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RE: DMSI 3.2 Journal by Tesla, Musings of a PUA - Tesla - 04-18-2018
Felt very drained and tired yesterday. Ended up taking a nap in the afternoon for a couple of hours, and resumed my evening listening to a loop.
This morning I woke up with a headache, almost akin to having a hangover. I think I'm going to attribute this to having run two loops on Monday in an effort to 'catch up' on missing out on my loop on Sunday, and then running it again on Tuesday on a time much later than I usually do.
RE: DMSI 3.2 Journal by Tesla, Musings of a PUA - Tesla - 04-19-2018
Little Update:
I've been feeling incredibly energy drained as of late. This morning, I again struggled to wake up and felt some major fatigue with body soreness and a headache. This might not be a result of DMSI (Although it could be a contributing factor), but I did have sex and came three times last night; it was probably that act that made me feel incredibly drained and unable to wake up early enough to go to the gym.
I took a cold shower, hydrated myself, got some caffeine in my system, and felt better after that, but as of this time I'm feeling almost a bit worn down about continuing to run this program. I'll continue to see how things go however once I am finished with my 42 days.
RE: DMSI 3.2 Journal by Tesla, Musings of a PUA - Light - 04-19-2018
Unfortunately it is Dmsi. I am quite sure it is Dmsi which is making you feel tired. Your description is perfect of how i feel also lately. It is this feeling that if you lay down you don’t want to stand up again. But when you stand up, you might be able to function again.
But there is this soreness in the body when you just wake up.
I am playing just one loop every second day to see if this changes!
RE: DMSI 3.2 Journal by Tesla, Musings of a PUA - Tesla - 04-24-2018
So I took a couple of days off of DMSI over the weekend unintentionally (Was just really busy again, couldn't find the time), but I was able to listen to a loop of DMSI 3.2b yesterday and today.
I think today will be the last day I run it, at which point I'll start on DMSI 3.2a probably starting tomorrow, just to see what changes or effects I observe with the inclusion of that healing module.
As for a little update- I had Pinball Chick come over on Sunday night, and she essentially "laid all the cards out on the table" (her words), when I had asked her what was up- since it was very obvious with her body language and facial expressions. She wanted to know where things were going between us, basically insisting that she wanted to get into an exclusive relationship.
I sadly had to let her go as a plate as result. I am not ready for a serious, exclusive relationship, which are not only against the goals of what DMSI is trying to accomplish, but my goals as well.
That being said, I'm still going strong with two other plates (Sock Puppet and Ivory/Gossip Girl), and am working on three other prospects: One of whom I'll be meeting tomorrow night Wednesday at the bar for Karaoke- We've been openly flirtatious over text.
And two others I've pulled from Tinder- One I'll be meeting either Thursday or Friday, and then another who openly made it apparent she would like to hook up with me sometime next week.
As far as health goes:
I'm still strong on NoFap - Day 204
Cold Showers - Day 24
I've been working on eating a more robust diet in an effort to lean bulk, Currently up about 3-4 lbs solid mass since I started DMSI, so the gains are good.
I am definitely noticing regular IOI's, but I've been in situations where I can't seem to act upon them.
For example: Two instances occurred, while I was with.... ironically enough, Pinball Chick. The same chick I had to drop as a plate.
Last week, we went to the museum of natural history to watch a performance arts show: A sound meditation concert. There was an hb8 crystal bowls performer who was in her 40's, I'm guesstimating, along with a gentleman who played the didgeridoo.
After the performance, I hung out with the plate and wandered the museum, at which point we caught up with the HB8 performer. I complimented her on such a good show and performance, and held a frame in my head that "I owned her pussy." This eventually led the conversation to her displaying body language that CLEARLY showed obvious sexual interest. She was standing right next to me, focusing all of her energy in talking to me, borderline almost making out with my ear at a few points, all the while directly in front of my plate. I could literally taste the alcohol off her breath.
