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RE: 6G bonanza journalings and random musings (Currently: OSC + DRS)) - Have at ye - 02-20-2025
Yeah, dreaming pretty much every time I go to sleep now - one dream even had a bit of a nightmarish ending, I woke up from it with a start. Probably means some sort of unpleasantness is getting worked through in the name of OSC!
RE: 6G bonanza journalings and random musings (Currently: OSC + DRS)) - Have at ye - 02-20-2025
I've also had tihs song playing pretty much non-stop for the last couple of days, Alabama 3 - Too Sick to Pray: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FGHroqG0qR8
"Don't call a doctor,
I'm gonna get better.
Don't run for the priest,
I'm gonna find some faith.
Just because I burned my bible, baby,
it don't mean I'm too sick to pray."
Lovin' it.
RE: 6G bonanza journalings and random musings (Currently: OSC + DRS)) - K-Train - 02-21-2025
I know previously you mentioned that you had some slander going on around you. As of now, how is DRS performing in regard to quelling slander? In addition, do you feel as if you're work environment has now become more peaceful since using DRS 6G?
RE: 6G bonanza journalings and random musings (Currently: OSC + DRS)) - Have at ye - 02-21-2025
Good questions! I currently work from home, so that's a non-issue - the true test of DRS v2 would be when I get back to opera singing profesionally (currently in the process of auditioning/preparations etc.).
As to slander, I noticed that people now seem to considering the slanderer (in the case of my psycho ex, for insstance) an unrelaiable source of information (like they're noticing they're up to no good). I'll know more in time.
RE: 6G bonanza journalings and random musings (Currently: OSC + DRS)) - Have at ye - 02-22-2025
Thanks to feeling more confident, I'm taking more risks/am more courageous in my singing - less worried about making technical mistakes - and thus my singing is improving, technique-wise, quite a bit. DRS helps with this as well as I'd often get attacked by detractors even when practicing.
EDIT
It's kinda like with Luciano Pavarotti and his famous anecdote from his early years. His singing was terribad until he decided he's giving up and becoming a teacher full=time - and once he decided he gives no more of a crap, his technique skyrocketed almost instantly and the rest is history. The power of IDGAF is stronk in opera.
RE: 6G bonanza journalings and random musings (Currently: OSC + DRS)) - Have at ye - 02-25-2025
Things are proceeding fine. My libido and will to go out and seduce women is increasing gradually - this is as much OSC as DRS v2, as there are plenty of people who'd see me in perpetual dry dock forever (so I hope they get that sent right back to them and are thus made to practice a little bit of temperance themselves, which would do them good, heheh).
Singing practice is still going very well.
RE: 6G bonanza journalings and random musings (Currently: OSC + DRS)) - Have at ye - 02-26-2025
Had some dreams which would indicate OSCing requires working through some further stuff (singing related in this particular case - like I'd feel guilt for being really self-confident which would discombobulate my competition and make 'em fail. TBH consciously I wouldn't mind that at all, lol. Git gud, peeps!) - I'm also noticing my self-confidence when I'm out and about fluctuates a bit from time to time. But I think the internal resistance should be handled easy-peasy now that I've got DRS v2 to handle *external* resistance (that and my tenacity and apparent indestructability, lol).
Kinda sad that OED 5.11G features the NDRS which is insufficient for my needs regarding that program as I'd get really heavily attacked whenever I'd try to run it - that's why it only worked well for two weeks, until the barrage of negativity, most of it - but not all of it - coming from my psycho ex girlfriend, undid all my progress. So that's unfortunate.
In the meantime I'm working on the physical aspects of my sexual prowess - personal physical fitness, as well as a visit to an endocrinologist to check-up my hormones and stuff after getting a prolactin bomb due to that shitty medication they put me on (risoperidol. If they offer you risoperidol and you value your sex life, ask them to give you an alternative medication; there's plenty that work the same way but without its sexual side-effects), hoping to maybe get put on testosterone replacement therapy to get my youtful mojo back, and to lose weight faster. We'll see how it goes, the first consultation is tomorrow. Because my libido is back and everything works from beginning-to-end, so to speak, but it's nothing like it was before the medication.
RE: 6G bonanza journalings and random musings (Currently: OSC + DRS)) - Have at ye - 02-27-2025
Had my consultation with the endocrinologist today, gonna do a whole battery of tests. Blood *will* be shed (lol).
Had a bit of an *almost* rage-attack yesterday while practicing and I got frustrated. But I maintained full control and did not act out. This could be DRS v2 firing up as well because I'd often get attacked by detractors when practicing (and performing too, I guess, but I'm so focused on the perfromance that I don't really monitor anything else while doing so). OSCing is progressing. I feel way more self-confident internally, when it comes to external expression that's still work under progress, but it's on an upswing. 21 days of OSC today! (I am aiming for 62, having interpreted "two months" from the instructions as 31 days x 2).
