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RE: AM6 Journal - Shannon - 01-01-2014
(01-01-2014, 03:48 PM)stratos Wrote:(01-01-2014, 12:28 PM)Geodude Wrote: The secret surprise is that your dick will get bigger.
That was actually my guess as well for the AM6 "surprise". I wonder if it's in SM3, too. My dick both flaccid and even erect has clearly gotten bigger since doing SM3 (on month 3 but I might stop and do an AM6 runthrough from the beginning.) Sex drive increased and together with the clearing has caused hot chicks to approach me although I don't even regard it as approaching, they're just coming up to me and saying hello when I walk by. Or maybe it's just the slightly bigger bulge in my pants that makes them happy to see me.
Don't stop SM3 until you're finished, either. Finish what you start.
RE: AM6 Journal - stratos - 01-01-2014
Shannon - remember I had broken the rules and started SM3 without having done AM first. I thought you wanted me to stop doing SM and do AM6 first. I am happy to continue doing SM though as it's clearly working.
RE: AM6 Journal - Shannon - 01-01-2014
Well in that case... lol You really should do AM6 first.
RE: AM6 Journal - AlphaScorpio - 01-02-2014
Day 4 - total exposure ultrasonic with ear buds & headphones with masked - 65 hours
Feels like I've been doing am6 for like 2 weeks time seems different when running these big programs...
I can feel things going on in my body sometimes when i lie down and listen to the sub I get odd sensations like tingling in my stomach or in my chest area I also feel pressure in my head.
on top of the tingling in my stomach I experience something that I can only describe as build up of energy or pressure in my stomach area as if I have some blocks there that need clearing...I'm not sure
Stage 1 does feel like it's working on something
RE: AM6 Journal - stratos - 01-02-2014
Taking care of the body (somatic) side of things is very important in my opinion. Good that the energy built up there. My recommendation is to direct your attention to it and try to welcome it and let the feeling grow for a period of time, see if you can welcome it for seconds and then even minutes which can be harder than you think. Don't try to mentally push it away while you welcome it. If you start to sweat or get icy chills take a break. The more you welcome the energy into particular parts of your body, eventually it will resolve the block and then shift to a different pattern. Look at it as part of the process to enjoy.
RE: AM6 Journal - Fonzy3 - 01-03-2014
(01-01-2014, 05:56 PM)Shannon Wrote:(01-01-2014, 03:48 PM)stratos Wrote:(01-01-2014, 12:28 PM)Geodude Wrote: The secret surprise is that your dick will get bigger.
That was actually my guess as well for the AM6 "surprise". I wonder if it's in SM3, too. My dick both flaccid and even erect has clearly gotten bigger since doing SM3 (on month 3 but I might stop and do an AM6 runthrough from the beginning.) Sex drive increased and together with the clearing has caused hot chicks to approach me although I don't even regard it as approaching, they're just coming up to me and saying hello when I walk by. Or maybe it's just the slightly bigger bulge in my pants that makes them happy to see me.
Don't stop SM3 until you're finished, either. Finish what you start.
That's awesome.
(01-02-2014, 04:22 AM)stratos Wrote: Taking care of the body (somatic) side of things is very important in my opinion. Good that the energy built up there. My recommendation is to direct your attention to it and try to welcome it and let the feeling grow for a period of time, see if you can welcome it for seconds and then even minutes which can be harder than you think. Don't try to mentally push it away while you welcome it. If you start to sweat or get icy chills take a break. The more you welcome the energy into particular parts of your body, eventually it will resolve the block and then shift to a different pattern. Look at it as part of the process to enjoy.
That makes a lot of sense stratos, sounds like you have knowledge on letting new beliefs make changes within. I believe that's the best post i've read all year
.Thanks
Fonzy
RE: AM6 Journal - stratos - 01-03-2014
Thanks Fonzy. Beliefs, memories, emotions often seem to be anchored to a spot or area of your body that has a kind of sensation associated with it. Just focusing on that area of your body and letting it be for a few minutes can let it go. Not always easy to focus on it tho for more than a few seconds.
RE: AM6 Journal - AlphaScorpio - 01-03-2014
Yeh I tried this a bit stratos but I found it quite challenging to focus on it and spread the feelings but to no avail. I will keep practising it with new feelings that I get. Where did you find out about somatic stuff like feelings and all that?
RE: AM6 Journal - stratos - 01-03-2014
don't try to spread the somatic (body) feelings and sensations, just calmly observe them and "welcome" them for a few minutes. they might spread, dissipate, or whatever but if you try to "move" them yourself it's a form of resistance. just observe & accept. it's hard to do it for a few minutes! often I get distracted after just a few seconds.
for somatic stuff - look into TRE (trauma releasing exercises), Sedona method, etc. if you are interested. Or an EFT session with someone like Jon Boyd Barrett who works in body awareness into their tapping sessions. it complements the mental clearing (FEFT) and reprogramming (Shannon's subs) very nicely in my opinion. or just awareness on your own as I described is completely fine.
By the way, to illustrate the mind-body connection further, I am on a ski holiday right now and noticed that if I clear things with focused determination as per Geodude's latest video, my skiing really improves. some shame around women apparently made my midsection tight and when I cleared it, my skiing improved dramatically. so I did what he suggested and kept thinking about cute women, feeling shame or fear, and then clearing that using imaginary FEFT tapping. all while skiing. sounds crazy, I know.. took about 15-20 attempts at clearing and recovering the negative feeling, and clearing it again, for things to really improve, but I could tell things were improving as it went along and I literally went from intermediate to quasi-expert technique in one run. disclaimer: I was on long, easy trails. not challenging ones.
