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RE: AM 7.0 - The Measure of a Man / Morrison Shouts in my Ear - Shannon - 05-18-2026
What was it specifically that fixed the issue?
RE: AM 7.0 - The Measure of a Man / Morrison Shouts in my Ear - Ampersnd - 05-19-2026
(05-18-2026, 01:19 PM)Shannon Wrote: What was it specifically that fixed the issue?
Can't say that I know for sure. I will assume that my mobile instance Chrome was engaging in some resource sharing and maybe capped the Sub-Shop tab when the tab exceeded what resources were available. Opera is running fresh and independently.
RE: AM 7.0 - The Measure of a Man / Morrison Shouts in my Ear - Ampersnd - 05-19-2026
Day 20,
An interesting video on the topic of ascendance and transcendence. Men, we are born free and we can choose to live free:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UzycX8Z_PYI
RE: AM 7.0 - The Measure of a Man / Morrison Shouts in my Ear - Ampersnd - 05-22-2026
Day 23,
I'm wondering how many months total I plan on running AM7 Stage 0.
Will not switch to anything this coming month.
There's not much going doing with my internal self; I do get tearful every once in a while.
I am realizing just how much of a hangup I have towards pursuing anybody for sex and relationship.
At my community theater gig, the conditions are imperfect: one is 19 and very shy, another is a pretty lesbian in a lengthy relationship, another is a fair bit older than me, and not in any great sense. An overweight woman in a relationship is hanging around me and having fun banter.
It feels like there are so few hot women walking around, and even if they were there, I'd feel very strange about the idea of trying to chat them up unprompted.
I used to do so much of that, but it was fueled by several toxic motivations, and it helped that I was also a horny young adult.
RE: AM 7.0 - The Measure of a Man / Morrison Shouts in my Ear - Ampersnd - 05-27-2026
Day 28,
I'm certainly going to do this subliminal for at least another month.
I know that it's suggested that porn-addicted, supplicant, jobless, carless, houseless, compulsive men run this program for four months, and that those who don't "need" it run it for one month.
But I am a gainfully employed, car possessing man with an apartment who handles his adult responsibilities BUT has some emotional and psychological hangups about my ambition and relationships, and so I view my needs as slightly different.
I'm midway through this video, but it touches on something: 'aura' appears to be the blend of spirit, masculine 'thumos', self-esteem, leadership qualities, and a sustained vision which you communicate with others.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6dDHtuPmo6E
RE: AM 7.0 - The Measure of a Man / Morrison Shouts in my Ear - GreekGod22 - 05-27-2026
FYI, yesterday I read a Shannon post saying that if you go beyond 1 month, it’s recommended to do the full 4 months of Stage 0.
RE: AM 7.0 - The Measure of a Man / Morrison Shouts in my Ear - Ampersnd - 05-29-2026
Day 30,
Looks like I'm doing the full four months.
One of my main objectives about the "courage to be an artist" might be loosening and in reach.
I might have the opportunity to pursue a lead role in a very 'out-there' theater production; the range is easy enough for me and the songs seem like a lot of fun. The character is very flamboyant and not like myself.
As a straight guy, I see artistic freedom in pursuing it. I don't view it as anything that has to do with my identity.
It's not yet a certainty - or logistical possible - but I can keep you posted there.
I made myself do a Friday workout, which I rarely do. I keep catching eyes with a couple of gals - even had one walk past me when she didn't have no - but they're often with a man. And I often don't feel it within myself to initiate a conversation; feels like a performance and I don't genuinely care of have a conversation with them... currently, their figure or look attracts me but I don't feel that oomph like I used to, to try and bridge that gap.
RE: AM 7.0 - The Measure of a Man / Morrison Shouts in my Ear - Ampersnd - 06-02-2026
Day 34,
I think that my emotional clearing/healing has been addressing a shame-based disgust of sex and the human body.
I recall having the opportunity to sleep with a recently-divorced attractive 47-year old mother of two, and getting squeamish when we were both kissing and getting heavy. I called things off because I was worried that I wouldn't like what I saw under the clothes.
I was having a real crisis of conscience and faith at that time - and doing some heavy duty healing - so I understand why I did that, but now that I believe to have cleared the emotions blocking me, I'm kicking myself for skipping out on that opportunity because our in-person chemistry was off the charts and she's now in a relationship.
RE: AM 7.0 - The Measure of a Man / Morrison Shouts in my Ear - Ampersnd - 06-02-2026
Day 34 B,
I believe that my minds are in a conflict when it comes to sex and relationships.
See, I consciously want to get into great, fun-loving relationships with the hot women I see, let's say, at the gym.
I want to have tender moments, PLUS see her thin waist and plump ass rippling against my thrusts.
But then, there's something unconscious that is evasive and avoidant about being direct and present about my desires and my interests. Where I can make myself talk to a woman but my soul isn't piercing hers, and she doesn't pick up on my emotional/soul side; no spark, no chemistry.
That lines up with my dad's advice for dating in high school, which was simply "don't do it."
And even deeper, I sense an unconscious romantic emptiness; a yearning for it while feeling disempowered to do something about it.
I did attempt a conversation today.
A woman with a great figure was slowly hovering around near me for almost a minute. Since I finished my sets, I walked up to her and said: "you seem... aimless." She bit the bait and we started chatting.
We had a quick chat, introduced each other, and it dried up in about minute two, then I said "catch you later". It ended in a neutrally positive way.
Though I could come up with random topics, they were a bit dry, and she was giving me about a 4-5 out of ten in engagement and a response; it wasn't bad, but I felt I had nothing to work with.
