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RE: Shannon's Journal - boromir - 06-18-2010
Yeah, I love Palmy, she is awesome, I could care less if I don't understand the language-it's her energy that drives me crazy. Even when she's older; the one solo song with T-Bone is one big kundalini rush for me, besides she is f...ing sensual as all get out.
Wonder what she is doing now, has she been westernized?-is she now an overweight and depressed woman, like most westernized women.
RE: Shannon's Journal - Shannon - 06-28-2010
Things are a little less hectic now... a little... but I am having a hard time getting motivated to work now. I'll try to figure it out tomorrow. I think I am going to end up spending tomorrow acting as chauffeur again... that has me frustrated, but there's not much I can do about it.
I think I am going to start incorporating a couple of tricks into my schedule. Trick #1 is that I am going to start going to bookstore cafes to work, since there's no Internet access that I can use there (not payin for it twice!) and nobody to distract me and ask me to do crap all the time. It will also force me to work, because I'll get so bored that work will seem like entertainment.
Trick #2, I think I am going to start going to the beach as often as possible, since I seem to decompress very nicely at the beach. Plus, there's always some attractive woman or other at the beach. I've been looking for bikini models anyway...
Hopefully doing those two things will get me away from this situational cage I have been stuck in, now that mom's out of the hospital and doesn't need me to watch her 24/7. I have been becoming really frustrated with my circumstances lately.Talk about your screw job. One more month and it'll me over.
Right now, I am about as frustrated as I can handle without flipping out or going off on someone. If it's not one thing, it's been two others lately, and the net result is that at best, I have been unable to find motivation to work, and at worst, I haven't got time to even breathe.
RE: Shannon's Journal - K-Train - 06-28-2010
Lol, at least you're able to control yourself Shannon. A lot of people tend to get into this "defeatist" mindset when times get rough and will start going off on people like fireworks. It's great that you're actively seeking out ways to remain calm rather than blame universe.
I hope everything works out for you but I'm confident it should. Just remember, if all else fails, you can use that Life-Tune Up sub.
RE: Shannon's Journal - Shannon - 06-29-2010
Oh, I know what's going on. This is just a planned "crunch" time for me to be forced to change and improve. Saturn likes to be challenging. My belief is that we choose our birth charts before we are born, so that we can use these "crunch times" to force learning and growth. So it's nobody else's doing. I just have to suck it up and do the best I can do.
I have also been doing some research into an experimental new technique for subliminals, and I think you guys are going to be pleased with it. It should make the attraction subs much more effective in terms of attracting perfect lovers, etc.
RE: Shannon's Journal - Tigerlilly - 06-29-2010
"Perfect" lovers? We all know perfection does not exist. There has got to be a better word to use . . . . and no, I'm not just being cranky! I still believe in love. (Let's here it for Cher!) Picking is just as important as attracting!
A bad day at the beach is better than a good day at the office. If you can combine both, more power to you!
Can someone tell me why 2012 is supposed to be bad??? 2000 was supposed to be bad, computers crashing, darkness everywhere, etc., etc. I don't recall it being all that bad.
RE: Shannon's Journal - Shannon - 06-29-2010
(06-29-2010, 08:10 PM)Tigerlilly Wrote: "Perfect" lovers? We all know perfection does not exist. There has got to be a better word to use . . . . and no, I'm not just being cranky! I still believe in love. (Let's here it for Cher!) Picking is just as important as attracting!
A bad day at the beach is better than a good day at the office. If you can combine both, more power to you!
Can someone tell me why 2012 is supposed to be bad??? 2000 was supposed to be bad, computers crashing, darkness everywhere, etc., etc. I don't recall it being all that bad.
"We all know perfection does not exist."
Spoken like you truly believe that.
However, perfection does exist. I'll share a story with you about it.
When in 2005 I finally (after about 16 years of experiments and research) had a way to test my grand theory of ... well, that's secret, but it was a grand theory. lol Anyway, my final experiment to determine whether my theory was correct or not was to create a subliminal program to manifest into my life my perfect lover.
I used that terminology in the subliminal: I specified that I wanted my subconscious mind to locate and bring into my life my perfect lover.
