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RE: AM & GIRLS - COMMITMENT AND BALLS - LionMonkey - 11-25-2021
(11-21-2021, 08:18 PM)SaltyMeatballs Wrote: @LionMonkey In which city are you doing game?
In the north.
Stage 3 day 1
Two days ago I took a girl home after 8 minutes interaction.
A field report might follow.
I've been very busy with lots of stuff.
Gym, work, meeting girls.
Takes up all my time and once I hit my head on the pillow it's like so damn enjoyable.
Tonight was one of the worst nights I've had going out in the past few weeks.
One guy was being a dick when I asked about his age. Strange thing though was 3 different guys were so open and talking to me later.
Even though it was one of the worst nights, I learned a good lesson.
-LM
RE: AM & GIRLS - COMMITMENT AND BALLS - LionMonkey - 11-28-2021
Stage 3 day 4
Last night was ok. Met more girls and got more engaged. It's been tough the 2-3 nights before that.
Felt I had regressed this week even with the fast pull.
But it's not as bad as I think. My mind and confidence had been a little unstable after the learning nights. Bouncing back up stronger. Let's fvcking go.
Had my head down today, not sure why.. maybe bc. It felt more comfortable and natural.
Maybe I was vulnerable after five nights of meeting strangers.
Also I was feeling alpha as f but in my own smaller bubble.. it's strange.. im ready to fight or maybe kill if push comes to shove but at the same time having my head down.
Gotta play around with it.
Btw. Here's the pull report:
Exhausted and strange night with fast pull...
You have a very nice body" she repeats after we f**k.
Had leg day, after workout I was walking like I shit in my pants.
Feeling exhausted but it's game night.
Opened a couple of two sets. Used ftc and sat with them. I wasn't feeling energetic or talkative. But I pushed myself to be engaging anyway.
The sets were not good. Although one of the girls in each set were ok about me, the other one was not. I sometimes have the bad habit of interpreting if the girls aren't very engaged, I'm not doing well.
Could have been more risky and not care so much and number close.
The other thing I could have done is to just really own the exhausted feeeling and sit somewhere and enjoy a sparkling water till I felt more energetic. Then I will come from a stronger place.
I go to last place, a club, it was a weekday but filled with people. Lots in suits. Unusual.
Only few sets but not to my liking. Lots of guys all over. I enjoy the music and walk around. Nothing much.
I stand by the side and set timer to 10 minutes and I'll go home.
Couple minutes after a girl in jacket walks past me, maybe on her way home.
I approach, tap on shoulder, tell her about my observation and use curious followup.
She was open from the start and responded positive which I've experienced many times from girls the last weeks. She had smt else in her vibe though. Her vibe was slower, maybe more sensual. Also something in her eyes were different.
I ask her name to get more physical and gauge her compliance. She asks my name after. We were standing very close. I lean behind the wall-desk. A few seconds of chat.
We started to kiss. I make her horny.
She asked logistics. Her place was five minutes away but had roommate tn but tmrw would be free.
Told her my place is close but she acts like she didn't hear it.
I let her put her number on my phone just in case. She was like about to leave.
I pull her in and kiss her some more. Make her more horny.
I suggest my place. She hears it this time. We kiss a little more and then I say, let's go to my place and take her hand. While that happened she said ok.
Found out later that it was the fastest pull I've had. Around 7-8 minutes I think, before we left the club together.
We walk to my car. Through the darker and narrower streets she felt a little scared/uncomfortable, trying to find some commonality with me. We find car and drive to my place. She starts to qualify on the way about sex and work because I had established some value.
My place, she goes to toilet, I put music on and pour some soplica vodka with ice for two.
She comes out, we drink, talk a minute and I kiss her, lifts her up and put her in bed. We undress. We fvck.
The pull and the whole thing felt very easy. Like it was the most normal thing.
Also I was very surprised, afterwards, what can happen even when you feel exhausted, not best sets night, about to go home and BOOM. A pull appears out of nowhere. Trust in the universe but gotta do the work.
