(03-22-2020, 12:25 PM)EvolvingPhoenix Wrote: Thank you Zubrowka.

Your post was insightful and informative, though I doubt I am actually wrong about most people also having this fear and being afraid to face it. LOOK AT HOW WE LIVE. You will see what I mean, I think.

Still, very useful advice. Thank you.

(03-25-2020, 05:30 PM)EvolvingPhoenix Wrote: Day 3 of carpetbombing. Got my scheduling mixed up. Gonna take longer to bloom so I can get back on schedule because I'm using Google calendar to track this.

Anyway... I was being INCREDIBLY NEGATIVE LATELY, especially today. Because of this, my online mentor from Germany decided he was tired of my negativity and in my current state, I lack the discernment necessary to have a productive discussion with. So he bounced.

My OTHER teacher I was making friends with online? We were talking about some serious power plays going on behind the scenes on the global scale, then something MAJOUR happened. Next thing I know, teacher says this: "I'm off to war"

And when I responded with: \m/

They logged off.

I should have said: "Let me know when you win"

Opportunity lost.

So both my mentors just bounced. Damn. First one? Fine. He taught me all I needed at this point in my life before I can move forward and can't really help me any more at this point anyway.

My other teacher though...

I was learning useful shit! But this "war" is far more important.

*****. Now how do I learn more of the stuff they were teaching me? It was REALLY good stuff! Oh well, they taught me a lot already. Surely enough to get me started.

Gotta gst into my body and heal my fear first. Then I gotta work on my sacral chakra and when I get up the money, certain healing techniques.

I also have to focus on making money. SUPER important right now.

Gotta think of what to best spend money on too when the relief fund money comes in. That's my chance to get something really useful. Better spend it wisely. I wonder when UMSv2 is coming out and how much it'll cost?

(03-26-2020, 06:59 AM)EvolvingPhoenix Wrote: Thanks Zabrowka. And I'm sure I can find a way to get in touch with my teacher once they are done kicking ass.

But how I intend to build myself up into somebody I care to be is another question.

You are right: I DO have everything I need. Both teachers have left me with plenty of information. I do not need my German teacher until I have AT LEAST made MAJOR cleanings on my lower 2 chakras. And as for my badass teacher, I do not need them right now. We all need my teacher to do what they are doing right now, or things are going to get depressingly bad. Still, once I really clear my root chakra blockages enough to focus primarilly on my sacral chakra, I was hoping this teacher would be able to help me because they seem to REALLY know their shit. Now I have to figure out what to do after grounding myself not just to progress in things like money, chakra clearing, healing, creative stuff, fitness, manifestation/LoA etc. But also in the things this teacher specializes in. I can find resources, but damn. My badass teacher was a VERY valuable source of very uniquely useful methodry for such practices and information. Still, I have past advice I can utilize, recommended resources, other personally discovered resources, I have some ideas for who I might study and what I might read up on, people I might want to contact for training or at least utilize services of once I have the money, etc. I'm sure I will be fine. I can find my own unique eclectic approach and utilize it until I can get back into contact with them. Most likely once they win, or at least once I have a shit ton of money to fund they're "war chest" so to speak, I can find a way to contact them again. I know my badass teacher isn't rich. Although they ARE very resourceful and highly disciplined, cunning and intelligent. So are their enemies, but not on their level.
Still, they could probably REALLY use money. Money is Batman's superpower. That should ler us kniw how useful it can be.

I just wish I'd bothered to make a comprehensive list of recommended resources before they'd left. I just didn't expect that to happen out of the blue all of a sudden. Nor for what happened to cause them to leave to haplen so soon, although I'm glad it happened.  

Oh well. Work with what you got, right? I have all I need and I'm sure I can find out more.

The stuff I probably MOST need them for is mostly really advanced stuff I'm not nearly ready for anyway.

I can find my own way to the point where I'm ready to heavily utilize more of their training.

Thabks for the support and encouragement Zabrowka.

(03-26-2020, 08:43 AM)EvolvingPhoenix Wrote: Right on. Thanks Zabrowka!

I'll be doing just fine.

You're right. I'm good with what I've git at this point, and I have plenty of means to fins more information and resources which benefit me once I feel I need more. Thanks

(03-26-2020, 10:31 AM)EvolvingPhoenix Wrote: Okay. I see your point Zabrowka. Thanks for the advice

That being said, I don't think YOU quite understand me. Part of this is because I am deliberately being vague about what I am looking to do and attempting to learn, so as to be respectful towards the rules of this website.

The stuff I am looking to learn and want to get good at BECAUSE I WANT TO GET GOOD AT IT AND FIND IT FASCINATING is not stuff that is understood or mastered by just simply living your life. It is highly complex material that can MOST CERTAINLY be applied to living one's life, but it is not stuff you just do without knowing anything about it and figure out. It is stuff you HAVE TO STUDY.

It would be as if I had a really good math teacher leave me, and I wanted to become an expert mathematician, but I couldn't talk about math on the forum so I was vague about it and your advice would be to just learn it by living my life. That is NOT how you learn advanced math, I don't think. Although I am no mathematician, so I would not know. But I'm pretty sure this works as an analogy. Study is essential to the subject I am interested in getting good at.

That being said, you are still giving solid advice. And I can still see how what you said still applies in other senses to my situation, so I am grateful for your insight on the matter. Just understand that your impression of what I mean is partially based on a lack of information.

I still intend to find resources on the subject which holds my interest. I will refer ro it as "math" with the quotation marks around it so it is understood I am not literally talking about math from now on.

I have full intention of getting good at this "math" not because I am "seeking answers outside of myself" but because I want to learn how to do it.

I hope that makes sense.

Thank you for your support and your valuable insight.