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RE: EP's DMSI Journal - EvolvingPhoenix - 11-02-2024
Something I've noticed:
It always feels the strongest when I wake up in the morning or when I wake up from a nap. Now I'm not gonna lie: it's partially because when I go to sleep for the night, I go to sleep listening to DMSI, but even on days where I played it throughout the day, or when I take a nap later, that's the case. I feel the energy, I feel the lust and horniness and my thoughts get INCREDIBLY sexual, even without morning wood or touching myself.
That aside, I was listening to something on YouTube yesterday where someone was saying that one of the key things that makes or breaks manifestation chances is acting as if one already has it. I realized that when you have a messy pig sty of an apartment and you consume bitter internet content, you send yourself the message you're not that guy and you don't love yourself or feel you're worth the effort or energy just sitting there caving into your addictions all day. So when I got home, I took a nap it then woke up and instead of getting on my PC, started cleaning.I have not finished all my cleaning, but I got a lot done today and got my stuff packed before heading in to Florida.
I feel I'm making necessary changes to my mindset, my lifestyle and other things that make a big difference.
I'm starting to get out of my own way finally.
That said, one blockage I have is that there's a tug of war going on between my execution of the goals of the program on one hand and my beliefs about promiscuity and desire for a real romantic relationship on the other.
Before using an A/MYPRL sub I figured I'd take some time to experience being a sex magnet first.
I think it's cause for so long, I've had ugly duckling syndrome and some deep seated self esteem issues that made me wanna feel like I'm "that guy" you know? But as I work on those issues (with the help of this program) I find myself wondering: Do I need to be that guy? Does it really matter?
Also after having my realization regarding how one treats oneself yesterday I found myself online at some point in the day today, on FB just sharing memes and responding to peoples' posts. I found myself today giving wise advice to people, connecting the dots between what I'm telling them and what I myself need to do, like, take my own advice.
One of which being "Focus only on the people that do shit for you, don't give anyone attention in any way who doesn't deserve it." Not even thinking about them or watching content that talks shit about them.
Another being to stop focusing on shit that displeases you, just have fun and focus on what makes you happy. Be grateful for shit and focus on what's worthy of gratitude. After all, the kind of woman I would want would be someone who matches that kind of love and positivity. As would any guy living the kind of life I want to manifest in general.
I do just wanna be the kind of person who just has fun and has faith, you know? I'ma try to do that.
I just have sexual hangups I guess, getting in the way of things. A sense of shame regarding promiscuous behavior. I worry that kind of behavior would make me weak, because it lacks discipline. Also, worries about energetic entanglements. "Nevee have sex with anyone you wouldn't want to become more like" I would say. Mixing one's energy with people who have a toxic or unhealthy energy to them is kind of a worry.
I always said to myself "that's easy to say if you ain't drowning in opportunities for pussy" Now that I got this, I wonder if it's a crisis of integrity or just my ego finding a clever way to cockblock me from executing the goals of the program?
I figure it's at least partially the latter.
RE: EP's DMSI Journal - samba99 - 11-05-2024
Are you getting any sexual dreams?
RE: EP's DMSI Journal - EvolvingPhoenix - 11-06-2024
(11-05-2024, 07:43 AM)samba99 Wrote: Are you getting any sexual dreams?
Not yet, I don't think. Why? Is that a sign of it working or not working or...?
RE: EP's DMSI Journal - EvolvingPhoenix - 11-10-2024
(11-06-2024, 05:09 AM)EvolvingPhoenix Wrote:(11-05-2024, 07:43 AM)samba99 Wrote: Are you getting any sexual dreams?
Not yet, I don't think. Why? Is that a sign of it working or not working or...?
At any rate, I'm not sure how well it's working lately.
That being said, there's stuff I'm doing on m end that isn't helping.
I occasionally masturbate and occasionally consume products that interfere with the energy stuff.
Mostly cuz I'm on vacay. I'll keep updating though when I can.
It's weird cuz like, I feel it, but I'm not seeing it affect a whole lot of women. In Utah, there aren't many attractive females. Even fewer who aren't taken.
Down er in FL though there's plenty of hot single chicks. Not seeing much (if any) real evidence of the sniper working though, tbh.
Prolly my fault, given the circumstances...
Guess I'll jus have to stop doing those bad habits and give it time. ?♂️
RE: EP's DMSI Journal - EvolvingPhoenix - 11-15-2024
The mixture of lust, suffering and realizations of how I feel and what I want and what's wrong with me internally that's blocking it... Ugh! This is fucking painful lately NGL.
Scorpio season and recent full moon have only exacerbated these issues.
Still, I am getting clearer about what I truly want. Not just sexually and romantically, but also out of life. What I want to become. How I want to feel about myself... Now the issue is to get whatever internal beliefs about myself are getting in the way of me achieving these. Same old shit in a sense, but... This time there's more of a deeper sense of things. It's not just what I want to receive/manifest. It's about who I want to become and how I want to feel. And believing I can do it and am worthy of it. The focus is starting to switch more onto my own state of being, rather than external factors I desire to reflect it and make me feel it. Starting to shift the focus from putting the cart before the horse to putting the horse before the cart for once. Still, there is A LOT of pain wrapped up in it. I got work in 8 minutes, but if I'm being honest enough to sound like a bitch here, real talk... I feel like I just wanna fuckin cry or pass out and go to sleep this pain off. Trying to resist the temptation to get high all day. That self medication is more self sabotage at this point, really. Ugh.
