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AM6.I - Stage 3, Day 13 - Dubls - 02-05-2015
This is a short one. I've been feeling tired lately. I'm napping more often and sleeping in longer. I'd like to think that's 5G kicking my ass.
I've decided to give PSTEC a try. I downloaded it before starting AM6 (my first sub) and what I'd like is to use it when shit comes up.
Oh and we got new shirts at work. I must fill it out nice/have an aura of some kind because both male and female coworkers gave me a once-over yesterday.
Are there auras in Stage 3?
AM6.I - Stage 3, Day 15 - Dubls - 02-06-2015
I had the most incredible experience yesterday: a feeling of (near) total self-validation and corresponding confidence. It was a gradual transition that happened at work. I noticed it once it was 'on'. I think I've written about the girl across the hall who has been trying to get with me for some time. I haven't pursued it because of how self-conscious I am about my body, but yesterday none of that mattered. I saw her on my break and suggested we hang out. For reasons beyond my control, that didn't happen, but my self-talk was as follows: We're going to hang out, and she's going to give me a blowjob. No reservations whatsoever. I felt worthy. I should have gone to a bar. Just as exciting as the positive, was the absence of the negative.
Well I didn't feel that way today, but I've had a taste of what is possible and I'm hooked. I hope that along with these experiences, AM will help me achieve consistency.
RE: Essy Mans The ***k Up - Leo1990 - 02-07-2015
Try approaching a girl you also find attractive, say something like: "I saw you walking across the street, the way you walk is very assured and confident of yourself- I just had to come over and meet you..."
Direct.
You'll probably immediately get that state back. Ive had it before. It was like "I'm the shit, I'm on fire!" and after that one approach- I did 9 more... haha.
AM6.I - Stage 3, Day 21 - Dubls - 02-15-2015
Feeling confident. Strong desire to talk to women I'm attracted to instead of spiralling into a low self-worth vortex. Still anxious about it but it's not debilitating. Watched porn the other day after having not for some time and felt gross afterwards. Sex drive is high but the urges are for real women and I feel compelled to go out and pursue them.
Generally speaking, it feels like I'm wearing "I don't give a ****" goggles. I like where this is going.
Still having vivid dreams every night. Could have something to do with zinc before bed but the content of the dreams seems to be relevant to AM.
AM6.I - Stage 3, Day 32 - Dubls - 02-24-2015
I'm alive. Tomorrow is make-up day for Stage 3 and then onto Stage 4. Haven't reported in a while because a) nothing significant enough to write about has happened and b) I've been aggressively researching how to accomplish my 3 month fitness goal.
I written about my a-ha moments over the past 3 months but results remain inconsistent. I accept that I may need to run AM6 again, but I hope that Stages 4-6 will introduce consistency along with more pronounced results. To be honest, the tail end of Stage 3 has been uneventful enough to the point where I've questioned its efficacy moving forward. But I guess that's why a new Stage is starting soon.
RE: Essy Mans The ***k Up - ffaux - 02-24-2015
All of this doubting sounds like the resistance a lot of people go through. Just keep going and don't worry about it.
AM6.I - Stage 4, Day 3 - Dubls - 02-28-2015
Stage 4 packs a wallop. Resistance yesterday and today with an intensity I haven't felt in a while. Insecure about my appearance (body and penis), down about my sexual stamina, feeling unworthy of and intimidated by attractive women, overall not feeling very manly, hung up on my lack of social/sexual experience in my 20s—a time when a young adult should flourish, etc. I had some pretty low points yesterday and today and I have to remind myself that this too is progress. There is a clear association between the timing of these feelings and my starting stage 4. One thing I've noticed amidst this garbage is a growing indifference—mind you inconsistent—to attractive women. I'm so used to becoming highly self-conscious around them and I was surprised to that reaction has dwindled. There's one woman at the gym who is an 11/10 and she didn't strike me yesterday the way she has in the past. As a side note, I caught her looking at me a few times, but I have an EXTREMELY hard time believing that she could be interested in me. Was at a restaurant tonight that was littered with attractive waitresses and I recognized one in particular whom I caught looking at me several times the last time I was there. She's also one of the sexiest girls there. This is foreign to me. Anyways, I found myself observing these sexy waitresses and not feeling particularly gaga about them, yet appreciating their beauty. The thought of approaching any one of them produced almost zero anxiety. I find that it's easier for me to feel confident in public because people bring it out in me. On the drive home, I began to question my ability to satisfy them sexually which led to the downward though spiral I wrote about at the start of this post.
More to say but too tired right now.
AM6.I - Stage 4, Day 6 - Dubls - 03-03-2015
This stage is rough. I'm experiencing more negative thoughts and feelings than positive ones; the inverse of previous stages. Is stage 4 known for this?
RE: Essy Mans The ***k Up - ffaux - 03-03-2015
(03-03-2015, 07:53 PM)essy Wrote: Stage 4, day 6
This stage is rough. I'm experiencing more negative thoughts and feelings than positive ones; the inverse of previous stages. Is stage 4 known for this?
Sounds like resistance. Keep going, it's part of the journey.
RE: Essy Mans The ***k Up - GlaizenGold777 - 03-04-2015
(03-03-2015, 07:53 PM)essy Wrote: Stage 4, day 6
This stage is rough. I'm experiencing more negative thoughts and feelings than positive ones; the inverse of previous stages. Is stage 4 known for this?
I copy paste it.
Most people respond to Stage 1 with a fairly polar response. Either they don’t notice anything, or they notice they are really growing in self confidence and a few even start reporting impatience with the people around them playing mind games and trying to manipulate them. Stage 1 is clearing out the negative self image BS and laying a solid foundation for the rest of the program. Stage 1 specifically prepares you for Stage 2.