At one point, she handed me her drink so she could hold my phone and text me her FB details (Name, Performer name, and FB group page). That was amusing. After we had parted ways, even Pinball chick had said, "Holy cow she really had the hots for you." It was that obvious.
Another example of something like this happening, was when I was at a convenience store purchasing beer on Sunday night, again, with my Pinball chick plate. While she was away ordering food, I was buying the beer and was getting rung up by this really cute chick. She complimented me on my rings, and I complimented her on her pendant and tattoo. I mentioned I had never seen her around before and asked if she was new. She said she wasn't really new, but started working there around three months ago, and she mostly works at the gas station shopping terminal/hub. She was warm, a bit flirty with her smile and her eyes definitely showed that 'glint' of interest that is an IOI. I couldn't really act on it because again, I was there with a plate, and there was a line of customers...
I'm keeping her in mind though for next time.
EDIT: Another thing I forgot to mention is, on Saturday I received a snapchat message from a girl I fucked around with a few times last year asking me how I was doing. Yadda-yadda-yadda, she eventually said, "To be honest I hit you up to see if you'd wanna fuck." I'll probably fit her into my schedule sometime soon.
RE: DMSI 3.2 Journal by Tesla, Musings of a PUA - Tesla - 04-24-2018
Addendum to my previous post:
I had another extremely vivid dream the night Pinball Chick and I had talked and decided to start going our separate ways.
I had a dream we were in my car I was driving, going up a steep slope and it was snowing, pretty dicey out. We were at a stop-light, but the car started to slip on the snow and started to slide backwards down the slope- I tried to shift gears and push the gas, but I wasn't fast enough. I started to panic as I was worried I was going to hit a car behind me, but I managed to turn the car although we were still sliding down the steep slope.
Pinball Chick and I were both started to panic as the car was picking up speed even though I had my foot held firmly down on the breaks, but the car was gaining momentum- fast enough to where we were hydro-planing, almost hovering over the road. She said something to the effect of "What do we do?" in a scared panic.
I told her to just hold on tight as we started to approach another slightly uphill slope, but we were going so fast that we ended up flying off the road and over a tree. We kept going higher and higher to the point where when we started to fall, I knew it was going to cause some major damage...I wondered if we were going to even be able to survive this...I knew it was going to suck... Just before we started to make impact, I woke up.
RE: DMSI 3.2 Journal by Tesla, Musings of a PUA - Tesla - 04-28-2018
Craziest fucking thing ever happened. Could have never imagined this could ever happen. I'm still in shock, utter shock. It's such a random occurrence and far too unlikely for something like this to happen, I have to give some credit to DMSI for making it come to fruition.
I'll write a comprehensive field report and post it here later, but I'd just like to throw this out there:
DMSI 3.2a appears to be far more powerful than DMSI 3.2b; at least, after running it for just three days so far.
EDIT: Okay, so here's a field report on something that happened out of the night. Out of the blue.
Alright so yesterday I got home after work and decided to go to the store to get some food and drinks for later. When I got back to my apartment, I saw my room mate open the door for this chick and instantly my blood pressure started to rise, and anxiety and awkwardness levels shot right up and through the roof.
It was her.
I've mentioned this before on the server in passing, but I had an incident early last year that cost me about 90% of my social circle I had been involving myself in. The TL;DR version of it is, I went to a house party and this chick was throwing me IOIs. Let me think of a name for her...Let's go with Cat, since she's kind of like a feline. I've known her for a few years in this social circle. We always flirted but nothing ever came about from it. Never even made out or anything like that. She was either involved with someone else or I was with someone else.