The subconscious, as you may have seen me say before, is absolutely literal. If it understands that you want the perfect example of something, and it can find a way to bring about what you ask for, you will get it. Perfection and all. Sometimes your perfect [whatever] won't be able to come to your call; perhaps they're living around the world, or married, or too sick, or the timing isn't right for them or you somehow because of other factors. But in many cases, as long as you use that program long enough for your subconscious to be able to "weave the threads of fate" the way you want them to be (which seems to take 4 to 8 months in most cases), it'll happen.
Anyway, back to my story... I had just about given up on the experiment, 4 months in, when one day I happened to get a phone call. It was from a girl I had worked with in a call center a couple years previous. She was calling me to say she was back in town, and wanted to enjoy my company on the phone.
Now, this girl had modeled for me for some photography when we worked together, right before she'd moved on, and she was really impressed with me because unlike all the other guys she new, married and otherwise, I wasn't trying to fuck her. When she asked me why, during the shoot, I told her: I was dating someone, and infidelity wasn't my thing. That so impressed her that she decided she was going to wait for me to be single, and try to get me.
Well, we talked on the phone for a little while when she came back a couple years later, and she discovered that I was single. So was she. I recall that we talked for a little while, during which time I felt an odd sensation of attraction for her, but she had to go, and so we agreed to chat on IM later.
Within half an hour of chatting on IM, we discovered that we shared a very unusual interest, and that we were the perfect compliment for eachother in this particular regard. In fact we also happened to discover that we had joined the same dating site and had received eachother's profile as a "perfect match": We scored 100% on compatibility!
It wasn't long after that, I told her I wanted to spend some time with her the following night on a date, which she readily agreed to.
That first date was insane. She was so hot and bothered by he end of dinner that she couldn't help but blush constantly. Which was entertaining, because she's black Jamaican, and not the darkest, but certainly not medium or light black. I knew she was blushing because every time she flushed, my face itched!
She was so hot for me that I could have had her that night, but I told her no. I knew that if she got sex from me on the first date, she wouldn't value the relationship. I really liked her; she was exotic and beautiful - literally Playboy material - and I didn't want to blow it with sex too fast. Good thing I didn't! But when we finally did start having sex, it wasn't long before I realized that she was my "perfect lover". And I do mean every bit of "perfect".
If I liked doing it, she liked receiving it. If it turned me on, it turned her on. If I didn't like it, she didn't like it. Where I was aggressive, she was passive; where I was dominant, she was submissive. What I wanted in a woman physically, she embodied; what I wanted in a woman sexually, there she was! The only woman to ever be able to keep up with me sexually, EVER, when I let myself go full bore and indulge my sex drive fully. She didn't just take everything I threw at her, she was eager for more! I could not believe it.
Orgasmic? Easily, and multiply. (I have never seen a woman so orgasmic in my life!) Perfect body? Hell yes. Great kisser? Yup. Enjoyed being touched? Yep. You name it... she was there. Literally my perfect lover. She and I were so sexually in tune that just being in her presence, whether I was aware of her or not, got me hot and bothered, and the same was true of her. And never before, and never since, have I had such amazing sex. She loved all the positions I love, and whatever it was, we matched. Perfectly.
Of course, I made one fatal mistake. I asked for my perfect lover, and that meant that everything was focused on sex alone. Sex alone doesn't make a relationship work, and we had some rather serious incompatibilities in other areas. But perfect lover, I got. (This was when I created the Attract Your Perfect Romantic Lover" title to compensate for that problem.)
Perfection does exist - if you know how to access it. I suspect a lot of the "attract your perfect" programs don't sell because people simply cannot believe they could work. I can't say they always work, because as I mentioned earlier, there are sometimes circumstances that mean they aren't possible within the 4 to 8 months that the results normally show up. But, they do work. I'm not the only person to successfully use them.
Perfection exists. Just because the commonly used methods are inefficient at best doesn't mean better methods don't exist, or don't work.
Just do me a favor, and don't make the same mistake I did. If you want to try one of them, don't go for sex only if that's not what you really want. Wish I'd known that when I did that experiment.
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As for 2012, I have a few theories... one being that mass hysteria will be so out of control that it'll make a lot worst stuff happen than is reasonable.
