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RE: AM 7.0 - The Measure of a Man / Morrison Shouts in my Ear - Ampersnd - 05-06-2026
Stage 0, Day 7,
I feel the same elevated confidence and esteem, but I'm teary-eyed and a bit shaky.
I realized that it's the death anniversary of my grandfather; this happened a few years ago.
That may or may not relate
RE: AM 7.0 - The Measure of a Man / Morrison Shouts in my Ear - Ampersnd - 05-06-2026
I'm starting to get blackpilled on people's competency levels.
I'm working in a musical, and the leads not only can't read music, but they don't know music! What the fuck!
I used to think that it would be manageable if you couldn't read/write sheet music as an instrumentalist, but what if you didn't understand chords, keys, tempo?
One of the leads suggested that she didn't want to sing a certain line from a song, ending the song prematurely; I'm thinking: "excuse me?" You were chosen to do a job, so do the damn job.
Even my bandmates are exhibiting a lack of knowledge toward the tempo and the order of chords; they're a decade older than me and have apparently been in a band for decades. There is a jumping the gun on songs where the chord changes are finicky.
At least I can catch myself when I'm making a mistake.
RE: AM 7.0 - The Measure of a Man / Morrison Shouts in my Ear - Have at ye - 05-06-2026
Welcome to show business.
A great many *professional opera singers* can't read music and are the village idiots of the musical world. They learn repertoire either by ear, based on recordings, or through being coached by a coaching pianist. They also tend to be a bunch of divas.
F. in. last project I worked in we were contracted to sing an octet. It was about 5 minutes of music as an octet, and then 15 minutes together with the choir. The divas were hell-bent on *not even trying to learn* the parts to be performed with the chorus (and it wasn't a rush job. We had several months to prepare. Personally, it took me two weeks and two sessions with a pianist to learn the entire thing by heart). They came to rehearsal completely unprepared. As far as I[m concerned, they should have been all sacked. But noooo. Friggin' nepotism.
RE: AM 7.0 - The Measure of a Man / Morrison Shouts in my Ear - Ampersnd - 05-07-2026
Stage 0, Day 8,
The shakiness is my emotions is more present in my voice; it causes me to be more jaggedy in my flow and delivery.
However, people are listening and not jumping in to interrupt me.
RE: AM 7.0 - The Measure of a Man / Morrison Shouts in my Ear - Ampersnd - 05-13-2026
Stage 0, Day 14,
My dad visited during the weekend to watch my performance; he saw my 4th show and yesterday marked my 6th.
I have different highs and lows; horny and tired, each at different times.
I might have lost a night of progress; it seems as though my player has stalled after the first minute of playing last night.
Note: I've tried to run the subliminal during the day so I can watch the progress unfold, but it has failed on at least two occasions.
RE: AM 7.0 - The Measure of a Man / Morrison Shouts in my Ear - Ampersnd - 05-13-2026
A thought I had the other day: you either carve your place into this world, or you're slotted into the world.
Neither is bad, but getting slotted means that you're fit into a box, with all of its pros and cons.
RE: AM 7.0 - The Measure of a Man / Morrison Shouts in my Ear - Ampersnd - 05-14-2026
Stage 0, Day 15,
The last few days, I've felt the same maniacal horniness that I've felt during my twenties.
Those other days, I've acted on it in order to make those feelings 'go away'.
Today, I feel compelled to not act on it and to not 'make it go away'.
If only I could squarely direct these feelings toward my creations; currently, my mind gets split when these feelings are heavy and my productivity actually goes down, increasing back to a baseline level once I tend to those feelings.
RE: AM 7.0 - The Measure of a Man / Morrison Shouts in my Ear - Ampersnd - 05-15-2026
Stage 0, Day 16,
Some of my friends came to see my show yesterday. A lot of people, including the cast, commented on my arms, my vibe, my persona.
At a few points in the production, I remove my cardigan to reveal a muscle shirt, then I put on some sunglasses.
I got drinks with one of those friend groups, and I did some karaoke; it's frustrating that my voice can't seem to relax into belting above a certain note; I wind up abusing the hell out of my second gear.
When I looked at a friend, they'd look back. My buddy had this girl with him, and she seemed quite friendly with me; dare I say, interested. Not my style to interrupt that.
RE: AM 7.0 - The Measure of a Man / Morrison Shouts in my Ear - RTBoss - 05-15-2026
(05-15-2026, 04:42 AM)Ampersnd Wrote: I got drinks with one of those friend groups, and I did some karaoke; it's frustrating that my voice can't seem to relax into belting above a certain note; I wind up abusing the hell out of my second gear.
Perhaps @Have at ye can chime in here (since singing is his area of professional expertise), but have you tried the straw phonation method to help relax your vocal cords? Of course, that wouldn't help "in the moment" at a bar to sing karaoke, but perhaps it will get you where you want to be over time.
