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RE: Ricardo's - AM 6 Journal - Nationwide - 10-11-2014
(10-11-2014, 02:54 AM)Ricardo Wrote: My anxiety has eased somewhat and I'm finding that it's morphing into a rebellious streak. I just want to tear the rule book up and cause as much shit as possible in my life. Not a nasty shit, just want to wake the sheep up and stop them wasting their time. I think the part of not caring what people think has kicked in more as I'm being more forthright in what I say and do. Don't get me wrong I'm not being nasty to people, but subtly trying to wake them up. I've got a bit of the devil in me at the moment
Boy do I remember this state of mind. As I recall, I too experienced this in Stage 3. It got to the point that I had to stop watching the news and reading the newspaper around other people because it would invariably lead to a "spirited discussion."
When you get into Stage 4 things should start leveling off. It did for me anyway.
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RE: Ricardo's - AM 6 Journal - Ricardo - 10-11-2014
We seem to be experiencing very similar effects Brad. I read your post about younger guys being more malleable and able to accept new ideas whereas us older ones have deeply entrenched mindsets so changes would be more noticeable for us. I think thats pretty much the case. Btw are you going for BASE next or SM? I know you want to keep AM progress and I've read all the stuff about BASE conflicting with AM. SM is also a natural extension to the Alpha programming so i guess you have a difficult decision.
RE: Ricardo's - AM 6 Journal - Ricardo - 10-29-2014
Stage 3 Day 32 Round-up
For the first 12-15 days this was a very difficult and wholly unpleasant stage that gave me some of my biggest doubts about subs especially the ultrasonic, after all I couldn't hear anything yet it's how I get my main 8 hours exposure.. Was I hugely placeboing and wasting my time and hard earned cash? I even doubted the mask tracks of which I get around 3 hours exposure a day. I began to be convinced that if I couldn't hear anything neither could my subconscious!
The stage brought up all my neurosis and problems from my past. This stage was mostly dealing with my past and making me feel unhappy and disappointed, unsociable and just plain "what the f**k am I doing, these subs will never work. Shannon's probably laughing his ass off at us!"
However recently I'm feeling a lot better now and my sexy reflection has returned. If I'm not mistaken I think I look slightly younger? There's definitly some sort of sparkle about me when I see my reflection. It's kinda hard to explain. It's like seeing yourself in the best possible light all the time..there's something special about you?? Finally started to have some good dreams revolving around unobtainable women (to me anyway) shamelessly flirting with me and touching me, nothing overtly sexy yet but small steps as they say. Zen is working for me at work so I'm not stressing as much since my colleague left and I have to do his work as well (well some of it). Confidence is much higher and what people think about me has become irrelevant.
I've also had some great interactions with some cute women at work who seemed to be really enjoying our conversations. They were only work related interactions with some fun banter but it felt like I'd made new ground in my life and definitly felt sparks there.I also instinctively know what to say for the best and keep the conversation interesting. Even my favourite cute nerdy girl on reception calls me by my first name now and not just Mr <surname> anymore (yes I would bonk her in a heartbeat) She likes our interactions (flirting?) and is a bit giggly around me. I'm enjoying our innocent flirts! Feeling totally awesome!! I also have another nerdy girl I see sometimes on the way to work and although she's not particulary attractive to me I've been leading her on since August with eye contact and little smiles to the point where she follows me onto the train and plonks herself down next to me or immediately opposite giving me sneekylooks, while I act all nonchalent and innocent reading my book (and giving a bit of quick eye contact!). My boss when we were out on a visit went to touch my arm while talking then realised and pulled back (she doesn't do that!). A female visitor we had one day wanted to buy me coffee after about 5 minutes of introduction! I feel that my company is enjoyed for the first time in my life rather than feeling like a straggler and the guy that people try to get rid of or ignore if I'm around them. I'm feeling very content within myself and it's certainly helping people to warm to me
Women to me are taking on a new meaning in that whilst I enjoy their company I do so without expectation or giving the impression I'm needy so this is a great development.
I have also noticed that people don't ask me to repeat everything I say anymore. I just speak louder and more forthright.
Feeling indifferent to having women and can seem to control my sex drive..I just order myself, "yeah yeah that's enough now" This is a big development for me, but I occasionally check YouTube for some bikini action nothing heavy..just enjoy looking at fit women!
I have bought some more varieties of smellies and have started to incorporate Coconut oil into my diet. I've also bought myself a push bike to get some more leg and cardio exercise.
I have also noticed I'm going to bed around an hour or so earlier than normal. I used to stay up as long as possible because I wanted the evening to last and not have to go to work again so soon after getting in. This extra hour is making all the difference and stops me feeling tired during the next day and dozing off on the train. I don't necessarily sleep more but just catnapping is a great benefit.
