(09-17-2018, 11:27 AM)Shannon Wrote: If you don't really understand why, start using the Socratic method. Ask yourself questions that lead to understanding more in steps. You may not be able to answer each step instantly. Some of them may require that you think about it for a while.

(09-18-2018, 11:52 AM)Jake2015 Wrote: Update3 of day 2
Time:10.50pm

Procrastinated. Ate. Watched 2hours of the big bang theory and then finally had a shower. Then rather than sleeping was on the phone to a girl from UK who I think is into me but only now had to tell her I need to sleep as getting late here.

Overall not pleased about my wastage of time.

(09-18-2018, 01:11 PM)Shannon Wrote:

(09-18-2018, 11:52 AM)Jake2015 Wrote: Update3 of day 2
Time:10.50pm

Procrastinated. Ate. Watched 2hours of the big bang theory and then finally had a shower. Then rather than sleeping was on the phone to a girl from UK who I think is into me but only now had to tell her I need to sleep as getting late here.

Overall not pleased about my wastage of time.

So maybe do something about it.

(09-18-2018, 07:17 PM)Zane Wrote: Jake even when I had days where I wasted time after being productive nothing to worry about. I think this sub works from small to big..

(09-19-2018, 03:56 AM)Jake2015 Wrote: I was actually about to go over to @Shannon's journal and ask him the following:

Will Beast 17 be incorporated into UMOP-trackA and thus would track A be better at helping me get past the fears I have that were highlighted in my journal so far?

I then realised even with breast 16 there were 'ooohs' and 'aahhhs' at how powerful it would be and so many hopes and each time I would sit hoping the next sub would be that much more powerful to help me execute it that its best I dont ask but just continue until Shannon releases Track A at which point I can see what development I have made with this sub.

(09-19-2018, 04:48 AM)cataleya Wrote: You could use a more regular sleeping schedule. Right now, it`s all over the place.

(09-19-2018, 04:49 AM)Shannon Wrote:

(09-19-2018, 03:56 AM)Jake2015 Wrote: I was actually about to go over to @Shannon's journal and ask him the following:

Will Beast 17 be incorporated into UMOP-trackA and thus would track A be better at helping me get past the fears I have that were highlighted in my journal so far?

I then realised even with breast 16 there were 'ooohs' and 'aahhhs' at how powerful it would be and so many hopes and each time I would sit hoping the next sub would be that much more powerful to help me execute it that its best I dont ask but just continue until Shannon releases Track A at which point I can see what development I have made with this sub.

I have told you this before, Jake. Your problem is that you don't want to achieve the goals. You want to pretend to try to achieve the goals while using the subs as a scapegoat, while you just do what you wanted to do to begin with.

And if that's the case, you might as well just stop using subs, slack of or whatever, and save yourself some time and me some frustration. If you want to fail that badly, be my guest.

But if you want to achieve the goals of the programs, you will have to admit to yourself that you are responsible for your own choices and actions, and even if we are not talking about subconscious ones, you know consciously when you are slacking off. You know consciously what choices and actions lead to slacking off or achieving the goals you have. And you can choose to not slack off, at any time. It's always your choice. Just like it's your conscious choice to buy a sub, use it, ignore what it's trying to do, and then try to say the sub is responsible for why XYZ happened.

Even when the subs work they work because YOU made them work.

Children act like this. It's time to grow up and start taking responsibility for yourself and your choices and actions, Jake. Whether or not you use subs.

You always have an excuse for doing what you really want to do instead of doing what you know you should be doing.

Your actions tell me that you want to be a manual laborer, or work in fast food all your life while you sit around and slack off, never accomplishing anything of real worth and then wondering why nothing ever goes right for you because everyone else and everything else somehow failed you.

I will tell you for a second time.

Stop trying to hide behind everyone and everything else, and grow the hell up. YOU are responsible for your choices and actions. Subliminals are a list of instructions that YOU have to CHOOSE to execute. You are just using them as a weak outward display of "But it's not MY fault that I'm not doing anything, it's THE SUB'S FAULT! It's supposed to be doing this FOR ME!"

At least grow a pair and own your own choices and decisions. And at that point, why bother pretending to try ding anything else? Just sit in a chair all day and drink beer.

When I have a job to do, I don't always want to do it. Like building the same sub over and over and over. MLS or DMSI, for instance.

It gets old. It's frustrating. And part of me is NOT interested in doing it again.

But it gets done anyway. Why? Because consciously, I know that that subconscious part of me doesn't want to do it, but I know consciously that I am responsible for the results regardless. So I consciously choose to do it, and then I DO IT.

That's the difference between children and adults. Adults do what it takes to get what they need and want done. Children do what you are doing.

I didn't have or use UMOP when I was building DMSI all those times. Or MLS. But they got done. All I ever see from you is this same pattern. You buy a sub, and seem to get excited, and then you use it and ignore what it's trying to do, and then complain for ages about how it doesn't work.

Every sub!

So I'll hand it to you, you have a strong will. But a strong will makes your success in life polarize: you'll either have a lot of it, or you'll screw yourself by refusing to do what is necessary to get there.

What's gonna happen when you blow university because you decided "it wasn't worth getting to class"?

You're going to end up without a college degree. And working without one of those means you either have to work for yourself (which you surely will not be able to do if you haven't got self control enough to get anything important done) or you're probably going to end up in retail or foodservice forever.

And hey, if college isn't for you, great. Do your thang. But unless you get this issue solved, you are almost certainly going to screw yourself royally in life, and it's going to continue until one day you have to face the reality that will become more and more bitter every day that YOU did that to yourself, and it's YOUR FAULT. Nobody else's. And the one resource you can't ever get more of is TIME.

So instead of trying to sit and wait for track A, why don't you get off your ass and do something, with or without the sub? Your grocery list isn't going to go grocery shopping for you, it's there to make your shopping easier.

This definitely does not incentivize me to make UMOP A until after I finish DMSI. All you would do is continue this cycle of excuses and hiding, with results I can almost bet on. You need to choose to get off your ass and face your fears. Not run subliminals that you can and do very obviously ignore.