Anyway, she was throwing me IOI's but the thing is she was dating another friend of mine at the time. I was experimenting with dark triad seduction at the time and felt like I was doing pretty well with holding a cocky, dominant frame. She would reciprocate in kind, telling me things like she was going to be breaking up with her boyfriend soon anyway, etc etc, so later that night we started to play. Well, things got a little awkward as 'she appeared to sober up' so I had to dip. Next thing you know, I hear rumors about me being involved with roofies from all over the place. People unfriend me, block me, and just outright stop inviting me to things and don't allow me to go to other parties my friends were going to. Basically, I got fucked, and not in a good way.
My room mate is friends with her, and we were able to clear the air about it a few months later over the phone but I was still deep in depression over it, trying to pull myself out. She wasn't the one who spread the rumors about me and roofies, but rather, her (now ex) bf's best friend who was talking shit about me. She only told two people we even did anything, but then it somehow got spread around that I apparently forced myself onto her (when I didn't, really).
Fast forward to today:
Yeah, so, she's over now, after a year of not even speaking to eachother or even hearing about eachother. Out of nowhere, the fuckin' blue, lol. My initial instinct and thought process is,"Oh shit, what the fuck is going on, wtf is going on, wtf is going on, anxiety levels RISING"
I say, "Heyy! Long time no see!!!" with a smile. I can feel this invisible force field/barrier between us, keeping my space a little because I don't want to get fucking #metoo'd. She says Hi back to me with a smile, so her, the room mate, and I step into the elevator and I'm holding this bag of groceries and my beer, lol. They're chatting about her work and how she's exhausted from finishing a 55 hr work week- She's a website/graphic designer for some startup company a mutual friend's dad owns.
When we walk into my apartment, my room mate's girlfriend is there, and "Cat" immediately greets my cat saying "Goookuuuu!!!" with excitement, petting and cuddling him. I have a brief little 'catch-up' conversation with her, asking how things are going with work and what not as I pop open a beer, grab my food, and then dip to my bedroom to hide in horror from the awkwardness. I have no idea what to make of this situation, and was kind of pissed my room mate had this chick over without at least giving me a heads up. Also, I was planning on having a plate come over to hook up later tonight and didn't want to deal with all these people. She came over to hang out and get out of the house, meet my room mate's gf, and have dinner which my room mate was cooking.
I can overhear her in the other room saying, "Where did Tesla go?" I just stay in my room though eating my food and drinking my beer to kind of just keep private in my own little corner; my safe-space that had been invaded by this thot who had 'second-thoughts' about playing with me that night over a year ago at a party. I was still thinking, WTF is she fucking doing here.
After some time, she calls out for me and asks me if I'd like some nicotine (Inviting me outside for a smoke). I was like, "Uhh, okay, sure." I'm thinking in my head, why is she in my fucking home, all I wanted to do was chill and play video games and wait for my plate to come over tonight and just fucking chill.
I then told myself,
Fuck it, I'll act friendly and just frame it in my head that I own her pussy like I do with every hot chick I encounter (Because she is hot, after all).
So we go step out and have a smoke (I don't smoke but meh, I need one because my anxiety levels are fucking through the roof from this chick being in MY presence at MY abode). We catch up, clear up some more stuff, and I'm like whatever, it's no big deal, ain't even a thing anymore, I'm doing fine as fuck now lately, etc that kind of thing.
She offers me a sip of her wine from her, to which I accept. I make a joke saying, "Oh shit, here we are exchanging cooties now." Over the course of the convo, we make a little bit of harmless kino with a poke on the side here, touch of the shoulder there, exchanging the drink, etc. But, I'm keeping in mind that I don't want to do anything that will make things awkward or potentially get myself #metoo'd. Plus, I'm expecting to have a plate over later, and I don't want to escalate the flirting too much or get to a kiss or whatever, and make things weird for when my plate does come over.
Eventually, it gets to the point where we're talking about cats and she says, "I kind of want to just go back to my place and cuddle with my cats and watch suicide squad. I have wine. You want to come over?"
I'm thinking in my head WTF holy shit is happening. I just say, "Sure!"
