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RE: OGSF3 - Baya - 04-29-2025
(04-29-2025, 02:14 AM)Frosted Wrote: Been giga tired lately. Gonna take an extra rest day tonight to try and reset. We’ll see if it helps at all.
Been feeling sad, tired and insecure lately. But I also feel a level of equilibrium. I also feel really good underneath at times despite also feeling bad. It’s like the good is eating the bad from within, like those iconic chest bursting alien’s from that one hit tv show. But the bad has been pretty rough at times.
Looking to the future, I’m not sure if I’ll use UMS3 or take a month break and rerun OGSF3.
I have to say i as well can get immensely tired from OGSF its quite taxing on recourses but its also working through stuff and as u say i can feel a certain level of equilibrium.
Quite interested how i will feel after full run-through.
I feel you Frosted and can identify with your experience.
RE: OGSF3 - Frosted - 05-01-2025
@Baya Glad I’m not the only one, or perhaps not, since that means others are suffering lol.
Today I felt anxious, then suddenly the good feelings hit. Today was awesome and I feel in the zone. I feel good for no reason. This must be part of why I’m feeling so insecure lately. OGSF3 must be working through the really deep stuff hard and fast. It feels like I’m on drugs while being sober, it’s great. It feels like my experience is home. These cliche sayings come to mind: “Wherever you go, there you are.” “Home is where the heart is.”
But sheesh am I still tired all the time. That extra day off did me well.
Feels like I’m inching closer on the spiritual stuff. I’ve got a better understanding, both of the actual states I’m going into and why I’ll experience them, but also feel like an insecure and incompetent child at times. Just because I experience these spiritual states while comfortable doesn’t mean I’m different somehow. I have to overcome my issues until there is nothing left and success is inevitable.
The state I am experiencing is the “ground of being”, the sense of silence/stillness that underlies all experience. There is no sense of direction of intention or reference point. For example if you try to enter this state, you fail, because you are approaching an imaginary “silence” from the standpoint of “not silence”. You have to allow “not silence” and “silence” and everything in between while not accepting anything but the direction you’re moving, but also not moving at all lol. It takes a lot of patience and vulnerability to move towards this state of being. It’s a process, one that I think OGSF3 has been facilitating beautifully.
I imagine this state will get better the more OGSF3 has to work on me. At the moment, I tend to phase in and out of it while only catching a bit each time. Kind of like I’m underwater trying to resurface, only for the choppy waves to push me back down. That is to say, that I get brief flashes of it mostly. But lately it’s been deeper than before.
You know I just had a sudden realization that “I” is kind of like an imitation of the “ground of being”. It’s an imaginary reference point we take for granted, but is taking the place of “being”.
RE: OGSF3 - ncbeareatingman - 05-01-2025
Dang Frosted your Gittin' it Done,Man! Wow!! I often times will ask someone 'How are you Be-ing, Hows your heart?" States of Consciousness
Levels of Awareness. More Power to Ya Man. its been said that when we breathe we are not just breathing physical air, but spirit as well, 8 dimensions all at the same time. All the best, higher ,deeper ,wider Frosty!
RE: OGSF3 - Frosted - 05-01-2025
(05-01-2025, 12:19 PM)ncbeareatingman Wrote: Dang Frosted your Gittin' it Done,Man! Wow!! I often times will ask someone 'How are you Be-ing, Hows your heart?" States of Consciousness
Levels of Awareness. More Power to Ya Man. its been said that we we breathe well are not just breathing physical air,but spirit as well, 8 dimensions all at the same time. All the best, higher ,deeper ,wider Frosty!
To infinity and beyond!
RE: OGSF3 - Ice and Shadow - 05-14-2025
How is your run going, Frosted?
Thanks.
RE: OGSF3 - Frosted - 05-15-2025
(05-14-2025, 03:08 AM)Ice and Shadow Wrote: How is your run going, Frosted?
Thanks.
I’m chugging along. I mostly feel tired and resolute lately. Things are getting better, but I have yet to completely break through. Mostly what seems to be happening is my “outline” is becoming more of what I actually am, while also dissolving, if that makes sense. It’s the process of release, becoming more humble, that is to mean, more of what you actually are. I feel like a different person in different contexts. I’ve mostly made peace with those different contexts and old expectations I used to have for myself have mostly been overcome. I’m just letting go of everything but the goal and just moving in that direction, even when it’s not so glorious. I just want the end result (to be healed), even if I have to feel like a child at times.
In day to day life I struggle with a few discrepancies. I have this really developed, intelligent, multifaceted side that never seems to see the light of day. I’d say I’m about mediocre with people and life in general despite my vast understanding, at least compared to what I think it should be. I wonder if I’m just being carried by subliminals at this point, or if I have yet to reach the turning point, and my incompetence really is a result of a certain state of being, or trauma.
My estimation of what most people think of me who know me is different than how I see myself. I’m willing to look weak up to a point or not enforce a boundary how I should, or not be competent in a certain situation. Either it’s OGSF3 helping me optimize for healing and letting everything else that would distract me fall away, or it is me being unhealthy and neglecting the world and using “growth” as an excuse. I lean towards the former, especially due to my improvement, but the other possibility does hang in the back of my head.