I also felt a bit bored and honestly didn't want to be there.
There was a chasm where I failed to express my interest, and so there wasn't the chance for her to turn it down; just two people talking.
That's another thing; the inner sense that my desires - and expressing them to woman - is somehow wrong or perverted, especially with people around and potentially watching; I know better consciously, but this is under the surface.
It annoyed me how I can't just be "on", or at least "normal" about having a conversation with a new person.
I used to be incredibly eager to chat to women, get their number, try to set up dates, and now I'm just... neutral. It might be viewed as grounded or masculine, but it lacks that spark of someone wanting to get to know you.
I feel the desire for her body but not really enough curiosity about her, the person, so I don't go through the trouble, since that would be disrespectful to her.
The cute woman at the candy store was caught up in a tense phone conversation when I got to checkout.
RE: AM 7.0 - The Measure of a Man / Morrison Shouts in my Ear - Ampersnd - 06-05-2026
Day 37,
I'm starting to believe that "unlocks" and "downloads" are subconscious reservoirs that your brain has been accumulating, but leaves out of your conscious awareness because it has an unconscious fear of the volatility and inner turmoil which will happen if you are aware.
And so, once your brain has established that the knowledge won't put you in danger, it slowly trickles in, or happens all at once.
If I could visually display it, it is much like the brain is one giant cloud of data points and connections, and then the "download" is another much smaller cloud off to the side. We might represent the removal of fear with the joining of one, two, three, and then ten graphed lines between your brain and the download, spurred on by the familiarity and acceptance of new ideas which were once scary.
It's almost like the 'Memory Sequences' in Assassin's Creed; I revisited the exposition dump from the first game; you had to play the game in a sequenced order because - by their rules - Desmond's subconscious mind would reject the later quests and would only feel comfortable in opening once it has established the 'truth' and reality of the prior sequences.
I'm having "downloads" related to ways I could start conversations with almost anybody, that won't create that over-familiarity that might freak someone out, or that stiffness that would also make people look at you funny.
I believe that this has been the missing foundation to my previous "cold approaching" in the past; I would come in way too direct by expressing interest, as basic "here and now" style questions (what they do in life, job, school), not establish any familiarity, then cash out and ask for contact information; no wonder they wouldn't want to continue the conversation.
And then, I could build on top of that the framework for establishing NLP style 'fascinations' or Ross Jeffries style 'patterns', or just adding a sexual spark with basic flirting tenets; I knew better than to try to lead with those exact things.
The internet flirting/rizz video community leans too heavily into the "I'm a man you're a woman" angle or "I think you're sexy, give me your number" or peppering with questions then trying to cash out, which is not as sophisticated as I would like it to be.
RE: AM 7.0 - The Measure of a Man / Morrison Shouts in my Ear - Ampersnd - 06-05-2026
Day 37 B,
Cont: I believe that my confidence and maturity levels have lifted to the point where I'm able to mentally handle something like Ross Jeffries.
Where I have an inner belief that I can stand apart from my environment, to act in spite of the potential judgment of others, and that I can guide other people's state of mind into a more constructive and positive direction. This belief is growing in me and not fully realized.
But this stands apart from my original belief: "I need to learn how to change others state of mind so that I can avoid rejection and having my state of mind be affected."
Another thought while meditating: "I have the right to connect with any person I choose; that is between me and that person." For too long, I believe that I've mentally depended on whether the environment is "cool" with it, or not too perturbed by my doing so.
In the past, I reflexively "didn't care" what others thought when trying to bulldoze through my inner anxiety to direct approach women, but all of that inner turmoil was because I cared what people thought, much more than I wanted to recognize.
RE: AM 7.0 - The Measure of a Man / Morrison Shouts in my Ear - Ampersnd - 06-07-2026
Day 39,
In a culmination of annoyance, I shaved my beard entirely; it's been a while since I've seen my chin, and I definitely have a recessed one; my cheeks have gotten puffier as well.
It definitely gave me some dysmorphia and an insecurity about how attractive I 'actually' am.
My beard was pretty great and added great shape to my face; I plan on going back to where I was, and do better at managing the itch factor; it really was the sensory aspect that was bothering me so much.
I spent the entire weekend writing tens of thousands of words for the first draft of my book with the assistance of AI.
Tonight, I finish draft 1 after complete 13 chapters in 2.5 days.
RE: AM 7.0 - The Measure of a Man / Morrison Shouts in my Ear - Ampersnd - 06-09-2026
Day 41,
Something seems to be lifting in me, where I might be much more open to being socially open and inviting; pro-social, for lack of a better word.
It almost seems that anything you say to a person can "fly" (be valid) as long as you approach your words with the right amount of good will, respect, and levity.
RE: AM 7.0 - The Measure of a Man / Morrison Shouts in my Ear - Ampersnd - 06-14-2026
Day 46,
I finally did my first real cold approach - from start to finish - today at the gym. She was a gym baddie with a nice ass and a baseball cap on, with a resting face going on.
She was friendly from the start; my approach was very chill and my nervous system wasn't spiked - apparently, women pick up heavily on these things.
I should mention that I started re-learning Ross Jeffries' NLP patterns again, and I've been meaning to find opportunities to practice them.
I was able to use a couple of make-shift ones with her, and it probably didn't take effect right away. We bonded over gym topics, and I got her number.
I've been able to apply the patterns in a few other opportunities; it's quite challenging to keep the conversation relevant while inserting sly subconscious 'commands'. It's worth looking up.
These realizations are partly behind why I said that "anything goes" in conversation a few days ago.