We go up and she makes a joke on how the room mate is going to give her such a dirty look for dipping so early and leaving with me. XD I'm like, Yeah he gives me the dirty look all the time.
She tells me to basically pack a bag, and I'm thinking, "Oh shit, this chick cannot make it any more obvious that she wants to bang." I tell her, "Oh, assuming I'm going to sleep over are we?"
I follow her to her place, her sister leaves for work, and she literally tells me "I'm going to ask you to have sex with me later tonight." I'm just like, Lol Okay whatever.
We go to her bedroom, "Watch Suicide Squad" and smash. I pass out soon afterwards.
Here's where it gets a little...odd, but still, funny.
I wake up at like 4:00 am and notice she's not in bed. I'm like ok whatever, maybe she went to the bathroom or something. I wake up again at 4:30 and she's still gone, so I'm thinking, "Wow okay, this is a little weird." I walk out of the bedroom and see she's sleeping on the couch with covers, still naked. I don't know how to process this, it's weird af, maybe she was uncomfortable sleeping with me or some shit? Idk. I decided to dip without saying a word, but by the time I got home, I realized I left my wallet and hoodie back at her place.
FUCK. Okay, I'm going back to her place to pick that shit up real quick. When I get back there, her door is locked. I'm thinking, damn, I accidentally locked myself out or she woke up and locked the door when she noticed I was gone or something.
I knock on it. No answer. Knock on it again. Still no answer. Fuck fuck fuck. I keep knocking for a bit and then finally give up and start to make my way back to the car because it's cold. Her door opens.
I'm immediately like, "Lol I had an asthma attack and had to go get my inhaler, but I guess I got locked out." She didn't even realize I was gone, she thought I was still in bed and was wondering who was knocking and didn't want to deal with it, lmao. She totally bought it though, saying I could have used her inhaler to which I was like oh shit I didn't even know she had asthma.
She was scratching her head saying she drank so much last night she didn't even remember how she made it to the couch or why. We had a bit of a laugh about it, but internally I was just mad relieved she wasn't trying to pull a fast one on me. We make our way back to her bedroom, fuck again, and then I dip at 6:00 AM with the excuse that I had to go to the gym and go to a wood crafting class.
That's how I went from being shook about this chick from my past being there, to smashing her.
RE: DMSI 3.2 Journal by Tesla, Musings of a PUA - Tesla - 04-28-2018
One other funny detail I forgot to mention (there are a lot of little details I forgot or left out) Is that she wasted absolutely no time taking her bra and shirt off as soon as she put the movie on in her bedroom. Her tits were hanging out like nbd right in front of me when I walked in lmfao
Thanks DMSI.
RE: DMSI 3.2 Journal by Tesla, Musings of a PUA - Tesla - 05-01-2018
Expect a more comprehensive update from me soon. I've been having sex every day for the past five days (Sometimes more than once with two different chicks).
I just need to continue repeating this, it feels like DMSI 3.2a is much more powerful than DMSI 3.2b
RE: DMSI 3.2 Journal by Tesla, Musings of a PUA - Tesla - 05-07-2018
Small little update.
NoFap Day 217
Cold Showers Day 37
I've packed on about 4-5 lbs of muscle since starting DMSI.
One of the reasons for the lack of updates is because my time has been so heavily consumed by females. I just have to say, I've been having sex every single day for the past 12 days or so. There have been occasions where I'd also see two different girls and have sex with them in a single day. For the past three days I've been having sex with two different chicks each day (I'd go out to see a chick, bang, have morning sex the next day, then go see another chick later that day, bang, morning sex, rinse and repeat).
I just need to absolutely take a break, because I'm getting to the point where I'm just so completely drained and it's getting tough to stay hard, losing sensitivity even. If I keep going, girls are going to think I have ED problems or something, lol.
Which sucks because, I'm still horny, and the spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak. Another girl hit me up this morning on Facebook at like, 2:00 in the morning out of fucking nowhere...and it's like, I know she wants it...but damn! I need a break.