RE: AM6 Journal - AlphaScorpio - 01-04-2014
Thanks stratos I tried this yesterday and this morning. The stomach energy has dissipated a little. While I was focusing on it, it felt like it was breaking down into little static bits of electricity almost like I could feel the electricity in it. I let it be for a while and then it got very small I still think it's there but it's going slowly.
Day 6 Stage 1 - Total exposure - 92 hours 20 minutes
Yesterday I got back home from my grandparents house, I have little desire to talk to people at the moment, I also find that I can't really think of much to say...I also get frustrated when people try to be friendly towards me because I can sense their expectation or hope that I'll be nice back to them, but I simply don't feel like putting on a mask and pretending to be happy or excited when I'm not.
It's odd this feeling because I'm starting to feel less ashamed about feeling bad or seeming anti-social I still have inner conflict about being moody to others etc. but I think I'm slowly coming to terms with it.
When my family came to pick me up from the service stations to drive home, I was talking about a job that my uncle wanted me to do and this girl in the back seat (not my family, family friend) said "Wow that's a real man's job" which I didnt give much thought to but picked up on it...
When I woke up this morning my sister came up to my room with a cup of coffee I didnt try to pretend to be excited and ask her loads of questions or anything I just said "I don't want it" she persisted and I took it anyway, she sat down next to my bed and tried to make conversation I wasn't in the mood and just gave her simply one word answers like yes/no and she then said "A man of few words" Which I also picked up on and found a little interesting...
Before I went to bed last night I spoke with my parents explaining to them that I don't feel very excited or sociable and told them about relying on substances to get me feeling motivated/good, because I've been smoke/orgasm and alcohol free for over a month now I've started finding my baseline state/mood a bit lower than before when I was getting a few highs off the fags etc. I said to my parents that if I seem like I don't want to talk to them it's not because I don't like them or want to it's because I just have this dull/non interested feeling where I find it hard to be stimulated by social things right now but that I was becoming more ok with that in general. My parents seemed to understand and gave me support which I appreciated. My dad said "Sounds like you are growing up" which again, very subtly I picked up on it and found it just a little interesting
In other news, I've been invited to a newish friend/acquaintance's friend's 18th so I'm going to be in a new environment with new people who I don't know and there will be the temptation of alcohol and cigarettes so it's going to be a challenge but I'm wanting to just get out there and do something new, I am pretty nervous about it though...
EDIT - DAMN! nearly totally forgot...
Had a dream about my ex (same one from my other post) it was pretty vivid. I was at school or some kind of gathering of people and I spotted her in the crowd and somehow we got talking she shit tested me a bit but I knew that she liked me deep down so I persisted and I told her that we should get back together and we did. I woke up and thought it was real and man that hurt so fucking bad... the realisation that it was a dream hurt...
This thing about my ex is very weird, it's reoccurring as well which means that it's not to be ignored, I have felt like nearly crying.
I'm also on day 47 of nofap so maybe that's got something to do with it as well? Because my ex from 2 years ago was probably the last girlfriend that I properly connected to... I'd say. My last gf was pretty emotionally fucked and we could not connect at all (very little chemistry). So maybe nofap combined with AM6 is bringing this up as my brain rewires and as it is being programmed to deal with hidden emotions it's causing these funny feelings... Man it's unreal.
RE: AM6 Journal - AlphaScorpio - 01-06-2014
Stage 1 Day 8 - Total exposure 116 hours and 40minutes
I decided to watch some NG again for today. after watching 2 videos I thought about women and my general relationship with them... I think I've been secretly despising them on a very deep level and it could be one of the reasons I have very little success with them... They pick up on that shit and auto reject (unless they are themselves emotionally fucked) I've had this realisation but I'm not sure what to do about it or what to believe.
On one hand I want to be alpha and not give a fuck badboy etc. and on the other hand I want to be loving and have happiness. Maybe the key is to be alpha with a great love for himself and everyone around him but who doesn't take shit from people either...?
This is a tough and confusing thought. I mean, I was pretty nice guy for most of my life but maybe I was only being a nice guy because I thought that was "the proper thing to do to get respect and women" and when women didn't seem to like that and I'd get nowhere with them I got very bitter and turned all of that into a kind of quiet anger.
Right now I feel as if I am a badboy/jerk (with some leftover niceguy traits) with no confidence essentially the opposite of my genuine self which I think is Good guy with confidence or "edge". I've been hating myself and others for too long it's time to heal this.
Maybe I am overcoming some victim mentality?
RE: AM6 Journal - aDelfino - 01-06-2014
Hi Alpha
did u notice some change in the way how you interact or women interact with you after some NG ?
RE: AM6 Journal - AlphaScorpio - 01-06-2014
@aDelfino Today? No. in the past? yes to an extent...
This one time I did NG for the first time in a while and it really changed my state to being much more happy and in the moment and I was flirting with girls way more and got definite IOIs but it only lasted for 1 day and the next day I tried again and couldn't get into that state...since then I haven't seen any effect from NG on women or my state in general.
RE: AM6 Journal - soulfly1 - 01-06-2014
AlphaScorpio having alot of dreams about ex? me aswell. Eventhough I am currently dating a girl who is much more attractive, sexual, vibrant and all round a better person (not to mention extremely dirty in the sack!). i'm not attracted to my ex girlfriend anymore at all, yet i've already had 2 dreams about her in the few days im doing AM6. It seems it has to do something with forgiving/accepting