- LM
RE: AM & GIRLS - COMMITMENT AND BALLS - LionMonkey - 12-07-2021
Stage 3 - day 13
Been going out the last 7 days every night as I had a friend visiting from other country and we were meeting ladies every night.
So busy lately.. need to collect my thoughts and gain some ground again. Kind of forgot who I want to be, my vision and grounding lately.
Been having thoughts about switching over to WM and just stop AM but we are sticking to the end.
I'm sensing so many sexy possibilities with cuties but I'm sometimes not believing in myself.
With guys I feel almost non-existent threat from anymore.
Before I noticed when guys wanted to fight or something like it. Now I'm sort of embracing it and weirdly enough, it doesn't enter my reality if there's some guy with intention to fight or be more alpha.
Exceptions are always there, for example some guy who's hell bent on conflict because he feels everyone needs to respect him highly. All his attention is on being defensive and it shows that he is a fragile ego in a gym/fighter body.
Another example was when I got pulled over by polic yesterday. He told me I was driving past red light and I have to stop for red light. I told him "It looked orange to me BUT I get what you mean!" He then toned up his uniform power and repeated himself in a dead serious tone and Ended with or I can write it to you if you don't understand. First time I experience that kind of power hunger for a small thing like that.
Anyway.. planning, re-grounding and meeting ladies again from tomorrow on!
Hope you are doing great!
-LM
RE: AM & GIRLS - COMMITMENT AND BALLS - LionMonkey - 12-27-2021
Stage 3 - day 33
Switching to stage 4 in 3 days. Totaling 36 days bc. I've missed some hours on some nights.
Since my last post, I had a week with some crazy experiences meeting ladies with friends. Making out with crazy girl 3 minutes after meeting her. Meeting 3 other girls that night all saying a verbal objection like my friends but all stayed with me because they liked my vibe and what I was doing with them. Other nights also pretty crazy. Cute and silly Girl who humped my leg.. girl who spilled water over me and lots of other shenanigans.. Might do a report later if there's enough interest.
After that crazy week they closed everything again bc of restrictions.
Lately I've had all the extra time where I was active meeting ladies at night.
Haven't established more good habits yet. It was harder than I had initially thought.
I feel less alive when not being active meeting ladies. Gotta find smt to channel this energy to so it doesn't get stuck and minimized within me.
And yeah.. commit to it like I did with meeting ladies.
Be great!
-LM
RE: AM & GIRLS - COMMITMENT AND BALLS - LionMonkey - 01-09-2022
Stage 4 - day 8
Started meeting girls again 5 days ago.. in the daytime. Current aim is 2 girls a day.. I want to up it to 3 and end up with the aim of meeting any attractive girl that I notice.
it's really amazing to do and I always feel so good afterwards. Almost every time has been with a friend though.. and I have a feeling that I'll be doing it by myself a lot more.
One thing I've noticed is girls almost always stop when I approach. In the past I would not be as influential.
Another thing is making the interactions longer and feel more natural. Currently I'm just building the habit.
Two times I met girls who were 16 and one of them was earlier today. A very beautiful girl who was shy and innocent. You would think she was a typical model girl who gets a lot of attention but she was shy and innocent.
She's going to have an interesting life with a lot of attention ahead of her when she can perceive herself as pretty as she is. Will exchange insta next time for a follow next time for sure. Who knows, when she turn 18, she might become a good seller.
I'm excited to keep up with this habit and also move to the inner city to be able to be surrounded by pretty girls when I leave my place.
I feel like I'm 21 again. I know what I want more now.
Gym is up to date. Business is being upgraded on. There are fewer distractions and more simplemindedness towards the things I chose to be important to me.
btw. It has come to the point I can't tell what the sub does or doesn't help with.
I feel pretty confident and at ease within myself most places I go. And most of the time.
I've adopted more and more the mindset of embracing what is uncomfortable to do.
Also started doing affirmations since 3 weeks. At first in English and then in local language. It seems like local language have had a deeper influence on who I'm becoming saying my affirmations.
Powerful stuff to change yourself really..
Subs helps, I've already experienced.. lately I'm not sure what the sub is doing.
