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RE: OSC 6G - User_000 - 03-07-2025
What can i say? for some reason men act more friendly toward me and women just avoid me, the ones who forcefully have to interact with me haha, can't complain since i don't get along with women either way but is funny.
RE: OSC 6G - Shannon - 03-07-2025
I wonder if that isn't some sort of resentment or negativity towards women they sense from you.
RE: OSC 6G - User_000 - 03-08-2025
Yeah, at some point in my childhood i started having some sort of resentment, don't even know how, why or when, it's not like i hate them or they treat me bad, there is some kind of resentment but that's not all, maybe is also my own definition of confidence, to put it simply it means being intimidating, and the reason, i think it's cool since i have memory, so probably combining those resulted in this.
RE: OSC 6G - User_000 - 03-08-2025
I think confidence is getting on the nerves of the fearful part of myself, i can no longer relax without having self harmful thoughts, disgusting thoughts, every kind of shit that would make me experience fear, at first i just try to deny those thoughts and forget about it, but as usual they kept getting on my mind, there is one difference between before and after OSC, before those thoughts would make feel fear and get worse until i got distracted by something else or lessened a bit, now it's like noise in my mind, annoying as hell but i don't feel that fear, now i'm trying to fix those thoughts, if i think about a knife cutting a limb then i change the limb for sausages, if i imagine gunshots then i change it to videogames, the ones i can't change are the disgusting ones, those make me sick so i do my best to ignore them. It's also making me wary of every little noise in the surroundings, i don't fear that but i can't avoid paying heed to it even if i know it's nothing, very annoying. Fear is slowly being replaced by something like "can you just shut the fuck up" attitude.
RE: OSC 6G - Shannon - 03-08-2025
What other programs from IML have you run before this?
RE: OSC 6G - User_000 - 03-09-2025
The full series of OF, OGSFv1 5.9G, E3 and E5, a few months of OGSFv2 5.11G, DMSI (for fun), USLM, maybe more but i don't remember.
RE: OSC 6G - Shannon - 03-09-2025
(03-09-2025, 06:16 PM)User_000 Wrote: The full series of OF, OGSFv1 5.9G, E3 and E5, a few months of OGSFv2 5.11G, DMSI (for fun), USLM, maybe more but i don't remember.
Do you feel like these programs have helped you improve?
RE: OSC 6G - User_000 - 03-09-2025
Improve in general terms or my little issue at hands? in general terms it had helped me, i couldn't even sleep because of fear and i was getting paranoid, my physical symptoms (resistance) were so messed up but it improved with OFv3, quarantine was a life saver since i could barely function, unfortunately my fears and trauma (yeah an actual trauma, could have died) go too deep so i tried with every last release, unfortunately it wasn't enough or i was in an environment that triggered emotional pain (i need to be alone most of the time, if not i feel overwhelmed or annoyed) so it was harder to process this stuff so right now that is my major problem (trauma), but everything else is just fine compared to before, i couldn't even watch others's eyes without feeling i was in danger, even less take decisions on my own because of "what if" or behaving like an asshole out of fear, about my compulsive thoughts maybe i just need to stop assuming i can die at any time and enjoy my time, just don't care.
RE: OSC 6G - Shannon - 03-09-2025
Tell me more about your experiences with OGSF v1 and 2 relating to your trauma. How did it affect you and how did it affect the trauma? That program is designed to be useful for that, it sounds like you've got a pretty heavy duty experience to deal with. And is OSC helping with the trauma at all? It's not designed to, of course, but I have noted that 6G is making stuff happen that programs weren't specifically designed for simply because the technology is powerful enough.
RE: OSC 6G - User_000 - 03-11-2025
Can't say for sure how did affect the trauma since it changed my life in very subtle ways i can't even realize, like becoming more sensitive, fearful, avoidant, who knows what else trauma can do to fuck my life, what is clear is that i tend to believe i'm going to die (at least my body) whenever someone speaks about stuff like internal organs, illnesses related to that, things that involve blood in other words (show me images and it gets worse) and my body respond by making me pass out but not without feeling lots of anxiety, sweat cold, getting pale and whatever, at this day i haven't deal with that issue, the programs make me more resistant to anxiety so i don't pass out again or i'm able to divert the attention to something else (this is OSC case), but is still there. This is the most heavy shit trauma can do, the other programs might have help improve something else aside from my resistance to anxiety but it's been years dealing with this so maybe i forgot or became normal so i didn't realize, i'm still kind of fearful, avoidant and wary though, maybe not that much as before.
RE: OSC 6G - Shannon - 03-12-2025
I've had that sort of trauma in the past myself. I don't know how yours compares to what I had, but I managed to get past it, almost completely. There is hope, as long as you find the right approach.
If you decide to do OGSF v3 or EHPRA vNext, I think you'll find that 6G is much more effective than what you've had in the past.
RE: OSC 6G - User_000 - 03-12-2025
I'm planning to do OGSF v3 in the future, maybe after OSC will see, this time my subconscious don't have to deal with bad days as with the other programs so there is plenty of processing power for that, i'm putting my hopes for 6G.
Almost forgot to mention, with each latest release my stomach seems to become more sensitive specially with digestion, sometimes makes me feel weak or trigger anxiety because of cramps, lately i haven't either felt weak or the cramps so it's very likely it was a form or resistance.
RE: OSC 6G - Shannon - 03-12-2025
(03-12-2025, 09:20 PM)User_000 Wrote: I'm planning to do OGSF v3 in the future, maybe after OSC will see, this time my subconscious don't have to deal with bad days as with the other programs so there is plenty of processing power for that, i'm putting my hopes for 6G.
Almost forgot to mention, with each latest release my stomach seems to become more sensitive specially with digestion, sometimes makes me feel weak or trigger anxiety because of cramps, lately i haven't either felt weak or the cramps so it's very likely it was a form or resistance.
I wouldn't conclude that it was resistance. I would conclude that it was a very deep part of your awareness expressing a lot of fear in response to the program. I've experienced that from time to time as well.
So 6G seems to have gotten you past that response?
RE: OSC 6G - User_000 - 03-12-2025
I only noticed a shift in my behavior before an after that, before i was like, everything is a pain to deal with, and after that i don't feel it's a pain, i simply deal with it. So yeah, no more problems.