(05-23-2017, 02:21 AM)Rayhon Wrote: Why is Catman aka Car man doing 6 loops of DMSI daily? Is that a new recommendation??

(05-23-2017, 02:25 PM)CatMan Wrote: First, since starting V3.1, I've noticed I'm getting grey hairs. I have an insecurity about age, as I like younger women, and feel that would distance me from many of them. And I never got a chance to have the whole "young girl romance" thing, which I have a very deep regret about. So I have a strong deep feeling of "missing out" on that whole thing, and long for it to be honest. If others report a similar thing about grey hairs, it could mean another avenue of resistance to keep me/us from feeling sexy and being sexy. This is similar to how an earlier version was causing hair loss with many, I don't recall which version it was.

Thanks guys. And Boss, the idea of that actually happening to me, still seems so outlandish, lol. We'll see. I sometimes have trouble taking some updates seriously, I guess because the realities are so different.

In fact, that's why I wanted to post just now.

This is something I don't understand, and haven't for a long time. I just saw a post from Shannon again, talking to a guy who already gets women, and how he's having dreams etc. and going through some kind of turmoil. So he already gets sex with women he finds attractive, but is having issues with clearing and healing still. Shannon said that is being done to process things inside his mind, so that he can fully execute. I've seen posts like this before. Now, given that, I should have MASSIVE issues with clearing and healing going on, as I'm not successful with women before DMSI, and I'm not successful with women ON DMSI. So, I obviously have way more to work on than him, but yet he is the one with the turmoil on this, and I feel nothing. I don't get it.

Running this version in particular has been so easy, effortless compared to V3.0.1 which was derailing my life due to the constant exhaustion WAY beyond any reason. This sub has been easy to run, almost like I'm running nothing at all, I very rarely get any kind of dreams I recall, and usually they don't seem to make sense or I only recall weird vague things. And girls aren't even really a focus of them, never mind sex, usually girls have NOTHING to do with the dreams, so I don't get it. So, if the sub isn't dragging me through the mud with clearing/healing as you would assume due to my situation with the sub, and if I'm getting some kind of reaction so I can't by definition be stonewalling, then I should be executing, by process of elimination. But, I'm far from that, or at least I hope I am and that this program has way more to give than I'm getting now. So I don't know why I'm not getting at least serious turmoil due to clearing and healing, and what it means that I'm not. Makes me wonder what this thing is doing. I mean even at 6 loops now, for several days, I feel perfectly fine and normal, zero issues with sleep/energy even.

Things with girls still seem miles off. I guess what I'm trying to say is, I'm not sure what this thing is doing to me. That issue of not having any issues with clearing and healing on this, getting something internally so I can't be stonewalling, but yet seeing nothing with girls, makes me wonder what is going on with this version.

That's it for now!

Quote:Thanks both of you for your posts.

However, I feel others are making a bigger deal about these things than I am.

I'm fully aware that I'm a monster in business, and still somehow have a complete deadlock with women, thanks. Maybe that can be changed here, we'll see.

I was only mentioning "my past" etc. in the vein of either answering questions about it that others ask me about it, or in the vein of Shannon and I having our talk about it I quoted above. That's it. Otherwise, I don't find it relevant or productive to go on about, and everybody inherently has a story anyway. Mine isn't more relevant or useful than others. I prefer to look forward anyway, that's more useful, ultimately.

Quote:I guess my point is, I've worked hard to develop a great life, with great value. So I would NOT be satisfied with a mediocre woman. If I'm not at the point where I am developed enough where I can attract the attractive women I want, then I will be single and continue developing until I am. I will not undervalue myself, and go for mediocre out of desperation or giving up. I guess this is an issue of standards, how much you want to continue developing to be at the level of attractive women, or if you want to give up and accept mediocre. That's a choice each man has to make themselves, perhaps. Me? Go big or go home, like every other aspect of my life.

Quote:I don't want to go through this for the millionth time. I have ZERO interest in hiring a hooker. It proves nothing of my ability to get women on my own, and will further bolster my views on gold diggers and not being "good enough" to get women on my own. And having to wave money at them to buy access, which I view as pathetic and just another form of pedestalisation. I REALLY don't want yet another derail on the merits of hookers on my journal, if others like it, rock on. Why bother using a sub to attract women if you want to get a hooker? Makes zero sense to me, just go get one if you dig that. I'm not stooping to bribing a girl to touch me, if I was that desperate, and willing to lower my self worth even more with women, I would've done it a long time ago. I'm doing it "the normal way", creating attraction, or not at all. Getting penetration isn't worth further damage to my self worth by buying it. Too high a price tag for me.

Quote:It would be the biggest mindscrew in the world if girls believed I was too good to be true. They seem to have mistreated me and taken me for granted, LJBF me, or blown me off my whole life. To me, that seems to suggest I'm not valuable for some reason to them. I would find it hard to believe, that all the not texting back, not calling back, not hitting me up for a date or chasing me, mistreatment blah blah blah, dating, sex, everything, is because each of them thought I was too good to be true. It's a nice thought, but I'm not sure I'd buy it given all the behaviour, I figure at least a few of them would've taken a chance at a coffee or something to test it. To me, it suggests some sort of "thing" they're all feeling, I'm not valuable to them somehow despite everything I bring to the table.

Quote:I have several targets around me I'm very attracted to, and have mentioned that often. So I don't understand your view that I don't.

Quote:I have NEVER been able to figure out a pattern with girls my entire life...except for one thing. Anytime I was only half-into a girl or less, or she THOUGHT I was only half-into her when I was really into her, she seemed to show some real possible signs of attraction. When I actually genuinely liked her after that, it always went to shit, she'd start being ignorant, distant, pulling away, more and more and more, until she's a memory and always "busy" and not responding and being a rude bitch. They don't seem to like it when I like them. So, if only I can somehow like them without liking them...nice paradox there, they're so ridiculous. I'm not even sure they're worth it, tough to know from my perspective, I have real doubts though. But, that's been the only pattern I've observed with any kind of reliability over tons of girls in my life. There must be something to it. I don't understand how to get around it though, makes no sense to me.

Quote:Bottom line, I feel the program is far from delivering on the girl front in reality. If V3.3 or so is supposed to be "final", I'm nervous. It feels like WAY too much of a leap to expect real results with real girls in reality in such a short time, given how things are. At this point, despite the higher loop count, I'm still not convinced programs of this nature work.

(05-23-2017, 11:21 PM)CatMan Wrote: I have a real "thing" about it. I never got to hit "normal" age milestones with women as I described. So I guess I have a real issue about getting to "I have grey hair" stage of life without ever getting any of that. I feel it's an injustice in a way. I feel I've been robbed of that whole period in between by things I don't even understand, and don't seem to have gotten rid of yet. I have enough of a problem attracting women and doing things with them, especially young ones I like, so grey hair may not make getting those ones any easier. Aside from them, it's women my age who have taken terrible care of themselves, expect a meal ticket, and/or have kids from somebody else, are also in terrible shape, and also expect a meal ticket for her and the kids. Raw deal unless I go young, which will be so much tougher with hair matching their Father. Just a bad scene.

I mentioned it because it began shortly after starting this version, so maybe it's another form of resistance, to make me what I view as unsexy etc. to resist the script. Hopefully it can be dealt with if it's a problem. If not, I'm looking into options immediately, this is scary to me.