Stage 4 seem under the radar.
Let's go!
-LM
RE: AM & GIRLS - COMMITMENT AND BALLS - LionMonkey - 01-23-2022
Stage 4 - day 20
Had a spontaneous street party last Saturday.
Someone had a big stereo on a bike and we partied throughout the streets. It was lit.
Cute girls and good times.
Next days I realized another level of not giving a fvck. Something I had when I was meeting girls every day for 30 days.
Also been having days where I feel very insecure. Almost as if I was the most needy person everywhere I went.. and I tried to hide it because I knew it is not good.. but once you are something, you can't control it and just switch.
Then I had days where I feel confident as a boss. Especially lately after the street party. Girls hold longer and lingering eye contact. I can feel their attention more.
To say the sub will make you permanently something is not accurate.
I feel fluctuation in how you feel depends mostly on your thought processes, attitudes, body movements and emotions throughout your day.
My experience has been those things will determine your confidence.
Thoughts in of itself are just garbage. Mindless thinking without application is just garbage. Like brain shit. So if you are thinking a lot, you have a lot of shit in your mind.
Like eating food, we have to shit.
Thoughts are food for the brain but often times those thoughts are fast-food for thé brain. And often times we over feed the brain.
That's why the street party cleared up my mind. Through body movements, music (emotions), talking and vibing with people etc. it was probably the best dump my brain had taken for a while.
Anyways..
Subliminal's in my experience can help with certain traits and characteristics of for example an alpha male.
But it can't be the main thing for your transformation.
It could also be that I'm just not aware of the changes I've gone through.
Often times, you don't know what has changed about you and people will be the best feedback.
Gonna host my first poker night tomorrow.
Live your life!
- LM
RE: AM & GIRLS - COMMITMENT AND BALLS - LionMonkey - 02-02-2022
Stage 4 - day 30
If you are living in covid restricted country where everything closes early read this.
Everything has to be closed by 23 here since last year.
I was out last night, driving to the city center where most bars and cafes are.
Instead of 5am people standing outside it has become 11pm people standing outside seeing what's up.
People are also more party-like and more energized to talk than 5am in the morning.
Some girls and younger girls walking around to either go to a after party or figuring out if they are going to a party.
First night out in this new year since lockdown where I actively meet gals.
It had almost became like a desert where every now and then some gazelles would stride by and we lions gotta go and eat what we can. Some of these gazelles were gorgeous, high heels, hair done, nice and tight body etc.
Anyway.. after getting out of my car and walking for 30 seconds another car stops, a girl had her window rolled down and starts to fire question after question on me. I respond and in the end I'm like.. what's up lol. And she's like where you going? To meet with a friend. Is he tall? He's similar height as me. Ohh bc. We got a tall girl here. I'm like cool. She's like, but you look cute.
Wild Wild West man haha
Anyway a bit later, after talking to two very different walking sets, (one which I got an invite to after party) I somehow walked to an entrance by two tall towers 1 min away from the city center and saw there were a couple of people outside this door. They went inside.
The girls were all wearing nice dresses behind their coats.
I see there's a bigger guy with broad shoulders behind the door.. the bouncer but he's wearing a black gangster tee.
I'm assessing the situation and soon after they left the door. I walk over to the door and see the door clock names if it's only company or someone's got an apartment up there.
Suddenly I hear someone yell loudly at me, behind me, trying to show he's an alpha or smt. I remained non reactive.
I turn around and it's a group of 5-6 guys. The front guy who yelled said "you going up to john" and they beeped themselves in.
Ok info extracted. It's the top floor doorbell and the party host name is john.
Soon after two hot girls come to the door entrance and they talk. I get myself in and start talking to them.
They like it. They were down here to asses if they wanted to stay or not.
Found out later one of them was the gf of johns business partner. She invited me to come up with them but I was waiting for my friend.
*Mistake, always go to the private party when you get invite from an insider
Anyway.. vibed more with different girls and got invited up by two different girls but declined again waiting for my friend.