The kind of strength I’m going for doesn’t come from employing a boundary from a place of logic in compensation for a vulnerable part of myself. Instead I’d rather focus on growing into the person who will naturally set that boundary without trying. But maybe I’m just justifying my own bias. This is all just rambling. Sorry if this post isn’t up to standard. I want to give value with my posts.
P.S: I wonder if any of you even actually have the proper frame of reference to understand what I’m saying or we’re all just on different wavelengths. I’ve been misunderstood so much during my life that I just feel like an alien sometimes lol. I also have a habit of neglecting to include things I take for granted in my head. Or I have to explain a bunch of “backstory” to catch people up to speed to my perspective. It’s like drawing a map for someone so they can see what I’m actually talking about. Few people have the patience to sit through that anyways. I try to keep these things in mind and make my posts more universal most of the time, but even then I wonder if I’m speaking in a different language. Like someone is reading what I write and getting a completely different impression than I meant to give. I suppose it’s inevitable to a degree.
P.S.S: I feel pretty good right now. OGSF3 seems to be doing awesome things in the background. It’s like there’s this “bed” of feel good underneath my experience. Even if on the surface I’m suffering, if the clouds clear I notice underneath it that my general state of being feels better.
RE: OGSF3 - Frosted - 05-15-2025
(05-14-2025, 03:08 AM)Ice and Shadow Wrote: How is your run going, Frosted?
Thanks.
By the way, thank you for asking.
RE: OGSF3 - Ice and Shadow - 05-15-2025
Thanks, Frosted.
You said you felt like a different person. Do you feel you're getting more of yourself, perhaps?
RE: OGSF3 - Frosted - 05-19-2025
(05-15-2025, 07:21 PM)Ice and Shadow Wrote: Thanks, Frosted.
You said you felt like a different person. Do you feel you're getting more of yourself, perhaps?
Are you talking about this quote?: “I feel like a different person in different contexts.”
I just recognize that the person I am can be radically different at different times in different contexts. I’ll be in one state and feel like one person, then I’ll feel like a completely different at a different point in a different set of circumstances. Something I’ve been doing lately is letting my past knowledge of other contexts bleeding through and interacting with the current context I’m experiencing. I don’t necessarily try to do anything concrete, just kind of observing that I was different in a different context and the current one I’m experiencing is different. It’s interesting that I can be so different in the same experience like a completely different person depending on when you catch me or where.
On a different note, the feeling I’m getting is that I’m about to gain a foothold in myself. I’m about to reach a point of stability and like I’m “standing on my own two feet”. That’s actually a quote from a dream I had (I think during OGSF2). Hopefully this intuition is correct. It’s not just based on a hunch. I see some promising signs in that direction.
I don’t know if I mentioned this but I’m thinking of just going crazy on OGSF3. I’ll take a month break, or whatever Shannon recommends, and then run it again. I’ll keep running it until it makes sense to run something else.
RE: OGSF3 - ncbeareatingman - 05-19-2025
(05-19-2025, 03:49 AM)Frosted Wrote:(05-15-2025, 07:21 PM)Ice and Shadow Wrote: Thanks, Frosted.
You said you felt like a different person. Do you feel you're getting more of yourself, perhaps?
Are you talking about this quote?: “I feel like a different person in different contexts.”
I just recognize that the person I am can be radically different at different times in different contexts. I’ll be in one state and feel like one person, then I’ll feel like a completely different at a different point in a different set of circumstances. Something I’ve been doing lately is letting my past knowledge of other contexts bleeding through and interacting with the current context I’m experiencing. I don’t necessarily try to do anything concrete, just kind of observing that I was different in a different context and the current one I’m experiencing is different. It’s interesting that I can be so different in the same experience like a completely different person depending on when you catch me or where.
On a different note, the feeling I’m getting is that I’m about to gain a foothold in myself. I’m about to reach a point of stability and like I’m “standing on my own two feet”. That’s actually a quote from a dream I had (I think during OGSF2). Hopefully this intuition is correct. It’s not just based on a hunch. I see some promising signs in that direction.
I don’t know if I mentioned this but I’m thinking of just going crazy on OGSF3. I’ll take a month break, or whatever Shannon recommends, and then run it again. I’ll keep running it until it makes sense to run something else.
Ding dang,Frosted, I can relate! Your renderings, POWERFUL, Man! Thank ya,Man.
RE: OGSF3 - Frosted - 05-20-2025
Thanks Keith! We’ll get there! One step at a time.
RE: OGSF3 - Frosted - 05-30-2025
OGSF3 is feeling great. The feeling underneath I’ve talked about before is getting more prominent. I believe it’s love. If I’m heading where I think I’m heading then things are gonna be fucking awesome. I just want to keep running OGSF3 over and over. I feel like this is one of the most important things one can do. It’s something that lasts. In the end the only thing that remains is you. Everything else is transient, but OGSF3 always gives value. Depth and breadth of value as well. It changes you at a root level and it encompasses every area of your life without fail. Running OGSF3 is a no brainer for me.