I'm spinning at least 9-11 plates now at this point, regularly fucking like four different chicks at a given time, jesus fucking christ.
RE: DMSI 3.2 Journal by Tesla, Musings of a PUA - Amann - 05-07-2018
(05-07-2018, 04:43 AM)Tesla Wrote: the spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.
https://imgur.com/r/gifs/YwwJO
RE: DMSI 3.2 Journal by Tesla, Musings of a PUA - Tigerismyspirit - 05-07-2018
(05-07-2018, 04:43 AM)Tesla Wrote: I'm spinning at least 9-11 plates now at this point, regularly ***** like four different chicks at a given time, jesus ***** christ.
9-11 plates. Considering the average 10, the ratio becomes Tesla
lates = 1:10. 10% of men fuck 100% of women. Holy Cow! You're killing it, bruh!
RE: DMSI 3.2 Journal by Tesla, Musings of a PUA - Tesla - 05-10-2018
Went on a date last night with this chick from Tinder. She had an interesting look to her- Some kind of freelance graphic designer for her profession, blonde, with her hair dyed that made her look like Harley Quinn. Wore a shit ton of makeup. She had a nice body.
We met up at the bowling alley last night and bowled a few games. We didn't really seem to vibe well at all. She seemed very shy, made almost everything out to be awkward, and was almost trying to 'avoid' being in contact with me. My usual efforts to game her and kino escalate weren't met with much reception. She didn't seem to reciprocate or provide me with any IOI's except to learn more about me and my job. Overall, she was just very quite ditzy, frequently saying "Huh?" or "What?" to nearly everything.
It probably didn't help at one point some lad bumped into me and had me spill some of my drink on her. It was an accident, but she seemed pretty pissy about that.
I was starting to get bored with the lack of chemistry and decided to cut it short, saying my wrist was starting to hurt from the games and that I was going back to my place to play with my cat, and she'd be welcome to come along. After a brief back and forth and joking about how my tap water is amazing, she decided to just go home. When we left, we just hugged and parted ways. Pretty much a bust, haven't messaged or texted her since.
I did have a good time bowling though, so there was at least that!
EDIT: Also on the plus side, I just got my results back on my STD tests. All came back negative! I'm clean baby! Whoo-hoo!
RE: DMSI 3.2 Journal by Tesla, Musings of a PUA - Tesla - 09-12-2018
Started DMSI 3.2 A again this past monday (Three days ago). Couple of things that happened while I was on hiatus:
Company I work for was bought, currently going through a transition period.
Moved to a new, single bedroom apartment.
There was a point where I was switching between four or five different girls, and talking to double that.
Ultimately, I ended up upgrading one of my plates to girlfriend status in July that I had a particular fondness for. Things have been good so far.
That being said, in the meantime I've been testing various things out for a "Text-Game" project I'm working on, and I can confidently say the bloom effect even while off DMSI 3.2 A is real.
I'm noticing many IOI's, women smiling or approaching and standing next to me to wait, and so forth. In the online dating scene, I've been very easily able to acquire numbers and set up logistics... Ultimately, I flake in the end of course since I'm currently exclusive (We'll see how long that lasts, that's another thing I've taken a rather experimental approach to), but I'm still gathering good notes and collecting data for my project.
Another thing of note, is my girlfriend has outright said to me that she notices I get a lot of glances and looks. She's told me she likes to snuggle up and make it 'extra known' to the public that we are together. I know she's hinting at a bit of jealousy, and she's outright admitted that. It's nice to know from a second perspective that I'm not just imagining these IOI's; my girlfriend is definitely noticing them as well.
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Also... Hello again! I'm back. Yep. Been a few months. Hope you're all doing well. I'll be resuming my postings here now that things have settled down somewhat.
RE: DMSI 3.2 Journal by Tesla, Musings of a PUA - Omni3 - 09-12-2018
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