Incidentally I found this post from Shannon about the weakness of SM3 to WM2
http://subliminal-talk.com/Thread-Shannon-s-Journal-Volume-2?pid=18737#pid18737
Stage 4? Bring it on
RE: Ricardo's - AM 6 Journal - Nationwide - 10-30-2014
(10-11-2014, 11:19 PM)Ricardo Wrote: Btw are you going for BASE next or SM? I know you want to keep AM progress and I've read all the stuff about BASE conflicting with AM. SM is also a natural extension to the Alpha programming so i guess you have a difficult decision.
I am leaning towards SM3. While there are many compelling features in the BASE sub, I think it will require multiple cycles...more so than AM/SM.
Also, I had a moment of clarity last week after a trip down the center median in my big truck (I fell asleep at the wheel...yikes!). I've had career success, but I've never been the sex god. I want that before I die.
So unless some major epiphany occurs in the next two weeks, SM3 it is.
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RE: Ricardo's - AM 6 Journal - Ricardo - 10-31-2014
That's the same reasoning I decided on WM before AYP..the time element. I'll be very interested in your SM3 journey though so please keep a journal
As a long distance driver you may need to be more aware of fatigue not just from the driving but also if you've got a 5G sub playing in the background as well. 5G can still tire me if I'm feeling under the weather or had a late night, even though I'm pretty much used to it now.
RE: Ricardo's - AM 6 Journal - Nationwide - 11-01-2014
(10-31-2014, 01:17 AM)Ricardo Wrote: As a long distance driver you may need to be more aware of fatigue not just from the driving but also if you've got a 5G sub playing in the background as well. 5G can still tire me if I'm feeling under the weather or had a late night, even though I'm pretty much used to it now.
I usually have the subs going while driving, but I didn't that morning. I had been listening for about 12 hours while sleeping though. That might have had something to do with it, but it hasn't affected me before.
Who knows?
Yes, I'll be keeping a journal of my SM3 adventures. Should be entertaining. Hard to believe AM6 is almost over...this round anyway.
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RE: Ricardo's - AM 6 Journal - Ricardo - 11-10-2014
Stage 4 day 12
My sex drive is generally higher and I have confidence, coolness and no negativity about myself, no porn, no fap (no problem!).
I've come to see that my current home environment is very restrictive and I need to move out to experience life more. I have lived in the same area all my life but I saw it for what it was just last week in that it's full of people who irritate and depress me. Most of the men are lazy and the women no better than tramps. There are some nice ones around but too few for my liking. WM is going to struggle for me here I'm sure. My only escape is that I work in the city so I should stand a chance of some women at least
I am also looking at ways to increase my finances and have opened up a couple of long term savings plans for starters but also looking at ways to earn money off the internet. I had some success with affiliate schemes in the early days but it's a completely different ball game now.
I have noticed that people are very friendly towards me and keep going to do the touch thing then
pulling back. Some people also seem slightly fearful of me which is strange because even now I'm always pleasant to people.
Some resistance coming through as sudden nerves and periods of heaviness in my
chest and stomach (similar to overeating) but these don't last long. However I freaked out when I read somewhere that my speakers were only up to 18Khz and my mind really played on it like I've wasted my time and it's all been a huge placebo!
The speakers in question are Logitech z200 that logitech quote as 80-20khz so
i'm guessing the error was a misprint. They pass the speaker test and are silent when playing subs but it really depressed me. Even now I'm toying with the idea of getting higher frequency speakers..any suggestions??
Going back to what I said earlier about my living environment being small and full of people I don't particularly like, has led to me considering the MYPSL 5G as I would love to have someone that's perfect for me and I can trust. My standards are very high with women now so really an AYP sub is looking more sensible than WM after AM. But of course AYP's are however long they take but WM is 6 months..what do I do??
RE: Ricardo's - AM 6 Journal - ffaux - 11-10-2014
Speaker wise I recommend Audioengine; their price/quality ratio was good when I did my research.
I got the 2+ because that was the size of speaker I was looking for at the time. Their sound quality is good but they really struggle to fill a room with sound even when played loudly. Think of them as really high quality 2 speaker computer speakers.
http://audioengineusa.com/Store/Powered-Speaker-Systems
RE: Ricardo's - AM 6 Journal - DarthXedonias - 11-10-2014
Yeah, I know what you mean. I'm still tempted to run a AYP sub from time to time because I'm convinced that I want something deeper from a women now. The idea of just having sex with different women all the time use to appeal to me before AM6 but now it sort of disgusts me. I'm determined to run WM2 and SM3 though because from what I understood how shannon explained it was that the AYP sub defines perfect by your subconscious. Hence, the more developed your subconscious is (WM2, SM3, LTU, etc) the more high quality a women you are going to attract right off the bat.
