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RE: Am 6.0 first run - Illumi - 03-03-2016
Regarding ASC and confidence , i've used asc for 33 days before moving to AM6 im currently on day 30
Stage 1. I've had more courage when i was on ASC based on an interaction with women.
RE: Am 6.0 first run - Kol - 03-03-2016
Yeah i have the same thing going on
RE: Am 6.0 first run - Kol - 03-03-2016
I have thoughts of running sexmagnet afterwards yet i couldnt be bothered with woman at all right now. Haha,
Also I seem to finally get out of the rut of anxiety and feelings of being closed off. The sub simply overpowers more and more. Good stuff. Still feel somewhat closed off but serious changes are happening leaving me somewhat tensed and in my own world. have glimpses of free approach and not giving an shit but these arent consistent aswell.
RE: Am 6.0 first run - Kol - 03-04-2016
day 9 stage 1
Am thinking as to why i hit walls with women and there is an big possibility it has to do with bad experiences, as if an lightbulb went on. Escalation and eventually bedding is no problem, I have done it before and it makes me think when I was 19 or so. Its an re-occuring pattern and involuntairy. I am slowly overcoming it.
RE: Am 6.0 first run - Kol - 03-05-2016
stage 1 day 10
Feeling more angry and annoyed. have an increased interest in dressing more sharp. Went to the hairdresser yesteray to get an new haircut. Eventually when paying I had this moment with the 8,5/10 working there, yet did discard the woman who did my hair. lol. The one I had this moment with ( eye contact, being flirty, social, my voice seems to be really seductive ) was very receptive and open but has an husband. It didnt matter, before I would be somewhat affected by this, but now its more of an "okay, next". Its basically Paradise, abundance and shows how narrow the needy mindset is. Im more balanced overal, its more human and balanced. Makes sense when making eye contact and interacting with women, being high value.
Girls in general seem to be more submissive although I had some anxieties and tension popping up.
Met up with some friends. The social shift in mindset really kicks in lately, pushing me outside this small set and making me more open and in the open to connect with everyone. Had lots of subconscious conflicts when meeting up with them, which didnt occur when I ran ASC.
Im also very selective in eye contact. At times It doesnt interest me and I have some tension and slight headache going on, making me somewhat closed off.
RE: Am 6.0 first run - Kol - 03-05-2016
Stop thinking, stop fighting, trust in the sub, let it dominate. take full responsibility for yourself, and your choices. No one else will do it. Dominate or be dominated. To sudden take this self responsibility makes this so called resistance dissolve in fucking thin air.
Stop clinging to past patterns. go all in. Death. cant win. You want to run Am 6.0? Embrace it. Be thrown back on yourself.
RE: Am 6.0 first run - Kol - 03-06-2016
day 11 stage 1
Im feeling more zen and calm right now, some clearing is happening.
Last few days doubts popped up, anxieties arose, insecurities and old patterns surfaced. I dont care. It feels huge now Im writing this. The zen attitude is growing and gets stronger, like some water level building up to eventually break through.
My mind seems still to gravitate towards business stuff. yesterday the ball was roling, how employees are important to keep business running, inovation, models, to take the lead. It was as if my mind downloaded business structure knowledge, which makes sense in several AM6.0 qualities and the person Im becoming, yet the sub is way more complex.
Watched the wolf of wallstreet yesterday. Caused an shift in mindset and indentified strongly with it, some sort of recognition and indentification.
Im growing more attractive and feel really great at this very moment, being still partly at some Crossroads but feel not really the need to journal anymore, might be partly fear as it clashes and conflicts and disrupts the momentum. having out of the blue annoyance and anger pop up. Last time with friends my kind of humor has shifted, makes me an bit sad now but whatever. Like what they like I no longer like or am indifferent and aswell dont shun from showing disinterest, partly or an part of me is still clinging to the safety of not offending ( abandon issues? ) with friends. Shutted down yet annoyed pretty much when they showed all this needy stuff regarding women.
having more motivation and longer duration in fitness. less aware of my body, can keep going longer,
Im feeling like an whole different person, more mature yet some sadness beneath the surface. Lots is happening. Waking up more sharp, early, and clear then ever before.