But, my Tarot readings have shown that something difficult happens in 2012 for more than two years now, and the consistency is freakish. It's what I call a "destiny node", meaning that it's going to happen no matter what. The question is, what exactly? So far I have gathered that there will be a very difficult time financially for a lot of people, but my efforts have not been finished with figuring out the rest. I also don't know how accurate long term Tarot readings are, but the consistency of the same thing showing for the finances over 26 readings during 2 years, that's definitely a sign that something is up. Long term readings never show that level of stability.
Beyond that... who knows? Solar flares? Comets impacting, or meteors? War? I can't say. I'm going to write a book of predictions, but they'll be experimental, because again, not sure how accurate these long term forecasts are just yet. I have only been skilled enough to try to make such long range predictions in the last 2 years.
RE: Shannon's Journal - Shannon - 07-03-2010
These last few days have been a genuine testament to my resilience. I have had about 2 hours of sleep on average for each of the last three days. Yet still, here I am... alive.
After the 4th of July, I am hoping that my time will not be so heavily in demand, and I can do what I have been trying to do here for a while now.
I am currently using the alpha set with ultra success and the woman magnet. Yesterday was the first time I have had a chance to get out without having to babysit, chauffer, nurse or otherwise care for someone or something to the exclusion of my own sanity. I had a gap of one day, a chance to go de-compress, and took it. All day and all night, it was my friends M, D and me playing pool, putting down amber bock, and having fun with everyone around us.
I must say, the way I responded to the ladies was interesting. I had a good wing (M), and we were sort of taking turns with it. When a lady was more interested in him, I would switch to wing, and vice versa. We ended up in a pub with a leprechaun for a mascot, playing pool and drinking pints, and quickly isolated three specific ladies of interest. An impressive two of them were natural platinum blondes. The other was a brunette.
M took off after brunette girl before I could finish checking if the tables were free, so I winged (wang? lol) for him on that, but she quickly shut him down and gave him some of the most closed body language a woman can possibly give: she turned her back to him and never did it change.
So we switched and I sat next to her, and I was listening to her conversation idly while shooting the shit with M, and concluded that I wasn't interested enough to try for her. great body, bad attitude. So I got up after a little while and went to check on the tables again. There were tables in use, so I gave M some bills and had him go get quarters and reserve us a table.
We get down there and M slaughters me. I'm not good at billiards, but it's fun. He's trying to teach me to play, but I am hard to teach. So then he reserved a game with the couple next to us - a guy and one of the platinum blondes - and I sat it out and watched him play the guy. The difference in his play was insane. I was pretty heavily buzzed, by that point, but wow. He was playing at an entirely different skill level than before, and he smoked the guy.
Then he challenged them to a couples game and he and I played them both and started conversing with them more heavily. The girl was very interested in both of us, and the guy seemed very chill, as if he really had no worries about his girl. Every once in a while she'd wander over and he'd put his hand on her ass in a way that stated who owned what, and kiss her. But I was impressed with his lack of insecurity.
M and I were both wearing pheromones - me 4 sprays of TUTH, and M was wearing a custom mix similar to one spray of Ammunition, but with slightly more alpha androstenol. B (God, what a perfect name for a platinum blonde!) was definitely attracted to us, and spent a good deal of time talking to us and focused heavily on each of us, which became painfully obvious when either she or whomever she was cornering was up for play. Such focus and obvious interest from a woman was rather a nice change of pace, but not terribly unexpected, given the pheromones and the fact that M and I work well as a team.
She seemed more interested in M, so I was talking to her boyfriend more often. He was teaching me about English and ball control, which I was really enjoying, seems like a good guy, and someone I'll enjoy the company of in the future... if his girl doesn't come after M or I. (It's looking pretty likely that she will.)
M has good game, better at opening than I am, and very good at mesmerizing the ladies, but if she decides to come after one of us, I know it will be me. Why? Because she's got her Sun in Capricorn, and is 29 years old. Obviously that doesn't tell me much, but from that I can infer two things - especially knowing what I now about her current boyfriend:
1. She's looking to settle down, and
2. She wants stability.
Well M might be playing a good game, but in the long run, she would choose me because I am much closer to her age, more stable financially, better established, have a college degree, and I have a lot more resources. I also happen to have a Grand Trine in my chart that only needs Capricorn to complete it, which means I tend to attract Capricorn women; and with that very same being composed of Mrs in Taurus and Venus in Virgo, I tend to be exceedingly skilled at seducing them. I have yet to meet a Cappy girl I was interested in who could withstand my charms.