RE: EP's DMSI Journal - Frosted - 11-16-2024
You’re not alone man. This shit is painful and I’ve also just felt like crying and running away at times dealing with my issues on E6.
RE: EP's DMSI Journal - EvolvingPhoenix - 11-16-2024
(11-16-2024, 03:36 AM)Frosted Wrote: You’re not alone man. This shit is painful and I’ve also just felt like crying and running away at times dealing with my issues on E6.
Right on. You know what's strange? I woke up today feeling WAYY better and I can feel so much energy, despite being inefficient with my use of the program's Optimized State Shifting.
We'll see how it goes as night time falls. I feel that the full moon in Scorpio might be affecting things. Could be wrong though. Who knows?
RE: EP's DMSI Journal - Shannon - 11-16-2024
Respect for going through it instead of trying to escape.
RE: EP's DMSI Journal - EvolvingPhoenix - 11-17-2024
(11-16-2024, 09:22 PM)Shannon Wrote: Respect for going through it instead of trying to escape.
Well thanks Shannon.
I really DO want this to work. When I bought it, I figured "Hell, even if I don't start sniping baddies left and right, many people report INNER changes the program made for them and if those inner changes fully take effect and they stick, it'll probably have been worth my money." You know?
But don't get me wrong, I DO want to snipe baddies LOL
BTW could you explain further how these internal struggles affect the aura in more detail? Does the auric sniper not work at all because the energy's off? Or does it work, but then your internal problems cause you to behave in a self sabotaging manner and it's all just how you behave and perceive the situation? Just curious.
RE: EP's DMSI Journal - Shannon - 11-17-2024
(11-17-2024, 10:24 AM)EvolvingPhoenix Wrote:(11-16-2024, 09:22 PM)Shannon Wrote: Respect for going through it instead of trying to escape.
Well thanks Shannon.
I really DO want this to work. When I bought it, I figured "Hell, even if I don't start sniping baddies left and right, many people report INNER changes the program made for them and if those inner changes fully take effect and they stick, it'll probably have been worth my money." You know?
But don't get me wrong, I DO want to snipe baddies LOL
BTW could you explain further how these internal struggles affect the aura in more detail? Does the auric sniper not work at all because the energy's off? Or does it work, but then your internal problems cause you to behave in a self sabotaging manner and it's all just how you behave and perceive the situation? Just curious.
It's just a matter of having some parts attempting to cooperate, and others attempting to sabotage.
RE: EP's DMSI Journal - EvolvingPhoenix - 11-18-2024
So... the parts that attempt sabotage will affect your behaviour then, but the sniper will work so long as your behaviour does not sabotage it, am I correct? Just trying to clarify so I know what I'm working with here.
RE: EP's DMSI Journal - Shannon - 11-19-2024
(11-18-2024, 12:18 PM)EvolvingPhoenix Wrote: So... the parts that attempt sabotage will affect your behaviour then, but the sniper will work so long as your behaviour does not sabotage it, am I correct? Just trying to clarify so I know what I'm working with here.
Sabotage will be as effective as it can be for achieving it's goal, but the conditions will change over time. Over time, the program should work through the reasons for self sabotage, or at least override them. The sniper will work so long as the sabotage does not prevent that aspect of the script from being executed.
RE: EP's DMSI Journal - EvolvingPhoenix - 11-19-2024
(11-19-2024, 01:18 PM)Shannon Wrote:(11-18-2024, 12:18 PM)EvolvingPhoenix Wrote: So... the parts that attempt sabotage will affect your behaviour then, but the sniper will work so long as your behaviour does not sabotage it, am I correct? Just trying to clarify so I know what I'm working with here.
Sabotage will be as effective as it can be for achieving it's goal, but the conditions will change over time. Over time, the program should work through the reasons for self sabotage, or at least override them. The sniper will work so long as the sabotage does not prevent that aspect of the script from being executed.
Huh. Interesting. So it's not a predictable thing then, because each user is different and may self sabotage in different ways at different stages of the program, if they self sabotage, correct? Hmm...
Okay, thanks Shannon. When there's no good looking women around, but you're still wondering if the mechanism is working properly, is there a way to assess it? I guess it doesn't matter. My experiments with the remote sniper haven't shown any results. Can't be sure if it's the sniper itself not working, the possibility that remote sniping is just harder to do successfully or if the people I'm testing it on just aren't good test subjects.
Hey, let's say someone is somewhat well known and you haven't met them, but you wanna test the sniper on them by remotely sniping them, you go to an event where they're at, they see you, but show no signs of being affected, even when you're close enough you should be able to snipe them.
Is it a sign of the sniper not working right? Or is it cuz people like that have people sending them energy like that unconsciously all the time and it makes it harder to snipe them? You know, assuming they aren't taken or something like that, which is also very possible. I'm trying to test the possibilities of this program and I'm not sure what factors play how much of a role in it's success or failure, that's why I'm asking.
Also, I've been suspecting that the program (using energy to snipe) could be less effective if sniping multiple people at the same time than if you just focused on one. Am I correct that more focus on one person could make the sniping attempts more effective than trying it on multiple test subjects?