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RE: Return of an Alpha - DavisMind91 - 06-13-2020
Stage 2, Day 3:
One thing I'll say is important which I didn't realize during my previous run is to keep your hormones optimal, especially testosterone and DHT while doing AM6; to help counteract any potential feelings of insecurity, while of course working on improving yourself. For some reason ever since very early last night I had been feeling as if I were reverting back to being very shy like I was in my childhood.
Asked myself if stage 2 could be the reason for this and maybe so, but me paying special attention to my testosterone levels this morning have got me feeling good this afternoon.
RE: Return of an Alpha - DavisMind91 - 06-16-2020
Stage 2, Day 6:
It’s official. Can’t say why but subconsciously I dislike stage 2 more than any other in the program. It’s a subconscious thing. I have no rational reason as to why that is but I’ll power through regardless. Right now I’m feeling more solitary and anti social as ever. I honestly wouldn’t mind working from home a few more months although I hate my job currently.
On a more positive note, I’m beginning to refocus on some of the goals I had been putting off due to lack of motivation.
RE: Return of an Alpha - tolgaocal80 - 06-16-2020
Stage 2 is my most challenging stage in AM. it causes me cry for a little dramatic video etc, also it causes me to push toward independence from others.
RE: Return of an Alpha - DavisMind91 - 06-17-2020
(06-16-2020, 02:24 PM)tolgaocal80 Wrote: Stage 2 is my most challenging stage in AM. it causes me cry for a little dramatic video etc, also it causes me to push toward independence from others.
I actually forgot there was an entire day during my last run where I felt depressed and frustrated and I was also driven to tears. If I recall that was also the same day that I missed running the sub. Partly because I didn’t want to but also because it was a bit of a busy day. After this run I may just use stage 7 as the entire program though so this may be the last time I ever fave stage 2.
RE: Return of an Alpha - DavisMind91 - 06-18-2020
Stage 2, Day 8:
Felt incredible from start to finish today and got a lot done. Hormonal balance is truly the key to helping a man stay mentally, physically and emotionally healthy. I'll most certainly be making sure to pay attention to my hormones (mainly testosterone) for the remainder of this current AM6 run and even beyond.
I'm not even tired at all, even after a productive 16 hour day but I'd rather try and get some sleep so I can be at my best when I wake tomorrow. Most notable events from today:
- I spoke to a patient who kept asking me the ETA for some medical equipment. After telling her the same thing 3 different times and 3 different ways, I told her to have a nice day and hung up in her face. I have dozens of patients I'm expected to serve on a daily basis when I work and refuse to let my time be wasted by one that either acts like they don't understand what I'm saying and/or being childish.
- My assertiveness has been through the roof all day long. I'll admit that mentally and even emotionally I'm reaching the point where I'm becoming slightly rude to others and even in a nonchalant matter. I know that's not all AM6...it's in large part because I'm sick of peoples bad attitudes in general. This is manifesting as me basically being a man with no patience except for rare instances where I still can display compassion although I don't feel it these days.
- I admit it feels like AM6 is playing a role in me becoming a more "hardened/rough around the edges" individual. Things will probably be refined in the later stages though.
RE: Return of an Alpha - Yous - 07-07-2020
Missing new news. Im having almost the same experiencia, you are just 2 day in frontal of me
RE: Return of an Alpha - DavisMind91 - 07-09-2020
I actually had to stop using AM6. It’s not helping my current mental state of being fed up with everything and everyone in life. I’ll simply have to start over once I’m in a better mental space, whenever that’ll be.
RE: Return of an Alpha - Yous - 07-09-2020
It's being more difficult than I expected, sometimes lack of motivation, a lot of bad temper, like a little kind of depression sometimes, but at the same time I feel something is changing. Only 4 days to start stage 3, I hope that will be better and if not it just one month more until stage 4, that for sure will be better.j