Eventually I go and meet my wing and I take him there. We enter go upstairs and enter the party that had the a ok view of the city square. Later we met more girls around the streets and outside eateries.
Anyway.. It's getting too long.
Point is, there are still many possibilities for adventure even with lockdowns. I didn't have much expectations when I went out.
Don't buy into the pessimistic stories floating around.
Here's what my focus was:
1. Talk to every girl I look at
2. Have fun and say things you find funny and include the girls
3. We will give it 1 hour
I found putting a time limit helps the brain to do it anyway. It always becomes more than 1 or 2 hours though. Funny how it works.
Go on your own adventure.
Make your life a movie.
-LM
RE: AM & GIRLS - COMMITMENT AND BALLS - LionMonkey - 02-04-2022
Stage 5 tonight
Stage 4 was hard to notice changes.
Since lockdown last 2 months, I haven't been very social.
That's changing now. No more lockdown.
One thing I found is that I have so many things I want and so many things I want to do that it has become extremely difficult for me to notice changes.
Because I care less and less about how others react to me and more about how I control myself.
Large part of my focus is not what it used to be on.
In the past I was thinking more about how I influence others, how others react to me. It took a bigger part of my thoughts.
These days, they take a much smaller part of my thoughts.
Could be bc. I'm getting older and more wise.
Anyway, let's go!
-LM
RE: AM & GIRLS - COMMITMENT AND BALLS - LionMonkey - 02-06-2022
Befriended a very alpha looking dude. Big and tall. He was visiting the city for the weekend.
The irony is he likes to play the fishing long-game.
And while we went out together we got approached 3 times by girls. They all went to him and asked him a question.
He didn't even engage so much.
So much potential not realized there.
Will hang with him another time and utilize these moments better for sure.
People are not who you think they are or appear to be. Some are just more practiced at keeping their mask on.
-LM
RE: AM & GIRLS - COMMITMENT AND BALLS - LionMonkey - 02-16-2022
Stage 5 - day 11
Was considering to stop the sub and move to the next sub.
Been going out daily since my last post and meeting cute girls.
Noticing that a change in my mindset is giving me the respect from guys. And im also embracing conflict.
Sooo hard to tell what the sub does help with or not.
I'm so into myself and my world lately.
-LM
RE: AM & GIRLS - COMMITMENT AND BALLS - LionMonkey - 03-06-2022
Stage 5 - day 26
I'm fluctuating between extreme solid confidence to feeling vulnerable and empty, no life force to defend myself.
From a solid rock to a feather.
Have gotten lots of respect and compliments from guys when feeling like a rock.
Not exactly sure what causes this but it's damn noticeable and especially when I meet girls.
Almost reaching last stage.. tomorrow will hit the 30 day mark of meeting girls every day
-LM
RE: AM & GIRLS - COMMITMENT AND BALLS - Frosted - 03-07-2022
Recently It’s been a rollercoaster for me too man. Props for your discipline.
RE: AM & GIRLS - COMMITMENT AND BALLS - LionMonkey - 03-15-2022
(03-07-2022, 09:07 AM)Frosted Wrote: Recently It’s been a rollercoaster for me too man. Props for your discipline.
Thx bro. I took a fantastic day off after the 30 days, doing things only for myself and caring for myself. It was much needed and fantastic!
Stage 6 - day 1
Tonight, some young guys gave me lots of respect.. asking me what I think they do etc.. one guy was very upbeat and sort of wanted to fight but happily doing so.
His friend took responsibility over him. Pretty sure they tried cocaine.. I could beat him but it wasn't on my agenda. Instead I responded accordingly without outburst and kept moving and doing what I wanted.
A part of me is like, would be great to see what this mfer would do. The other part is like, not worth time or energy to focus on getting in conflict just to show him I'm better
-LM
RE: AM & GIRLS - COMMITMENT AND BALLS - LionMonkey - 04-02-2022
Stage 6 - day 16
Been going out 13 out of 14 days these past two weeks.
Guys have been respectful or trying to get in my face but backed down after I hold my ground.
Girls have been fluctuating between very responsive to less so
-LM