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RE: 100 Days MLS - Raz - 07-02-2018
(07-02-2018, 05:16 AM)JCasterlin Wrote:(07-02-2018, 01:45 AM)Raz Wrote: Self-discipline to do the small daily tasks is becoming ingrained. I don't really have to think about them to push myself in order to do them. It's a good feeling when I have done them without hesitation since completing tasks is one major thing I need to work on. Hope this will enable me to finish bigger projects in time.
I still distract myself needlessly as in avoiding to do other more important and rewarding things though. But the ball is in my court and I just have to start playing properly.
I was reading the MLS sales page & goal ninety two states
"Make yourself distraction-proof". I'm curious if that means in general or as it relates to the overall goals of MLS 3.0.
To be distraction proof would be awesome
Depends on what one means by distraction.
If you mean something you do yourself to avoid something else, then I haven't been able to do that (yet). As I mentioned above that is one thing I need/want to learn (pun intended). I think this is strongly connected to self-discipline.
If you mean something outside yourself disrupting your focus and flow, then this will be dealt with. It's in the ball park of the 'laser-like focus and concentration' module and works (for me) like a charm. Worked like a charm in 5G. And in 5.5G I notice it even more.
RE: 100 Days MLS - Shannon - 07-02-2018
(07-02-2018, 12:53 PM)Raz Wrote:(07-02-2018, 05:16 AM)JCasterlin Wrote:(07-02-2018, 01:45 AM)Raz Wrote: Self-discipline to do the small daily tasks is becoming ingrained. I don't really have to think about them to push myself in order to do them. It's a good feeling when I have done them without hesitation since completing tasks is one major thing I need to work on. Hope this will enable me to finish bigger projects in time.
I still distract myself needlessly as in avoiding to do other more important and rewarding things though. But the ball is in my court and I just have to start playing properly.
I was reading the MLS sales page & goal ninety two states
"Make yourself distraction-proof". I'm curious if that means in general or as it relates to the overall goals of MLS 3.0.
To be distraction proof would be awesome
Depends on what one means by distraction.
If you mean something you do yourself to avoid something else, then I haven't been able to do that (yet). As I mentioned above that is one thing I need/want to learn (pun intended). I think this is strongly connected to self-discipline.
If you mean something outside yourself disrupting your focus and flow, then this will be dealt with. It's in the ball park of the 'laser-like focus and concentration' module and works (for me) like a charm. Worked like a charm in 5G. And in 5.5G I notice it even more.
It is designed to cause you to make yourself distraction-proof while you are learning. It's very hard to learn at maximum speed and efficiency when you are being distracted during the learning process.
RE: 100 Days MLS - JCasterlin - 07-03-2018
(07-02-2018, 04:06 PM)Shannon Wrote:(07-02-2018, 12:53 PM)Raz Wrote:(07-02-2018, 05:16 AM)JCasterlin Wrote:(07-02-2018, 01:45 AM)Raz Wrote: Self-discipline to do the small daily tasks is becoming ingrained. I don't really have to think about them to push myself in order to do them. It's a good feeling when I have done them without hesitation since completing tasks is one major thing I need to work on. Hope this will enable me to finish bigger projects in time.
I still distract myself needlessly as in avoiding to do other more important and rewarding things though. But the ball is in my court and I just have to start playing properly.
I was reading the MLS sales page & goal ninety two states
"Make yourself distraction-proof". I'm curious if that means in general or as it relates to the overall goals of MLS 3.0.
To be distraction proof would be awesome
Depends on what one means by distraction.
If you mean something you do yourself to avoid something else, then I haven't been able to do that (yet). As I mentioned above that is one thing I need/want to learn (pun intended). I think this is strongly connected to self-discipline.
If you mean something outside yourself disrupting your focus and flow, then this will be dealt with. It's in the ball park of the 'laser-like focus and concentration' module and works (for me) like a charm. Worked like a charm in 5G. And in 5.5G I notice it even more.
It is designed to cause you to make yourself distraction-proof while you are learning. It's very hard to learn at maximum speed and efficiency when you are being distracted during the learning process.