RE: AM 7.0 - The Measure of a Man / Morrison Shouts in my Ear - Ampersnd - 05-15-2026
(05-15-2026, 09:49 AM)RTBoss Wrote:(05-15-2026, 04:42 AM)Ampersnd Wrote: I got drinks with one of those friend groups, and I did some karaoke; it's frustrating that my voice can't seem to relax into belting above a certain note; I wind up abusing the hell out of my second gear.
Perhaps @Have at ye can chime in here (since singing is his area of professional expertise), but have you tried the straw phonation method to help relax your vocal cords? Of course, that wouldn't help "in the moment" at a bar to sing karaoke, but perhaps it will get you where you want to be over time.
Hey, yes I'm aware of it. But I had no voice warm up before getting up to the mic. I should have qualified my statement; when I'm at home, belt is natural enough when I start cold and much easier after a warm up. But in public, I seem to encounter a physical wall, and I know that going above that 'wall' requires me to relax, which risks flipping or breaking or anything embarassing.
RE: AM 7.0 - The Measure of a Man / Morrison Shouts in my Ear - Ampersnd - 05-15-2026
Every day for the past few days my sexual energy has been getting "reset", for lack of a better word.
Nonetheless, this feeling of spiritedness has been growing. This is the 'thumos' which I brought to Shannon's attention 1-2 years ago.
Where it's an inexhaustible wellspring of positive feelings and self-talk.
I feel good about myself for no logical reason besides that fact that I exist now and that I improve myself daily, and enjoy doing it.
This energy in conversations is catnip for other people.
RE: AM 7.0 - The Measure of a Man / Morrison Shouts in my Ear - Ampersnd - 05-16-2026
Stage 0, Day 17,
I'm not sure how much of my AM7.0 journey I've actually subjected myself to, due to the likeliness of loops being dropped due to my current setup or server issues.
My Tech Debugging Thread:
https://subliminal-talk.com/Thread-Streaming-AM7-is-still-an-issue-with-steps-taken
Even with my incomplete listening patterns, I'm thrilled with the results so far. I'm finally able to make sense
The positive mental attitude, the inner motivation to success, the internal locus of control, being unshakable in the face of doubt or adversity.
And the most significant achievement is that there aren't major feelings contorting my spirit.
It feels like I'm coasting but in an upward direction; this is probably because my life has been set up in a way which allows me to achieve the goal of Stage 0 by simply changing my flight path by a few degrees; I already have the plane fueled up and it's in the air, and so there's not really anything to panic about.
At my musical performances, a female cast member tried to throw me off with testing and it did absolutely nothing to my state; she clearly enjoys doing that.
I'm sharp and able to make incisive jokes; my charisma is low key but a consistent slow burn.
RE: AM 7.0 - The Measure of a Man / Morrison Shouts in my Ear - Have at ye - 05-16-2026
(05-15-2026, 10:35 AM)Ampersnd Wrote:(05-15-2026, 09:49 AM)RTBoss Wrote: Perhaps @Have at ye can chime in here (since singing is his area of professional expertise), but have you tried the straw phonation method to help relax your vocal cords? Of course, that wouldn't help "in the moment" at a bar to sing karaoke, but perhaps it will get you where you want to be over time.
Hey, yes I'm aware of it. But I had no voice warm up before getting up to the mic. I should have qualified my statement; when I'm at home, belt is natural enough when I start cold and much easier after a warm up. But in public, I seem to encounter a physical wall, and I know that going above that 'wall' requires me to relax, which risks flipping or breaking or anything embarassing.
Yeah, getting 'em money notes to work is a wonky mix of relaxation and tension at the same time. I wouldn't know about belting, because I don't do that (I do belcanto and sometimes heavy metal - I guess that's kinda similar), but since it invloves abdominal pushing I'd assume you'd neeed more relaxation in the face/vocal apparatus to prevent tensing too much.
In other words - work on relaxing the face and the laryngeal muscles, keep the breath support up (it's gonna get violent, haha
It's kinda like dry-heaving after heavy duty barfing). A neat exercise to get a feel for it is singing in something resembling the ski-jumper position (like here: https://s10.tvp.pl/images2/0/c/6/uid_0c6baee4085a4014afabae91a3df056b_width_1200_play_0_pos_0_gs_0_height_678_rzezba-pt-skoczek-narciarski-fot-pappiotr-nowak.jpg).On that note, I hate kareoke. I actually learned a couple tunes to sing in such situations to get people to bugger off and leave me alone (I do "Sway" and "Fever", haha, real panty-droppers)
RE: AM 7.0 - The Measure of a Man / Morrison Shouts in my Ear - Ampersnd - 05-18-2026
Stage 0, Day 19,
I'm finally getting uninterrupted loops with an adjusted playback setup. This way, I'm getting the full dose of AM Stage 0.
Great night of sleep