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RE: DMSi 3.2 sexland - Kol - 04-06-2018
I totally forgot that "Jo" who Ive not seen for a while ( I think the last time I saw her was on Am6? ) was flirty as fuck. I was the energy of hers that made me somewhat go interested, like, full on liking it. it was this feminine energy, which was more then the physical body, she had somethign about her that just made me like it.
Other thing is, people/women are going out fo their way to serve me. they're like "nope, let me do this" before i was somewhat reserved and thought it was beta, now im starting to appreciate it to be treatened like a king.
RE: DMSi 3.2 sexland - Kol - 04-07-2018
Im walkimg very cocky, slow and carefree in public, dominant and at ease. Its like being in the zone.
I have some strong turmoil coming up. One girl directly proposed netflix and chill, asking directly when. I have this old pattern now surfacing which basically catches me off guard and my being being freezes up. No surprise now that Im running A. Its staring right in my face.
She started to call me "good boy"
I called her out.
Challenge followed a bit, and I said to her "Im far from being nice"
She: "okay, so when is the coffee date/netflix and chill?"
The fuck. When im with N, J and what not, it flows. But the intensity of this stirrs up a response. Im feeling torn apart for some reason. Like, my subc goes into resistance and heels in the sand. The intensity of this coming up is raw. Like screaming right in my face, grasping me whole. Could be that it triggers powerlessness, lack of control.
So, next is, that my life is to be putted upside down. Like, restructuring through DMSI. total shift in lifestyle. Perhaps DMSI is cofronting me in the area of leading, and letting her lead is something coming up, her desiring me more then I hers. It is something that I also had thinking about, how DMSI seems to be the flipside of AM6. The opposite of leading so to say, her working and ending up to sex.
Im also having thoughts popping up of SM3 and AM6 and being a sexual barbarian.
What now stirrs up is anxiety. An feeling of "I need to act on this, I have to/obligated/pressure" but my bodylanguage is just total swag, dominance and alphaness.
Edit: I also when finished my workout, the guy I met on AM6, pro-boxer, we vibed strongly. Our energy was blasting and autopilot made it a party to behold. Talked a bit, he complimented me on my growth, it was really great. Its like walking in a venue and neing a superstar celeb. The other guy, a friend of his, or a familiar of his, kept blending in, complimenting on my arms, yet this caused me to ignore him.
Im peaking on my social abundance. Its skyhigh and skyrocketing. The girl at the gasstation was swooning just yet and I was really calm, slow, controlling and composed as I paid for my stuff. Like in the zone. Im digging autopilot. It happens more and more that I directly and instantly engage with people in smooth effortless ways.
Im wondering how this total non neediness is also some sort of resistance blend. It surely causes me to be icecold at times yet also not really caring on pushing things forward women wise. The pattern that surfaces does make question it, like it becomes to real or something.
RE: DMSi 3.2 sexland - Kol - 04-08-2018
That moment you have crushing resistance yet women still initiate subtly, like "hi's" winks and all of that in yoga.
That moment you face resistance yet think about "V" and want to bang a row of hot russian women.
Edit: grooming is up. Im empathizing on it.also, porn is creeping back. Its resistance. In my case it is atleast. Why wasting on porn if I have an abundance of women? Shits clear as day.
Why not becomin porn. Oh, and I just read Shannons gonna increase the power on that. Good.
RE: DMSi 3.2 sexland - Kol - 04-08-2018
Fear around sex, gone. Shifting. A is healing strongly. Also more and more wantimg to go out. Clubbing WILL lead me to sex and probably shitton of leads. Feelin real good.
Went out to get something to eat. Girl ftom last time was there. The look...damn.
Me: placing order clear and controlled
Her: stopping midway, gazing deep in my eyes as i did with hers, giving me the "cum daddy, i want your dick so bad"
Me: "did you forget it?" In sexual tone while she was lost for words
Her: smiling seductively with her eyes glossed over
Me: repeating slowly and dominant controlling wise, stating the order.
She: "yes, I have this and this"
Me: "you forgot the last one, it was xyz"
She: *went of processing my food order and kept throwing glances over.
Other guy walks in, she was cold as stone lmao.
I nowadays dont feel like chatting up strangers tbh. It feels..off. like i expect them to engage me.
Anyways, got my food. Playfully sharply engaged the neighbour, with whom i have a good relation to. Mocked my food and didnt give a flying fuck. Playfullness was the dominant frame.