I wish I had the memory, communication skills and attention to detail to describe what’s changed. But I can at least say things have gotten better and are getting better. I’m loving OGSF3, even if the road has been pretty bumpy at times. I’m sort of half in half out with the current transition I’m going through. Part of me still doesn’t believe what is happening to me, and the other is sort of amazed. It’s funny how I’m noticing all these awesome changes and yet it still doesn’t feel real how incredible these changes are.
Thank you so much Shannon. I’m not sure if you read this journal. But thank you regardless. Somehow someone like you exists. It’s hard for me to believe, part of me feels there must be some sort of catch, like at the last second I’ll be proven wrong. Like when I was younger, everything was awesome, then life kicked me down everytime I dared to hope for something better. So far all signs point to this being real, and my soul is healing. Genuinely healing. Everybody’s searching for answers, and this world seems to have very little. But Indigo Mind Labs seems to be a genuine Oasis in a world filled with inconceivably stupid bullshit.
Thank you for being different Shannon. You could’ve done anything else, but you decided to overdeliver for pennies in return. I genuinely can’t thank you enough.
RE: OGSF3 - Sir Ovaltine Jenkins III - 05-30-2025
(05-30-2025, 03:45 AM)Frosted Wrote: OGSF3 is feeling great. The feeling underneath I’ve talked about before is getting more prominent. I believe it’s love. If I’m heading where I think I’m heading then things are gonna be fucking awesome. I just want to keep running OGSF3 over and over. I feel like this is one of the most important things one can do. It’s something that lasts. In the end the only thing that remains is you. Everything else is transient, but OGSF3 always gives value. Depth and breadth of value as well. It changes you at a root level and it encompasses every area of your life without fail. Running OGSF3 is a no brainer for me.
I wish I had the memory, communication skills and attention to detail to describe what’s changed. But I can at least say things have gotten better and are getting better. I’m loving OGSF3, even if the road has been pretty bumpy at times. I’m sort of half in half out with the current transition I’m going through. Part of me still doesn’t believe what is happening to me, and the other is sort of amazed. It’s funny how I’m noticing all these awesome changes and yet it still doesn’t feel real how incredible these changes are.
Thank you so much Shannon. I’m not sure if you read this journal. But thank you regardless. Somehow someone like you exists. It’s hard for me to believe, part of me feels there must be some sort of catch, like at the last second I’ll be proven wrong. Like when I was younger, everything was awesome, then life kicked me down everytime I dared to hope for something better. So far all signs point to this being real, and my soul is healing. Genuinely healing. Everybody’s searching for answers, and this world seems to have very little. But Indigo Mind Labs seems to be a genuine Oasis in a world filled with inconceivably stupid bullshit.
Thank you for being different Shannon. You could’ve done anything else, but you decided to overdeliver for pennies in return. I genuinely can’t thank you enough.
That’s incredible! I had a somewhat similar experience when I was running EHPRA for a little while, (somehow colors became extremely vivid like I was in a lucid dream for a time too haha), but what you’re describing sounds even more amazing. Owen Wilson WOW on that one haha.
RE: OGSF3 - Frosted - 06-09-2025
I’ve finished OGSF3, now all that’s required is sufficient time before I run the next thing. I may give extra time if I rerun OGSF3 (which seems like the most likely possibility for me currently). Still waiting on Shannon’s response for that. If he says it’s a bad idea to run OGSF3 twice in a row I’ll run something else.
I’m noticing some sudden breakthroughs recently. One thing I love about OGSF3 is its focus on not just removing guilt shame and fear, but creating internal stability, consistency and integrity. It’s like you’re developing yourself into a work of art. The complexity of all the problems I think I have falls away in the face of emerging love. I don’t have any problems.
I’m half in half out of the current transformation I’m going through, but I’m seeing ahead to what’s happening, and sort of getting an “advance” on it (getting some of the results from the future now). I’ve said this before, but it’s like I’m finally “arriving”. There’s no logical goal to achieve away from or towards something. Everything I need is right here. This is enough. At least that’s the direction I’m heading in.
I’ve still got a decent amount of trauma and gsf to work through though, and I’m doing my best. Sometimes pettiness comes up, or ugliness. Sometimes I remain graceful and loving in spite of the pain, sometimes I react. But overall there’s a theme of wanting to become somebody worth something. Not just to get a reward or as a means to an end, but because it has inherent meaning to me.
I’m very satisfied with this OGSF3 run. I noticed towards the end more fruits whereas the journey to get there was pretty bumpy. I’m not sure if this pattern will continue or if things will only get more smooth.
Lots of change happened but I haven’t been keeping track so unfortunately I don’t have much to give you guys. All I can say is that OGSF3 is fucking awesome and you should very much consider running it for basically every and any reason. It’s not for the faint of heart, not necessarily because it is dramatically painful or anything (although it can be), but because it requires commitment and a slow and steady endurance and sacrifice for seemingly nothing in return for awhile.