Darn it, I really hope we get OED 6G sooner rather than later. Perhaps I'll try lobbying Shannon in his journal discussion once he's back 100%.
RE: 6G bonanza journalings and random musings (Currently: OSC + DRS)) - Have at ye - 02-27-2025
So for me personally the main difference in subjective experience between the NDRS (as in 5.11G programs) and DRS v2 6G is that on the NDRS, I had to spend inordinate amounts of time and mental effort on dissecting negative ideas/preconceptions that I was being bombarded with, and on the DRS it does occur as well (apart from the early days when my detractors were probably suffering from "system shock", heh) but it takes up much less of my time and effort which is extremely welcome.
The beatings will continue until morale improves, lawl.
RE: 6G bonanza journalings and random musings (Currently: OSC + DRS)) - Have at ye - 02-28-2025
Kinda saddened OGSF v3 cannot be run with a shield. Oh well! I'll consider my next program when the time comes, still a bit over a month to go on OSC.
Otherwise, things are going good. Noticeably, my weight-loss/fitness journey is progressing nicely, whatever I'm doing is working (and that's a calorie-deficit diet, a simple one, and an hour of EMS training 5-6 days per week; 30 minutes cardio, 30 minutes strength, on progressively harder settings - currently at 100% cardio, 85% power strength). Lost 4 kg since starting a little over a month ago.
RE: 6G bonanza journalings and random musings (Currently: OSC + DRS)) - Shannon - 02-28-2025
(02-28-2025, 09:15 PM)Have at ye Wrote: Kinda saddened OGSF v3 cannot be run with a shield. Oh well! I'll consider my next program when the time comes, still a bit over a month to go on OSC.
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I wasn't thrilled with that either, but reality is undefeated, and there are rules I cannot bend or break. When we push power and impact to the absolute limits, and then try to add a contradiction (working with extremely sensitive stuff like guilt, shame and fear), the balance point is going to either be really gentle approach or it's not going to be possible. We were actually lucky that it's possible at all, but because of the sensitivity and the power and the resulting balance point, we don't have room for another title to be added. There's nothing I can do about that, unfortunately.
RE: 6G bonanza journalings and random musings (Currently: OSC + DRS)) - Have at ye - 02-28-2025
Understood, thanks for explaining!
Perhaps I'll still run the program upon a day, we'll see!
RE: 6G bonanza journalings and random musings (Currently: OSC + DRS)) - Have at ye - 03-01-2025
I've thought about and I'm thinking I'll try OGSF v3 after at least a year of regular use of DRS v2. Maybe my regular detractors/attackers are gonna get a girp by then.
EDIT
I *did* spend most of last year running EHPRA and OGSF v2 5.11G, so a lot of work's been done in these regards anyway.
RE: 6G bonanza journalings and random musings (Currently: OSC + DRS)) - Have at ye - 03-02-2025
Gonna purchase X4A-1600 once it's out for reasearch purposes. Yes, research. Definitely research.
One unfortunate thing is that my father may have to undergo spinal surgery soon and I'm thinking I'm gonna have to move over to my folks place for a couple of months to help 'em out while he's convalvescing. I mean, my bro could technically do it, seeing as he's currently unemployed (oyyy) and doesn't have many constructive things to do around here - while I really, really *do* - but I wouldn't trust him to do a good enough job TBH. We'll see. Maybe the spinal surgery can be avoided with proper physiotherapy, that's up to the docs.
I'd consider getting him something like OPH due to that, but probably in 6G for ease of use reasons. It'd be an interesting test of whether it would work on him since he doesn't speak a word of English, pretty much. My crazy mum could use something like Cancer Healing Aid because she's got leukemia - and she's expressed interested in the programs. I even had to fight her on why I don't want to expose her to DRS v2 last time I visited them
(my mum + DRS v2 would be bad news, lewl).Had a nice little social gathering yesternight, felt more comfortable and more social than previously, but I did get tired of the company after about 5 hours and went home (one chick really wanted me to stay, though. Her lesbian girlifriend was in attendance, so I decided to call it a night, due to that reason mostly, lewl. I'll be seeing her soon enough and we'll see what's what, I suspect she's a bit interested in me. There was another girl there I'd be interested in as well but she left even earlier than I did).
I am noticing I am more assertive when I decide "it's time to go", as normally I'd waffle and usually stay longer than I feel like in the hopes of something interesting happening.
While I was commuting to that social gathering, the DRS was firing up hard, I felt it mostly acting up around my right leg (I even got some phantom stinging sensation in my right foot as this was happening). This passed over time, though. It's like there's some people who don't want me to make friends and have girlfriends and a life and whatnot, and they're barraging me with negativity in order to sabotage my life. FOOLS.