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RE: AM7 Log - NOMAD - 04-12-2026
Stage 0 - Day 54
Over the past week, I seem to have let go of some anger and resentment I've been holding onto for a very long time. As much as I hate to admit it, I believe it stemmed, at least partially, from a victim mentality. This is something that burdened me at a very deep level, so I'm glad to be free of it.
Other than that, I still feel flat. Maybe there's more that's being addressed beneath the surface that I'm not detecting.
I'm almost to the half way point of finishing Stage 0. I'm happy about that. I'm not sure what to expect from AM7 stages 1 through 7, both during the run and as the end result. So, I'm eager to get off the tricycle and work my way up to the Harley to see what it's all about.
RE: AM7 Log - NOMAD - 04-18-2026
Stage 0 - Day 60
I've recently developed interest in the topics of power and dominance. I'm not sure if that's related to Stage 0 or if it's a byproduct of things that irritate me at work.
Other than that, I don't have anything to report. I'm not seeing any obvious signs of execution. I'm also not seeing any obvious sgns of resistance. Really, I don't feel like I'm running a sub at all.
I'm half way through Stage 0, but it feels like I've been running it much longer. I'm ready to move on and get to the meat of the program.
RE: AM7 Log - NOMAD - 04-25-2026
Stage 0 - Day 60
I seem to be less irritable overall, but especially at work. At the beginning of the week, I struggled to keep my irritation in check as office politics resurfaced. By the end of the week, I had cooled down and was even friendly with people that I could have choked a few days earlier. Part of that is because I've begun to educate myself on social power dynamics, which is a topic I've intentionally steered clear of because I've never cared to play the game. But, I've come to realize that there are some nasty folks in this world who play those games well and that I'm playing the game (and losing) whether I like it or not. So, I'm educating myself on the topic and it has been enlightening. In an effort to be a good manager, coworker, employee, and friend, I've walked into traps. And admittedly, there were times when my own ego has screwed me too. Knowing this,
I don't feel as helpless.
Between the statements above and Stage 0, I'm letting go in some areas that I thought were keys to the value I bring at work. The truth is, in spite of my efforts and the fact that I'm providing my colleagues with methods and tools to be more successful, the executives and the CEO (my boss) don't give a shit. Supposedly, they have a strategy that will be implemented soon (I've been told this for the past 4 years and it hasn't materialized, hence my efforts.) So, I've decided to finish developing my tools over the next two weeks, make them available my colleagues (several already use the unfinished version), then keep my mouth shut in anticipation of the new strategy. Meanwhile, I'll continue to be successful with the tools and practices that I've developed. I'll help anyone who asks, but I'm tired of the fact that problems persist, the upper management won't address the problems, I develop workarounds as short-term solutions, then I'm pushed to the side because "we shouldn't have to take those actions". They're right, we shouldn't. But the folks with the real authority won't do anything to solve the problems. Then everybody bitches about the problems. Then I point out effective short-term solutions. And around and around we go.
The two biggest issues here are that (1) I'm working with an upper management folks that want the company to operate according to a specific structure, but they won't enforce their expectations across middle-management and (2) I'm working alongside an ambitious individual who intends to elevate himself at all costs, including undermining my successful approache. We could be working together to roll out an effective long term strategy in phases. But then, he wouldn't get the credit for being the savior, which is what he's really after.
This is something that has weighed heavily on me for a while, but this week, it seems to have lost a lot of its hold on me. I'll just continue to do my own (successful) thing. If the new strategy is implemented, I'll get on board. If it doesn't, I don't care...I already have a method that works and I'm not too lazy to use it.
RE: AM7 Log - NOMAD - 05-03-2026
Stage 0 - Day 75
For me, Stage 0 has essentially become PRA 2.0. There are no traces of masculinity or motivation. I'm content to sit on my lazy butt and do absolutely nothing. This has its place, but it's getting old. At the risk of sounding like a broken record, I'm ready to be done with Stage 0.
RE: AM7 Log - Frosted - 05-05-2026
(05-03-2026, 11:05 AM)NOMAD Wrote: Stage 0 - Day 75
For me, Stage 0 has essentially become PRA 2.0. There are no traces of masculinity or motivation. I'm content to sit on my lazy butt and do absolutely nothing. This has its place, but it's getting old. At the risk of sounding like a broken record, I'm ready to be done with Stage 0.
Noticing a similar pattern.