Stage 2 is not as polar usually, but some people still don’t see enough to notice a difference. Most people begin noticing this stage and this is where most people start showing the self confidence, desire to stand up and do one’s own thing, and the irritation with the BS of others really starts manifesting here. Stage 2 is designed to get you up to speed and ready for Stage 3.
Stage 3 is aimed at bringing out the Big Guns. This is where you’ll be ready to get serious about becoming an alpha, but it also aims to balance and temper the previous stages. Thus while there may be irritation with the BS of others, your response will tend to be more refined and less crude. Big Guns means this is where the core of the Alpha/Dominant programming really takes focus. Stage 3 is where most of the most important and obvious work is going on because it is here you are learning to accept an internalize the Alpha core you couldn’t have handled dealing with previous to using Stages 1 and 2. It also prepares you for Stage 4.
Stage 4 is a combination of extension of Stage 3’s teachings and concepts, and a refresher for Stages 1 and 2. It also refines the Alpha/Dominant social response and makes you more self sufficient and less likely to feel the need to prove anything to anyone. Self reliance. It also prepares for Stage 5.
Stage 5 is a further extension of some of the concepts introduced in Stage 3 and Stage 4, and further polishes the attitude, aiming for a sort of cool “James Bond” effect. The primary goal of this stage is to polish and refine what all the previous stages have been introducing and building.
Stage 6 is a “finalizer”. It is like the varnish coat. The “final polish and sealant”, designed to put a high gloss on everything that has been built so far and make it as long term and permanent as possible. It also acts as a stabilizer, balancer and refresher for Stages 1 through 5.
RE: Essy Mans The ***k Up - Darkness - 03-04-2015
Your gonna have a lot frustration internally and externally women will feel sexual around and you'll feel it and mirror it back at them, females acquaintances will be talk about sex for way too long to you and in your company. A girl told me I was making her wet while I was waiting for the bus on Saturday night. Stage 4 was the most dynamic to the fullest extent for me. The smooth talker in you will come out here
AM6.I - Stage 4, Day 10 - Dubls - 03-07-2015
Instead of going into detail about what I've been struggling with—which is the same shit I've written about before—I'm going to share some conclusions that I've drawn:
i.
Low confidence is the root of all my problems.
I don't feel the need to elaborate on this other than to say that it originates from being significantly overweight through childhood and into adolescence.
That got me thinking about the most effective way to tackle the issue with subs. Do you use ASC to address confidence as a whole or do you tackle the individual-specific components which comprise low confidence?
To the latter, I'm doing AM because I wanted to address a broader scope of issues, and my confidence has certainly improved along the way. AM includes ASC in each stage, but I've read over and over again about the potency of subs that have a singular focus.
I would love to hear your thoughts on this. Clearly Shannon has offered both options.
ii.
Success with women is #1.
I discovered sub-shop and sub-talk through a google-binge to improve my 'game' and become a manwhore. I wanted to jump into Sex Magnet but the prerequisite for Alpha Male—and reading through its description—helped me to see things in my life that I knew needed fixing (and priority) but hadn't articulated. Initially, I thought of AM as a stepping stone to SM, now I appreciate it in it's own right.
The case remains however, that there is a hole in my life. I've missed out on at least a decade of sex because I let my inhibitions overpower my desire—and it's been painful. AM is helping me to dwell less on the past and be alpha in the present, but I've still only slept with one woman and not had sex in 2 years.
I want to have sexual relationships with attractive women. I want the social skills and a social life that is conducive to this. I want to f*&k like a jackrabbit and have the confidence knowing I can deliver sexually. I want to have multiple partners and plenty of options. I want quality AND quantity.
This desire permeates my thoughts.
P.S. Low-confidence may be a big part of why I cum fast.
RE: Essy Mans The ***k Up - GlaizenGold777 - 03-07-2015
I know this is easier said than done. But, why not rerun AM again if you're not satisfied with first run?
I am running AM training set for the second time now. And the effects is very different with my first use. First cycle on stage one, my emotion is like roller coaster, but now, same stage on the second cycle, my emotion is well balance.
Sometimes our brain need to run more than once to really ingrain what included in the audio.
Oh and about your confidence, take it easy, it'll fade away by itself. Just make sure you read the material suggested and learn the body language.
Thanks. :-)
RE: Essy Mans The ***k Up - ffaux - 03-08-2015
(03-07-2015, 08:38 PM)essy Wrote: I discovered sub-shop and sub-talk through a google-binge to improve my 'game' and become a manwhore. I wanted to jump into Sex Magnet but the prerequisite for Alpha Male—and reading through its description—helped me to see things in my life that I knew needed fixing (and priority) but hadn't articulated. Initially, I thought of AM as a stepping stone to SM, now I appreciate it in it's own right.
This is my experience exactly. I started off wanting WM and now am really going to make sure I thoroughly absorb AM6 before moving on.
(03-07-2015, 08:38 PM)essy Wrote: I want to have sexual relationships with attractive women. I want the social skills and a social life that is conducive to this. I want to f*&k like a jackrabbit and have the confidence knowing I can deliver sexually. I want to have multiple partners and plenty of options. I want quality AND quantity.
Interestingly I felt exactly the same before and during my first run of AM6. Coming out the other end I'm much less concerned with women. Sure, I'm still aiming for multiple partners of exceptional beauty and quality but that hunger is gone. I wonder how you're going to feel at the end of AM6. I hope you decide to run it again
