break Ends
Tonight starts Run 3, Stage 1
Still struggling with motivation. Less "trapped in amber" though; more like "swimming in syrup". I hope that this time through Stage 1 will open things up and push my motivation forward.