RE: DMSi 3.2 sexland - Kol - 04-09-2018
A war is going on against all limitations with me. Like, head on, sacrifice. Its obliteration and I take it all. Its met with agression, anger, insight and clarity. Its an ongoing snowball effect, almost watching an shattering. Surely im altered right now. I watch all burn. This is an re-occuring theme and im moving in darker and unknown territory Its pretty much an forced march, no, not even that. Its reclaiming my seat as a creator in purest most clearest sense. Like all is tackled head on, fearless like some onslaught.
This morning I felt again something. I decided to welcome it. Almost invited it. Next was an falling into deep trance and an panic attack surfaced. I wonder how much im holding back.
The aura is heating up like mad in my hands. In the open Im calm, absent of any tension at all and highly present. I look still at times for clue yet IDGAF really and im pretty indifferent to it.
This total sacrifice is now ongoing. Im willing to lay it all down.
Embracing the unknown at all, giving an weirdly sense of peace and calmth. Its not even funny how hard the aura is heating right now, how ecstatic I wholly am. Its like massive vulnerability, revelation at this point and it goes really deep. Like, deeper and deeper at this point. Toral transformative process. Like an inner voice is directly influencing me now, and breaking me apart. I cant put it into words yet it huge and right. Shedding many layers.
Its an ongoing mantra almost that fuells me. "Push through, push through, push through" like a blind savage
Im also hella expressive at this point. Like very aware of "where attention goes, energy flows" pretty much self confident and sure in expression and backing it up. Motivated and relief finding in doing so.
Trust the process and welcome transformation.
RE: DMSi 3.2 sexland - Kol - 04-09-2018
Im starting to integrate continuous execution. A is working like a charm.
RE: DMSi 3.2 sexland - Kol - 04-15-2018
Day 3 cycle 3 version A
Im starting to realize the initial "wall" I sometimes face/faced. Its an matter of confidence. Its basically insecurity. Its a pattern Im facing/faced for a long time. With lots of people I vibe from the get go. Yet, sometimes, there is still this pattern surfacing. Dealing with this will be fruitfull to say the least. Being comfy from the start. Its an sort of freeze response towards the unknown. DMSI does gear me towards being comfortable in the uncomfortable, basically shattering the notion of comfortzone.
Im being blatantly checked out. One girl, "Rox" was last time blatanly hitting on me. She kept bringing up phallic fruits amidst of work, bumping constant into me. Steering the convo blatantly towards fucking. Bringing up words like "long", "hard" "deep" and getting off about it even. Makes me think about women being mentally stimulated as they get off from 50shades and the likings. Its one of my kinks aswell, to dominate them mentally so they turn fully submissive and become a puddle of cum, drooling and fully giving over. Its so fully natural to me. She even blurted out "I promised [name bf ]..." yet she kept going. Several women at work did mention me wearing calvin klein boxers and the whole setting turned out sexual. Electricity in the air with 3 women simultaneously. My ass was almost topic off the day. Not to say, "N" is fickle.
With, J, I brought up how I seemed to develop an shoulder injury. She begun to massage it and I felt all barrier burst. Today in yoga class, she kept involving me. Also when going deep, she started to lightly push my back a bit and this only strengthened the savageness. When kino is taking place, it all is a done deal. Not to say, I screen instantly. It was like a sniper moment and I selected instantly, or rather, my mind did through commenting "bang" as in banging/dtf, without needing their validation. Total selection procedure, owning their pussy.
What DMSI is steering me to is location. Like, making me aware of location when pulling/getting pulled. For some reason this is brought up and seems like a sticking point. In the past I had no problems escalating with women in the clubs. They came up to me basically. My mindset has been "fucking at her place/mine, whatever" especially on 3.1 it was clear to me. Yet, having scenarios of being out and banging on the spot? It causes some unease.
One I remember where several friends of my sister. One proposed sex back them under circumstances which is why I didnt close. She had the fantasy of having my sister watch. Lol. Other moments when out was instantly hooking up with 2 girls back them. In my late teens I had a girl basically stalking me and chasing me at work while I had my eyes on another girl. Other times when out and starting with cory skyy pre ASC, girls grinded up to me while giving me dtf eyes looking backwards to me. Their ass against mine. I was oblivious to this then. Totally out of form aswell, like being out for the fucking first time.
Internally things are being dealt with, HARD. Im really going to a place of women.closing me. Of having them jump my bones. My ddlg is resurfacing. At the gym Im unstoppable, going beastmode. My anxiety is way lower. My dreams are sexual and somewhat familiar at times, like waking places blend within dreams.