I get it. I do think there's a certain carry over though with what @Raz said about " laser like focus and concentration " . For me part of why I chose to run MLS is because I have or would always make the same mistakes or do the same thing expecting a different result. Most of that I will take responsibility for. Part of that is or was job related as until early April I felt I was spinning my wheels at work because I was doing what I thought I had to do to .Then I switched teams & supervisors & that all changed as I began learning more. The main reason I am running MLS is to cut down the learning curve of the work I do. As someone who has had zero experience in this industry until I began working there it can be & is frustrating to watch someone with prior experience come in at the same time or after you & do excellent out of the gate as it were. Today going into tonight July 3rd 2018 I will begin running MLS 3.0 as instructed
81 Days - Raz - 07-04-2018
Nothing much going on. Drive to do things is not really there, although there are some mental nudges. In one word: stagnation.
edit: screw stagnation. I just installed anki and am going to use it for a lot of different stuff: languages, science subjects, and whatever else catches my fancy. No more solitaire or mahjongg to kill dead 10 minute spaces but some flash cards.
80 Days - Raz - 07-06-2018
My sleep is messed up right now. It's somewhat difficult to fall asleep and not really vitalizing.
Well, fortunately I have SIA. I'll start using it again tonight.
My diminished sleep quality is, not surprisingly, contributing to feelings of inadequacy and mental stiffness. Time to scotch that.
79 Days - Raz - 07-07-2018
I feel stuck. Like being in a cage. Unable to walk forward and unwilling to go backwards.
RE: 100 Days MLS - Griffin - 07-07-2018
hey man, why precisely are you unable to go forwards?
78 Days - Raz - 07-08-2018
(07-07-2018, 05:03 AM)Griffin Wrote: hey man, why precisely are you unable to go forwards?
I am not entirely sure. I can't seem to overcome my own blockades. I am limiting myself, probably because it is safe. I have a learned network of limitations in place that I can perceive, very clearly at times, but fail at dismantling them. Instead they seem to regenerate and grow every time I manage to make the tiniest progress. Or to put it differently, I am becoming very sophisticated at sabotaging my own efforts.
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I am withdrawing from my surroundings. I do everything I can to avoid interacting with people these days.
78 Days - Raz - 07-08-2018
I'm almost done with my loops for today. On top of the resistance I face right now, I got the strongest urge to abandon the sub during the first three loops.
I ... have ... to ... keep ... going!
RE: 100 Days MLS - Zane - 07-08-2018
How is ur second run of MLS different from first run?
You did use DMSI 3.2 in between so do feel anything different this time? Do u did DMSI healings have somewhat made ur MLS usage different this time?
RE: 100 Days MLS - Raz - 07-08-2018
(07-08-2018, 05:00 AM)Zane Wrote: How is ur second run of MLS different from first run?
You did use DMSI 3.2 in between so do feel anything different this time? Do u did DMSI healings have somewhat made ur MLS usage different this time?
Hard to pin-point differences. In some ways I feel I have regressed in my life compared to the situation when I first used MLS 3.0. In others, for instance emotional maturity, I am at a better place than the last time I used this sub.
I experience stronger resistance this time though. Or at least it seems that way, since it was almost a year ago that I ran MLS and I can not really recall the details from last time.
Also taking into account that we now have an established secondary ASRB, whereas there wasn't one when I first used it, I cannot really compare this and my previous run. The impacts are still very subtle, excluding the first few days where I noticed obvious mental variations to my immediately prior state of mind. I don't notice much shifting, nudging or change at the moment.
77 Days - Raz - 07-09-2018
Things are getting hairy. I do everything to hide from the world: trying to sleep even though I am not tired, watching useless content so I won't do anything worthwhile when awake, being mentally sclerotic and unable to motivate myself to do useful/needed stuff. My dreams are neurotic, dystopic, weird and marked by failure.
The strange thing is that I can watch and partly analyze myself while I am in this state. But I can't get control of the proverbial steering wheel. It's as if I'm sitting in the passenger seat most of the time. I know this kind of resistance all to well but haven't experienced it in quite a while. And strangely enough I don't feel depressed or weirded out.
Still, this has to stop. I gotta take the power back.
77 Days - Raz - 07-09-2018
What a strange day. First really heavy resistance. And then ... massive respect hits from guys around me at work that were on a completely different level than I ever experienced.
76 Days - Raz - 07-10-2018
I am really dried out mentally and physically. I am thirsting for some inspiration and creativity. I'm missing the latter for some time now. It's as if I somehow closed the door to it inadvertently a few months ago. But I have no idea exactly when and how.
I hope I get out of this funk soon since it is draining my life spirit from me.