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RE: The Skeptic's Journal - Absolute Self Confidence - Shannon - 09-22-2012
Extreme Self Esteem.
RE: The Skeptic's Journal - Absolute Self Confidence - AbiDrew85 - 09-23-2012
So, I've been seeing people talk about having a "resistant nature" or not and it almost seems they're talking more about being a dominant/submissive personality type. I already know I have an extremely submissive type. Does this mean I'm more likely to respond and more quickly?
BTW... Please don't think of dominant/submissive in the sexual way, the personality types do not need have anything to do with sex at all. I am tempered and am my own being, but generally, when faced with a choice in which it doesn't affect my own opinion of myself but I can cause a fight (verbal or physical) or walk away from it, I always choose walk away. I only fight when I feel cornered. This is a behavior pattern strongly centered on a submissive personality. There was a time I was even more submissive, but life experiences have taught me there are times I've gotta hold ground.
RE: The Skeptic's Journal - Absolute Self Confidence - Sean - 09-23-2012
I think dominant/submissive or leader/follower is distinct from being resistant to subliminals. Many followers are secretly resentful of their leaders, and follow physically but also mentally resist what they are being led to do.
The resistance is more about whether the subliminal is challenging a deeply held belief about yourself, the source of that belief, and how you react to such challenges.
RE: The Skeptic's Journal - Absolute Self Confidence - AbiDrew85 - 09-23-2012
Heh. I'm not secretly anything. I was for a long time, keeping something secret even from myself, but once I found out about it consciously, even that went out in the open nice and quick. I'm not going to be any more clear about it here because this is supposed to be a family-safe area.
Speaking of, I'm beginning to wonder if I maybe should've put this under the women's journals... I dreamed the other night, but didn't think much of it... but now I'm wondering. However, the dream is of a very adult nature... I suppose it'd be safe enough to say that in the dream I was much much more flirty than I've ever dreamed of being before. Before I've always been completely passive. Almost a victim, even though I was secretly enjoying the victimization. This time I actually sought it out, at least, in the dream.
It was definitely different for me.
(Any guys reading this: YES girls get those kinds of dreams too... ours just tends to be less visualized and more feelings and sensate oriented. Ask me to describe what anything looked like in those kinds of dreams and I'll draw a blank.)
(And anyone with the ability to move this, I think now would be a good time to move this journal to the women's journals.)
RE: The Skeptic's Journal - Absolute Self Confidence - Shannon - 09-23-2012
Done.
I tend to agree with Sean here. Resistance to subliminals comes from fear of the unknown, misunderstanding, or fear of allowing yourself to be influenced by something outside yourself. You can take the most dominant person in the world and hypnotize them, if they trust you; likewise with subliminals. You can do it with the most stubborn person in the world, too, as long as you don't trigger a fear of loss of self control.
Generally more passive and submissive personalities are easier to influence because they tend to allow themselves to be influenced by external things more readily.
RE: The Skeptic's Journal - Absolute Self Confidence - Yuri - 09-23-2012
(09-23-2012, 07:10 AM)Shannon Wrote: Done.
I tend to agree with Sean here. Resistance to subliminals comes from fear of the unknown, misunderstanding, or fear of allowing yourself to be influenced by something outside yourself. You can take the most dominant person in the world and hypnotize them, if they trust you; likewise with subliminals. You can do it with the most stubborn person in the world, too, as long as you don't trigger a fear of loss of self control.
Generally more passive and submissive personalities are easier to influence because they tend to allow themselves to be influenced by external things more readily.
So basically there's a chance of a person becoming more resistant to subs after doing am and also there's a chance that it might increase the effect of the sub? because then trust comes from an alpha male which i believe is stronger than coming from a submissive personality.
RE: The Skeptic's Journal - Absolute Self Confidence - AbiDrew85 - 09-23-2012
Thanks Shannon! Now that this is here, I can explain things a little more openly when it comes to things of a more adult nature... LOL. I should've put it here in the first place, but somehow felt weird about putting a journal about a program that's not gender-specific, in a gender-specific area. Why don't we have a shared adults-only anyways for programs that aren't gender-specific, but could impact things that are definitely adults-oriented?
Anyways...
So the final product I previously chose not to reveal was the breast enlargement one. And the secret I'd kept even from myself was that I'm transsexual. I was born with XY in my genetic code but my brain is wired as a female. For most of my life from the time I first realized there was a difference between "male" and "female", which I want to say was probably around 5-8 years old, I managed to bury my true self deep in my subconscious and hide her even from myself.
What triggered this? I'm not completely positive what the initial trigger was, but for whatever reason, I had the urge to look up anatomy in our family's huge medical encyclopedia anthology at the time. When I realized that there was a difference between male and female and my physical anatomy said I was male and everyone around me seemed to insist I was male, I did the only thing I felt I could at the time: I ran and hid.
In my place I left behind a zombie. For all intents and purposes, that's what my male mask was. He had no emotions other than fear and anger and resentment, mostly of himself, and he never knew why. He was also constantly depressed, though he THOUGHT he was only cyclically depressed. The truth was that the depression never went anywhere, it merely became more intense on a monthly basis and came to epic proportions every few years.
