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RE: UMS v3.1 in 6G - ffaux - 11-14-2025
I'm with you all the way ReconGunner. I'm going to keep pushing until it happens.
Two updates. Firstly, over my first run, an unusual number dead, dying, or injured animals came into my experience. I've always been a bit worried about these subliminal programs--I'm literally letting an unknown entity program my mind--and I started questioning if I was manifesting some kind of sacrifice because of the subliminal. I felt deeply uncomfortable. It looks like it has now desisted, but it's still wearing on my mind, and I still question if it was related to the subliminal.
Finally, I haven't made any meaningful progress on achieving the program's goals, but I am motivated to invest a lot of time and energy into improving my own physical health across a number of dimensions.
RE: UMS v3.1 in 6G - ncbeareatingman - 11-14-2025
(11-14-2025, 09:19 PM)ffaux Wrote: I'm with you all the way ReconGunner. I'm going to keep pushing until it happens.
Two updates. Firstly, over my first run, an unusual number dead, dying, or injured animals came into my experience. I've always been a bit worried about these subliminal programs--I'm literally letting an unknown entity program my mind--and I started questioning if I was manifesting some kind of sacrifice because of the subliminal. I felt deeply uncomfortable. It looks like it has now desisted, but it's still wearing on my mind, and I still question if it was related to the subliminal.
Finally, I haven't made any meaningful progress on achieving the program's goals, but I am motivated to invest a lot of time and energy into improving my own physical health across a number of dimensions.
Good man. Good move & more power to ya!! Can totally relate to what you shared.
A fellow UMS3'er!! Keep plugging away!!
RE: UMS v3.1 in 6G - ReconGunner - 11-15-2025
(11-14-2025, 09:19 PM)ffaux Wrote: I'm with you all the way ReconGunner. I'm going to keep pushing until it happens.
Two updates. Firstly, over my first run, an unusual number dead, dying, or injured animals came into my experience. I've always been a bit worried about these subliminal programs--I'm literally letting an unknown entity program my mind--and I started questioning if I was manifesting some kind of sacrifice because of the subliminal. I felt deeply uncomfortable. It looks like it has now desisted, but it's still wearing on my mind, and I still question if it was related to the subliminal.
Finally, I haven't made any meaningful progress on achieving the program's goals, but I am motivated to invest a lot of time and energy into improving my own physical health across a number of dimensions.
I think we all struggle with that unease - I know I do. I doubt, however, that there is any such sacrifice associated with these subliminals.
I always try to keep in mind that there is fundamental work that each of us needs in order to proceed toward any goals. It doesn't surprise me when something that seems unrelated improves, because it may have some relationship to the main goals that I can't see.
"And we will all... achieve UMS.... together....(at our own pace)"
RE: UMS v3.1 in 6G - Frosted - 11-16-2025
@ffaux I’ve had similar fears in the past. Luckily Shannon strikes me as someone with an extreme amount of integrity.
RE: UMS v3.1 in 6G - ReconGunner - 11-16-2025
(11-16-2025, 03:39 AM)Frosted Wrote: @ffaux I’ve had similar fears in the past. Luckily Shannon strikes me as someone with an extreme amount of integrity.
Same here. And that's a major reassurance.
RE: UMS v3.1 in 6G - ffaux - 11-30-2025
The oddities continue. I’ve moved from dead and injured animals to sustaining lifelong injuries myself and reinjuring old ones. It feels like I’m paying some kind of price in blood. I think I’m being superstitious but it’s highly unusual.
RE: UMS v3.1 in 6G - ffaux - 02-03-2026
Momentum is building in the right direction, slowly and painfully, but in the right direction nonetheless. Stonewalled Stage 3, and on Shannon's advice, switched to hybrid format. I definitely prefer ultrasonic, and am back on ultrasonic for Stage 4. Hybrid for Stage 3 pushed through whatever was stalling. The growth I need to achieve the goals of this program is not coming easily, but I'm making slow and steady progress. UMS is keeping anxiety at bay, but this is very, very slow progress. I hope momentum continues to build as the ship turns and is pointed in the right direction.
RE: UMS v3.1 in 6G - ffaux - 02-18-2026
I’m plagued with denial. This is what has kept me from progress on all titles. I don’t feel safe being honest with myself. I don’t meet the standard to which I hold myself and deny it. I lie to myself instead of changing. The ultimate resistance.
RE: UMS v3.1 in 6G - Shannon - 02-18-2026
(02-18-2026, 11:38 AM)ffaux Wrote: I’m plagued with denial. This is what has kept me from progress on all titles. I don’t feel safe being honest with myself. I don’t meet the standard to which I hold myself and deny it. I lie to myself instead of changing. The ultimate resistance.
What are you in denial of and lying to yourself about, and why?
RE: UMS v3.1 in 6G - ffaux - 02-21-2026
(02-18-2026, 11:00 PM)Shannon Wrote: What are you in denial of and lying to yourself about, and why?
Generically, for titles like AM, WM, DMSI, UMS, that I’m responsible for my failures; that I’m unsuccessful because I’m flawed in some changeable or unchangeable way (either a personality or physical trait); that I‘m not good enough as I am, and need to change; that I am not, or my stance is not, morally superior.
These are true in degrees and in circumstances, not 100% of the time for everything.
I am protecting my ego from having to accept that I am less than I think I am, that I am not perfect, that I have double standards, etc.
Let me give concrete examples:
* I don’t want to admit to myself that the reason I haven’t pulled hot models is because I’m not attractive in some way, rather than because of some personality flaw of theirs, or because they haven’t given me the chance get to know me. Most of my life I’ve looked down on men who work out, and judged women who find that attractive.
* Related to the above, I don’t want to admit that I have personality flaws; that I’m worse than the guys that pull hot models on some consequential dimension. Most of my life I’ve looked down on men who are competitive and aggressive, and judged women who find that attractive.
Self-reinforcing layers of denial:
* Same as above (personality flaws), but along a different dimensions, I don’t want to admit that I’m worse on some consequential dimension than people who are less intelligent. Most of my life I’ve believed that I am entitled to be more successful.
* Related to the above, but one level deeper, I don’t want to admit that I am entitled, nor that I am denigrating less intelligent people. Most of my life I’ve looked down on people who are entitled, or who denigrate less intelligent people, and judge myself for being unkind, insecure, etc.
This continues to unravel, revealing fear, shame, anger, etc.
Some of these concrete examples above I’m only uncovering in writing this journal, and I’m struggling to admit to them, let alone communicate them coherently. And there’s so much more that I’m still in denial about.