RE: AM7 Log - NOMAD - 05-06-2026
(05-05-2026, 03:45 PM)Frosted Wrote:(05-03-2026, 11:05 AM)NOMAD Wrote: Stage 0 - Day 75
For me, Stage 0 has essentially become PRA 2.0. There are no traces of masculinity or motivation. I'm content to sit on my lazy butt and do absolutely nothing. This has its place, but it's getting old. At the risk of sounding like a broken record, I'm ready to be done with Stage 0.
Noticing a similar pattern.
I'm ready to step out of PRA and step into AM7.
If Stage 0 6.5G is released in the next week and comes with instructions that allow for one month of use, I'll switch and run it. If not I'll stick the 6G version. Either way, I'm switching to Stage 1 after 120days.
RE: AM7 Log - NOMAD - 05-17-2026
STAGE 0 - Day 89
Tomorrow will be day 90. I've decided that I'm going to switch to Stage 1 as soon as it's uploaded. I've been experiencing diminishing returns for at least a month now and I'm ready to move on. Stage 0 has been a smooth ride, but it's time to get off the todler's triycle.
RE: AM7 Log - LionKing - 05-18-2026
(05-17-2026, 06:01 PM)NOMAD Wrote: STAGE 0 - Day 89
Tomorrow will be day 90. I've decided that I'm going to switch to Stage 1 as soon as it's uploaded. I've been experiencing diminishing returns for at least a month now and I'm ready to move on. Stage 0 has been a smooth ride, but it's time to get off the todler's triycle.
I made the same decision on day 85, for the same reasons. Bad timing though since stage 1 recreation was published just 1-2 days after.
RE: AM7 Log - NOMAD - 05-19-2026
Stage 1 - Day 1
I slept like a rock last night. I remember a hint of a very vivid dream but the rest of my sleep was total blackout. When my alarm clock went off, I lied there awake for a few minutes then got up. With Stage 0, I would hit the snooze and go back to sleep then I'd have to summon the willpower to force myself out of bed. Not today.
My morning stretching routine was amazing. My brain was awake and I felt very "in" my body. I breathed into every stretched muscle group and just ended that routine a few minutes ago feeling ready for the day. PRA in Stage 0 often had me feeling like I was floating a cloud in la la land so this is a nice change. Hopefully it continues.
These are my first observations for the day.
RE: AM7 Log - NOMAD - 05-19-2026
Stage 1 - Day 1 (cont'd)
With Stage 0 I had become a more passive version of myself. That's detrimental to my work life. After one night of Stage 1 input, that seems to have been reversed. I've been less patient and more direct. I've only been at work for an hour and a half and I've had three instances where I've been somewhat forward about getting shit done holding others are accountable. In each instance, I just acted. Very nice.
RE: AM7 Log - NOMAD - 05-19-2026
Stage 1 - Day 1 (cont'd)
Over the course of the day I mellowed out. It could be that the impatience i experienced earlier was purely circumstantial and had nothing to do with the sub. It's too early to tell. Either way, I felt really good today.
RE: AM7 Log - NOMAD - 05-20-2026
Stage 1 - Day 3
Stage 1 is really smooth so far. I'm a little sleepy today, but barking dogs kept interrupting my sleep last night. After reading the writeup, I was expecting some fear based reactions, but I'm not experiencing any of that.
Sub execution tends to morph for me as time goes on, so I'm looking forward to seeing how this stage unfolds.
RE: AM7 Log - NOMAD - 05-20-2026
Stage 1 - Day 3 (cont'd)
There's a no nonsense aspect to Stage 1 that I'm enjoying. But it's also incredibly well balanced. What i mean is that I'm fairly relaxed most of the time, but my intensity is cranks up quickly when called for. Then, it's back to baseline.
With Stage 0, I found myself with an internal state of, "It's not worth the effort." Or "It's not with the fight." With Stage 1, that internal state feels completely different. I won't say it's the polar opposite because it feels more complex than that, but it's definitely in the neighborhood of the opposite end of the spectrum.
RE: AM7 Log - NOMAD - 05-24-2026
Stage 1 - Day 6
I don't have much to report other than that I feel good. I feel very present.
I'm having vivid dreams almost every night. Sometimes I remember all of the dream and sometimes I only remember the end.
This was on my Playlist today. I consider this a masculine song so I thought I'd share. As I continue to age, I can relate to it more and more.
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=fMIJuuk1SFs&list=RDfMIJuuk1SFs&start_radio=1&pp=ygUkYm9iIHNlZ2VyIGxpa2UgYSByb2NrIG9mZmljaWFsIHZpZGVvoAcB