To the outside world it had appeared that a complete ham of a boy had suddenly turned into a complete introvert. His parents blamed all sorts of things for this, without ever suspecting the truth that would likely have destroyed them if it had come out then, and is rocking their world a new one even today.
About two years ago I had my absolute worst depression ever. I was practically comatose. At the time I was living away from home in an apartment full of testosterone sharing my bedroom with a man. This would be problematic for me anyways, I think, but to make matters even worse, all these men were trying to make a man of me. It was all just too much for me to handle and my body screamed enough! and shut itself down.
Once I had recovered from this latest episode, I vowed to myself to find out what the cause of my constant battle with these depressions was and to cure myself once and for all.
I began taking chaste berry, which has a mild opiate, and doing a deep soul search. In the mean time, I was also working a hard manual labor job, doing grounds at an area apartment complex. I also began noticing that I was already beginning to have male pattern baldness start to develop at merely 25 years old. So I started taking saw palmetto. My diet at this time was very heavy into asian type foods, so, lots of soy... Besides being a mild opiate, chaste berry is also an adaptogen that works on the pituitary gland and increases prolactin, has a progestogenic effect, and can either decrease testosterone or estrogen depending on dose and other body conditions.... So... in grand culmination of effects, my body started to feminize during this soul search.
And I loved it.
I ended up using soy supplements in addition to my dietary intake in an effort to further the effects, but it didn't.
By early autumn last year, the soul searching finally reached culmination. And it was breaking point time. I knew who I really was. I also knew what coming out trans was going to do to my life. I could have, at this point, chosen to run and hide once again, and most likely, I'd've proceeded to go comatose again and withered away. I'd not be here to type this now if I'd made that choice.
So on to why I think this program may be beneficial. Testosterone did a special number on me during my years in hiding. As already mentioned, I started male-pattern at 25. It accelerated quickly. I was lucky in catching it and reversing it when I did. In addition, I am extremely hirsute. Even compared to most males my body is like a fur coat.
With a special supplement program designed by yours truly, I am beginning to finally truly feminize. My hairline has advanced to a more feminine position, but it's all fine baby hairs, my body hair has diminished greatly both in speed of regrowth and density, though it still covers my entire body, and my body shape... yeah. Nice ass, hips, and boobs are starting to appear. If barely.
However. I still hate my body. I hate my body hair. I hate my beard. I hate my obvious male pattern that you can only see is recovering from super close - as in, my hairstylist knows. I know. Nobody else does.
This is part of why I tried adding the ESE even though I KNEW I shouldn't have mixed ASC.5g with anything else. I believe the underlying problem with my self-confidence is rock-bottom self-esteem. Stemming from physical problems as it is, it's worse in-person than online. Online nobody knows what I look like. All they have to go on is how I interact with people. And as one girl recently told me, "You were always obviously a girl". Even in hiding, my social behaviors when not being stunted, were more feminine than masculine.
So yeah... I have a diminished self-confidence... especially in-person... due entirely to my body image. It has always been about my body image...
So, now that I've successfully alienated absolutely everyone who might be reading this journal... I guess we'll see if ASC can help at least stem the tide. I doubt it can do a major overhaul, period. That would require a lot more work and need to be a lot more targetted. I don't care if these programs DO work, there's no way something like ASC can fix the underlying causes to my diminished self-confidence. It's treating a symptom, not the source. ESE would get closer to the source, but it's still a symptom... The only cure would be getting to the source, and that'll take time and, when it comes to the hirsutism, lots lots more money.
RE: The Skeptic's Journal - Absolute Self Confidence - Shannon - 09-24-2012
(09-23-2012, 08:13 AM)biakoia Wrote:(09-23-2012, 07:10 AM)Shannon Wrote: Done.
I tend to agree with Sean here. Resistance to subliminals comes from fear of the unknown, misunderstanding, or fear of allowing yourself to be influenced by something outside yourself. You can take the most dominant person in the world and hypnotize them, if they trust you; likewise with subliminals. You can do it with the most stubborn person in the world, too, as long as you don't trigger a fear of loss of self control.
Generally more passive and submissive personalities are easier to influence because they tend to allow themselves to be influenced by external things more readily.
So basically there's a chance of a person becoming more resistant to subs after doing am and also there's a chance that it might increase the effect of the sub? because then trust comes from an alpha male which i believe is stronger than coming from a submissive personality.
Any alpha is going to be self directed and self controlled. If they choose to be affected, they will be; I obviously have no trouble with it. But if they choose to resist, they will be more capable of doing so.
RE: The Skeptic's Journal - Absolute Self Confidence - Shannon - 09-24-2012
AbiDrew, you're going to find that your beliefs create your reality, inwardly and outwardly, a lot more than you might currently realize. That is to say that I have learned the hard way over the years that what seems to be perfectly logical - such as your belief that ASC can't do XYZ, even if it does work - is working against the program, and you. Maybe you're right, but if you let go of your belief that it can't, it might just surprise you. You never know until you try.