I like feminine sweet women with great bodies. NoLimit posted a link of the scaling of women, the 1/10 scale. In this link, the girls that are classified as nines are those I easily attract and move on to attracting. It caught me somewhat off guard. For me they seem...normal? Like I said, I move to a reality in which women will jump my bones. Like, sunbathing and 2 girls comin up and ending up banging them both, or them me. It crossed my mind without me steering to it, like a vision.
Im getting really sexual in my mind. Im naturally seductive in many ways. Like, my eyes and such. Im looking so handsome
Another thing that came up during weights, was status. Im somewhat turned off when thinking back to it, like, why do I need other people to have my status. Can go dark fast for me, like getting cold, serious amd agressive. Its basically an sort of bitterness towards people and some shit they pull off, fuck em. This came about when reading Dzemoo's sm3 journal.
Nowadays Im reframing automatically. Twisting words and toying with them. Shifting words in sentences and reading them wrong.
Also, last few days, game is coming up. When dropping it, attraction skyrockets, giving women full reign to seduce me. Its an thugwar at times, as its like "improving game" vs "natural/no game needed" will I allow DMSI to do its thing?
I have experienced the relief in this multiple times. Wherever Im griwing to, I will no longer think about it.
Im high status. High value. Attractive and sex in the flesh.
RE: DMSi 3.2 sexland - Kol - 04-15-2018
Im thinking about another girl now, who was a friend of my sister, going by the name "M". Last time I saw her, great ass, great figure, kinda bitchy attitude and independent kind of attitude. Didnt really bothered when in highschool. We did somewhat gravitate towards eachother and was acting like a dick towards her lmao at times. Great times.
Another girl "Su" who I re-met 2 months ago, who seems to look different everytime I see her, is also a girl thats right in my ally. I thought of her as a manifestation as she randomly pops up.
RE: DMSi 3.2 sexland - Kol - 04-16-2018
Couple of minutes this morning, "A" suddenly send a snapchat. I dont know why it triggers me so much, other then that on 3.1 she wanted my D, yet I became sort of to involved into it. Her out of the blue contacting me again after such a long time, running my loop with her contacting me, it seems to be no coincidence. I have a sense its DMSI and shell end up cuming and drooling on my D.
Pretty much when driving today, I literally blurred out "im scared". Its never been this clear and upfront and feels like this is pushed to the forefront almost out of my body.
Now, Im having a headache going on. Im having several coping mechanisms coming up to not have to face this fear which are magnified. Ill be coming out glorious in the end but still, its the worse of time when A snaps me. Or its perfect confronting and facing this.
Edit: Im starting to shift to the mindset of being an absolute boss. Like, an mix of idgaf and women blended in. An shift in outlook and lifestyle. Had this blond assistent girl and she went directly submissive and beamed a smile. Hers did set in an realisation of women getting moist by my presence. It gives an relief of burden. Rather knowing instinctively. Good stuff. Also, the uproar of DMSI A has caused a flip, so the snap aint a concern. It directly confronts me. Unattached so to say, like easy handling but steering sexual.
RE: DMSi 3.2 sexland - Kol - 04-16-2018
Develop maximum ultra instinct.
RE: DMSi 3.2 sexland - Kol - 04-16-2018
Im executing. Kicking in high gear. Im more wealthy then I ever been. More succesfull ( and gladly defining it more ) im more abundantly, wealthy, sexy and attractive I feel like a flowing river without any roadblocks. Im having no reflecting at all. Its new soevereignity.
RE: DMSi 3.2 sexland - Kol - 04-20-2018
Restday start cycle 4 saturday 21-4
Lots of hot women all around. Feeling extremely good confident and displaying alpha bodylanguage and energy. Its raw yet sexual and it oozes.
Went out with friends to get some food. This blond girl, beautiful and attractive aswell as having an ass to possess and great tits in a green dress came in. She got my attention ass I kept gazing. eye contact was great yet I was also indifferent like seducing yet she didnt cake over. Oh well
Next up, we went to go bowling and karting. I walked into the venue, the girls that were there, instantly locked and I felt them staring. I was totally unfazed, had a huge IDGAF boost in an sexual way. In a way it did skyrocket everything, so DMSI responds even when not noticing like a spidy sense kicking in instinctive and subconsciously. New indicator for sure.
Guys kept chatting me up and I was fully indifferent. I owned the place.