Reading BlackDragons Alpha male 2.0; the unchained man book.
keep feeling that it is finally happening. Breakthrough. Confidence rising.
i want to break away from thinking about this, writing. Just an urge and pull towards outside.
RE: Am 6.0 first run - Kol - 03-07-2016
day 12 stage 1
Going to get 11 hours in today. Notice i overal dont give a shit and when I notice I somewhat hold back I just cross the line and I dont care at all. getting closer to people and touch much more. The specialty in people is gone right now and can make easily eye contact. if I dont lock I dont care about it, whatever.
Im geltting more hostile, more opposed to people and males.
Socialy getting more fluid, making jokes, get some women giggle. catching myself at times to have it internal still.
When I feel an slight urge to escalate I actually let it happen. before I would screen and come up with bullshit excuses, now I recognize and may actually proceed just to manifest it and make it click. When it happenes it becomes second nature and opens up new experiments.
Manifestation gets more near, In my head hotter girls are attracted to me already. Just to allign myself with it. I have no problems with girls at all, that was an bullshit limiting belief. When tension comes up I let it be and let go.
I generally feel OGSF kicks in stronger and stronger. I notice no tension nor responses in myself or getting selfconscious at times and joke more around, just for my own entertainment, backing up my own words instead of going needy and needing an reaction. Guilt is gone in that, so is shame an whole lot reduced.
Notice at times I display open disinterest and feel not always in the mood to talk. Getting more annoyed aswell to have to repeat myself sometimes even tho my voice projects stronger and more clear.
RE: Am 6.0 first run - Illumi - 03-08-2016
Escalation is KING , start slowley and then crank it up , try to get physical with women especially women you meet for the first time. This alone prevents you getting in the friend zone even if you are not particularly showing interest, it's just who you are.
RE: Am 6.0 first run - Kol - 03-09-2016
stage 1 day 14
Feeling very tired and lots of confusion going on. As if an shitload of neediness surfaces. Am setting up some routines but having an hard time being consistent for some reason. It can be an snowball effect and other times its like an door being shut down, like it somehow conficts or something.
Im more vocal, decisive, Im taking the lead at work more and more and not really caring, coming in strong at times. Its just natural.
Seeing women turns me on just by seeing them and am getting very sexual.
Playing the sub 12 hours an day, switching between the 3 of them.
On an positive note; Im reading more lately and have an solid ground of working from that. I can actually feel it and am isolating and weeding out to get more concrete. When having this openness, I implent it on several areas, health, money, abundance.
RE: Am 6.0 first run - Kol - 03-10-2016
stage 1 day 15
Im feeling very positive and am enjoying life. Incredibly upbeat and lots of anxieties are gone. If it comes up its just there and I dont even recognize it anymore as part of my life. Im feeling attractive, almost like being in my late teens/begin 20's.
procrastination has been reduced an whole lot. hesitation aswell. Its rather fun now and more grounded, just ding it wihtout really having second thoughts. AM "takes over"in terms of speech. Its as if the questions just roll out without even doing anything. Women love to talk from experience, lots.
Around me I see most guys being ungrounded, uncentred, having no direction or any purpose. I can write and long rant about this but I wont.
Had some flashbacks surfacing, memories like visual snippits in my mind.
After reading some journals I also am getting aware that procrastionation comes forth from attachment in my case. Its not rather comfort, IDGAF, but more of an "stuck in place` , makes sense in workflow and writing flow aswell, aswell as why I dont seem to like journalling anymore. Journalling causes me to attach to good feelings and progression thoughts only to get stuck later.