I also get what you mean about staying in the same place as well. I'm contemplating going to college in a different city because in SanFrancisco Men out number women 5 to 1
RE: Ricardo's - AM 6 Journal - Ricardo - 11-11-2014
(11-10-2014, 07:18 PM)DarthXedonias Wrote: Yeah, I know what you mean. I'm still tempted to run a AYP sub from time to time because I'm convinced that I want something deeper from a women now. The idea of just having sex with different women all the time use to appeal to me before AM6 but now it sort of disgusts me. I'm determined to run WM2 and SM3 though because from what I understood how shannon explained it was that the AYP sub defines perfect by your subconscious. Hence, the more developed your subconscious is (WM2, SM3, LTU, etc) the more high quality a women you are going to attract right off the bat.
I also get what you mean about staying in the same place as well. I'm contemplating going to college in a different city because in SanFrancisco Men out number women 5 to 1
It's strange but AM does change your outlook on life in a big way making you so much more emotionally mature. I can see the appeal of the two magnets but someone that connects on a deeper level is definitely more appealing to me now
RE: Ricardo's - AM 6 Journal - in3deep - 11-12-2014
(11-10-2014, 11:38 AM)Ricardo Wrote: Stage 4 day 12
My sex drive is generally higher and I have confidence, coolness and no negativity about myself, no porn, no fap (no problem!).
I've come to see that my current home environment is very restrictive and I need to move out to experience life more. I have lived in the same area all my life but I saw it for what it was just last week in that it's full of people who irritate and depress me. Most of the men are lazy and the women no better than tramps. There are some nice ones around but too few for my liking. WM is going to struggle for me here I'm sure. My only escape is that I work in the city so I should stand a chance of some women at least
I am also looking at ways to increase my finances and have opened up a couple of long term savings plans for starters but also looking at ways to earn money off the internet. I had some success with affiliate schemes in the early days but it's a completely different ball game now.
I have noticed that people are very friendly towards me and keep going to do the touch thing then
pulling back. Some people also seem slightly fearful of me which is strange because even now I'm always pleasant to people.
Some resistance coming through as sudden nerves and periods of heaviness in my
chest and stomach (similar to overeating) but these don't last long. However I freaked out when I read somewhere that my speakers were only up to 18Khz and my mind really played on it like I've wasted my time and it's all been a huge placebo!
The speakers in question are Logitech z200 that logitech quote as 80-20khz so
i'm guessing the error was a misprint. They pass the speaker test and are silent when playing subs but it really depressed me. Even now I'm toying with the idea of getting higher frequency speakers..any suggestions??
Going back to what I said earlier about my living environment being small and full of people I don't particularly like, has led to me considering the MYPSL 5G as I would love to have someone that's perfect for me and I can trust. My standards are very high with women now so really an AYP sub is looking more sensible than WM after AM. But of course AYP's are however long they take but WM is 6 months..what do I do??
guess you gotta see whats your priority?
do u wanna have different girls to bang each day of the week being non-committal or do you wish to settle down n have a LTR?
myself i decided on AYPW as even though as attractive it is to have the possibility of banging various girls... i dun wanna spend the next 2 years of so living that kind of life... guess i have decided to find someone to settle down with mainly due to age.. if i was 3-5 years younger, it would be AM/WM no doubt... but now its AYP for me
RE: Ricardo's - AM 6 Journal - adam225 - 11-12-2014
I'd say just stick with the same speakers - they obviously work from the results you've been getting Ricardo.
P.s. Out of interest, do you sleep flat on your back ?
RE: Ricardo's - AM 6 Journal - Ricardo - 11-12-2014
@in3deep Yes I've got decisions to make. I don't know how old you are but when I was in my teens and twenties something like WM would have been great. As I got into my thirties I really wanted to get married and settle down but my dating efforts didn't find anyone. Most of my friends had married about this time but now many years on they have changed and find their partners (and other way around) are no longer what they want and are unhappy in their marriages and some are divorced. I've learnt that people carry on changing as they get older so committing to one person for life suggests a huge risk of later unhappiness
RE: Ricardo's - AM 6 Journal - Ricardo - 11-12-2014
(11-12-2014, 12:10 AM)adam225 Wrote: I'd say just stick with the same speakers - they obviously work from the results you've been getting Ricardo.
P.s. Out of interest, do you sleep flat on your back ?
Thanks Adam but I've already put in an order for some Creative Gigaworks T40 Series 2 speakers which have a slightly wider range up to 20Khz. I always sleep on one side - ear in the pillow but my speakers are very close to each side of my head and I have a volume of -40dB for ultrasonic.