Then, B came around. Instantly, she gravitated towards me. Eye fucking eachother. Herself injecting herself in my frame, submitting to it. I was feeling like rsdmax at that point. I felt the aura hitting her and she felt it. Friend of mine went fully bluepill and I saw her disgust yet he was clueless. Did autopilot, as in, went fully seduction guy and my game flourished. I couldve close B tho. Easily. I knew how to behave, talk and communicate to and with her it was top notch A game. Aloof sexual vibe. She ate it up and the bluepilled friend of mine kept digging its grave.
Talked with him about it yet he knew apparently better. Sigh.
With the dressgirl at the early evening, great ass nice tits, I felt a similar hypnotic attention of me. I wanted to devour, nay, I wanted to possed and rail dat ass. It was that strong.
Now im feeling top off the world. Guess DMSI is executing as the autopilot was kicking in hard, like, no care, give just in and act instinctively. Confidence is huge. Im yet calm. Im aware of so many subtle things yet my game is growing excellent now. I know it and feel it in my bones.
Many hot women after feeling really agitated earlier this day like sexual energy being blocked. Guess A has cleared it as the externals went high, from high amount of IOIs that were obvious, to the attraction of B and seduction of B.
Polish accents drive me crazy, atleast hers was really sexy and a turn on aswell as looks and energy wise. Fun girl, bit bratty yet very much fun.
Obsession with the gym is coming back full force. I want to get more shredded and am working to attain that. I want it to. I am back to running my life like a business ( a damn sexy one that is ) .
The whole evening was very upbeat, alpha, IDGAF, uninhibited and unfiltered. Oh and I had the brilliant idea to do pushups in the city on a car roadway, like just in the middle. Wtf. No hesitation, pure impulse and execution life.
RE: DMSi 3.2 sexland - Kol - 04-22-2018
As soon as I start to write now, what I was about to report is suddenly moving back and euphoria hits.
Polish girl B, has added me on insta and now we're sort of on. She already goes witj "you look better in real life then on pictures" ya I know fam, aint it amazing?
With hers, I felt this really strong pull last time we saw eachother for the first time. Im lightly getting selfconscious about textgame but know Im topnotch when I execute. I appreciate this facing now.
Today, at the gym I was very mute. Like, didnt talk or anything, rather dozing off in a way, like blissfull comfortability. Just no energy. My workout intensity was high and keeps getting more intense, like, pseudo-adrenalin levels and ferocious spartan intensity. Destroying everything no matter nor care how I look. Giving it all in there when hitting the iron.
Im also looking into testboosters and fatburners. I have a suspicious, tho Im not releasing any semen at all, that my test levels are not where they could be. Maybe its some sort of mental thing as DMSI causes the targetted ones to approach and thus im still having a sort of approaching mindset, tho subtle and this is a way to derail the script. No idea, could be. Most fatburners contain caffeine, which aint a surprise. Green tea extract, L-carnitine and CLA have gotten my attention. Havent have caffeine for a long time now.
Right now I feel and sense the aura lightly swirling.
When coming back from the gym, and getting some stuff, I didnt really care. In the car euphoria hitted and several things shifted internally. Felt like autopilot is my new baseline and way of living and is settling more and more. Trusting it is the way to go. People stare obviously. Like, face against their car glasses and stuff. When this eupria hitted, it was non needy fun state. Eye contact on point and just comfortable with that.
Im also facing something, like with B. Friend of mine chats with hers aswell, and if she comes around, she will, but its still something that pops up. Like, had such a thing years ago, which caused friction between said friend and mine. Im now suddenly have a sense of tribalism, like a crew dynamic, not setting a woman first. Idk. Ill probably hit it off, as Me and B did hit it from the start through eye fucking, vibing greatly and so on.
Let go is the thing. Being centred, confident, outgoing and thriving in so many ways.
Also, bern thinking about self image. Its like a huge thing for me and a source probably. When things are h/c, self image causes me to feel a bit lost. Perhaps the impact of 5.5g is so radical.
RE: DMSi 3.2 sexland - Kol - 04-22-2018
On another note, women with kids was oggling me up like mad. Lotsa smiles. Also, spidey sense is up. Feeling them staring at me without seeing them beforehand.
Other girl, solid 8/10, striped black white dress, was glancing tons. Brown eyes, jet black hair, cute face. When driving off, she sat next to her ( I pressume, bf ) but she watched me closely. Started the car, and she did an almost exorcist twist with her bf next to her, mesmerized.
Now, what I now do realize, is DMSI is putting bfs and such out of the game, BECAUSE it makes me so high value and attractive. I really need to get more active, atleast, its how I feel atm. To much missed oppurtunities and dtfs throwing themselves at me.
Now, appreciation is something I return to. Woman/girl hits on you? Appreciate, allow it