Am thinking aswell about areas in life like some sort of circle diagram. Health, financial, sexual etc, instead of going all out on money and probably conflict and get unbalanced, less of being conscious, but ather let the subconscious flower and penetrate the conscious mind. very open and anxiety is not present at all. Im on the other hand very present and feeling zen. connecting, radiating abundance and openness. Strong reduction in negative self image, rather when catching myself in mirrors I am purely attractive.
/ Review eating habits.
/buy calendar
RE: Am 6.0 first run - Kol - 03-10-2016
Now my financials are sorted out, I can order the magnets/BASE sooner then expected, if I do so. Im indifferent right now to it, and my mind has shifted to an business kind of model with the saving/spending, its more of an calculating approach.
Libido has been skyrocketing today. Its pretty intense. Made me fall back in old habits bu more intense. Fuck. Deleted porn links. Having other priorities/goals and gonna stick to it. I know the drill.
RE: Am 6.0 first run - Kol - 03-11-2016
day 16 stage 1
Reading Milionaire fastlane and feel something is set in motion,. Im pretty angry with all of this and it feels like whining. IDGAF at all and am in conflict. Watched chronicles of riddick yesterday and when the women tried to seduce him it was met with anger. It was so...childish, annoying, like some flame ignites in me. made me also realize about the firend remark in the movie. My old self would qonder why riddick is like that, current person is seeing options everywhere,
Im selective currently and people involve themselves in time wasting. Im pretty direct and strict on that. Just, leave me the fuck alone yet also want to go out.
Im feeling annoyed in general and move on towards an new reality in all of this. IKts pretty clear the sub is working. reviewing guilt shame and fear again and recognize some old patterns. AM sheds some light on this. Like, somewhat am to an extent saving feelings to those close to me, yet this might shift aswell as Im getting more annoyed by their low value display. Its like this realisation fo how futile and insane it is. Changes are thus happening in terms of this, and will cross this soon. Many things are normal, like people coming into my life. Its what it is. An deservedness inside and might run AM for an second time just to get this stuff eventually fully ingrained.
Im more direct. It has to be done now, grounding myself even, taking direct control. direct go-getting. Im somewhat anti-social right now, blunt, bold, slightly lashy. I also notice when Im out, its all belongs to me. business buildings and all. My world. My reality.
Dont die with regrets. Ringing more true then ever.
RE: Am 6.0 first run - Kol - 03-12-2016
day 17 stage 1
Met up with some friends yesterday. Was more short tempered. When one of us took his Phone I directly called him out on it. Another is I seem to get more physical agressive and harsh. It made me closed off aswell, silent. realized that neediness was surfacing, negativity played out and surfaced. I did not tolerate bullshit or what I perceived as bullshit. it just came out. Anger and issues of what didnt really bother me before suddenly do. I was wondering why that took so long
Im aswell setting some boundaries. Im going to give up on smoking as it sends me down into an negative spiral of anxiety and racing thoughts. When I stand behind my choice its as if there is an AM breakthrough happening.
Time valueing also increaes and makes me feel at times that I overvalue it in an way, like making it an obsessive priority, and the racing thoughts are very present at times.
Im shifting in music. Music has an influence on the mind and am going to make it work for me. Could be something I picked up along the road from Christian Mcqueen but I dont really care.
Rejection doesnt phase me at all. Its not existing in my mind or it suddenly fuells me like the old days when following pua stuff and cory skyy stuff in going out, approach, throw away sets and all that jazz. other then that, im still somewhat struggling with approaching but could be to harsh on myself from that as I tend to tense up instead of relax. Its pretty much off balance all in all. Going from lows to hights.
On another note; more stuff seems to become somewhat an waste of time. which triggers feelings of being trapped. It makes me increasingly uncomfortable and feels like time slows down to an point that I have to go. I cant stand it.
Going to buy blazers when my financials are in order. plan is to have multiple income streams and being more orderly in it at all. Something I can do. cleared out my wardrobe already and what i dont wear/need goes.
Cleaning up my home ( will eventually move on towards another home ) is satisfying. Im generally more aware of this.
Being more ordered in general. Discipline. Weeding out along the way.