Breasts, hirsuit and male pattern baldness, I may be able to help with. I may even be able to help with a nice butt, since I have had more than one woman ask for an "ass enlargement program" now to go along with the breast enlargement program. I'm experimenting with depilatory subs, and a hair regrowth sub is in the works. So you may find that what you're looking for is largely found here.
ESE will be good for you, I'm sure, but if you want to see what these can do... let them do it.
RE: The Skeptic's Journal - Absolute Self Confidence - AbiDrew85 - 09-30-2012
My younger brother and our boarder are insisting that the subliminal is giving them migraines and making them more irritable. They insisted that I shut it off RIGHT THEN. They also spouted all sorts of other nonsense about the ultrasonics trying to kill them...
I insisted that I was not going to shut it off right then because then their precious placebo effect they were accusing me of having would definitely hit them big time. Shoot, I'm pretty damned sure all they're having now is a damned placebo.
I told them I'd shut it off randomly and if they complained about headaches at all while it's off, then their jig is up.
So here's what's going to happen.
I'm going to not change my habits with music just to keep them from having any chance at guessing it's off or not. I'm also going to create an audio file in audacity with complete silence for exactly the same length as the sub, rename the sub, and name that file with the sub's file name. I'm going to run that file instead starting tomorrow morning.
Depending on what happens during the week, I'm going to then quite probably generate another file in audacity with a single tone ultrasonic for the entire duration of the file at the same amplitude as the highest found amplitude in Shannon's sub after I perform a cursory spectral analysis of the file... I'll run that next week for a week.
If they DON'T have any headaches while there's no ultrasonics playing at all, but do when I start running my fixed tone ultrasonic, then I'm afraid I'm going to have to stop using these products. At least until I can get new speakers.
I should mention that my speakers are showing their age and throwing out quite large EMF readings. Approaching 1 gauss while the ultrasonics are playing... It has been their assertion that it is these EMF's that are bothering them. They have also insisted that the ultrasonics themselves are bothering them. My speakers are rated for well over 20kHz, but I will set a fixed tone of exactly 20kHz for my second weeks testing unless Shannon believes a different fixed tone would be better for the purpose.
I may be skeptical of the products efficacy, but there's no way I believe for a minute that prolonged migraines and irritability is being caused by it. But I am still going to need to take a 2 week break to prove it to them.
I will perform this entire experiment secretly of course. I will only report the findings to them after the fact.
RE: The Skeptic's Journal - Absolute Self Confidence - Sean - 09-30-2012
Why not just use a masked sub?
RE: The Skeptic's Journal - Absolute Self Confidence - Shannon - 10-01-2012
Abi, it is in fact possible to cause headaches using ultrasonic subliminals, and especially when using 5G ultrasonics, especially if the volume is too high or there is too much exposure time. Too much exposure time causes headaches by causing your brain to try too hard to get enough glucose and oxygen to keep up, and causing a pressure headache. The headaches from too high a volume and too much 5G exposure both should dissipate very rapidly when the program is turned off, usually within 5 to 7 minutes on their own.
Too much volume can also cause nausea.
RE: The Skeptic's Journal - Absolute Self Confidence - AbiDrew85 - 10-01-2012
(09-30-2012, 09:54 PM)Sean Wrote: Why not just use a masked sub?
Because I want to listen to my own music and watch episodes of The Lizzie Bennet Diaries and etc?
(10-01-2012, 12:37 AM)Shannon Wrote: Abi, it is in fact possible to cause headaches using ultrasonic subliminals, and especially when using 5G ultrasonics, especially if the volume is too high or there is too much exposure time. Too much exposure time causes headaches by causing your brain to try too hard to get enough glucose and oxygen to keep up, and causing a pressure headache. The headaches from too high a volume and too much 5G exposure both should dissipate very rapidly when the program is turned off, usually within 5 to 7 minutes on their own.
Too much volume can also cause nausea.
That's just the thing. There's definitely not too much volume, especially since they are not in my room where it is playing, ever, and even if they were, wouldn't I be the worst effected since I spend the MOST time there?
They are also claiming that their headaches aren't dissipating even with THREE HOURS of non-exposure. They seem to think they need at least THREE DAYS before their headaches would go away.
Played at an appropriate volume, what is the range of exposure anyways? They're hundreds of feet from the speakers the majority of the time and through several walls and/or floor and ceiling.
I'm pretty certain they aren't being exposed nearly as much as they say they are. They'd have you believe that as long as they are in the house at all, they're exposed.
So, I'm going to prove to them it's all in their head. I just had the brilliant idea that I'll tell them I've turned it off next week while I have the single-tone ultrasonic playing. I already started the pure silence track, and they aren't going to be told that the subliminal isn't running. In fact, if they ask, I'll tell them it is. As much as I hate lying, this is in the interest of science.
RE: The Skeptic's Journal - Absolute Self Confidence - Shannon - 10-01-2012
If you were to play the trickling stream track, and then track where it could be heard, it would be the same range for the ultrasonic. So they do appear to me to be imagining things.
But if you enact your brilliant idea, you're destroying your own test, and interrupting your own usage. Instead, keep using it, but tell them you've stopped. Same difference, without you losing out.