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RE: SH's journey with 5G AYPSL - sw72hw - 04-26-2015
Well, I have been away, and for some reason, I wanted to check the forum today...
It seems that lots have changed, and I had 4 private messages waiting, asking me the result. And I also have a reply on a forum asking the result.
I'm sorry to disappoint you guys, but I have not yet manifested the lover.
Yet, I wouldn't put a blame on the sub, as the fault is more on me since I have put on a halt on the journey to manifest the perfect lover.It's been a while since I quit the sub, so I do not remember how much longer I used the sub since my last post on the forum. I believe I have used about a week or two weeks longer and decided to take a break/quit using the sub.
Here are the reasoning behind the quitting:
1. I couldn't handle the headaches I was getting from the sub. I don't know why, but it was there, and that it was getting in my academic works, so I decided to take the sub break, and it got rid of my headaches.
2. During the last week or two weeks of using the sub, I had serious internal conflict, which I believe I have been having prior to the weeks, but I realized two tings: 1. I am in a situation that conflicts with this "perfect sexual lover" and that I am not ready to manifest her... so focus on something else. 2. My doubt about having a relationship solely based on sex, or more based on sex than romance/love just grew too much that I realized that this may not be what I really wanted.
3. Continuing from the doubt, I think I realized that my choosing this sub was probably the neediness of trying to manifest the girl super fast, whether it was based on sex or romance... which I don't think was a healthy attitude to manifest perfect lover. And I realized that perhaps I should take the romantic lover instead of the sexual lover, if I were to get back to listening to the sub.
4. I wasn't sure whether the sub could work, because of the special situation I am in. --> I am diagnosed with having Asperger's syndrome, (though the doctor recommended that I take further testing from a specialist to find whether I have Asperger's for sure, and if I do, what are the causes) which I have a feeling that I may need a different approach other than sub since I remember reading someone making an inquiry about Asperger's and Shannon saying something about taking something that wouldn't be too conflicting. (I may be wrong about reading this though)
5. I realized that I will be relocating on a constant basis for several years, due to my military draft issue and moving onto graduate degree.
Perhaps all of these may be the result from my resistance, but I focused on my school work, and decided to move on with this path. Well, I got some result I suppose; I got 4 offers from graduate school, and waiting for two. Heck, from what I know, the interest I currently have requires PhD level work to even start unravel. (Based on my talk with bunch of professors at my current school, and a professor at one of the graduate schools I got accepted into.) All of these tells me that I will be very mobile perhaps for the next coming 5 years, or maybe even a decade, and I believe this is going to be a bad situation to manifest the lover, hence for not continuing to listen to the sub.
I'm again sorry to disappoint you guys, but that has been where I am at, and so far. And another funny thing that I can report is that I am feeling much less needy and feeling much more secure, as I don't feel the need to have this lover "right away". (Thought, I sometimes still suffer a bit from wanting this lover too much.)
I don't know if I will be back for the sub, or try different sub, but I may come back to see interesting developments in this forum.
Thank you for those who has had interest in me, and I hope I have relieved you from some of the curiosities.
RE: SH's journey with 5G AYPSL - JackOfHearts - 04-26-2015
I would advise you to test the ASC sub or EPHRA sub because you are moving a lot and since these sub are free and easy to use you won't risk anything.
You don't need to say you are sorry, guys here are result craving so they ask too much.
Good luck with your journey.
RE: SH's journey with 5G AYPSL - Shannon - 04-26-2015
If you were getting headaches from the sub, there are only two possible reasons. Either you had it playing too loudly, and you were using ultrasonics... or you were subconsciously resisting it by any means possible.
RE: SH's journey with 5G AYPSL - Dilettante - 04-27-2015
Thank you sir, i appreciate you following up on your progress. very similar result to me after stopping the sub - like a bloom effect. good luck with everything