Naturally, I don't touch taken, but if she decides she wants me, and she wants me badly enough, she'll make herself single to allow things to go forward. I'm not expecting anything really, but if it happens, I'll certainly enjoy it. She's got a nice body, is an artistic dancer, and speaks as if she's a dumb blonde - but very obviously isn't, once you get past that. I think it's how slowly she speaks that gives that impression.
I strongly suspect that I met this woman because of the Woman Magnet. I also strongly suspect she will end up being more than friends with me for the same reason. But, if nothing else, she's really cool, an I am looking forward to talking with her and her boyfriend further.
Let's see just how attractive she thinks I am after she gets to now me a bit better.
EDIT: Just remembered that she was qualifying herself to me immediately upon beginning conversation, and was very demure and submissive to me. She was basically saying, "I'm just a waitress right now, but I have some things going for me. I speak Spanish fluently, and I'm an artistic dancer, and I am going to go back to college for nursing, too."
That means she was a lot more interested than I thought, come to think of it. The fact that she was chatting more with M, suggests that either I was making myself appear too high value, he was trying to focus on her more, or both.
I also just remembered how today went. I shot a wedding today, and afterwards came home and started doing the standard first step: backup. 16 gigs of pics takes 4 DVDs, and I always make 2 sets of backup to DVD. Well, ran out of DVDs, so I went to Wally world and it was such a shift that I caught it consciously. In the parking lot, I was walking quickly with purpose, and the moment I walked through the door, I was suddenly, automatically and instantly moving half speed. I was suddenly flowing through the store, and I had the distinct feeling that I was surrounded by a bubble of this energy that made me not only someone others took notice of, but someone who was irresistible. I was in Wal mart, but I was beyond it: obviously, I was dressed well, since shooting a wedding as a professional requires that; but with the body language and this aura, I was somehow separate from everyone else there, as though I existed inside a bubble of reality that said I was only here because it was convenient, and that I was "slumming it" by shopping there. People gave me wide berth, as I flowed smoothly through the store in a graceful and unhurried "I own everything around me" way, and when I got to the electronics section, a guy a good foot taller and twice as big stopped, looked at me, smiled broadly and said, "What can I help you find, sir?"
In Wal Mart, that is very odd behavior for the employees. I said, "Oh, nothing, I'm just going to get some DVDs."
"Those are right down this way," he said, pointing to exactly where I was headed.
"Thanks,"
"It's my pleasure," he replied.
Now this guy seemed to be in an awesome positive mood, and downright happy to see me. He didn't seem that way with other people... he was polite and helpful, but didn't have that "I'm going out of my way because that's just what you deserve" reaction that it seemed I got. That's got to be primarily the alpha set right there.
RE: Shannon's Journal - Ryan - 07-04-2010
Shannon, as for the Walmart employee, I get that at places too. It depends on my mood but I've been getting it a lot lately due to Woman Magnet. Walking half speed, I frequently do that also. Actually, yesterday while I was at the festival downtown for the fireworks, I was walking really slow and flowing like you mentioned, however, I felt kind of stupid doing it because in my head I had a lot of negative stuff popping up that didn't make me seem so desirable.
RE: Shannon's Journal - Shannon - 07-04-2010
When you really get there, Ryan, you'll have "nothing but net", so to speak, and it'll be so natural that you'll be riding it like it's your wave. Pretty sweet. I think your thing is confidence, though.
RE: Shannon's Journal - Ryan - 07-05-2010
I know what you mean. Fortunately, I've been gaining a lot of confidence lately. I think the flowing thing has a bit to do with my confidence because otherwise I wouldn't be walking so slow? I've been getting more confident daily, my walk has improved/slowed, my head is tilted back a little more/up, my voice has gotten louder, and I don't feel as shy anymore. I'm going to see how it plays out in the next month, at that time I'll decide whether or not I should add in ASC to the mix. I plan on doing Woman Magnet for the next year possibly so it shouldn't be such a big issue adding it in.
RE: Shannon's Journal - Shannon - 07-05-2010
I have noticed that I have begun socializing more. New and old friends are spending more time with me, I am getting invited to spend more time with people, I even went to a party on the 4th, which is very unusual for me. I was rather uncomfortable going to parties before because of not knowing people there, but yesterday I was good. I think of the people I went with, I was the only one who didn't manage to make an ass of himself. I am also pretty sure I had managed to attract the sexual attention and interest of at least four women, but I was too relaxed by the time most of them showed up to be paying a whole lot of attention at that point. I was having a great time socializing, though.
There was a girl who had a wolf footprint tattooed on each breast, and it caught my attention. I asked her what it meant, and she told me she was Cherokee, and it was to commemorate her Cherokee heritage. I don't remember her name, but I recall that something about her really piqued my interest, and I couldn't get her out of my mind all night. I also caught her qualifying herself to me while we were talking, although after that I left her alone because I didn't want to put my foot in my mouth as buzzy as I was. I never did get another chance to talk to her, which is probably a good thing, as she was taken. Odd, because I normally wouldn't be interested in a woman with such an odd sort of tattoo. Whatever the case, we definitely "clicked" and responded with strong mutual interest. I, of course, am not going after a taken woman, and that sort of tattoo doesn't suggest we would have much of a relationship regardless, so I dropped it. Still, for some reason, I can't stop thinking about her.
I was getting several signals from the wife of the man who owned the house at which the party was held that she was sexually aroused in my presence, but of course I didn't even think of chasing that.
There was also her younger daughter, whom I pointedly ignored, mainly because she was a smoker and because she struck me as being of indeterminate age. The last thing I need is to hit on some chick in someone else's house and have her turn out to be underage - so, ignore. She was cute, though. Later in the evening, I caught her eying me a few times, and I got the distinct impression that she was trying to measure me up for later. I didn't talk to her at all during the evening, on purpose.
Her older sister also showed some interest, but when she saw her younger sister showing interest, she withdrew and became aloof.
There was also a woman who was wearing skin tight black pants. I don't remember anything else about her... she had a great backside, but I only saw her as I walked past a few times. She gave me some indicators of interest, but I honestly don't remember what they were. By that point I was too busy trying to round up and then keep my heavily inebriated friends from killing each other, getting arrested or destroying my car.
I suspect the younger daughter of the man who's house at which the party was hosted will try to make contact with me again and initiate something. I got the feeling she was quite intrigued because I was ignoring her. I don't think she's used to that, looking the way she does.
The Woman Magnet set appears to be having some very nice effects on me so far. People in general are more interested in me and want to hang out and socialize more. Guys are usually more respectful, although I did have one guy punch me and my friend because he thought we were trying to get his girl - which was laughable, because she was so not in my league... Had I not been so relaxed, I think that might have started a fight, because he was the bulldog type, and drunk, and I don't much appreciate disrespect like that out of the blue. Verbal warnings always precede physical warnings, according to the rules I play by. Had he been less insecure, I could have explained to him that we were completely uninterested, although I am unsure what good it would have done. Not only that, but my friend is a bulldog type and he was itching for a fight (and started several that night), and I don't think that scene would have gone down well for anyone there had I not just walked away. And just walking away? I think that's probably the doing of the Alpha set.
RE: Shannon's Journal - boromir - 07-06-2010
Shannon, above you say that you are using those three heavy subs, I don't know where I got the idea that that was too much-obviously not. So, I could buy and use simultaneously Alpha Male, the new memory sub you developed, along with Attracting a Big Breasted Romantic Lover and all would be effective?
RE: Shannon's Journal - Shannon - 07-06-2010
You got the idea from me. You see, I am doing an experiment to see how they work when used together. I don't have all the data in, yet. Just a few weeks worth of results. If you want to try it all at once, just remember that it's not going to give you the same results as if you focus entirely on one at time. If you're cool with doing an experiment, be my guest. I tend to be conservative in what I suggest people use because I want them to get the most out of what they are doing.
I am about to start a subliminal designed to use the LOA on top of all this... seems that it ought to work, based on what's going on so far... but remember, I am using the Alpha set for the what, fourth time now? I'm sure it gets easier after the first time, but that first time needs some energy.
RE: Shannon's Journal - K-Train - 07-07-2010
I hope I'm not being nosey, and if I am feel free to ignore this question, but which new subliminal are you about to use (the one that uses the Law of Attraction)? I'm guessing it would be one of the attract your perfect lover subs?